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Info dump because life is wild rn and it’s like…wow

So, some years ago my mom’s ex husband(separated for several years, no technical divorce yet but in the works) made “comments” to me. I told her not to worry about it because I didn’t want her marriage to fail, even though I was only 16/17 at the time. This happened again, same deal. But he’s a piece of shit person and we didn’t let it slide completely. They’ve been separated for several years, but because of rent and such, he’s been living on the house still, paying rent and such.

A few days ago I saw someone taking his dresser out of the house and a couple other drawers/cabinets. We deduced he was probably leaving. A day or two later, my mom asked if he was gone, because most of the shit in “his” room(the master bedroom because my mom slept on the couch due to travel previously and then just got stuck with it). He said yes. He has now screwed us financially bc he didn’t pay rent for august

But despite this, we’ll be able to pull through. And even though the finances will be weird…I’m honestly so glad he’s gone. Finally. After him being in my mom and i’s life for 10 years, we’re finally rid of him. I’m not sleeping literally across the hall from my trauma, from part of the reason I tried to commit suicide, from part of the reason I have weird sexual trauma/hangups. He’s finally gone and honestly I’m so glad. Like I’m crying I’m so happy. Again, it’s weird to feel happy when I know our money situation is gonna be rough but…finally. I can breathe in my own house and not be paranoid and worried and just…I can be.

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hi everyone. does anybody else miss something they can never return to. anyone else being swallowed whole by grief. anyone else clinging to love as a life preserver

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“but if you put an idea into AI it will give you some EXAMPLE WORDS and then you can use those to make your own writing!” that is called reading. they already invented it

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top this bottom that we should all be focusing on what’s really important. #DRYHUMPING

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I will once again never understand how Minrathous suffers so fucking bad.

Blighted Treviso is in better shape than Bligjted Minrathous and it’s crazy

Minrathous has an entire military, including but not limited to Templars, they have some of the most powerful mages in Thedas, at least 3 members Rook’s team, The Shadow Dragons, The Threads. They also have the Archon’s palace, which did its best against the demons, even if that wasn’t much bc they were never ending, but the dragon is a singular entity.

I’ve seen people say it’s because the Venatori and magisters being corrupt + the Antaam, but FUCK, dude, there’s no way it’s literally so terrible that no one is helping, that the city gets absolutely BODIED.

Like, Treviso is a merchant city with no army, a fuck ton of water to get infected, way more residential areas, and is just so fucking vulnerable already. Sure, they’ve got the Crows, but that’s NOTHING compared to everything that Minrathous has. And yet it doesn’t suffer as awfully as Minrathous does if you “abandon” them. Insane.

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Had the day off, drew a wizard :>

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God I’m playing Dragon Age: The Veilguard again and every time I do I think “surely I won’t cry during bellara opening up about her guilt and such” and every time I’m wrong.

She just like me fr 😭 she and I both carry around weight of family we lost and feel like it’s our fault. Obviously the circumstances are extremely different for both obvious and unobvious reasons, but the way she feels hits me so hard. And looking at it from Rook, telling her that it’s okay and that it wasn’t her fault and that sometimes things happen, I’m like ‘yeah bellara’ but then I remember my own trauma and loss and I’m like ‘well yeah, it DOES feel that way, how dare you try to minimize my feelings even though I know that what you’re saying is true’. Bellara says “My head knows that…but my heart doesn’t” and honestly I’ve felt that ever since I first heard it.

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My therapist (a fine and upstanding gentleman) suggested replacing negative thoughts with positive ones so I've been trying to train myself to replace "kill myself" with "go to outer space" in my internal monologue (dunno why I picked that phrase--it just fell out) and I think it's working but the thing is that it's had the unintended side effect of making me sound like an ambitious young protagonist in a sci fi book. Bad stuff happens and I'm like ". . . when are they gonna get me off this rock"

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no one wants to fuck you because you’re mean and strange

So?

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I feel like pirating media that isn’t sold or offered anywhere legally anymore shouldn’t be called piracy. Girl thats archaeology

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when i say i want to write a book what i mean is i want to have already written it so i can get interviewed at a barnes & noble in front of 27 of my biggest fans

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before twitter goes, here’s my favorite tweet of all time

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