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Calum Hood donated 3k to a girl who’s puppy needed surgery. Calum Hood gave fans free tickets to their show in LA at the Forum. Calum Hood sat down with a fan at a restaurant for 30 minutes just to talk and get to know them. Calum Hood is an actual angel and we do not deserve him 

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ANNOUNCMENT

hi everyone i want to let you all know i am taking requests for calum hood one shots the reason i only take calum is because he is my favourite member and i find it easiest to right about.

I ALSO STILL TAKE JOE REQUESTS IM JUST TAKING CALUM ONES TOO

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Your Fault Part II

“Are you sure you want to go alone? I can come if you want?” Alfie asked Zoe, he didn’t like the thought of her driving in the state she is in alone. Zoe smiled warmly “Alf I'll be fine I just want to see Joe and it just be me and him because it might be easier for him emotionally but I’ll call you if I need you” Alfie nodded and kissed Zoe’s head before Zoe started driving off to London. 

The whole journey Zoe was so worried and nervous to see her brother, the last time she saw him was at Caspar’s funeral and he was not in a good way at all, in fact he looked broken and depressed. Zoe will never forget the broken tired look on her little brothers face and she really regretted not being there for him. 

After about an hour and a half Zoe finally arrived at Joe’s apartment block. She nervously got out of the car and entered the building, heading up to Joe’s floor. she quickly knocked on Joe’s door hoping he would open the door which thankfully he did. Right in front of her stood her broken little brother with tear stained cheeks bags under his eyes he was so pale and it look as if he hasn't been eating. Zoe immediately pulled Joe into her arms keeping a strong hold on his body. Joe started shaking and he started to sob. “Oh my gosh Joe, baby I'm here shhh shhh I'm here” she spoke softly in Joe’s ear. Joe didn't say anything he just tried to tighten his grip on Zoe but because he’s was so weak at the time he didn’t have the strength so instead Zoe tightened her grip on him. “Shhh its okay you’re okay Joe I promise everything will be alright” Zoe soothed her brother.

After a few hours Joe finally calmed down and fell asleep in Zoe’s arms, this must of been the first time he has slept peacefully since Caspar past. I am so angry at myself for even thinking to point the finger and blame Joe for Caspar’s death when in reality that isn't at all true.. Joe loved/loves Caspar he would never want to hurt him, Zoe thought to herself.

“Joe, you need to eat so do you want me to order a Chinese takeaway?” Zoe questioned sitting down next to Joe on the couch. “Yeah please Z-Zo that would be g-g-great” Joe stuttered, Zoe kissed his head and went of to call the restaurant to order the food. 

I will never let my little brother suffer like that again, he really doesn’t deserve the pain he has went through these couple months Zoe thought to herself. 

 “I love you broseph and I can promise you from now on I will protect you and be there for you whenever you need me I’ll be a phone call or a text away and I'll do everything I can to make you feel better I promise that sweet” Joe looked up at Zoe and smiled before snuggling into her. “Thank you Z-Zo thank y-you for everything I love you  thank you for being a great s-sister” Joe finally spoke making Zoe smile. 

“You have come so far now buddy I am so proud of you for staying strong and not giving up. I promise you I won't be giving up on you anytime soon.” Zoe told her brother before he fell asleep. 

Hey everyone sorry ive been gone for so long but here is the long awaited part 2 to your fault I hope you enjoy it. - megs x 

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send me in prompts

hey everyone you can now send in prompts now - megs x

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hello..

i know i’ve been away for so long but that’s because i was having the worst writers block and just didn't have the motivation to write anymore... but now im starting to like the idea of writing again so inbox me your prompt. 

PLEASE READ: 

the only difference now with suggesting prompt is they are joe prompts only, you can request jaspar ones but joe being the main character. you can request joe and zoe prompts like a brother and sister one shots are welcome.

get sending in your prompts guys and ill be sure to do them for you. ill try and be more organised with your requests and ill also be writing one shots that i have made up myself so i can give you a taster of what type of one shots i will be posting. 

lots of love 

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Stupid Fight

Hey I know I've been so inactive but college has been a lot and I haven’t had any motivation to write anything. I hope you enjoy this one though, also uploads might be really slow depending on how I feel. 

Prompt: Zoë and Joe get into an argument and nobody sides with Joe.

“Wtf Joe”

“You’re such an idiot Joe”

“I can’t believe you”

“How could you do that to your own sister”

“Go away and never come back you have done enough damage” 

Those are just some of the comments Joe received from his friends and family when him and Zoe had an argument. It was normal for siblings to argue even Zoe and Joe but this one got out of hand and suddenly everyone turned on Joe and all left him standing there crying not to let his tears fall as they went to check on Zoe. Joe always thought they liked Zoe more and to Joe they have just proven his thought to be right. 

Today was the first day of vidcon and all the British youtubers were attending and for some reason Zoe was in a bad mood and took it out and Joe which leaded into an argument and Zoe crying then everyone shouting at Joe leaving him alone backstage while they went to check on Zoe. Joe couldn’t keep his tears in any longer and ran to the nearest bathroom and locked himself in there as he started sobbing. “W-What have I-I done to deserve this?” Joe sobbed. Normally him and Zoe always got on they were always so close but recently the had drifted and that saddened Joe he felt like Zoe had no time for him and that he was no longer important to her. All these thoughts only seemed to make Joe cry harder and his body to shake. 

“AHHH HE MAKES ME SO DAMN ANGRY! WHY DOES HE HAVE TO RUIN EVERYTHING!” Zoe screamed walking back into the green room with Alfie, Caspar, Marcus, Louise, Jim and Tanya following her. “Zoe calm down you’re going to stress yourself out love” Alfie said calmly guiding Zoe over to the couches in the room. “Sorry it’s just he makes me so angry and what he said really annoyed me he’s so pathetic ugh I hate him!” Zoe replied trying to calm down. “We know he is Zoe trust me we are all mad at him as much as you are. He’s such an idiot for what he said.” Caspar responded sitting the couch opposite Zoe and Alfie. “Yeah Caspar’s right he doesn’t deserve to have you as a sister if he is going to be a dick like that” Marcus chipped in. “Just know Zoe we will always have your back through everything not that little shits he doesn’t deserve to have back up he is the reason for people to get angry and upset” Louise smiled at Zoe and Zoe smiled back wiping her tears. “Thanks guys you’re right I don't need him to be honest I never did need him he was a mistake” Zoe laughed causing everyone else to laugh too. “Zoe that’s the-” Jim got cut off when a sob echoed the whole room. Everyone looked up to see a small looking Joe standing there with tears in his eyes. It was obvious to them that he heard everything they said. Everyone looked at Joe in shock but then went back to talking and laughing which caused a tear fall down Joe’s cheek and he shook his head slamming the door and he ran out of the convention arena and got into an uber and went back to his hotel room. 

As soon as the youngest Sugg reached his hotel room he locked his door and flopped on his bed and started sobbing. How could he have been so stupid to think they even liked him as a friend. Joe has always been an outcast all his life in school and he finally thought it stopped when he started youtube but boy was he wrong. These thoughts only made Joe sobbed harder and louder. He’s never fault so unloved and alone for a long time. 

“Do you think he heard us?” Tanya asked as everyone was still so shocked. “I’m guessing by his facial expressions he did hear us Tan” Marcus replied. “Don't start feeling bad for the idiot he deserves it all for what he done to Zoe” Alfie replied angrily. “Oh trust me dude none of us feel bad for the prick” Jim laughed which made everyone laugh expect Zoe. “What’s wrong Zoe?” Alfie questioned as she has been silent ever since Joe walked in on them. “Nothing just trying to processes what's happened today it’s been a long day” Zoe replied and smiled at Alfie. Alfie nodded and everyone decided to head back to the hotel as it was getting late. 

Everyone arrived back at the hotel and all decided to go to the bar for a drink but Zoe decided to go up to her room and get ready for the evening meal they were going to have. She made her way to the lift and she got in. All the way up to her room she couldn’t stop thinking about Joe. The look on his face when he heard everything they were saying about him broke her heart. The truth is she didn’t know why she was so angry and why she decided to take it out on Joe. Finally the lift opened on the floor all the you tubers were staying on for vidcon. Zoe walked down the corridor and as Joe’s room was right next door to her’s and Alfie she heard Joe’s sobs grow louder and louder as she got closer and closer to her room. Just hearing her brother cry was enough for her to start crying herself. Zoe couldn’t take it anymore and ran to Joe’s room and knocked on the door. She waited for Joe to open the door but he didn't all she could hear was Joe’s sobs. She knocked again and this time she heard Joe’s small voice. “J-Just a-a s-second” He called and minutes later Zoe was greeted with a red and puffy eyed Joe who was shocked to see Zoe standing there. “Joe- oh my god I'm so so sorry come here” She didn’t give Joe time to respond and she already pulled him into her arms. Joe tightened his grip on Zoe as he cried harder and harder into her neck. “Shh shhh I'm here baby I'm here” Zoe soothed her baby brother. “Come on buddy lets go inside” Zoe spoke guiding her crying little brother to his bed. “I-I though y-y-you d-did-” Joe couldn’t even finish his sentence without breaking down into tears. Zoe’s heart broke at the sight of her brother being so upset. “Shhhh shhhh baby calm down its okay I love you okay I love you so much” Joe looked up at Zoe with red puffy eyes. “I-I-I’m s-s-sorry” Joe sobbed, Zoe was shocked why is Joe apologising for something he hasn't done. “No don’t you dare apologise you have done nothing wrong baby I should be the one apologising. I am so sorry Joe for treating you so unfairly I love you so much and I hope you can forgive me” Zoe spoke and Joe crashed himself into Zoe’s arms as he cried harder and harder.

Joe finally calmed down after about half an hour and fell asleep in Zoe’s arms. Everyone finally apologised to Joe when he woke up and Zoe was being very protective of her little brother to make sure he’s safe and nobody tries to hurt or upset him again. 

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Your Fault

Hey! sorry I know I've been away for so long but here is a story I've had in my drafts for a while that I have finally continued. 

Warning: Mentions of suicide, eating disorders and self harming

“ It’s all your fault”

“It’s your fault Caspar is gone”

“You’re the reason he’s dead”

“You deserve to rot in hell”

“You really are a worthless unloved bastard” 

Those are just some of the horrible words that have been thrown at Joe since Caspar passed. His friends and family all believe that Joe is the reason for Caspar’s death so they have all completely shut him out of their lives. This has left Joe to deal with depression, anxiety and panic attacks all alone. He no longer eats, sleeps or lives his life. The one thing Joe does do is self harm he likes to think it’s his coping mechanism to deal with the loss of the love of his life and his family all shutting him out. He loved Caspar with all of his heart and wanted to spend the rest of his life with him, he never would of thought Caspar would listen to the haters he thought Caspar was strong. 

It’s been about 3 months since Caspar passed and it hasn't got any easier for Joe. Nobody checks on him to see how he is holding up they all just don’t care anymore in Joe’s eyes he means nothing to them. Joe’s life has been hell and all he wishes for is that Caspar was still here because nobody would shut him out and he’d be happy. Joe wants nothing more than for his family or friends to ring him up and ask how he is holding up and if he wants them to come and see him, but sadly he knows that won’t happen. 

“I miss you Casp, I-I can’t go on like this anymore, everyone hates me.. They are all blaming me for your death saying I was the main reason you are dead.” Joe sobbed as he looked up at the ceiling. “I love you Caspar I hope you’re having fun up there with the angels” He continued as more tears fell down his pale cheeks. Joe curled up on his bed and cried and cried for hours..

“Zoe I think you should go and check on Joe” Alfie said coming into the living to sit by Zoe. “Why? I don't have anything nice to say to him. Alfie he is the reason one of our best friends is dead!” Zoe continued. “Zoe just hear me out ok?” Zoe looked at Alfie waiting for him to continue. “Joe is your brother, your little brother. It’s been three months since Caspar i.e. Joe’s boyfriend committed suicide. It’s been three months and nobody has even bothered to check on the poor boy, he’s lost the person he loves Zo and nobody has been there for him everyone has just been blaming him for Caspar's death. Joe would never want Caspar to die, he bloody loved him so much.” Alfie paused trying not to cry in front of Zoe. “Zo please Joe is your little brother, he’s problem so broken you saw how fragile and frail he looked at Caspar's Funeral and not one person gave Joe a hug or a look of sympathy it was all just pure hatred and disgust, imagine how Joe must be feeling. His friends and family have abandoned the poor guy when he’s lost someone close to him. To me, that sounds sickening” Alfie finished waiting for Zoe’s response. He looked up to see tears fall down Zoe’s cheeks. “Y-You’re right Alf. I have been such a bad sister to him. I mean he’s lost his boyfriend for crying out loud and I had to go and treat him the way I did. When I saw him at Caspar’s funeral for the first time since Caspar died truthfully my heart broke, he looked so broken and fragile; I wanted to just go up to him and hug him but at the same time I was angry at him because I thought he could of stopped Caspar from doing it but in reality Joe never knew anything until he read the letter. How could I have been so stupid to treat my little brother so disgustingly.” Zoe finally spoke as she started sobbing into Alfie’s shoulder. “Shhh shhh it’s okay baby, we can go and see Joe we can go and make sure he’s holding up ok and you can give him all the love and support he needs” Zoe nodded and Alfie kissed her head. 

Joe ended up having yet again another panic attack. He needed his Caspar back. Joe got up and dragged his fragile small body into his bathroom. He rested his hands on the sink and looked up at the mirror to see his face was all red and puffy from crying, his cheeks were sunken in from him not eating and he looked so so pale and to top it all off he had huge bags under his eyes from not sleeping properly for the past three months. Joe looked to his left and noticed his razor was just sitting there. “I-I think I-It’s time again” Joe sobbed as he grabbed his razor with a shaky hand and sat on the floor leaning against his bath and started drawing more lines into his pale skin. 

“one cut for being so worthless”

“two cuts for being the reason Caspar is gone”

“three cuts for your family leaving you”

“four cuts for still being alive”

And this continued for another 6 more cuts. When Joe was done he watched the bloody fall off of his arm onto the tile floor hoping he would bleed to death so he didn't have to be in pain anymore. More tears fell down Joe’s cheeks making him hiccup after every sob. “I don’t want to be here anymore” Joe sobbed louder and louder. 

Part 2?

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Good Enough

Prompt: Joe receives a lot of hate and Caspar comforts him.

Inspired by the Little Mix song Good Enough.

Warning: Triggering, mentions of self harm and suicide. 

 Ugly

 Fat

 Worthless

 Kill yourself 

Fag

Just a couple of the messages that Joe was recieving from people who are meant to be his fans. Ever since Joe came out about his sexuality he has been receiving a lot of hate, normally there’s always positive comments within Joe’s videos but this time there wasn’t even one nice comment he could see. People thought Joe was playing a prank on them but he wasn't. To make it worse Joe’s been loosing subscribers because people don't want to watch a gay person who isn't Connor, Tyler, Joey or Troye. 

it’s been one week since Joe came out to his “Viewers” and to say the hate has calmed down would be a lie, if anything it’s gotten worse as more and more people have seen the video. Caspar has noticed a change in Joe. In fact he’s hardly seen the boy since he came out, Joe’s locked himself in his room for a week now and Caspar’s really worried as he has seen the hate that Joe’s gotten on his video. 

“Joe?” The younger boy spoke as he knocked on Joe’s door. “Not n-now Caspar” Joe’s voice echoed through the door. “Baby what’s wrong? Open the door JoJo” Caspar begged his boyfriend trying to open the door but remembering it was locked. “Joe come on open the door” Caspar said getting frustrated with the smaller boy. Finally after some shuffling around the door open revealing Joe with tear stained cheeks and puffy eyes. Caspar’s heart melted looking at his little Joe looking so sad and broken. “Awn babe come here” Caspar said pulling Joe’s small body into his arms as Joe immediately wrapped his arms around Caspar’s torso and started sobbing into Caspar’s strong chest. “Shhh it’s okay baby I'm here you’re okay I promise” Caspar soothed his crying boyfriend. 

After a while Joe’s cries reduced to sniffles. “Do you want to tell me what’s wrong JoJo” Caspar asked hoping Joe would open up to him about what's happened. “T-T-they s-said t-that I'm n-not g-good e-enough f-for y-you.. a-and t-that I-I s-should k-kill m-myself b-because I-i’m a f-fag a-and I-i’m u-ugly” Joe cried into Caspar’s chest. Caspar was shocked none of those things were true how can people be so cruel especially to his Joe. “JoJo none of those things are true baby your beautiful, your more than good enough for me and please don’t ever try to kill yourself because I would be heartbroken if I lost you. You are my life JoJo and I love you very much please don’t listen to them idiots because you make me happy and also I am so proud of you coming out. I Love you JoJo” Caspar smiled and planted a soft kiss on Joe’s lips. “I-I love you too Caspy” Joe smiled snuggling into his boyfriend. “Come on baby let’s go to bed and cuddle” Joe nodded and Caspar scooped Joe up in his arms leading him to his room before placing him on his bed and getting into bed himself pulling Joe into his chest. Joe snuggled into his boyfriends protective hold feeling safe in his arms. “Joe?” Caspar asked. “Yeah Caspy?” Joe replied moving his head to look at Caspar. “Please don’t hurt yourself again I am always here for you and I love you so much okay?” Caspar spoke looking at Joe’s cut wrists and kissing his cuts softly. “ I promise Caspy, I love you so much too” Joe cuddled into Caspar closing his eyes as Caspar planted a soft kiss on his head. 

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Hey can you do one shot where Joe going a lot of hate and Casper comforts him

sure :)

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Who do you do prompts for?

At the moment I only write prompts for Joe and Caspar ( I mainly write them about Joe though)

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Do u write about 5sos.

I used to I don’t anymore sorry :(

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I’M BACK!

Hey guys its meg I have finished college for two months so I’m going to start writing again so send me in as many prompts as you want and I'll do them for you :)

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Amity Fest Surprise

Joe’s POV:

I am currently traveling down to Brighton to surprise my fellow youtubers at the Amity Fest show. Nobody knows that I am coming so I'm so excited to surprise them. I would have been on the tour but about 5 days ago I ate something I shouldn’t of and ended up getting really severe food poisoning so I couldn’t make it to the Liverpool and Birmingham shows. I'm starting to feel a little better so I decided to come down to the Brighton show as it’s the biggest one with the most people and I couldn’t miss the last show. 

After an hour or so we arrived at the arena, I thanked my uber driver and got out of the car hoping to not be seen. I texted Dom our manager to open the door to let me in and he did. I put my bag down in the green room and then walked towards the stage and I noticed that they were all on stage throwing a javelin each and they had a cardboard cut of me and it was about to be my turn so Dom handed me a javelin and I ran on stage to take my throw myself. The whole crowed went wild when I ran on stage everyone of my youtube friends were shocked and then they all ran over to hug me. 

After the show

We were all back stage and everyone was still so shocked that I surpassed them. “I’m so glad you’re here” Niomi said jumping up and down. I smiled at her. Everyone was vlogging and wanted to show that i was here. I noticed Zoe walking towards me to give me another hug. “How are you feeling buddy?” Zoe asked hugging me. “Still a bit dodgy, my stomach still isn’t right but I'm getting there” I laughed. “I’m so glad you came, it hasn’t been the same without you. I missed my broseph” I smiled at Zoe and hugged her again. “ I missed you too Zo and I'm glad I could make it” I replied as we went to sit on the couch in the green room. Zoe sat next to me and I snuggled into her chest as I could feel my stomach start to hurt but I managed to drift off to sleep.

Zoe’s POV:

We all went into the green room and Joe snuggled up to me on the couch and fell asleep. “I'm guessing he’s still not right?” Alfie questioned sitting down on the chair. “I don’t think so, he’s never had it this bad before I'm worried about him he’s lost a lot of weight because of it too.” I stated rubbing Joe’s hand softly. I looked down at Joe and noticed he was a lot paler then before and he started to move in his sleep. “Joe are you ok bub?” I asked quietly so nobody else could here. “Hurts” Joe cried, my heart broke for him. “Do you want to be sick buddy?” I asked and I felt Joe shake his head no as he cuddled into me further. I looked at the noticed that it was time to leave but Joe was still asleep in my arms. I tapped him slightly as he stared in his sleep and then groaned. “Buddy I have to go now the bus is here to take me home.” I cooed but Joe just snuggled further into me before saying. “N-No d-don’t leave m-me” He cried. “Your not alone Joe you have Caspar, Jim and Tan” I said but Joe wined. “N-No I want y-you” Joe cried as a tear fell down his cheek. “Awh Joe it’s ok you can stay at mine and Alfie’s tonight if you want” I said and Joe instantly nodded. I helped Joe up and said goodbye to everyone. 

We finally arrived home and I helped Joe inside and to the guessed bedroom as it was already midnight. “Z-Zo” I heard Joe’s small voice call. “Yeah? What’s wrong buddy?” I asked worried. “T-Thank you for letting me stay, I-i love you Z-Zo” I smiled at my little brother and hugged him before kissing his head. “Of course Joe you’re my little brother I'll do anything for you and I love you too so much” I smiled. I noticed Joe was falling asleep so I looked him in and kissed his head again. “Goodnight Joe I love you” I said before leaving the room and going to bed myself. 

I came up with this as I was rewatching the videos from when Joe surprised everyone at the Brighton Amity Fest. Don’t forget to keep sending in your prompts and I'll do them as soon as I can. - Megs

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Masterlist

Joe Sugg

Thunder and Lightning

Hates Me

Amity Fest Surprise

Good Enough

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Hates me.

Joe’s POV 

Caspar hates me, Zoe hates me, Alfie hates me.

 Pretty much everyone hates me. 

What have I got left? 

Nobody wants me in their life.

 I looked at my pale tear stained face in the mirror. I looked horrible but I don’t care because I deserve all the pain I can get. You might be wondering why I’m so broken and depressed, well I screwed everything up I ruined the most important persons life. Caspar’s life. I was drunk at a club and I ended up kissing a girl who’s name I can’t remember not that I care. I tried to explain to Caspar that it was a mistake and that I love him and nobody else can change that but he didn’t want to hear my excuses and to be honest I don’t blame him. As the days went by all my friends and family started leaving me everyday. To my surprise the first person besides Caspar to leave me was Zoe, out of everyone I thought she would of stayed with me and helped me through my depression but no she was the first one to leave me. To say I wasn’t hurt would be a complete lie when Zoe left me my life fell even more apart. I haven’t eaten since Caspar left, I haven’t slept since Caspar left but I have started self harming though I deserve to feel all the pain I can get and that’s one of the ways I can hurt myself for what I did to Caspar. I’ve noticed that Caspar has been out with his new girlfriend Maddie, she seems to be really nice and she treats him probably way better than I could ever do. I miss Caspar more than anything and I know that he will never want me back. I have had no contact with anyone my friends and family don’t care about me anymore and I know that my subscribers don’t care about me anymore they have all sided with Caspar and to be honest I don’t blame them one bit. I’m just a worthless, ugly, unwanted, boy who should just die because he’s not wanted here anymore by anyone. I’ve stopped making youtube videos not that anyone has noticed that I’ve stopped. Caspar still makes videos and gets even more views and subscribers now, his channel is blowing up and I’m so happy for him, at least he’s not crying over me because I’m not worth his tears, he’s worth mine but I’m not important to anyone whereas Caspar is so important to many people. 

I’m just worthless. 

Zoe’s POV:

“Thank you for letting me stay here Zoe I really appreciate it” Caspar said nicely. I smiled at him warmly. “Oh no problem Casp it’s the least I could do because of what Joe did I just wanted you to know that not all Suggs are bad people” I replied and Caspar nodded. “Have you heard from him?” Caspar asked after the long silence. I shook my head no. “I don’t want anything to do with him after what he did to you” I replied angrily. “Zo I know he hurt me and all but he is your brother and I bet he’s really upset because by the sounds of things he has nobody to talk to too, it seems that everyone has stopped talking to him.” Caspar replied and I felt bad. Yes Joe has done something stupid but he’s my brother and I’ve neglected him when he’s needed me the most but I don’t think I want to speak to him just yet because I’m still disappointed about what he’s done. “I don’t think I want to speak to him, I mean he hurt one of my best friends, I can’t face him when I’m angry at him it will only make the situation worse” I spoke. Caspar signed. “Zoe he’s your brother, your little brother he needs you, he needs his big sister to hold him and tell him he’ll get through this even if me and him aren’t together. You can’t neglect your baby brother he’s family Zoe and I’m pretty sure every other family member has left him too including your parents” Caspar explained and he’s right. I’ve neglected my little brother and I’m pretty sure he’s hurting a lot more than Caspar is I mean his friends and family have left him. I’ve left him. “Your right Casp I need to call him” Caspar smiled and nodded and left the room while I called Joe. I Dailed Joe’s number but it kept ringing, it got to the last ring and thats when I heard his soft but broken voice on the other end of the phone. “H-h-e-ello” Joe spoke very quietly making my heart break. “H-hey buddy I-its me Zoe” I spoke softly and calmly. “Z-Z-Zoe” Joe cried making my heart break even more. “Joe are you ok?” I asked hesitantly. “D-Don’t act l-like y-you -c-care i-i k-know y-you d-don’t” I was shocked by his answer he thinks I don’t care, my little brother thinks I don’t care about him. “Joe I’m so sorry I’m so sorry buddy, I do care about you I care about you so much ok I love you Joe” I spoke truthfully but all I heard was Joe’s soft but broken sobs. “I-I want t-to d-die I-I h-have n-nobody” With that he ended the call. I sat there for a second in shock, then it hit me my little brother is going to kill himself. I jumped off of the sofa and ran to my car and drove off. “I’m coming Joe I’m coming buddy” I spoke to myself as tears fell down my face. I finally arrived to Joe’s flat and I immediately got out of my car and rushed up the stairs and into the building. I remembered that Joe always keeps a spear key under the door mat incase of emergencies. I quickly grabbed the key and rushed to unlock the door. Once I unlocked the door I barged through the door. “Joe were are you buddy!?” I called out frantically. No answer. “Joe? It’s me Zoe, where are you buddy?” I called again, no reply but I heard broken tiny sobs coming from Joe’s bathroom. I opened the bathroom door and I was shocked at what I saw. Joe was sitting on the bathroom floor with a blade in his hand and his knees up to his chest as he sobbed and shook intensely. I quickly ran over to Joe and pulled his tiny body into my arms and kissed his head. “Shhhh shhh bub I’m here I’m not going anywhere I promise. I’m so sorry Joe I’m so sorry for being such a bad sister and not being there for you when you needed me the most. I love you Joe so much please don’t ever forget that” I spoke to my broken little brother. I planted another soft kiss on his head and held him tighter as he clung to me tighter. “I-I-I’m s-s-orry f-for hurting ca-caspar I’m s-so s-s-orry z-zo” Joe sobbed and his small body started shaking even more. “Shhhhhhh Joe its okay Caspar’s fine he was the one who persuaded me to come and check on you, I was being selfish and Caspar pulled me back into reality and made me realise that your my little brother and I’m pretty much all you have besides Caspar and I need to be there for you and love you and care with everything in me. I love you so so much Joe” I spoke as Joe cutely snuggled into me even more. I can’t believe I was so stupid and left my baby brother to suffer all alone and I know he’s gone through so much too.  I looked back down at my little brother as he was snuggled into my side I smiled softly at him. He's so small and thin I really need to help him get back to his normal self. I know it's going to be hard but I can't give up on him he's family and family stick together. “Come on buddy let’s get you to bed” I carefully picked up Joe’s small body and carried him to his bed. I placed my little brother in his bed and tucked him in then kissed his head. I was about to leave when Joe grabbed my hand. “S-Stay p-please” Joe finally spoke softly I smiled down at him and got into the covers with Joe and he cuddled into my chest. I kissed his head again and wrapped my arms around Joe’s tiny body. “I love you so much broseph and I promise to never leave you alone ever again. I’m going to help you through this Joe your going to get your precious adorable smile back and your going to back to the Joe I know and love so much I'll make sure of it” I spoke softly to Joe. “T-Thank y-you Z-Zo I-I l-love you” Joe replied making sure he cuddled into me as much as possible before lifting off to sleep. 

I will do everything in my power to make my brother happy again.. 

I promise Joe.

Well! first one shot back I hope you enjoyed it and feel free to inbox me your prompts if you have any and I'll be sure to do them when I can. -Megs

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This song now means a whole lot more to me than it already did. Ever since what happened in Manchester this song has stayed with me it does make me really emotional because this song is dedicated to our beautiful 22 angels who past away after Ariana’s concert this song will forever be dedicated to those beautiful angels and the victims of the attack. If any of you where affected by the attack you can dm me I was at that concert too and trust me I know it’s hard but I'm here for everyone and we will stand together and not let those imbosiles win.