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Good morning! I hope you slept well

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hi berrynon. i did. how did you sleep?

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Hehe thank you!

According to timezones this is around the time you'd be going to bed, I think, so goodnight! Sweet dreams!

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good morning berrynon. i appreciate the message.

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Berrynon is very cute! I'll keep you updated on if it works out. We're very bad at reward systems so 50/50 shot!

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i agree. i gift you the name berrynon.

okay. thats understandable, theyre very easy to break without someone to keep you in check. sigh.

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Oh wow that's really useful, we'll have to try it out :]

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good luck with it, berrynon

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I'll have to try a system like that for motivation, what do you use to reward yourself?

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depends. we set daily &. weekly goals. daily, the reward is just going into our room and rewinding for a bit—whether its via music or working on something we want to do. weekly, we let ourselves either buy something ( if we can financially ) or catch up on something we’ve been putting off because of being too busy, like a book, game, or series. we set up a small list on simply plural as well, usually under where we keep our calendar and goals/to-do list. it seems simple, but i’ve found the reward system is very helpful.

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Aaah we finally finished our pluralkit, took a long time but then we can just import it to simply plural. Definitely can be draining

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agree. i havent even tried to touch pluralkit yet, we just add people if they front and want to talk in servers. making a goal & reward system so its easier has been helpful though.

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I try my best to stay nice about it but there are definitely some days I get snappy.

Good to know! :)

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very understandable.. this is a poor reply, i am lagging a little. working on simply plural stuff. it is a pain.

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My neck was too tense and I have a condition where my vertebrae will shift out of place so he had to readjust it!

I see, I'm usually up until 2 mst so we're definitely alike

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that sounds annoying to manage. at least its dealt with for now, i guess. i commend you for doing so, i would get extremely irritated and mean. </3

you are two hours behind me. thats useful to know.

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I went to the chiropractor and feel much better! Not sure what time it is for you but I'm a night owl, so I'll tell you goodnight now to get ahead and don't send it in too late! Have sweet dreams

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thats good. was there an actual issue, or did they just give you something for it?

we are similar, i think. im usually up until 000-100 est, so i won't be asleep for quite a while. i appreciate it all the same though.

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I suppose I got a little carried away with chatting with you. I'll take a break for a bit, talk to you later! Thank you for the well wishes

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okay. not sure what time it is for you, but dont go to sleep without saying goodnight. goodbye for now.

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Aw that's nice, I'm happy for you!

I'm trying my best to nurse it but nothing seems to be working, just one of those days

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i doubt an electronic is very helpful with headaches. but either way, feel better soon.

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Ooh trips are fun. My day has been okay, one of those stay in and laze about days, especially since my head hurts

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yes. i am excited to see our step-mother. its been a few years and she is very kind to me.

i like days like that, without the headaches. are you taking care of it?

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I see, that's very romantic. Thank you for answering my questions, I feel like I have a better understanding now. How is your day going?

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i dont mind. they were entertaining to answer. my day has been fine, busy, but boring. our little siblings are leaving so i look forward to a few days of quiet, & we’re preparing for a trip. how has your day been thus far?

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I see, I can definitely understand where you're coming from. I guess to me that begs the question of how far you would go for a suitor?

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i prefer trust, so i dont see myself acting violent towards others for a darling, nor hurting my darling physically. the worst i see myself doing is playing the mental game. manipulation, gaslighting, etc. just at first, for the reliance, to make sure they accept their place with me if there is trouble & to avoid stupid arguments. i also just have a god complex, so honestly, if i feel the need to chase others away from you? you dont appreciate me enough, and obviously you’re not worth my time.

not to say i would manipulate every lover i have. like you said, it’s only the farthest i’d go, if i found it necessary.

&. if there is physical violence, i prefer that it’s consensual. i wouldn't mind leaving them with bruises, licking their wounds, restraining them for a bit, things of that sort. i’d just want a clear ‘okay’ first.

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Being understood is far more meaningful than being loved. Someone can love you and still not understand you at all. Love is something that often comes naturally with time, while truly trying to understand someone is a conscious choice. It require setting aside yourself to focus on the other person, which is far more valuable. Knowing someone's ins and outs, truly seeing them for who they are, and still choosing to stand by their side- now that's meaningful.

I wish to be understood.

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Ahh I see, so something more genuine to it. So if I said how I would steal my darling's clothes to wear myself, is that more interesting than someone who says they'll kill their darling? Just genuinely curious/trying to understand, I think your view on yanblr is very interesting

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yes. its more realistic, anyways. i dont mind if people talk about killing their darling and other violence though—i just prefer that they mean it. if you’re going to post about stealing from your darling, be prepared to do it. if you're going to post about killing their best friend, be prepared to do it. y’know? i dont understand when people post positively about something they wouldn't condone. unless you’re talking in metaphors or fiction, but thats obviously a different story.

you don't need to justify asking, by the way. i dont care

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We have like four yanblr blogs ourselves for the same reason.

That's a shame, what kind of concepts are you looking for in order to be interested?

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I couldn't say anything specific, just more creativity. more genuine stuff. i see a lot of talk about killing suitors, stalking, kidnapping — its usually the same empty concepts, nothing genuine about them. realistically, most of the people posting about it are posting just to post. i dont think a fifteen year old would kill a bunch of people without any hesitance like some people on this site claim.

i don't really care if they post about it and don't mean it. not my account, none of my business. it's just boring — it lacks flavor. i just want to see stuff that people are serious about.