rcrystelle

[rcrystelle]

Another Lifetime

Big Eyes, Crooked legs, Beautiful Caramel Sauce Skin, A gentle delicate texture heart. I wish upon a shooting star that I was enough for you. Hidden by the concrete walls surrounding my castle, For the longest time I stared at you from a distance. This perfect imperfect soul, Golden brown honey skin with thick black eyebrows, I lost my soul in through the dark brown glassed eyes. Maybe…

[rcrystelle]

Untitled Poem

I pushed myself in the back burner again,Think I started to talking to anxiety and depression,But it wasn’t exactly the same.Solo dates were no longer a priority for me,Instead I became superwoman with the invisible cape.I settled more the little that I got,Learned to rescue myself from the black whole.I’m scared of what will happen next?I lost my voice again,Struggling to speak and choose to go…

[rcrystelle]

I Fear My Poetry Has Lost Its Flavour

My deepest fear is that my mind will stop functioning,I’m scared my love for blank white sheets and the smell will dry up like a tree that has tasted water in the soil for a long time,My ideas will turn into brown leaves like fallen leaves during the autumn season.I’m afraid that my poetry will no longer touch a cord like a musical note.During a phase of writer’s block,I’m scared that I might…

[rcrystelle]

Untitled Poem

Your departure is quite unexpected, Coming back from work, My eyes caught the attention of black suitcase in the doorway. We locked eyes for a second, No one says anything, Hello is locked in my mouth, But my voice doesn’t make a sound. My heart begins cracking like a glass that was accidentally thrown in the sink. Mind begins to wonder how I got here, Recalling the day when I lost the…

[rcrystelle]

The Next Time Love Locates Me.

The next time loves decides to look for me once again, I pray that it finds me in a better place mentally, Where I am not relying on partner to make me feel good about myself. I pray that by the time it searches me that I have better relationship with myself, I would appreciate myself more than ever did before. I hope that next time he would not shut me down like I’m disclosing a whole lot of…

[rcrystelle]

Born to be a poet

I wish I had the voice to speak,Watching you take the stage,Spotlight is on you right now.Divulging confidence as a masterpiece of art on show in museum,I watched you command attention of thousands of people.Eyes closed tightly,I begin to imagine myself in a room full of people,Expressing my darkest thoughts like an art show on centre stage,Revealing dark thoughts,Witnessing the girl with tired…

[rcrystelle]

The Ultimate Scam Artist

There is the old saying that says adulting is scam,And I agree with that statement ever so loud and clear.In a society where it has become so hard to survive,It feels like World War III,Our parents send us to the best schools to receive the best education,As the sun rises so do we ensuring that we participate in class as often,Trying to get the best results so we can get to varsity.I pray that my…

[rcrystelle]

Title:No More Love To Give

I loved you ever since high school,During my pre-teens,The days of when anxiety and depression were my best friends hidden in the closet.Baggie Jeans and T-shirt became my favorite clothing,If I had admitted how I feel,You would probably brush me off like dirt left on your shoulder.Depicting a image of what kind of person you are,I walked passed and I witnessed you smile,Heart doing…

[rcrystelle]

Never Loved A Poet Before

I wish I knew never what it felt like to seen,For someone to acknowledge your flaws and still look at you like the best thing that ever happened.Revealing the ugly parts of you and still choosing to love you.I wish I knew never what it felt like for someone to stare into my beautiful eyes,Stare into your soul and not just acknowledge the surface parts about you.I have been walking around with…

[rcrystelle]

Unreleased Thoughts...

I saw you from my bedroom window, And I stared at the beautiful view from the back. Some people would say there is nothing to see, But I just saw everything with just one glance. A Grey t-shirt with Maroon shorts and black cap to hide your beautiful face. Hold up people there’s nothing to see, But I saw everything with just one glance. I laid my eyes on you and everything came rushing back, Like…

[rcrystelle]

Heart Prisoner

I think that I might go to jail, I might spend time away from you and the world for while. Remain completely locked within the four concrete walls, Watching sands moving through the hourglass, Missing all the birthday, weddings and funerals of my loved ones. If caring for you was drug then clearly I am addict, I am addicted to putting you and everyone first, You are number one, And I am…

[rcrystelle]

Raising Little Boys To Be Good Men.

I pray for future generation of man, I hope you raise them to be good men, A gentleman who treats a lady with respect, Take consent into consideration. Understand that no means no for a reason. I pray that he knows how to court a lady, Ask her out on a date, Treat her like a queen. Says, no let me open the door for you, Let me get your chair for you, Dear God, Does chivalry still exists amongst…

[rcrystelle]

2 am thoughts of regrets

At what point does having a good heart become a crime, That moment when you stop going out of your way for people, Above and beyond, Never in between, Footsteps hitting hard against the wooden tiles, You can actually hear me coming. Handing you a box of good intentions, Reassuring your partners Anxiety and Depression that everything is okay. At what point does having a good heart become a…

[rcrystelle]

Unexpected Farewell

I fucked up, Curtains completely closed, Cellphone on airplane mode, I wish the ground would swallow me that I never see the sun rise again. Words replaying in my head like my favorite song on repeat, Mind cramping every single word like an instruction that I should never forget. I wish I never said yes, I wish I never sacrificed the only good connection left in my life. You are 10 and I’m a 5…

[rcrystelle]

Untitled Poem...

I wish I wasn’t exactly weird, I wish I was not awkward, Would you be interested in being mine?? Sacrificing the only connection that we have, Do you want to be my forever and always?? Stroking your beautiful golden brown skin, Eyes Like Staring at into a blank white canvas. Distant and uncomfortable, Stranger says is there something wrong? I respond “No, I am just basking in your aura, Getting…

[rcrystelle]

Imperfect Fucked Up

I had a love once upon a time who I thought would be my forever and always, Thinking that my first would most likely be my last, My one and only, Forever and always, Ride or die till the end of time, I mean who thinks like that in this day and age. Unexpected falling out, As silence filled the room, Pulling away like a stretched elastic band, I felt the tension and reached out, Unexpectedly being…

[rcrystelle]

Pretty Little Fears...

A beautiful blank caramel canvas, With physical flaws in the middle. I hang on the wall hoping to get someone’s attention. Crooked lines and different errors, Painter tries to salvage the beauty that resides from within, Hearing the heart machine hitting those flat lines, Unfortunately I cannot sent back due to the no return policy, So I hang there on this blank white walls, Standing out like a…