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//venting

dude I can’t believe this 2 of these little monkeys already fell off the bed AND bumped their heads after I wagged my finger at them and told them, verbatim, “no more jumping on the bed” I even called the doctor and he told me the exact same thing they don’t listen to me when I fucking talk I hate this fucking place

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In my house we have two containers for cooking utensils. A spoon bucket and a spatula bucket.

Now look at this spaghetti fork thing:

No nuance will be tolerated. I’ve only got two buckets.

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Lmao cats are really just needy babies

I have found the solution to the cats stepping all over my laptop. Sort of. Turns out they just want some attention so if I see them coming I close my laptop quickly and they sit on top of the laptop. Then I massage their face and pick lint out of their fur for a bit and let them lick my hand and that usually satisfies them and they leave.

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I will yell at him for you if you give me his number? I hate your bf so much

Daily log

(early)

So today was a miserable mess of a day where I just stressed and paced and tried to nap etc etc. I didn't get much done. Well. Not good things anyway. Bf should be home soon ish and I'm embarrassed I got so little done. Idk. There is still time but I'm frozen and stuck and emotionally and physically worn out. I need a rest day but even today wasn't a rest day it was a Stress Day. Got rejected from the job I interviewed for when I thought the interview went great. So depressing. May not matter because of the news today of bf spending a month elsewhere training. Idk.

Right now looking for a cdrama to watch to calm and engage my brain for 45 mins. Maybe back to love o2o idk. Ughhhhhhh

Doing this early bc I don't want to think anymore. It sounds mean but I don't want bf to come home yet this time. I want to be alone and time be still.

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Your bf is going to kill you by pushing you further than whatevers neen happening in the last 10 years....

Daily log

(early)

So today was a miserable mess of a day where I just stressed and paced and tried to nap etc etc. I didn't get much done. Well. Not good things anyway. Bf should be home soon ish and I'm embarrassed I got so little done. Idk. There is still time but I'm frozen and stuck and emotionally and physically worn out. I need a rest day but even today wasn't a rest day it was a Stress Day. Got rejected from the job I interviewed for when I thought the interview went great. So depressing. May not matter because of the news today of bf spending a month elsewhere training. Idk.

Right now looking for a cdrama to watch to calm and engage my brain for 45 mins. Maybe back to love o2o idk. Ughhhhhhh

Doing this early bc I don't want to think anymore. It sounds mean but I don't want bf to come home yet this time. I want to be alone and time be still.

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Omg....the symbolism....

I have no vocabulary

found this pic and wanna redraw

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How many religious people and 9-5 people are autistic?

Both lifestyles can suit them if routine and rigid thinking are aligned with their religion or work tasks???

I dont know how to communicate this thought fully. Some people just are consistent in their living and try to fit everyone else into that ideal is kinda autistic?

Theres probably an existing study about it...

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Have you tried being purposefully clumsy? Accidentally banging into stuff...getiing into fights, falliing on a really sharp rock perhaps?

I NEED A CIG OR VAPE I DONT CAREEE WHICH

I can’t cut or starve until camp is over I’m gonna kms I need a way to harm myself that can’t be seen

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Im so happy with this

Only took a year to get around to lol

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Im having so much fun setting up my vtuber stuff><

I cant wait to start again....I want to play older games and do art/music

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Please! Motivation!

Awwaaaa

I want to clesn and set up more vtubing things

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@isuggestforcefem

Forced intox….. forced hypnosis…. forced regression…. any sort of forced alteration of the senses, the state of mind….. grrraaa

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Hehhee im so high and happiii

Girlfrw and i are watching kwiwtapes

Lolcow commentator

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II LOVE MY GF

shes sooo cute and aawaaa

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I think a big skill for the city is communication and information finding.

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?????

So shes implying that

A) You're a bad person for making a mess and leaving it? You are her kid! as a parent. She shouldn't be complaining to you like that. That's so inappropriate

Like, are all depressed, adhd people who foget to clean sometimes, and like normal people who think to clean up later are nazi zionists now?????

I hope she knows almost all of my scars are her fault.

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Is it possible you have symptoms of autism and or ocd depending on circumstances and further research

You know yourself best, take care<3

i yap too much for jiraiblr but when i said i don’t like change i don’t i hate change bc the only comfort i’m allowed is consistency, a show airing, my clothes sitting in a certain place, what i eat on certain days, surprises make me so so fucking anxious. i can only drink out a certain type of glass and my crusty pink water bottle otherwise i just can’t.

this is often why i can never read or consume media like my peers do i am unable to start something new bc new means different and difference is change and i cant handle it at all. i dont like new things and when i do get into something i latch onto it like a parasite and never let go, i still love a lot of the things i liked as a kid bc i cant let things go same w people i get along but when i love i love so deeply as if this person is just an extension of myself like i trust them w a peace of my soul and its not that i have trust issues i am just so indifferent and detached

idk sorry for the yap