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Missing my fur frot.

I wonder if I start mass uploading the furry art I've saved over the years if I'll get banned. I'll start tonight if I get a response or 2. -_^

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When suicide seems to be the only option.

So I've been struggling with keeping my husband and I afloat since his heart attacks and so far Colorado has done everything in their power to make sure we're unwelcomed here. From allowing an assault on my mother to making us PREPAY for electricity because we weren't raking up a high enough bill to placate the Co-op we're in. We had our car repossessed, electricity shut off with no warnings, our property STOLEN by the county, and wage garnishments that have no intention of ever ending. Even after a court order to stop has been issued, the state is STILL taking money from us. We can no longer even afford to LIVE anymore. What are my options? Go homeless and be arrested for being homeless? Rob a bank so I can get us financially stable again and spend the rest of my life in jail where I'm not a bother to anyone else anymore, or just die somewhere in a corner like I'm being forced to. I'll never understand why being poor is such a damn crime in this country, but if you're rich from a rich family, you get loans, can commit any crime, and be praised for being such a success even if you're a child molester or rapist. But be someone decent and they will do everything in their power to show you that's not welcome in this fucked up country.

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I'm happy again. Got a new controller for my PS4. Now to get my computer fixed then my gaming center will be complete again.

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Ruined marriage

Well my neighbor succeeded in causing my divorce. She got away with assaulting my mom, breaking her windshield, and causing absolute hell over the past 6 months and we get threatened with going to jail instead because we have proof against her "godly" word. I'm so fucking done. I acknowledge now I'm totally undeserving of any type of happiness or love. Once it's finalized I'm going back to being alone for the rest of my life. This pain is SO not fucking worth it.

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Life of lies

So I'm incredibly disturbed to learn a few things from a family member I've never been allowed to talk to. I've been lied to my entire life. I used to share a pain with my mom that helped us bond, we were both raped and molested, or at least that's what I was led to believe. Come to find out, that never happened to my mom. Just me. She decided the best way to cope was to come up with her own one up story. I was raped and touched by her boyfriend, she had an adoptive father. I've been sick over this all night. Munchousen syndrome anyone?

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Had to post another picture of my blue beauty. She caught my attention this morning and wanted some love.

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New short!

So I posted up a new short on my profile on sofurry. So far it's being well received! Head over and see it or pm me for an emailed version!

https://www.sofurry.com/view/1444382

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You bet!

Share if you like zoosex

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Update on life.

Hey hey to everyone who follows me here. Things have been rough here lately so I've been unable to work on any art or any projects for a bit. My husband is dying because we can't afford his insulin anymore so I'm having to not only deal with this, where I live here in Boulder County, they've modified and changed our property line without our concent or knowledge and reduced us to 1 acre of unusable land while our house is now not only completely surrounded by park space, they've encroached it into our house placing half of our house now on open park land. I've tried everything to fix this problem but alas, without money to grease palms we suffer. So my next post may be about the death of my husband or the loss of my house but HEY! It's the American way. If you aren't a millionaire then you're cannon fodder for the wealthy.

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Hope I get the wolfy over the money!

Furries reblog the fat money knot for friendly werewolf encounters and wealth

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A side image of the aquamarine ring to show off the windowing and silver beading I did.

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My 4 latest pieces. Flourite, goldstone, white tourmaline with black tourmaline inclusions, and another labradorite.

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So I'm going to show off what I've been up to for the past few years besides making more smexy pron. I'm a somewhat professional lapidary and crystal sculptures such as orbs and reiki tobacco pipes. Let me know if you guys like. I'll post up more. The rings are also my creations. The reddish one is garnet set in Sterling silver and molded in Edwardian filigree, the second is an aquamarine set in a Victorian box setting with cathedral windowing under the stone.

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Reblog to show your support for NSFW Artists, who deserve better than having their art censored/removed because of a badly thoughtout idea

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New hope ahead?

Well sorry for incredibly long time since I've posted anything. I've been working on a few projects that may or may not pan out. One is a brand new animation program I've been using to create more art. Nothing with posting yet but I'm getting there. Second thing is I've been talking with an absolutely amazing man that will hopefully make my leaving here a lot easier. I've been fighting to keep my marriage together now for 2 years since my husbands heart attack but he's changed so much I'm now fearful of him and can no longer make him happy. Our marriage turning into one of love to one of convenience. I'm free labor for him and although I'm disabled and constantly in pain, I should STILL serve him and if I have objections or I just can't get out of bed due to pain I'm a worthless piece of shit. I know a good marriage takes work but when you're pups are shown more love that you, you'll understand what it's like to hurt. And I wouldn't wish this life on anyone I hate.

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Bumping this because no one is safe from shadow banning.

Censored on tumblr

What all ask boxes look like for me (submission boxes look exactly the same):

Left: what happens when I try to open dms (New Message does nothing); I can’t even read them. Right: when I try to go to someone’s dms from their blog.

Neither new things I post nor old things I post show up in the tags they’re in, even if they were before.

I can type things into replies, but it won’t actually post them.

Since it doesn’t seem this one has been encountered by many people yet, maybe reblog this so people know about it. I’m probably getting deleted though

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Boy isn't this the truth

me after the snk chap 112 spoilers: