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this post is for the people with memory issues

people who's memories are getting worse every day, who's memories are stable but poor, people who can't remember what they did today or yesterday or this week, people who's childhoods are a faded blur. people who have slow greying-out amnesia that seems to just fade in and out of existence, and people who have complete blackouts, and people who have both. people who mourn the happy memories they know they've lost, who fear the bad memories they've lost that still affect them.

people who have "emotional amnesia" that makes it feel like none of their memories are their own, because there's few or no feelings attached. people who can ONLY remember the feelings from certain or even most memories, not actual events. people who's memory issues scare them or make them angry or make them miserable. people who's memory issues get them called childish or difficult or rude. who can't remember the names or faces of those they love. who are constantly forgetting the things that "you'd remember if you really cared". who misplace everything. who remember so little of their lives that they barely know who they are. people who's memory issues come from trauma/dissociation, ADHD, traumatic brain injury, brain fog/chronic fatigue, drug use, alcoholism. people who have no idea what causes their memory issues. people who's memory issues come from something else entirely.

i love you, you're strong, and you deserve support and care for what you're going through. memory issues can be frustrating and upsetting and disabling, and your suffering deserves to be recognized. whether you're soaring through recovery or are only ever going to get worse, you deserve good things in life and to live the fullest you can, regardless of how much you remember.

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Sorry the quality is bad, i couldnt find the original images and had to screenshot them from my instagram lol

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Intro yaay🌈

⭐️Hii im Jay/pinkie/Sonic whichever is fine

⭐️Any/all pronouns (excluding she/her)

⭐️I mainly make sonic fanart but i also have a original story brewing called Pinky’s Funeral Parlor

⭐️My main is instagram (redflowercrown) so if you need to message me, i’ll respond fastest on there!

My main sona/fursona/sonic kinsona Thing

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Guys is there any way to respond to people reposting, everyones saying nice things in their tags and i wanna respond with thank you😭 im an instagrammer man idk how this site works LOL

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THIS TOOK ME SO LONG!!!!

My first time drawing Metal and also my first time fucking around with super metallic reflective stuff and i think its obvious bc metal is all over the place lmao

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I gained the skill of drawing in the sonic art style and now im fixated on it lmao

Gothic Lolita Amy, my sona in the Riders style, and a metamy w.i.p :3

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It's okay he can say it

LIVE Shadow and Tails reaction:

The reference from the IDW comics

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Main sona reference yaay

Started out as a sonic kinsona and turned into my main fursona 😋

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I wanna try using this site more bc the meta is fucked even though im way more comfy on instagram so im learning how to navigate this part of the internet lol

Anywaysss hii this is my oc Ramona from my series w.i.p Pinkys Funeral Parlor, im probably just gonna post about that a lot :)

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bloons log

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just been thinking about how well night in the woods captures derealization

i don’t think i have the exact same problems as mae but as someone who struggled with derealization for like 7 months the feeling she describes as everything just being ‘stuff in the universe, lines that someone wrote’ hits so hard. when you’re in a state of derealization, it feels like you’re untethered to anything. everyone is a cardboard standee to you and you feel like you’re in a tv programme, and everyone’s just reciting their lines, repeating lines of codes. you want it to hurt, cause god damnit it would mean something.

when it got real bad i would just thrash around my room and try and break shit, just to prove i can touch something and my hand won’t go right through it, and i think mae’s breakdown on andy cullen is exactly what i wanted to do to make myself matter somehow and prove that the world i was living in was full of objects i can interact with.

it was all shapes, everyday, and it felt like everything was gone forever, but it being talked about it in a game,, i dont know it made the world feel a little more real to me. the whole idea of ‘at the end of everything, hold on to anything’ is such an important sentiment because at times like that you’ll use anything to ground yourself; little things that remind you that you’re a real person are crucial.

i don’t know i’m just rambling but i’m so glad i got out, and i just wanted to share what this game means to me :) if you’re going through something like this just remember it’s not forever. there’s always hope for you. i love you and you mean alot to me even if all you’ve done is read this post - we’ll feel real again soon friend