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big boy Martin truther

big boy S1 Martin always slouching and folding in on himself, trying to make himself unobtrusive, curling around tea cups almost swallowed in his big hands, all soft voice and averted eyes

big boy S2-S3 Martin learning to straighten up, his spine protesting, extending his arms further, to reach his friends that grow ever distant, needing to speak louder to be heard over all the turmoil

big boy S4 Martin with carefully curated proper posture, wide frame obstructing Peter Lukas' view of the Institute's staff, there's so much weight on those shoulders now, his back never stops aching. he's so far away now, face all the way up high, unreachable, and quiet

big boy S5 Martin standing tall by his boyfriend's side, steady support, big arms ready to catch and to hold and to shield and to never let go

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There should totally be a movement called “Sleep in Public” where people defend their right to sleep on public property. Sleep in your cars. Sleep on benches. Sleep at the park. Just make it a mundane and regular part of life to see someone napping in the library. It would make it much harder to single out the homeless for harassment if everyone else is doing the same thing and much harder to argue that it’s a “threat to public safety” when it’s so clearly harmless.

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Contrary to popular belief the biggest beginner's roadblock to art isn't even technical skill it's frustration tolerance, especially in the age of social media. It hurts and the frustration is endless but you must build the frustration tolerance equivalent to a roach's capacity to survive a nuclear explosion. That's how you build on the technical skill. Throw that "won't even start because I'm afraid it won't be perfect" shit out the window. Just do it. Just start. Good luck.

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I really miss my perception of season 1 Elias you know... He's the head of the Institute with a fancy accent and an attitude, but he really seems... clueless? Rather, not entirely into everything that's going on? Not entirely aware? Funny, I know. Elias' behavior in season 1 always helped remind me that the Institute was not just the Archives. How small the Archives were relative to it, actually. How the head had more things to do and care about.

Not gonna lie, at first I assumed that convincing Elias that there's actually murderous paranormal stuff going on would be a major plot point in the series. How it would contrast with Jon, the great sceptic himself. Jon realizing how frustrating it feels to deal with someone who would rather make up a bullshit "rational explanation" than accept the obvious. And act smug about it.

I really like the concept of the Head of the Magnus Institute who has no idea what they're actually doing and is too proud to admit it. No, no, I love you dearly Jonah, but damn.

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Yes, there is context for this.

No, I will not elaborate.

(I can't draw for shit but got a vision instead of sleeping and had to see it through).

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something i love about tma is john's pattern of tossing and turning over his guilt to the point of constant self-sacrifice at every turn, but for all he tears himself up over the things outside his control, he's chronically allergic to fixing or changing the things in his control, and no matter how he dresses it up, he still has his s1 jerkass tendencies. in fact his position of even more tangible power in s5 makes them even more obvious

his tendency to look down on people he deems "crazy" in s1 has not actually left at all in s5. because dude what the hell was THIS

(and i also love how good tma is at getting us into his head, because we're so used to Knowing All The Lore(tm) that i can imagine we're meant to feel the same way john does here, at least as a knee-jerk reaction, instead of, "oh god is this woman okay?")

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im going to 'babies ever after' basira you cant stop me she 'adopts' callum by which i mean she lets him eat and sleep at her house and smacks him upside the head when he tries to get spooky

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"nothing is real atoms never touch each other youve never touched anything in your life" ok. well when i pet my dog he is soft and when he licks my hand it is wet and that is far more real to me than whatevers going on at an atomic level

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Omg Michelle, Maureen and Gerry hanging out outside Dark Owl Records and talking about music? Yes. Perfect. I think Michelle would actually be willing to talk about music with Gerry, but the way her tastes change would make him roll his eyes (Mr. I've-Had-This-Aesthetic-Since-I-Was-12-And-Will-Never-Change).

I think Dana became a therapist, at least for awhile, so I think she'd see Gerry and be like "I'm going to therapy the shit out of this man."

I'm deeply entertained by the idea of Tamika using aggressively gentle parenting on someone older than she is. Or depending on where we go in the timeline, she makes him an honorary Teen Militia Member. Is he double the age of the other members? Yes. But he had a shitty adolescence so he gets a do-over.

But really they'd probably bond over book-associated weirdness. She'd take him to the library and he'd be like "...wait so the books are normal here, it's everything around the books that's a problem. Fun."

I don't even know what to do with Kevin and Gerry. There is great potential there and I don't know what it is.

They’re having a smoke break together and they’re not even from the same universe

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Victims of Other Entities: And so I watched the creature that used to be my wife sprint towards me on all fours with its neck bent at a full 180 degree angle. I only got away because it tripped and fell into the lit fireplace and turned to ash immediately. I don’t sleep anymore and I honestly wish God just would kill me already.

Victims of The Buried: God I ffucnking LOVE Dirt. OOh Boy that Shit is GOOD. No Thing on this God Forsaken planet brings me more EUPHORIA than Digging a B I G Hole. I crawl on all fours and c l a w at the e a r th as I pine for its tender Embrace. It torments my VERY SOUL that I cannot simply i n h a l e it Straight Into My Bloodstream. I’ve decided that eating fistfuls of potting soil is the next best thing.

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we do NAWHT talk enough about how gerry fist fought diego molina in a denny’s parking lot and WON literally nobody is doing it like him

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anyone who says “the bible is clear” about an issue, is 100% of the time wrong. the bible wasnt clear once. the bible couldnt be clear about how to make a table if it came in an ikea box

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I’ve now met Martin and how DARE Jonathan be mean to this adorable person??? LEAVE MARTIN ALONE MY GOD

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I've got two in progress fics open and I keep writing a sentence for one, getting whiny about how I don't know where to go from there, switching to the other, writing a sentence....rinse repeat.

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brief respite

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🗣️it’s time for another Gerry Fanart 🗣️

Once again inspired by Colin culkin in „lords of chaos“ 🫰💖