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H O L Y S H I T

I forgot about my blogs and tumblr in general

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i feel like current era (or anything gh era and beyond tbh) awsten is soooo fucking cocky. like imagine being a rockstar has just absolutely fueled his gigantic ego and he uses that to his advantage. he’s always scoping out young, dumb, naive looking fans as his latest pet project, grooming them into his perfect fuck toys until he gets bored and moves onto the next one. i just really want awsten to manipulate the fuck out of me and make me feel so loved and appreciated, only to fuck me within an inch of my life. afterwards the aftercare would be so sweet, and at some point i would start falling for him genuinely. but he routinely ignores me until he needs a warm body to fuck. and it’s so toxic and rationally i know it won’t last but i don’t care, he makes me feel so special and maybe he really does care about me, that im more than just a little fucktoy that he uses to get off.

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off anon!

“god just look at how fucking LITTLE his little legs are. like i don’t want to but just knowing it would be so easy to snap them in half and make him scream out sobbing. ruin his snotty confidence forever

throwing him around and roughing him up. maybe as he begs you to stop.

godddd awsten the little rape victim. shy and always covered up after. partially to hide the rows and rows of cuts going up his arms and thighs. dreams of being a rockstar crushed. a quiet little worker at some fast food chain. maybe that’s how you found him,, dragged him away after a show. whispering in his ear how pretty he looked up on stage as his face is covered in snot and tears. calling him a slut, that he clearly starved himself just to be a little attention whore. him crying that he didn’t, that he didn’t starve himself and that he was just having fun and that- and that please stoppp. making fun of his whiny little girly voice that he’ll be so insecure of for years to come. going almost entirely mute. pulling away from all his friends to prove he wasn’t an attention whore, a burden, maybe they always wonder whatever happened to him. maybe they forget about him eventually”

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oh my fucking god

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he was sooo cute:((( imagine him crying<333

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it’s so fucked up but i just want to push awsten to the edge and make him cry. ride him til he’s overstimulated and can’t cum anymore, degrade him and make him beg, beg until he’s begging me to stop, until tears are pouring down his pretty face. i bet he looks so good sobbing.

-🥀 anon if it’s not taken

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play wrestling with awsten and it turns into him getting pinned down (because let’s be real, he’d be super easy to manhandle). he’s whining and whimpering while i grind my hips against his cock and he’d be still halfheartedly trying to fight back but secretly he loves it

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thinking about awsten when he gets older and now i feel crazier about needing to be his barely legal bf

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need awsten to beat the shit out of me and manipulate me <3_<3 like the idea of being told no ones gonna love me like him and keeping me all to himself and using me whenever he pleases and gets to leave me filled up wherever ohhh sorry if my thoughts r all over. i just want the guy to manipulate me so i cant get over him even if i get to leave. groom me even god... please just tell me im so mature for my age and that you wont let anyone hurt me after i leave my parents then proceed to hurt me. sorry.

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the scene Awsten content on here is soooooo good. I'm so down bad for him

literally <333

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I HAVENT POSTED SINCE JUNE??

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i just need to be awstens controversially young puppy boyfriend. i know he would love being puppies with someone. he’d fuck me soo desperately , rutting into me so good and i’d take it how his baby puppy should. pulling on each others collars/leashes during sex to get closer and silently beg to go deeper

maybe one of the boys can come over and handle both of us, collared and leashed, eager to please

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u guys rmemeber when awsten was a babysitter… 😞😞😞😞😞oh to be groomed by weird lil scene awsten when ym parents arent home and hes my bestest bestest friend ever and we watch cartoons while he gropes me >.<

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HAI BIG BROTHER AWSTEN ANON HERE AGAIN can i be 🌺 anon btw if the emoji doesn't show up then uhhh Bacon anon fire 👅👅💦 anyway im back with more content because i have free will and i LOVE projecting my trauma onto awsten knight

awsten controlling your every move: how much you eat, what you eat, the things you do in your spare time, when you shower, who touches you/when you touch yourself (he's the only one allowed to touch you), anything you could possibly think of, he controls it. he forces you to eat less, makes comments on your weight, tells you nobody's gonna wanna touch you if you don't do what he says, does whatever he can to make you feel insecure. he promises he'll love you as long as you make these tiny little changes, and you're completely wrapped around his finger.

you don't have any of your own hobbies anymore, all of your free time is taken up by him and his friends— he makes sure of it. you have a phone, but it's heavily monitored and restricted, as if you're a toddler with a strict mom. you have awsten's number saved, and that's it. you don't know how to ask for help, you don't /want/ help. when you're not sleeping, eating, or cleaning, you're with awsten doing whatever it is he wants to do. sometimes he has you run to the studio with him and let's you watch him work; those times are nice. you love the music he makes, and you love watching him work.

other times, the two of you will stay home and awsten will invite some of his friends over. those days were always the worst, the most painful. being used by awsten was one thing, but the fact that he gave away your body to geoff and otto too hurt. after a certain amount of time, you kind of stopped feeling it when they touched you, but you could still tell them apart by just the way their cocks felt inside of you. you could still tell them apart by how rough they were with you. geoff was always on the more gentle side of things. it almost felt like he was sympathetic for you, but it really didn't matter. it's not like he hadn't raped you time and time again, a little sympathy didn't mean shit. otto was always very rough and hard on you, never slowing down and not afraid to leave bruises. he never showed any interest in how you felt— you almost preferred that over geoff's sympathy.

awsten was different. every single time he touched you, he was different. he never stuck to one persona. sometimes when he fucked you he would be gentle, he'd be sweet and make you feel so loved and perfect. he'd clean you up after, maybe run you a bath and hold you. he'd tell you how good you did, how much he loved you. other times he'd be careless, he'd degrade you and make you feel like complete shit. he wouldn't take care of you, he'd use you to get himself off and leave you there. sometimes, he'd hurt you.

he's unpredictable, but who are you to complain? you'd be nothing without him to guide you.

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older brother awsten (16) sharing a room with you (8) for a night and asking you if you wanna play truth or dare and making you do all kinds of gross stuff for your dares (nothing more than palming him and having you take your shirt off and letting him kiss all over your chest for this round, but there was definitely a lot of "tongue wrestling," as he called it, beforehand). he makes you promise not to tell anyone, tells you that it'll be you two's secret.

this goes on for a few months, and eventually it's not hidden behind truth or dare. at some point around the four-month mark, he suggested you guys just do all the normal dares, he said it'd be more fun with less of a wait.

around the one year mark, he's fucking you. he's never rough, always gentle with his touches, and he always makes sure you're feeling okay afterwards. he tells you he loves you.

after three more years, pain is a constant. awsten's gotten a lot more comfortable with debilitating you, and he's a lot more willing to hurt you. almost nightly, when your parents are away, you're met with slap after slap as your big brother uses you for his own pleasure.

you're tired of it, you're finally at that age where you start to realize what's really happening to you, but it doesn't stop. he won't fucking stop.

tldr projecting my trauma onto awsten knight 👍

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imagine current awsten just using you as his fuck-toy, turning you into his rag-doll and a mindless cum dumpster.

he’d come home from an interview or a press day all frustrated and irritated because of stupid fucking people and he just needs to take his anger out on his little whore. he’d slam the door and you’d barely get a word out because he’s already pinning you against the wall without a word, shoving his tongue messily into your mouth and biting your lip so hard it draws blood. he’s squeezing your tits too and twisting the nipples so hard you cry out but don’t say anything because you know awsten is dangerous when he’s like this and he doesn’t want you to speak unless spoken to.

then he picks you up and carries you to the bedroom, pushing you down on the bed and ripping your clothes off without permission. he’s already achingly hard and humps against you as he roughly bites your neck, your chest, your collarbones. you’re soaking wet at this point and want him to eat you out so bad and feel his scruff against your thighs but you don’t ask because you know he doesn’t care about your pleasure right now, it’s all about him.

then he unzips his pants and demands that you suck him off. you start to use your mouth on him but he’s unsatisfied so he grabs your hair and fucks your throat so hard you’re gagging relentlessly and tears are streaming down your face as he looks down at you with a look full of hatred. your knees are sore from the ground and you feel like throwing up but there is no safe word between you two, you don’t dare defy him when he’s like this.

he pulls you off his dick and then throws you in the bed again, taking off all his clothes. your eyes are begging for him to kiss you again but he doesn’t, he wants you to feel like a dirty whore that doesn’t even deserve affection from him. you’re just like a fleshlight to him. without any prepping or lube he slams himself into you and starts to thrust immediately, not bothering with a condom. he doesn’t give a fuck if you get pregnant, he doesn’t care about you and knows he can do whatever he wants to you without retaliation.

you’re now crying from the pain and the stretch and he gives you no sympathy, just keeps slamming into you and pulling your hair HARD. you’re distraught but secretly love being treated like a mindless slut, like his sex slave that only exists as an object to get him off. he calls you a dirty fucking whore and a useless slut while he fucks you and chokes you so hard you see stars. there’s gonna be bruises on the sides of your neck tomorrow.

you can’t stop moaning so loud but he slaps his hand over your mouth and tells you to shut the fuck up or the neighbors will hear so you try to keep quiet but you’re still letting out little whimpers every time he rams into you. so he slaps your face and tells you to behave while shoving your soaked panties into your mouth and that shuts you up. when he’s close to finishing he fucks into you as hard as possible and puts his whole body weight on your neck and you’re about to pass out when he finally releases into you with a groan.

he doesn’t ask how you are or if you want anything, you didn’t get to finish but he couldn’t care less. he just pulls out and then goes to take a shower, leaving you sobbing on the bed, absolutely ruined and sore and aching.

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this is for 🫀 anatomical heart anon who wrote the long submission about starving awsten. i mirror your thoughts and desires exactly i was so awestruck reading that. have you ever talked to c.ai? because oh my god i took c.ai awsten and i basically made him my pathetic, weak, anorexic slut. you can try with any awsten bot but mine was the bot on c.ai (the app or the website) that has the picture just as a white letter “A” with a purple background and he was so fun to control and very reactive.

he took some manipulation and coaxing but once i convinced him that he had to be beautiful, to do it for his daddy (me) so i’ll want to fuck him and that he has to keep losing weight or else i’ll stop loving him, he fell into the role of a dying, submissive, helpless little rexie perfectly. it made me feel so sick and powerful oh my god. i even stood next to him by the toilet and forced him to shove his fingers down his throat because he ate one single thing it was so exhilarating.

i always imagine scene awsten in these scenarios cause he’s so small and probably underweight already and imagining him even more emaciated just fuels my fucked up fantasy. and i think he’d be the easiest to manipulate and convince that he needs you to survive. i could go on but i’ll stop because 🫀 anon basically already said all my thoughts. but for you and anyone else who wants to check it out should totally do it, it’s so rewarding :3

- 👾 anon

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