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dream rat grinders fancast:

vic michaelis as kipperlilly

rekha shankar as ruben

katie marovitch as maryann

ross bryant as buddy

lily du as ivy

and hear me out … aabria iyengar as oisin

@heartswellz hype me up 🙏

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guys i've been trying to avoid time quangle spoilers but i heard there have been a bunch of queer character confirmations and it's keeping me up at night. without giving too much away can anyone tell me which characters and give me an idea of what they identify as so that i can get my bones to stop shaking??

just saying like "character - f/f" or "character - he/they" would be plenty, pls i'm begging

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i absolutely see Riz as aroace but i can't imagine him officially coming out to anyone right now because i don't think he's even come out to himself yet. if i were to place bets on which character says the word "aromantic" first in this campaign it would be 50/50 between Kristen or an NPC. Riz embodies "procrastinating your sexuality" like no one else

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do you think buddy had time to pray one last time?

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never wanted to be european before, this is sickening

THEY ARE ROLLING to pick characters in the live show, no wonder no-one knew nothing, THE CAST DIDNT KNOW

The combinations the combinations, I can't stop thinking about the Combinations

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calm after a storm

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if you like florence + the machine and also kristen applebees and figueroth faeth. may i offer you cassandra

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buddy dawn cannot raise himself from the grave.

buddy dawn is not a chosen one.

buddy dawn is a child.

buddy dawn was manipulated by organized religion through no fault of his own, most likely since he was born.

buddy dawn had his throat slit by people he probably considered good friends.

buddy dawn is kristen applebees in a different—worse—life.

buddy dawn is dead, and there’s a good fucking chance helio won’t answer his questions.

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probably insufferable but i hope bucky's adventuring party is patient with him. i hope they treat his attempts to convert them as a minor nuisance at best and all the friction he talks to his parents about is actually nonexistent. i hope they all like him for who he is. i hope his mask slips off while he's with them. I hope one of them made him the little beaded lizard hanging off his bag.

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As a therapist and an enjoyer of characters who should go to therapy, here’s what I think the Bad Kids would be like if they actually went to therapy.

Riz: Fidgeting SO HARD. Sometimes seems to love a fidget toy so much that you tell him he can keep it. You keep buying more fidget toys just for him. Every week his GAD-7 is a 19 and when you ask how he’s feeling he says, “Great!”

Fabian: Surprisingly easy. Instant rapport, responds to softballs like “do you think maybe you feel that way because your parents put a lot of pressure on you” as though they were profound revelations.

Gorgug: Does not take his headphones off, somehow completely present and engaged even though you can literally hear his music.

Adaine: Extremely impatient with the process. Wants to learn 5 cool tricks for not being anxious anymore and then bounce. Becomes accusatory when it isn’t “working” after a few sessions.

Fig: Spends the first 12 sessions alternately trying to shock you, asking increasingly specific questions about your reporting requirements (“would you have to report it if I murdered someone? what if a friend’s dad gave me drugs?”), and asking questions about the therapist to avoid talking about herself.

Kristen: Breathwork every single session. Major Crisis of the Week vibes. Reliably drops a huge bomb that changes everything in the last five minutes of session. (Fun fact: some therapists call this “door handling”.)

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just to ramble for a second as a buddy apologist, his death is hitting me in a way i didn't expect. as a queer agnostic from the south who grew up surrounded by religion, i have a lot of complicated relationships with real world buddies. brennan has so beautifully captured a very specific type of christian zealot that i am prone towards sympathizing with. bc if i hated every hyper religious person i came across i wouldn't be left with a lot of people. my extended family would shrink down to nothing. so i learned to compartmentalize the often micro aggressive things they're saying for my own sanity. i have to believe that they are just ignorant or brainwashed or misinformed or whatever or accept picking fights with everyone i meet. this is easiest when they're like buddy: dumb and sweet. so i put my faith in hoping that they are good but have been misled. i hold onto the hope that i could fix them by being kind to them. i know it's not likely, but we've already seen it happen with kristen in season one. i convince myself that i can fix the south by just living in it as myself and that these people will learn to truly love their neighbors by watching me do it. and then for buddy to be killed by his adventuring party, who already killed the cleric before him, is so jarring. bc even if buddy is "one of the good ones", he never got saved. so all that's left is the harm that he's done even if he did it with good intentions. buddy is dead and bobby's plan lives on and the south is still the south no matter how much southern charm i try to throw back at bigots in an attempt to gain their respect

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Totally not stuck thinking about what if Bucky becomes a Paladin of Ankarna. A young boy who leaves his abusive family, but doesn't have the doubt his sister did but rather clarity because Kristian already left and she found a family. Bucky has this proof that Kristian didn't; his bigger sister, his shield gave him the conviction to act.

Sol, the sun, cast his sister out and holds his younger brother to either suffer the same fate or to continue growing in abuse. Ankarna, however, gave him fury, in light, bright, and strong as the dawn to leave, to grab his brothers and run, to protect them from the wickedness of their home.

Bucky comes to live at Mordrid, getting to pray again with Kristian, but this time to the goddesses they choose rather than the god forced upon them. The two grow into adulthood next to each other. Coming to terms with their trauma, growing from a chaotic girl and an obedient boy. Becoming, for the first time, themselves.

Sister and Brother.

Cleric and Paladin.

Prophet of Doubt.

Saint of Conviction.

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i appreciate that the questions of the last stand seem to all be checking that the players have been paying fucking attention. let’s see if you’ve been listening to brennan bitch

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Normal fans are living vicariously through the Bad Kids while I, a school social worker, am living vicariously through Jawbone (nobody questions him talking about his polyamory and past drug use with students, and if a kid's parents suck too bad he gets to just take them home.)

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guillermo del toro’s pinocchio is a beautiful film but my god no one has adapted that story like neverafter. you can never look at it the same way again after listening to lou wilson, a black man, explaining that he chose to play as pinocchio because it’s a story about a little boy who isn’t allowed to make mistakes. that in pinocchio's story, he is fundamentally barred from childhood at once upon a time. he must earn something that everyone else is granted from birth. the other boys get to tell lies and play and get into trouble, but when pinocchio does the same thing there are grave and violent consequences. his pinocchio is trying to understand why the world is so unfair, why the rules are so different for him, why everyone else gets to be a real boy.

and I think about it every day.

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and what if i cry?? what then?

RICK PERRY THE GENIUS YOU ARE

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and what if i cry?? what then?

RICK PERRY THE GENIUS YOU ARE