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Sunlight peaks through the curtains, shining down at your sleepy face. You rub your eyes, half asleep, and turn over. You find yourself facing your SP, his strong arms tight around you, his legs twining with yours as if preventing your from ever escaping. You stroke his face lovingly, pulling the covers over the two of you. As you start to draft back to sleep you feel your SP let go of you. You hear his footsteps going towards the bathroom. You pull the covers over yourself and turn over, awaiting his return. You check your clock sitting at your bedside table and see that you have a few more hours before you need to wake up. You feel your SP crawl back into bed, sliding his arms around you and pressing his body against yours. Your body shivers against his skin.

You: Jaan.... your cold...

SP: oh yeah?

SP: you should warm me up then

You can practically feel him grinning against your back. You gasp as he kisses your neck making his way down your back. Your gasps turn to moans as he wraps his arms around you and starts pleasing you. Of course, you can't help but respond to him. He always feels good.

Shortly after, as the two of you settle down in each other's arms you hear the buzz of your alarm go off. You turn off the alarm and stretch against your SP, giving him a kiss on his forehead.

You: time to wake up, Jaan

Your SP looks at you and yawns, grabbing his phone to see what time it is. You slide out of bed and slip on your luxurious red silk robe. You patter down to the bathroom to wash your face and brush your teeth. Your SP joins you shortly after, kissing your neck and hugging you while helping you wash up. As the two of you exit the bathroom, the door to the room next to yours slowly opens. A young girl, with the same hair color as yours yet, the same eyes as Sp's greets you. She rubs her eyes and yawns. This is your oldest daughter, named after you as your SP always wanted. The room across the hall also opens, and twin boys come tumbling out. Despite being younger than their sister, they are always protective of her. A smile crosses you face, and warmth fills your body as you are surrounded by your living family. A husband who loves you and always cares for you and children who are equally adorable. You patter down to the kitchen, getting breakfast ready for the kids and SP. Your kitchen is large, and modernized with a full sized secret pantry. Its beautiful with an island in the middle. Your SP follows you down shortly after, with the kids ready and dressed for school. You can't help but admire SP's fashion sense, as hr always picks out the cutest outfits for them.

Daughter: Mom! I want toast!

Boys: US too! We want toast too!

Boys: and eggs!!!!

You laugh at your children's sweet request which you grant almost immediately. SP assists in settling the children down on your dark oak dining table. You fill glasses of milk for all three of them, making sure they finish them all. As the children finish their meal, your SP grabs their backpacks and puts their lunch together. You make sure they have everything as you walk them out the door. All three of your children hug and kiss you good bye before riding the bus for school. SP twines his fingers with yours as the two of you watch the school bus go by. The two of you head back into the house and as soon as you do, SP lifts you up into his arms.

Sp: well! It's the two of us now!

Sp: let's have some fun...

You laugh at his sexy growl, knowing exactly what he mean. He settles you on top of the dining table, wrapping his arms around you and kissing you.

You: mmm... Jaan

SP: mmm?

He barely breaks away from your skin, his lips trailing down your neck to your shoulders

You: we should probably get ready to open the clinic, you know...

You at the peak of your career with the help and support of your so finally own your own building. On top of that, with the last year you've opened up your own clinic, having SP help and work at the clinic alongside you. It felt incredible being your own boss and being able to make so much money. Your house in itself was proof of all your hard work. Grandiose with a beautiful sun room you've always wanted, complete with plants and an indoor swing and shelves for all your books. A gaming room, you always craved as a child with all your favorite games, now including your children's favorite games. And a large scale basement, thriving with SP's favorite gym equipment and marathon ribbons. You also finally have your own study, a room all to yourself for your work, complete with a beautiful windowsill, plants resting alongside it, a large shelf for all your fantasy and non fantasy books. And a high powered PC, best of its kind. Not to mention all sorts of art supplies and a tablet for you to draw to your hearts content. And, more recently, you and SP had released your latest project. Project 13: Lionheart. Based on your SP's love for marathons and triathlon and your designs, the two of you came up with the ultimate sportswear. Business in itself was amazing, and sometimes you couldn't believe how far you'd gotten. You let your fingers run over the side of your Sp's face, staring into his eyes.

You: I love you

Your SP couldn't help but smile. He kissed you in response, his arms wrapping around you tighter.

Sp: I love you too jaan

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Going to dinner with SP

Today is the day. Finally both you and SP have a day off together and SP has planned a romantic dinner getaway for the two of you. Your super excited and can't wait to see him. As such, directly upon waking you go through your closet, attempting to pick out the perfect outfit. When you can't find anything you go to the mall and end up buying way more than what you should have, along with some sexy lingerie to get SP in the mood. You had found the perfect dress. A shimmery blue dress that had a cross string tie at the back. It basically was a business in front, party in the back kind of dress with your bare upper back showing through the strings on the back. Yet, you felt strangely sexy when wearing it and decided it was the perfect one. You lay your outfit out over your bed, picking out everything to match with it. Jewelry, shoes even what purse your going to take. You can barely contain the excitement. Just then you hear you'd phone vibrate from your desk.

SP: are you ready for tonight meri jaan?

You: Yes! I can't wait.

SP: I can't wait either. I want to hold you so badly.

SP: I miss you already

You: Pick me up early then!

You laugh at his sweet messages, along with some of the dirty ones. You put your phone down and quickly get in the shower, preparing to get ready. You finish your shower, making sure you skin was smooth and smelling good. You put lotion on, to keep your skin soft and quickly put on the dress you picked out. As you walk past the mirror you can't help but admire yourself, raising your self esteem even more. You do your make up and style your hair, everything going perfectly. As your doing your final touches and putting on your jewelry, you hear your phone ring. It's you SP and he's at the gate. You stride towards the door, taking one last look to make sure you have everything. You take one last look in the mirror to make sure you look perfect. As you walk out the door, your heels clicking against the sidewalk, you see SP holding a bouquet of small pink roses. SP always thought pink suited you best, while he loved seeing you in every color, he always thought your sweet personality matched pink the best. You watch as his eyes fill with lust at the sight of you, his jaw nearly dropping.

You: Hey! Were you waiting long?

You brush a strand of your hair behind your ears, showing off your matching earrings. It took a while for SP to respond. He was stunned at your beauty. He wrapped his arm around you, pulling you in to kiss you.

You: mmm, did you miss me?

SP: what do you think?

You giggle against his lips before pulling away. You take the bouquet from him, taking a second to smell the flowers before taking his hand. You follow him to his car, and he opens the door for you. Your heart is pounding and you can't seem to quite calm yourself. This night, was going to be unforgettable.

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Rainy Days with SP

Your sitting in your living room in your favorite swing, which is adjacent to the backdoor to your apartment. The sliding door from where you can enter, is essentially a window which brings in the most sunlight on a sunny day. Your lazily turning the pages of a manhwa you've already read. Suddenly, you hear the unlocking of your apartment door, and you see your SP come in. You smile, your face lighting up at seeing his face. You get off your swing to rush over to hug him. He wraps his arms around you tightly, lifting you up, and carrying you to the couch.

You: How was your day?

You ask, running your fingers through his hair as he buries his face into your neck and chest.

SP: Mmm... SP: Busy....

He sighs against you, his body sinking into yours. You laugh and pull him closer, wrapping your arms around him. The two of you cuddle like that for what seems like forever. As night falls, you suddenly see a flash of light out of the corner of your eye. You look over at the window, wondering if a car was passing by. That's when you see it again. That beautiful flash of power from the skies striking down on the earth. Lightning. And shortly after, you hear the booming sound of thunder, loud enough to shake your apartment. You whimper, and your SP pulls you into his arms.

SP: It's only thunder You: I know!

You whine. The loud boom of thunder always scared you as a child, despite this you couldn't look away whenever it rained. And sure enough, the first drops pitter patted on to the window. You attempt to pull out of SP's grip, to get closer to the window.

SP: Jaan... SP whines, refusing to let go. You: It's raining!

The happiness in your voice gives you away, and your SP reluctantly lets you go. You go up to the window, pulling the blinds away from the sliding door. You open the door and the screen, pulling them apart and put your hand out into the air. As the first pitters hit your hand, a smile spreads over your face.

SP: Jaan.... SP: You'll catch a cold

You turn and grin at him. The sky, as if knowing your intentions, suddenly starts pouring the rain down, and you slip out onto your balcony.

SP: JAAN!

Your SP chases after you, knowing how much your childish side loves to play in the rain. Despite this, he couldn't help but worry about you getting sick. You laugh as your SP chases you, and eventually catches you in his arms. The warmth of his body against yours felt like a relief from the cold of the rain.

SP: Your shivering You: I know.... You: Just 5 more mins...

You turn your face up towards the sky, the rain hitting your face ever so lightly. Your SP tightens his arms around you, and kisses your neck. You laugh, pulling your arms around his arms, his warmth seeping into you. By the time the two of you went back inside, your clothes were completely soaked. You and your SP change into some comfy matching pajamas and dry each others hair off. You make some warm tea for you and SP while he sets up the tv and blankets. The two of you cozy up on the couch, slowly sipping tea and listening to the pitter patter of the rain while watching your favorite shows.

SP: Jaan? You: Hm?

SP is sitting behind you, his arms around your waist. You turn your head to look at him, only to be met with his lips.

SP: I love you

He whispers against your lips. You smile, feeling yourself blushing. You pull yourself closer to him, gliding your fingers across his face.

You: I love you too

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Being Sick With SP

Its a saturday morning, and yet, you are absolutely exhausted. Sometime last night, the fever set in, and you slept a whole 12 hours on and off due to the fever. You wake up with a splitting headache, sweaty and hot from the fever. Your throat is burning and parched and you don't feel like moving. You force yourself to get up from the bed, the bed creaking softly as you move. You take a sip of water, the fluid easing the burn in your throat. That's when you hear the door to your apartment unlock.

SP: Jaan?

You hear your SP call out to you. You hear him rumage the living room, putting his stuff down and padding towards the bedroom. You look up at him standing in the door way.

SP:Jaan... You: I don't feel good

You choke out the words, your throat hurting just to speak. Your SP rushes towards you, placing the back of his hand against your forehead.

SP: Your burning up!

You shake your head, moving his hand away from you and pushing him away.

You: You'll get sick too! You breathe out the words, your head splitting. SP: Lie down. Lie down!

Your SP forces you back in bed, pushing you against the mattress. He covers you with the comforter, and puts a cool towel over your forehead.

SP: Did you eat? You: No... SP: stay here, I'll get something.

A little while later, SP returns. In a tray, there's your favorite ramen noodles and some tylenol along with a cup of warm tea. Your SP helps you sit up, adjusting the pillows behind you. Then, taking the fork in his hand he gives you a fork full of noodles.

SP: Ah!

SP motions for you to open your mouth. You smile, before taking the noodles in your mouth. The warmth from the food eases your throat. Your SP continues to feed you despite your protests that you could, in fact feed yourself. Afterwards, he gives you the tylenol, making sure you swallow it all. He then lays with you, wrapping his arms around you as you finish your tea. He puts on your favorite show, making sure you are comfortable. The warmth from his body helps you relax, and you can feel the fever coming off.

You: You know, your going to get sick if you keep staying this close. SP: I don't care. SP: I'd do anything for you.

You smile, and lay your head over his chest. After a while, you can feel your eyelids get heavy, as you drift off to sleep in his arms.

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Exam Stress with SP

Midterms are right around the corner and you could not be more stressed. You sigh, unable to focus as you sit in front of your laptop in your bedroom looking through your school study guide. You stand and stretch for a bit, giving your body the movement it so deeply craved. As you finish your stretch, you hear your phone ring. You reach over to sew who it might be. A smile crosses your face as you see you SP's name across the phone screen.

You: Jaan!

SP: What are you up to my love?

You: I'm trying to study for my midterm. Well, trying to.

SP: aw, my baby. You want me to teach you?

Unable to suppress the urge to laugh, a giggle escapes your mouth over the phone. You SP was always really good at teaching, but you were worried if the two of you would actually study or get distracted by each other.

You: you'll teach me?

SP: of course meri jaan

SP: I'll always help you.

You feel yourself blushing. SP's support always meant a lot to you. Him being there for you was always the best feeling in the world.

You: okay! Why don't you come over?

You: we can order food too!

SP: that sounds good jaan. I can't wait to see you.

You: yay! Okay! See you soon!

You pause for a moment before hanging up the phone.

You: Jaan?

SP: mm?

You: I love you

You hear your SP chuckle over the phone.

SP: I love you too meri jaan ko.

You can't help but giggle, you feel yourself blushing as the two of you hang up. The excitement of seeing your SP and spending time with him floods your mind. You hurrily get ready for SP, changing into something cute yet comfy. You set up your laptop and books, knowing SP would definitely go through your book and help you understand things better. All of a sudden, all your stress seemed to fade away. With your SP beside you, there's nothing to fear after all.

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Afternoons off with SP

After a long day of clinical, you finally returned home. As you pull into your apartment garage you sigh, your body feeling the exhaustion from the day. Despite that, you are excited, your SP finally took a day off after working night shifts consecutively. Walking up to your apartment, you can feel your heart beat grow faster. You open the door to the apartment, the pineapple scent from the air freshener plug in fills your nostril.

SP: Jaan!!!

Your SP welcomes you home, wrapping his arms around you and giving you kisses. You laugh against his lips, falling back from the weight of him and your bagpack. His one arm wraps around your waist, his hand sliding up your back, supporting you. His other arm takes your heavy bag from you.

You: Jaan...

You moan as he kisses your neck, pulling you into the living room. He sets your bag down next to the dining room and lifts you up, pulling your legs around him. His kisses grow deeper, exploring your mouth, hungry and wanting. He takes you to the bedroom, sprawling you out on the bed, devouring every inch of you.

After your steamy moment with SP you sprawl out on the bed, the hunger of the day hitting you.

You: Do you want to make something? Or should we order?

SP: Whatever you want, Jaan.

He says, pulling your body into his and wrapping his arms around you. You think about what could be in the fridge. You remember that you wanted to make pasta.

You: let's make something.

You say, attempting to pull out of his grasp to get out of bed. He whines in protest, pulling you back into him and tightening his grip.

You: Jaaan!

You: I'm hungry!!!!

You whine against his lips as he kisses you.

SP: okay, okay. Let's make something.

You laugh as you finally escape his grasp, sliding out of bed. You throw your lingerie and robe over your arms. You notice your SP watching you, the lust back in his eyes. You roll your eyes and patter towards the kitchen, tying up your long hair. SP follows shortly after, he comes up behind you, wrapping his arms around you as you cut the zucchini for the pasta. You giggle as he kisses your neck before helping you cut up the vegetables. The two of you laugh and tease each other as you finish making the pasta between loving kisses and hugs.

You take out two bowls, and add the fresh pasta into each of them, sprinkling cheese over the top. You bring the bowls to the couch, where SP is sprawled out, setting up your favorite anime show. You plop down next to him, and his arm slides around you immediately. You take some pasta on a fork and offer it to him, which he happily accepts.

SP: Mmm!!! It's good, Jaan!

You: yeah?

He nuzzles his face into your neck, happy after being fed by you. The two of you snuggle on the couch, watching your favorite show and eating the pasta the two of you made.

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Mornings with SP

The sun shining in from the blinds of your bedroom window hits your face, awakening you from your sleep. You stretch your arms and legs, spreading out on your queen sized bed like a cat awakening from slumber. A yawn escapes your mouth and as you debate sleeping in a little bit more. That's when you hear your phone vibrate on your night stand. You open your phone, and see that it is a message from your sp.

SP: Good Morning Meri Jaan! ❤️

SP: I miss you. Come to the gym, let's work out! The class starts at 8!

You pause for a moment, debating what to respond and whether or not to show up to the gym class. Your SP is always worried about you and always wants you to be strong and healthy.

You: Jaan! I miss you too.

You: Do I have to go? 🥺

You respond to his message, whining in your head. At the same time, you don't want to miss the opportunity to see his face. Even just seeing his face makes your entire day so much brighter and happier.

SP: come! I want to see you. And you need to get stronger!

You groan, reluctantly, agreeing to go. Your bed creaks slightly as you get up. As you make your way to your closet, you choose a cute popflex outfit to show off in front of your SP. You quickly brush your teeth and get ready, grabbing a protein bar as breakfast. As you drive to the gym, you sing along to your favorite songs to boost your mood. Pulling into the parking lot, you immediately notice SP's car and lo and behold there is a space next to his car waiting just for you. As you get out of your car, you notice your SP still wearing his scrubs from last night. He always did love going above and beyond, after a long night shift, hitting the gym to finish strong. You chuckle to yourself as you meet him at his trunk while he gathers your stuff.

SP: Wow!

SP exclaims, admiring your gym outfit. You feel yourself blushing at his reaction. He puts his arms around your waist, pulling you in for a kiss. The taste of his lips leaves your mouth tingling.

You: L - Let's go. We'll be late!

You stutter shyly as you pull away from his grasp. You hear him give a soft chuckle as he pulls your hand in his, twining his fingers. He kisses the back of your palm as you walk towards the gym entrance. The class itself was relatively small, however, the coach always pushed hard. Despite this, your SP always made time to look and make sure you were okay.

SP: Jaan, do it this way!

He showed you easier ways to do the workouts, so that you didn't hurt yourself. You nodded and followed his lead. At the end was the run, where you decided to push yourself a bit more. During the cool down stretches you brought your water bottle to your SP, noticing he didn't have water. He smiled at you.

SP: I'm proud of you Jaan.

You blush, feeling hotter than when you were running. He hands you back the water after taking a few gulps and you drink some as well. You notice your SP is drenched in sweat, and that's when he takes his scrub top off, revealing his abs, and changing into a clean shirt from his gym bag. Seeing him shirtless made you hungry for him as you slide your tongue over your lips. He pretends not to notice.

You: ready to go?

SP: yes!

You offer SP your hand as he gets up from the ground. The two of you walk out hand in hand to your cars. You put your gym bag in the trunk of your car, before going over to his car to say bye. But SP doesn't let you leave so easily, and pulls you into the backseat of his car giving you lots of kisses. His arms wrap around you tightly, as if you'd run away if he let go.

You: Jaan!!! I'm tired. And sweaty...

You whine against his lips. He nuzzles his face in your neck.

SP: I love you meri Jaan.

SP: I'm never letting you go. I never want to let you go.

SP: I'm so comfortable here. With you.

He grips you tighter, pressing your whole body into his, tangling your legs with his to prevent you from even thinking about leaving. You laugh, and nuzzle into his chest.

You: okay okay!

You: I'm not going anywhere

The two of you stay like that for a while, cuddling against each other, comfortable in each other's arms. The warmth from his body against your, feels like home.

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My love, my jaan,

I love, the way you wrap your arms around me

So tight as if you don't want to let me go

And when we sleep

You hold on to me

The whole night

Never wanting to let me go

You never let me go

And I'm never letting you go

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Script:

As I'm walking towards my car after a strenuous workout, I see him standing next to my car (sight). I hear his voice call out to me, (sound). I feel a smile come up on my face, completely involuntary, unable to hide my happiness at seeing him. He pulls me into his body and I feel the warmth of his arms sliding around me (touch) and i feel his lips press into mine. His lips taste like his favorite drink (sex on the beach), his tongue exploring the inside of my mouth, hungry (taste). I pull away for a breath and the scent of delicious hot chocolate fills my nose (smell).

[remembermewhentruthbecomesalone]

Take a good look at the countries leading/have started the legal battles to hold the IOF accountable -their fights to end IOF terrorism and war crimes, as this should have been done months ago, are now beginning.

So many Palestinian people have been genocided, and the rampant global government inaction has caused chaos, death, and destruction of Gaza... I just hope this leads to a permanent ceasefire and an end to the occupation. I truly do.

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In my new story.

He loves me.

He comes back to me.

We're already back together.

And he's crazy for me.

And I make so much money.

Without even doing anything.

he does more for me than he ever did.

he makes up for all the hurt he caused.

And in this new story.

This asshole that I'm stuck in this stupid arranged marriage with

Is gone

Once and for all

And I am free.

This is.

My new story.

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I dreamt of dying last night

And It scared me so bad

Not the feeling of dying

But the fact that I was actually

Afraid

Afraid to die

Can you believe it?

When really

I've only been afraid

Of losing you

Except, I already have

So why

Am I still afraid?

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I didn't want to wake up this morning

The thoughts of seeing you swirled in my head

I didn't want to go to the gym

For fear that you and her might be there

It killed me

To see that you are no longer my jaan

Meri jaan ko that I knew

That I love

That I'm so madly in love with

That I long for

So now,

I'm letting you go

Telling you all the things in my mind

That I wish I had said

So I have no regrets anymore

And one day I can look back

And think you were the on

That got away

So make sure

You finish your love story

And live happily ever after

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I miss you.

Even when it's all over

Even when I tell myself to move on

When I tell myself to stop crying

Because you will never be mine again

My heart won't listen

It'll want nothing more

Than to go back in time

To relive those memories

That's why

When I look at the photos of us

The tears don't stop

Because while my heart is happy

Just to see your face

It's also so very broken

Knowing that the only place you'll ever be

Is in my phone

Those moments will never happen again

But maybe one day

I'll feel your arms around me again

I'll taste the flavor of your lips

I'll get lost in your warmth

That's where my dreams are

Where my happy place is

Where I long to be

And where I long to die

If Ymir could pine for King Fritz

For 2000 years

Then why do you say

I should forget you

When Eren says he wants Mikasa

To pine for him for 10 years

Then why,

Do you say that I should forget you

When you know

I can't

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Some nights thoughts of you swirl through my mind and I have the hardest time holding back my tears. To think that during those times, perhaps everything we had together was fake. For you to get over someone you said was your soulmate so fast is heartbreaking. To think that I meant nothing to you after all. That despite everything, maybe I never actually made you happy after all.

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