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//if I don't appear on the dash today, I will be active tomorrow. busy busy day 🥲

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"Hey, Z. You're cute." Xoxo Lou

@parvumchao

Hey linda, a kiss or twelve would make me even cuter, you know?

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you are my paradise

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decided to “quickly reread” my draft and ended up rewriting the entire thing. again. the road to hell is paved with ctrl+s.

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decided to “quickly reread” my draft and ended up rewriting the entire thing. again. the road to hell is paved with ctrl+s.

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                                           / annoyed at first sight ; 

With something in our hearts, that if we were to stop, would pull us away. There's nothing we can do, to stop feeling this blue. Anyway.

                                  RULES ◇ ZACH ◇ ERIC ◇ STARTERS

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#the ahs panel every year basically

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All of Us Strangers (2023)

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@myriadxofxmuses

@renegadetulis

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Discussions of Childhood Sentences

(Sentences for muses to discuss their childhoods. Adjust phrasing where needed)

"Even as a child, there was something in your brain that was a puzzlement."

"What kind of a monster raised you?"

"If you're good at reading people, it's mostly because you learnt as a child, trying to stay one step ahead of whatever tormented you."

"What do you remember about your childhood?"

"You must have been a very boring child."

"My books have been my only true companion since childhood."

"This is my childhood bedroom, so I'd appreciate you not criticising it."

"When I was little, I was fascinated by stars. I thought they were magic."

"What were you like as a child?"

"Did you have a happy childhood?"

"Children do not simply forget trauma. No one simply forgets."

"What is your worst memory of childhood?"

"I had no real childhood. I was an imitation adult because that was what was expected of me."

"Were you an outstandingly brilliant child?"

"Were you always so serious? Even as a child?"

"I can't imagine you having any kind of childhood."

"Tell me something - were you ever young?"

"You ever do magic as a kid? You seem like the type - lonely, obsessive..."

"I think people have always thought I was strange - or worse: defective."

"I have very positive origins. Inexpressible, maybe, but positive."

"I've been alienating people since I was three."

"Did you ever stutter as a child?"

"I think you and I had very different childhoods."

"'Home' doesn't mean the same for me as it does for you."

"There aren't any pictures of me as a kid."

"Since I was a child, I've always loved little puzzles."

"Look at me; nobody grows up wrong."

"Did you have a childhood sweetheart?"

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can we just stay in bed, fuck and cuddle and kiss for like 2 weeks

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the saddest thing i’ve ever done was beg someone to love me the way I loved them

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Zach laughed and shook his head as he replied "You'll learn!" with so much certainty that it probably served as the most accurate description of Doom. The dog never missed any slip-ups; his ears were unforgiving. Before Zach got him, he was sure that dog owners were overly dramatic and exaggerated everything about spelling out words and having to find new "signs" for words when their dog seemed to pick them up.

He only hummed in agreement as they walked, mostly focused on not letting Doom wander too far, where Zach wouldn't see what he was doing, but Lian's touch redirected his attention completely. "I guess it's safe to say that about this party. I've had... fun too." His smile widened and he returned the squeeze, but then gently let go of the other's hand. With an apologetic look, he ran his index finger up Lian's wrist. It was late and relatively dark, but the worry that someone would see them returned. Zach knew his reaction wasn't the most desired one and was hoping Lian would stay despite it.

"It's not cheesy," he chuckled. "Thank you for today." Zach swallowed and lowered his voice a bit more. "This is where I'd kiss you."

“Oh, I forgot. The forbidden words.” Lian only realized that he had used the word 'walk' in Doom's presence when Zach mentioned it. But now it was too late; they had to go. Lian didn't mind getting some fresh air before going to bed anyway.

“The air is freshest at night,” he smiled, straightening up and waiting for Zach to put the leash on Doom, who was already getting too excited again.

On their way to a nearby park, Lian walked close beside Zach until his hand brushed lightly against his. Without thinking twice, he finally took it. He could do that now, right?

“I have to admit that today was one of the best days in a long time.” To emphasize his words, he squeezed Zach's hand lightly. “Is that... cheesy?”

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His empathy and deep feelings for Lunara should never allow him to exhale with such relief when she pretended she chose rest over hearing the words he clearly couldn't tell her. "An aspirin," he repeated flatly, and stood up to get the pills from the nightstand. Eric needed them earlier that day and therefore didn't need much time to locate them, but retrieving them took a little longer than necessary.

He would choose fear for her safety every single day and night if that meant he would be loved back by Luna, but Veronica had managed to scar his heart. It was vulnerable and begging to be left alone if it couldn't be entrusted to someone who would take care of it. A damn Davy Jones of the dry land, hoping a nameless fling filled the void and proved to be better than disappointment of unreciprocated feelings.

Once Eric felt safe enough to return to the room, certain he wouldn't push the blade deeper into their hearts, he took a deep breath and headed straight back to Luna. He remained silent as he placed the pills along with a glass of water on the coffee table near the couch, but his eyes couldn't be quiet. Eric perched on the edge of the couch, as if asking her if he was welcome at all. He ran his fingers through Luna's dark strands. His smile was the faintest, but it was there. "You shouldn't sleep alone today." Or ever. "May I...?"

She knew what she was getting into when she embarked on this emotional roller coaster with Eric Sanders. Like any other analytical person, she had calculated its risks, its pros and cons, the balances this relation might disturb if she were to go the further down the road. Lunara had told herself that it would just be skin deep. She promised herself that this forbidden thing between her and Eric would not take root in the secret recesses of her heart. What she didn't expect was for her to willingly open up her well-guarded chest cavity and offer Eric her soul.

Her shoulders had slumped forward, fatigue weighing heavily on her frame. The impetuous welling in her dark hues had longed graced her cheeks, streaming down to wet them. She couldn't find it in herself to fight. Lunara couldn't find an ounce of energy to retaliate despite her mind telling her to do so. Her gaze met his as he raised his bloodied hands. Eric's tone was of exasperation but his words were still sharp — each one making deep incisions against her flesh. But Lunara found herself mum and absolutely numb as tears kept streaming down. No word could form to counter his, no sound left her lungs except for her own breath.

Fucking pull yourself together. Lunara stilled for a moment, the numbness from the tip of her fingers had spread up to her palms. A shuddering breath. Eric continued, and Lunara's gaze was hollow. "You're right. I need to rest," she finally spoke. A pause. "If you have an aspirin, that would be great." Her voice barely audible enough for Eric to hear. She blinked. "Please." She waited for him to leave before mustering the will to move to the couch. As she settled on its plush cushions, Lunara leaned back, almost letting it consume her.

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She had been doing well; much better than he ever did during those events they attended together. Despite these two being neighbors for so long, Zach doubted he had ever seen her in such a natural look, the raw beauty of her tousled hair and sleepy eyes. Even though she never overused makeup, he would choose this version of her over any other that he had seen so far. Perhaps he should pin it on her being so close, so not-for-everyones-eyes. He attempted to stroke her arm, but that's when she turned to face him, and he immediately pretended his fingers didn't freeze midway.

"Fine, we'll take turns, I can even let you go first," he replied, still completely missing the opportunity to flirt, even innocently, like pointing out the double meaning that... Well. That he also missed.

Or not.

Zach propped himself up on his elbow as Courtney got up, fingers sinking into his blue strands seemingly not to smooth them out, but to mess them up even more, a deep chuckle adding a bit more boyish charm. Suddenly, his every move was calculated and deliberate, so she would notice he had been working out extra hard for the past few weeks.

He wasn't going to let her go outside without checking the perimeter first, so he sat up in bed too, remembering where he put their things the day before. "Imma make us some real coffee, then," he promised. A glance at Doom was more than enough to tell that the tent's "porch" was the farthest he would venture that day and he would still wait for Zach to start setting up the espresso maker before he moved his butt at all. "Everything's in my bag over there. I didn't wanna wake you up yesterday, you looked exhausted... Lemme grab my stuff and go first to check our yard for wild animals. I've already fought one," he said jokingly, referring to the mess they've made and Courtney's question about his dream.

Had she wanted to impress him? Maybe just a little bit. He'd always teased her that she was 'made from the city' and she'd wanted to prove him wrong. He loved to hike, so of course she could totally handle a long weekend in the woods. Could even end up being romantic. Okay, to be fair, this moment right here was kind of romantic, with the sound of the rain on top of the tent, his arm around her shoulders making his shoulder a comfortable pillow.

Too bad he'd not once ever picked up what she'd tried putting down, though to this day she wasn't entirely sure if that was due to cluelessness rather than disinterest. "Well I mean, who's gunna guard the door while we're in there, to make sure no one comes and breaks the peace and quiet?" She rushed to finish her thought, realizing that the first half had sounded kind of innuendo-ish.

Shifting onto her side so she could be facing him, Courtney realize how close together their faces were, and then realized that, oh my goodness she had to have morning breath. "I absolutely would love a morning coffee." Speaking as she hid her blush with getting up to gather her things, fingers raking through her hair in a half hearted attempt at taming the sleep tangles. "I need to find my toothbrush and the toilet paper. Man we make a mess of this place in our sleep. That's you, you know. What were you dreaming about?"

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He couldn't deny a gentle tingle of excitement and surprise at her bold statement. Even though Zach usually perceived himself as someone perfectly in control of his impulses, he was afraid that she would see through him and the calm facade. The worst part was that he couldn't figure out if she was only teasing him, or if this meeting revealed how they act without Ver and Eric around. Yellow lace. That wink. His ability to form a coherent sentence was gone. "Wow," he muttered, raising his brows.

Thank god she found his suggestion exciting because that allowed him to change the subject before he embarrassed himself while despite living out every man's dream, right there, in his car. "Fuck, no, I'm a decent guy! When I promise games, I mean games," he replied, chuckling. "Literally. A few studios, including mine, are located in the same building. One makes racing games, another - RPGs, and we... We scare people." He turned to Raye with a smirk and caught the inside of his lower lip between his teeth, hesitating before he added, "'Cause that's what sells. Fear and sex."

Luckily, now he had to distract himself with a responsible task of driving them to the said building in one piece. Zach laughed at her comment and smiled over at Raye. "The Outlast? Specter Stay? Or Dark Horizons, if you're into lighter stuff."

Her eyes narrowed playfully, canting her head. "I'm going to grace you with my presence today and you can talk my ear off with these topics that interests you so much." Was she flirting a little too hard? Oh Raye be damned. Not that she cared about dignity or any of that nonsense. It's not often she was attracted to someone more than their looks. Her hands were already clasped in front, her frame lightly swaying back and forth as Zach joked about his ego. So cute. "I don't mind stroking your ego, handsome. I don't mind stroking other things too..." she trailed off, winking at him. All acts of subtlety have already been flung out of the window at this point. She didn't expect this instant magnetism from Eric's twin — nor did she expect her attraction to his electric blue mane. What an amazing choice of colour though... this only confirmed that he was a much more interesting individual than he lets on.

At the mention of him running an errand, the grin plastered on her face grew even wider. "Oh goody!" Raye clapped her hands like an excited schoolgirl playing hooky for the day. "A game factory... Literally right? You're not bringing me to your basement to rob me of my innocence are you?" she echoed, amusement glinting in her eyes as she watched Zach clamber into his car. She copied him on the passenger side, settling into the seat and buckled up. "I feel like I am going for a school learning journey in the middle of the day." Raye giggled, turning to face Zach. "Remind me again, which games do you actually develop? Who knows? I might have played them."