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anyway, i'm about to head off to dinner, but maybe like this post and i'll give you a tarot-based starter! if you'd like, i'll even list my decks below and you can request one of them for me to pull from for your starter.

classic rider-waite

craft cards (very rider-waite based but w/ different and updated art)

wyspell (rider-waite color variation)

phantasma (dreamy/surreal)

disney villains

darkwood (dark fantasy)

yokai

baroque

crow

tempest (nautical/sailor)

ethereal visions (art deco)

anime

medieval feathers

tarot of the divine (fairytale/global myths)

mystical manga

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*:･ﾟ✧ 𝐑𝐔𝐍, 𝐋𝐔𝐂𝐈𝐅𝐄𝐑. 𝘢 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘭𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘵𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝟤𝟢𝟣𝟧 𝘢𝘭𝘣𝘶𝘮 𝘣𝘺 𝘢𝘥𝘯𝘢. 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘧𝘳𝘦𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘶𝘱 𝘱𝘩𝘳𝘢𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘪𝘯-𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘪𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘢𝘴 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘦𝘥.

' meet me where heaven marries the ocean. ' ' i know i won't ever be yours. ' ' i think of us as birds. ' ' i need to get out of my own head. ' ' new thoughts , new feelings , a whole new life. ' ' a whole new life. i never wanted this one. ' ' i never wanted this thing called living. ' ' how it multiplies in my veins and in my blood ... ' ' i'd like to be your beautiful hell. ' ' never alone , but always lonesome. ' ' there's blood falling from my eyes , blood is falling from my eyes. ' ' all the worst things in life come for free. ' ' we think we want to disappear , when all we really want is to be found. ' ' teach me how to become your truth. ' ' i tell you that you're keeping me alive. ' ' save me from the shame that fills my chest. ' ' save me by leaving my heart to rest. ' ' once it's broken it will never heal. ' ' i no longer feel , i only dream. ' ' in dreams you'd always get so close , but oh so far away. ' ' this body will fall , i'll be dragging it through rain. ' ' those broken minds wanting nothing but light. ' ' i'd like to move into your chest , carry myself behind your ribs. ' ' would you meet me tonight if i'd ask you? ' ' don't say yes just to be kind. ' ' no more winter inside our chests. ' ' is it okay if i say that i miss you not a little bit? ' ' because it's in my own head doesn't mean that it's not real. ' ' i'd like to grow old with you just to say that we made it. ' ' i'd make it shiver in your bones. ' ' i'd make it shiver inside your heart. ' ' thinking about our loneliness as well as our togetherness. ' ' i'd rather die as us than you and i. ' ' i want to grab your heart out , hold it in front of your face. '

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@enoqian liked for a tarot-based starter! card drawn - the page of swords. d&d / high fantasy verse.

"Forgive me if I'm being presumptuous, but I have a good feeling about this venture. Possible reward aside, there's a lot I think I could learn from you."

There aren't a lot of chances to be in polite company—not for Hakkai, nor does he presume for the woman accompanying him. The sorts of people willing to venture in to such dangerous tombs of old knowledge aren't generally the sorts of people who like to mingle among others, though Hakkai's general politeness only makes him a slight outlier. He is, after all, a unique sort of beast; not many tend to stick around long enough to experience time in his company.

Not that he blames them. He knows, to most, he must seem a truly wretched sight.

"You mentioned your aptitude in the way of healing," Hakkai elaborates. "Truthfully, I've been trying to learn more about those sorts of practices myself. Ah… Though, ideally, I won't be seeing your magic too closely."

Naturally, one never really knows what they'll find in ancient places; Hakkai knows as little about their destination as the person who'd set the contract pointing in its direction. There very well could be something or someone lurking in the shadows, closely guarding some ancient secret the rest of the world has long forgotten.

There are more ghost stories than reliable accounts about places like those—but that's what makes them interesting.

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KICKING THE DOOR IN. i don't remember if i sent you one of these or not. so i'm sending another one. HI HELLO we haven't really written together yet (i am eyeing the starter you sent me though i PROMISE i haven't forgotten our guys) but i love seeing you on my dash! i don't really have much of a head for everything to do with hakkai but i really admire the attention to detail you've put into him, you put so much appreciation into hakkai that it made me unable to resisttt!!!

!!!!!!!

( anonymously tell me your opinion of me. i can't reply, just publish. )

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ANONYMOUSLY TELL ME YOUR HONEST OPINION ABOUT ME. I CAN’T REPLY/COMMENT, JUST PUBLISH.

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anyway, i'm about to head off to dinner, but maybe like this post and i'll give you a tarot-based starter! if you'd like, i'll even list my decks below and you can request one of them for me to pull from for your starter.

classic rider-waite

craft cards (very rider-waite based but w/ different and updated art)

wyspell (rider-waite color variation)

phantasma (dreamy/surreal)

disney villains

darkwood (dark fantasy)

yokai

baroque

crow

tempest (nautical/sailor)

ethereal visions (art deco)

anime

medieval feathers

tarot of the divine (fairytale/global myths)

mystical manga

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💌 Have you ever hit it off with a mun right away? What were they like? How fast do you think it takes to warm up to new people?

aahhh !! well, it's happened once or twice. i actually think i was fairly quick to hit it off with my current friends, but even then it took around a month for us to even talk and longer than that for us to talk as much as we do now ... anyway, those people were nice, and very similar to me in terms of what they wanted out of roleplay. one of them is my sanzo who's abandoned tumblr, hahaha ~

i don't actually hit it off with other muns very often. i struggle a lot socially, so i find it hard to message people. i've had some really bad past experiences in various different communities, so that sort of thing honestly scares me a little ... ? basically i'm worried i'm being pushy or annoying. i've had a LOT of people block me in the past after we started chatting. i've tried to do things through rpc servers throughout my time roleplaying, but lately i haven't been in any big fandoms either so i've veered away from those unless i get invited, but i don't really have any fandom-based friends either so that doesn't happen often.

anyway, i actually tend to have good impressions of people fairly quickly. there are a lot of mutuals i have now, whether i speak with them or not, that i really admire and would like to be on better terms with, if only for the sake of plotting. but i'm never sure how to tell if others find me annoying, so i'm not the most comfortable when it comes to talking to my roleplay partners and sending the first messages. i'm only just learning how to message people from a plotting perspective and send unprompted asks.

src. / accepting.

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a while ago, i mentioned i was working on a self-indulgent sanzo/hakkai pwp fic. i'm honestly not the best at writing this sort of stuff so it's kind of boring, but you can read it here if you like!

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clown in a cornfield sentence starters

fuck, it's like we're in some awful '80s slasher horror movie!

i think we're past the point of pleasantries.

it never mattered what i wanted, because you fucking ran away.

please don't do this to me right now.

we're gonna die.

i was about to assault an officer.

be careful who you hang out with. there's some real weirdos around here.

you got corn syrup all over my new top!

affluenza's a bitch.

this was a trap. we gotta get out of here.

you know i love blowing shit up.

this is the best damn job i've ever had.

you couldn't have stolen anything better than this?

i actually just realized i'm not that hungry.

this time, you don't fall for it.

thank god you're okay.

you need to calm down, okay? look at me. breathe.

welcome to the club.

the world's going to change whether you like it or not.

i'm not going back in there.

i don't even know how to drive stick.

where were you?

it's nobody's fault. sometimes things just happen.

i swear i just heard someone laughing. there shouldn't be anyone here.

where are you from?

you're a big talker. i like it.

do you bring a loaded shotgun to every party?

you'd rather kill us than just listen!

you've got work to do.

why can't you just admit who you are for once in your fucking life?

those clowns hate us.

maybe we should slow down a bit.

don't roofie my drink when i'm gone.

it was magical. i'm in love.

nice touch with the plastic sheeting.

____ rejects everybody.

i'm gonna kill you!

it's a 16-inch collapsible self defense baton. just like i always wanted.

did i say you could talk?

whose car is this, by the way?

make new friends.

i don't want to run anymore. i just want to be okay!

no, yeah, it's fine. he just shot me once, but it was on the spleen side.

what fucking size shoe do you have?

please just let me go.

hey, uhh, is everything all right?

i'm just doing what my daddy did before me and his daddy did before him. tradition.

my sister died last summer.

i can't believe she fell for that!

i mean, i'm not going to put in all the gory details and stuff, but, you know… i'll put a lot of it.

this is not a joke.

the truth is going to come out eventually.

we ran away, because i guess that's what we do now. we just run away when things get hard or scary or fucked up.

i don't want to run anymore.

this is, like, the only place in town.

we never had anything!

your generation, with your… your fucking preening and your goddamn cat videos!

you cannot run away without telling me where you're going.

i lost track of time.

i asked you, and you said that you'd be willing to go if it's what i needed.

people don't know what they're missing.

fuck the hippocratic oath!

i can't do it! i can't!

there's no cell service.

where's the button? what the fuck kind of phone is this?

see? that’s— this is exactly what i was saying.

what, you think someone set you up?

we can't stay here.

who did this?

you're tough as nails, ____.

that is what i wanted to show you.

can you stop being so fucking stupid?

where do you think you're going?

there's a massacre going on! there's a bunch of dead people back there!

let's get this show on the road.

oh, you like slow kisses?

i have so much shit going on inside of me right now, and sometimes i… i just don't know what to do with all of it.

why are you doing this?

we were attacked by clowns!

see, that's the problem with your generation.

i'm sorry, i didn't know.

well, tonight was totally unexpected.

you think he gives a shit about what's legal?

don't let me die.

let's not subscribe to some backwards-ass belief of what this place used to be.

you're fucking sick, you know that?

so what do i got to do to see some of these dance moves?

i gotta work in the morning.

did you get a little owwie?

____ and i used to go hunting together.

i've got a thing for old ladies.

were you really going to leave without saying goodbye?

i'm still trying to figure out what i did.

hop on my shoulders.

i'm drawing the line, okay? i'm drawing the line right here!

the clowns trying to kill us… that kind of sucks.

is ____ dead?

there's no camera, you idiot!

you've got to start taking some responsibility.

what choice do we have?

promise me we'll learn to talk things through a bit better.

you are totally safe here, okay?

i can't find her pulse. she's fucking dead.

you must be counting the days til you can get out of here.

did you just hear that?

if we get arrested again—

did you tell ____ you used to practice your boy-band dance moves in the mirror?

do you promise?

i gotta go piss.

have a pleasant rest of your night.

i guess i'm not doing any good for stereotypes.

hurry it up. this is taking too long.

oh god, is it bad? is it bad? i can't look.

there's no way out.

sorry about breakfast… i'll get groceries after work.

i love you, too.

see? you always second-guess.

sorry, didn't mean to scare ya.

the hunting and fishing's good, if you like that sort of thing. ducks are in season.

i was looking for you.

this is pretty pathetic.

shots?

aww, did you die?

you smell like burnt flesh.

my dad got put in witness protection program, so we're just laying low for a little while.

don't worry, i'm totally okay to drive. i had two drinks in four hours.

we're safe for now.

it's too big a coincidence.

who the hell is responsible for this?

fucking teenagers!

open the door.

i take it back. you're not as dumb as i thought.

you're just not good at dancing.

it was supposed to be like a bonding thing.

i just don't really care what other people think.

trust me.

what you needed. it never actually mattered what i wanted.

you don't want to know.

you do realize that the '80s are as far away from me as the '40s were to you, right? do the math.

we're fully trespassing.

my dad is actually going to kill me.

you gotta get up.

you're going down. no matter what.

stay away from old people.

he's not a liar.

such a confusing fucking night…

he took everything from me! everything that i cared about!

if you can't have things the way that you want them, you'd rather burn it all to the fucking ground!

it's only a matter of time.

we're all gonna be headless teenagers without heads!

you're insane. you're an insane person!

___ and ___ used to be friends.

i said i didn't want to go.

i'm okay, right?

watch your language.

can you please try and be a little bit more respectful?

what the fu—

you owe me a new outfit after this.

you really think you're going to be able to get away with this?

wow, you're on fire today, ____.

please tell me that isn't the fucking police.

i'd tell you to come join us, but it looks like you gotta go beat your meat.

i'm so sorry. i'm so sorry!

you kids are spoiled rotten. back when i was in school, we had it a lot tougher than you do.

seventeen years old and i've already hit rock bottom.

he's actually a really good guy.

i hope you don't have to use it, but… just in case.

shut up, it's gonna be hilarious.

listen, i just wanted to say that i know how hard this must be for you, and i can't imagine what you're going through…

thank you, that's some good advice.

a blighted crop is what you are! that needs to be culled!

surprise.

they're really big on tradition around here.

why is it only us?

no, no. it's way too late for that.

never prank the prankster!

there's fucking clowns everywhere.

he's, um… a little off.

did you seriously just ring the doorbell?

i love you so much.

arrest me too!

so, it's just you and ____ here?

that is so sad. sucks to die so young.

oh, look, it's ____ and his shiny new plaything.

don't worry, i'll make it quick.

change of plans.

you asleep already?

he can't actually hold us here without charging us, right? this feels illegal.

of course it matters. that's why i asked you in the first place.

you've been drinking.

why is everyone so fucking mean?

i'm not your fucking sweetheart.

it's all going wrong!

you probably already put it on the internet.

don't look. keep going.

you tell people what they want to believe, and you can get away with murder.

it's real. i swear to god.

good luck with that.

i know this looks bad, but this isn't mine.

let's hope this works.

you're so worried about what's wrong with the kids, when you guys are the ones that fucked everything up!

brought you something. a gift.

god, look at these prices.

please don't.

thanks for listening to all my shit.

smile! you're about to become a youtube sensation.

how can you say that?

you figure that out and get back to me.

i got this. watch and learn.

okay but realistically, everyone drinks in high school.

you know, i never thought i'd say this, but i'm glad you're such a fucking redneck.

i feel so fucking stupid.

i'll see you in hell.

are you good?

you don't understand.

look at this place. it looks like a home makeover dream come true.

you want me to do it?

you get rejected yet?

you just pretend to care!

i can't believe this is actually happening.

when your dad wants to teach you to drive stick, you fucking say yes!

my fucking face hurts.

look, all i'm saying is don't challenge me to a dance-off.

did anybody call 911?

i don't really eat anything with a face.

sorry about tonight.

you're gonna bleed out.

what is so funny?

i tried to warn you, but you didn't listen.

i just want to be okay!

you threw away everything we had, for what?

i can't believe how grown-up you are.

you shouldn't have done that.

i'm seventeen years old. i don't need a ride, i need a car.

uhhhh, i'm sorry, am i interrupting something?

put the gun down.

so, what comes next, then?

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Mun Communication Preferences based meme

🏠 Do you prefer to RP within just one fandom, or more? Which verses of yours are more, or less compatible with others? 🗺️ How open are you to meeting new people? Do you like your muses being mentioned IC? To just anyone, or only fandoms/friends that you know? 🪀 How do OOC posts make you feel? Do they affect your IC writing or flow, to know other muns better? 🐣 Is there anything you're new at, just now learning, or practicing when it comes to RP? 💡Do you get ideas from reading meta/headcanons/bios, or do those only pop up as you write? 💌 Have you ever hit it off with a mun right away? What were they like? How fast do you think it takes to warm up to new people? 💋 Are you silly ooc? Casual? Chatty? Do you prefer or enjoy things like small talk, when not rping? 🩵 Do you have any apparent flaws when it comes to RPing/interacting? Be gentle with yourself! 👾 Is knowing a fandom more comfortable when RPing, or do you prefer knowing muns? (Overall.) Do you try new things, or get into new fandoms? ✨ Are you easily intimidated by muns or muses that you admire? ❤️ How does the love in your heart affect how you RP? Any other notable emotions? 🪽 In what way is tumblr better than real life for you? Different from your personal dash, if you have one? 🧤 Name the last need that you Had to take care of before rping!! Anything that made you leave dash, or before turning on the computer, etc.! 🟢 Do You like to tell people when you're online? Why or Why not? 🪪 What's consistent between RP life and not? Anything about you bleed into your writing? 🔦 Connect the dots between you and your muse. Ways that you're the same, different, last time you thought about them, etc. 🎀 What's the last nice thing you saw pertaining to rp?

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# MAKESLEGEND : an independent & mutuals only singlemuse blog for a fandomless oc known as mark langhorne. exploring what it means to be a storyteller, but never the story told.

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THREE CHEERS FOR SWEET REVENGE : SENTENCE STARTERS

Lyrics taken from the My Chemical Romance album. Alter as needed!

HELENA.

"Just like the hearse, you die to get in again."

"Just like a match you strike to incinerate the lives of everyone you know."

"What's the worst to take from every heart you break?"

"Like the blade, you stain."

"What's the worst that I could say?"

"Things are better if I stay."

"So long and goodnight."

"Came a time when every star fall brought you to tears again."

"We are the very hurt you sold."

"Can you hear me? Are you near me?"

"We'll meet again when both our cars collide."

GIVE 'EM HELL, KID.

"The devil knows where you live, and the devil knows where to find me."

"This is how we like to do it in the murder scene."

"Can we settle up the score?"

"If you were here, I'd never have a fear."

"I miss you more than I did yesterday."

"You're so far away."

"I mean this more than words could ever say."

"We never wanted it to be this way for all our lives."

"Do you care at all?"

"Well, there's no way I'm kissing that guy."

"Come on, come on, fucker!"

TO THE END.

"He calls the mansion not a house, but a tomb."

"Send my resignation to the bride and the groom."

"He's not around, he's always lookin' at men."

"He doesn't have many friends."

"If you marry me, would you bury me?"

"Would you carry me to the end?"

"Say goodbye to the vows you take."

"Say goodbye to the life you make."

"Say goodbye to the hearts you break."

YOU KNOW WHAT THEY DO TO GUYS LIKE US IN PRISON.

"Come with your arms raised high!"

"They're never gonna get me."

"Wage this war against your faith in me."

"Your life will never be the same."

"Too much, too late, or just not enough of this pain in my heart from your dying wish."

"They all cheat at cards, and the checkers are lost."

"Nobody cares if you're losing yourself."

"Am I losing myself?"

"Will they give me the chair? Or lethal injection, or swing from a rope?"

"Nobody knows all the trouble I've seen."

"I don't remember. Why remember you?"

"I'm gonna string this motherfucker on fire."

"Life is but a dream for the dead."

"I won't go down by myself, but I'll go down with my friends."

I'M NOT OKAY (I PROMISE).

"Well, if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say."

"I never want to let you down."

"It's better off this way."

"I'm not okay!"

"You wear me out."

"What will it take yo show you that it's not the life it seems?"

"You sing the words, but don't know what it means."

"You don't know what it means to be a joke."

"For the last time, take a good hard look!"

"Forget about the dirty looks."

"You said you'd read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed now."

"I'm okay... I'm okay!"

"You really need to listen to me, because I'm telling you the truth, I mean this- I'm okay! Trust me."

"Well, I'm not o-fucking-kay!"

THE GHOST OF YOU.

"I never said I'd lie and wait forever."

"If I died, we'd be together."

"I can't always just forget her."

"You are never coming home."

"All the things that you never ever told me..."

"Ever get the feeling that you're never all alone?"

"In my arms, she dies."

"For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me..."

"Could I? Should I?"

THE JETSET LIFE IS GONNA KILL YOU.

"I'm just the worst kind of guy to argue with."

"For the last night that I lie, could I lie with you?"

"It's just the hardest part of living."

"She wants it all to come down this time."

"I'm lost in the prescription."

"She's got something else in mind."

"Oh, sugar, slip into the tragedy."

"I'd like to learn your name."

"Pull the plug."

THANK YOU FOR THE VENOM.

"I'm not much a poet, but a criminal."

"You never had a chance."

"Love it or leave it, you can't understand."

"I wouldn't front the scene if you paid me."

"I'm just the way that the doctor made me."

"What's life like bleeding on the floor?"

"You'll never make me leave."

"I'll wear this on my sleeve."

"Give me a reason to believe."

"Give me all your poison, and give me all your pills."

"Give me all your hopeless hearts and make me ill."

"You're running after something that you'll never kill."

"If this is what you want, then fire at will."

"Preach all you want, but who's gonna save me?"

"Hallelujah, lock and load."

"You wanna follow something? Give me a better cause to lead!"

"Just give me what I need."

HANG 'EM HIGH.

"Wait until it fades to black."

"Would I lie to you?"

"Would I die for you?"

"Well, here's your answer in spades."

"After all is said and done, climb out from the pine box."

"Well, I'm asking you, 'cause she's got nothing to say."

"The angels just cut out her tongue."

"That girl's not right in the brain."

"Don't stop if I fall, and don't look back."

"Don't stop, bury me, and fade to black."

"Go get your gun and meet me by the door."

IT'S NOT A FASHION STATEMENT, IT'S A DEATHWISH.

"You get what everyone else gets, you get a lifetime."

"Do you remember that day when we met?"

"You told me this gets harder- well, it did."

"Promise me that when you're gone, you'll kill my enemies."

"The damage that you've inflicted- temporary wounds."

"I'm coming back from the dead."

"I'll take you home with me."

"I'm taking back the life you stole."

"This helps me to think all through the night."

"Would you kill me in my sleep?"

"We could lose ourselves."

"I will avenge my ghost with every breath I take."

"This hole you put me in wasn't deep enough."

"You're running out of places to hide from me."

"When you go, just know that I will remember you."

"In the end, we'll fall apart."

"I will be with you."

CEMETERY DRIVE.

"They found you on the bathroom floor."

"I miss you so far."

"It isn't that much fun, staring down a loaded gun."

"I won't stop dying, won't stop lying."

"If you want, I'll keep on crying."

"Did you get what you deserve?"

"Is this what you always want me for?"

I NEVER TOLD YOU WHAT I DO FOR A LIVING.

"You can say a prayer if you need to."

"Just get in line, and I'll grieve you."

"Can I meet you alone?"

"Another night, and I'll see you."

"Another night, and I'll be you."

"Clean me off, I'm so dirty, babe."

"I keep a book of the names, and those only go so far 'til you bury them."

"Another knife in my hands, a stain that never comes off the sheets."

"It ain't the money, and it sure as hell ain't just for the fame."

"We'll all dance along to the tune of your death."

"We'll love again, we'll laugh again."

"We're all dead now."

"I can't clean the blood off the sheets in my bed."

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a while ago, i mentioned i was working on a self-indulgent sanzo/hakkai pwp fic. i'm honestly not the best at writing this sort of stuff so it's kind of boring, but you can read it here if you like!

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i have so many mutuals that have been here since my first go at writing hakkai that i've just never interacted with but somehow i feel like it's too late to start ... like, in my brain, i don't want to unfollow because i actually love all those mutuals. but it's such an awkward place to be in, hahaha.

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i worry about this sort of thing a lot, actually, so, um ... well, could you give this post a like if you're alright with me following you from one or more of my other blogs?

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PROMPTS FROM "THE COSMIC SELECTOR VOL. 1" BY LORD HURON *  assorted lines from the 2025 album, adjust as necessary

with a little bit of luck, i'll find a place where i can stay forever.

i won't be found.

spent my whole life looking back and wondering who i was.

something changed the day you left, and i'll never know just what.

something tells me you and i will never meet again.

it didn't last long.

all i want is a noisy, crowded place where i can drink.

if i need a little money, i'll sell my soul.

nothing like rain to wash you clean.

i'd never seen a sky that pale at night.

should have known it wasn't right.

i can see you're doing just fine without me.

what did you say when you left?

i believed you'd never get far without me.

how wrong was i in the end?

my tale of woe continues.

it should have been you.

you were the only one i trusted.

let me see you one last time.

you can kiss my worthless ass goodbye.

i doubt that it's been nice to know me.

there's something not right about me.

i thought the darkness would pass.

life is a joke if you laugh.

this is how my story ends.

i'm stoned and broke and drunk again.

i'll be out there on my own.

i've got a feeling i just had to get away.

i left it all behind.

i got everything i want, and i got nothing that i need.

she made me wish that i had never let her go.

i fell in deep when you fell out of love with me.

just say the word, and i will change the life i lead.

i will push away the world just to keep you close to me.

you're the one i'll never get, and you're the one thing that i need.

i've been looking a long time.

what's your name?

am i ever gonna find you?

is there anybody out there?

we haven't met, but i wrote this song for you.

how the hell am i ever gonna find you?

my world has changed.

i drove like hell.

made me feel something i've never felt before, something between awestruck and horrified.

you don't remember what i said, but you'll remember what i did.

who laughs last?

i don't know if you care at all.

i'm just writing to say i'm alive.

i wanna feel like i did back then.

i wanna see my name in the lights again.

you got a lot to tell me, but i'd rather not know.

i was glad to see you, but it's better i go.

you didn't see me coming.

you took it all from me.

tell me when i can see you again.

i wanna quit you, but it's like a disease.

can you come over?

i'm waiting for you, baby.

i will always be in love with you.

why fight the flames?

one day you'll see you will always be a part of me.

it all comes back to you.

there's nothing to do. there's nowhere to go.

you played me a fool.

i'd rather die than lie to you.

i can't be sure, but i've seen this before.

i wondered where you came from.

take it and run away as far as you can go.

tell me i remind you of someone you used to know.

you seem sullen and far away.

your heart will break like mine.

grab the cigarettes. get a move on.

we better go.

nothing left to keep me here, so i'll be on my way.

i'll be strange 'til the day i die.

life is sad. so are you.

we can cry if you want to.

let's drink. here's to us.

i'll stay forever right here if you want me to.

life is strange. tell me why.

i'm a lost cause. so are you.

i can't change who i am.

is it true that you really don't dream anymore?

[recre8ed]

He's starving.

The rain doesn't make Hakkai's situation any better; it's a vile form of weather that brings to mind a long and painful dreary day at its best of times. But now, when he's weak enough to only be able to step slowly, it's a particularly cruel hand played by nature. It reminds him of a time when he hadn't yet been what he is, stumbling blindly away from the body of his lover in the agonizing pain that came with bleeding out, and the far worse pain that came with becoming something.

He could die in this storm. There's not a doubt in his mind that he'd deserve that sort of death.

Fortunately, fate isn't that cruel; he's stewing in such pessimistic thoughts when he hears something, distant but not far enough to forgo approaching. It had to have been close, to hear it through the rain. The loud thump of something heavy falling to the ground—too quiet to be anything especially large, like a bear, but too loud to have been a rodent or bird.

And then, a flicker of humming that tastes like resentment. Faint, but audible. Unbidden, Hakkai's face stretches itself into a relieved smile—there's something else out here with enough sense of feeling to feed him. It's dire enough that he even forgets to feel guilty, for the first several moments.

When he does remember, he's not nearly guilty enough to remain where he is. He follows the faint sound of heavy footsteps, pushing the limits of his spent energy towards this one end. If he could just have a single conversation, even, he might be sated enough to survive the storm. Whatever he's following is running, but slowly enough that he can catch up, and then—

—another crash.

Hakkai creeps forward, angling for a glimpse at the form behind the feeling, and catches sight through the trees of what looks like a young man.

There's something odd about him, though Hakkai is neither sound enough nor discerning enough at the moment to place what it is. All that matters, after all, is his feelings. He takes a silent step closer, then two, as the figure pushes himself up. Then he freezes in place as the young man's head turns towards him.

Despite the blindfold over his eyes, he's looking right… Had he somehow heard Hakkai's careful footsteps?

"Are you alright?" Hakkai asks, impulsively taking on the role of the concerned stranger, now that his time for making a better plan of approach has been cut short. Even though he now knows the figure can't see him, he retracts his more unsavory features, favoring his once-possessed human appearance. "You're not hurt, are you? It's dangerous to be out alone in conditions like this."

A hypocritical thing to say—but Hakkai has long known he's more of a beast than a man. There's no danger in the rain for him except hunger, and painful reminders of the past.

The wind tore through the trees, shuddering through the dense canopy above and flinging the scent of pine and wet bark down to where Eirulanth staggered. His silks clung to him, plastered to his limbs with sweat and stormwater, and each step sank into the cold earth beneath him. Mud stuck his boots, and roots snatched at his feet like the desperate hands of the dead, and still he ran with his lungs screaming for air, his throat raw, panicking.

He could not see anything, not with a sacred blindfold draped across his eyes. He couldn't see the trees, or the path, or the twisted undergrowth that clung to his calves. But still, he felt. . . everything. He could smell it; the scent of snapped branches, the wet ivy under his feet, and somewhere far off, the ozone tang of lightning. The air was thick with it, and truth be told? It scared him.

It was all new.

The portal had dropped him here without warning; torn from the glimmering floors of the palace and flung into this, into mud and storm. Still, he ran because he had no choice. The Palace was suffocating; the same walls, the same endless halls, the same bitter, cloying fruit that coated his tongue and hung at the back of his throat.

He was here because he wanted to be, despite his ever-growing fear of the unknown. He couldn't stop. Wouldn't. Every instinct inside him that was dulled for years now screamed in defiance. He was alive. Free. And something in him, some ancient and long-buried beneath all that compliance, refused to go still again. So he kept running. He ran and ran until he felt like he couldn't breathe.

That is, until he fell.

One step wrong and his ankle twisted with his boot sliding out from beneath him. He crashed down hard, elbows slamming into the mud, breath knocked clean out of his chest. He curled inward, gasping, cheek pressed against mud. Cold water trickled down the back of his neck, soaking his sleeves and pooling in his collarbone. He lay there, dazed as the blindfold's tips flickered against his cheekbones; dull gold, for pain, and soft violet, for confusion.

He slowly pushed himself upward. His legs were shaking, ribs were aching, lungs burned, but. . . the air was real, the wind was real, and most of all, he felt real. The storm did not belong to the palace. It was not conjured, not measured, or curated. It was brutal and wet, and it tasted like freedom. And that alone terrified him.

And then he felt it: a presence. Something, watching. His head turned toward the weight, the feeling of it. And with a small, careful tone, he finally decided to speak.

" . . . Hello? "

@recre8ed - plotted starter.