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Okay i know we’ve all noticed the many, many parallels between Jean and Neil but do u ever think about how Jean and Andrew, after being having their boundaries violently crossed so many times, both found someone who will respect their boundaries at any cost?? do u???

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Of course Neil Josten, who understood Andrew's way of thinking and operating on promises and games quicker than anyone else, was able to wholly understand Jean's coping mechanisms to find a loophole that allowed him to live. This is the Neil who had to think fast every time he wanted truth out of Andrew because the other would never answer to or accept smalltalk. Neil knows what he's doing and he is so good at following the rules of those he cares about for their benefit

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obsessed with jean’s colorful insults/descriptions so here’s a compiled list of them in order

you arrogant fool (abby)

you imbecile (kevin)

your ball-battered brain (kevin)

you feckless child (kevin)

those clowns (trojans)

pet goalkeeper (andrew)

the tiny bastard (neil) [LMFAO]

kevin’s pet monster (andrew)

the sunshine court [derogatory]

wholesome in an unsettling, unhealthy way (the trojans)

unhinged optimist (renee)

some plump shrink (bee)

that creepy little goalkeeper andrew minyard [PLEASE i was fucking DEAD he has no idea how funny he is]

you tedious malcontent (neil) [probably my favorite one]

an abominable cockroach (neil)

the wayward child (neil) [jesus christ he is not taking it easy on neil]

andrew’s twin

worthless trash bags (foxes, past tense)

a rabid little fox (neil) [hey. remember when neil described andrew as a ‘rabid goalkeeper’ ???]

annoyingly easy to look at (jeremy)

strange and misguided (the trojans)

the cruelty of these nonstop temptations (kevin, renee, jeremy)

the sunshine court [less derogatory]

“I was hoping he would bite his tongue off in the fall and save us both some grief in the long run.” (lucas)

wretched beast (gr****n)

your ignorant mouth (lucas)

“Your apologies are as useful as perfume on a frog.” (lucas)

neil, being the person he was,

you ignorant child (neil)

miserable wretch (neil) [giving his everything to neil’s insults]

ok that’s all. unless i missed some. and if i did you have to add them it’s just law

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Neil Josten really came in at the end of The Sunshine Court, with his intimate understanding of the long-term side effects of sexual trauma, and said "He strung the noose himself when he came all the way here to put his hands on you, and I am not afraid to kick the stool out from under him." What an icon. No notes. We could only stan.

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So glad that I reread TKM the day before I started TSC

It made the overlapping chapters hurt so much more 🥲

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Joan of Exy ✌️

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gotta love how unhinged neil is when it comes to people he considers his. like oh, this guy’s bothering you? let me write a check real quick, there, you don’t need to worry about him anymore

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screaming crying and throwing up. nora I fear I won’t survive this

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Neil Josten does the most bizarre side quests ever.

Fly to other part of the country to cheat-chat with mafiosi Uncle? Why not

Demonise and manipulate FBI while eating a take out? Regular evening

Order a murder for another rapist, because fuck anyone who hurts Jean? FUCK YEAH

Share philosophy that he learned from his found family and boyfriend? Yes, pleaaase

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Thank you so much for the recent update! @korakos

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Thinking about how Andrew choked Kevin when he realised Neil was missing.

Andrew who would kill anyone who looked at Kevin the wrong way. Andrew who would stab whomever if it meant Kevin was safe. Andrew who saw a broken raven and said I’ll protect you and meant it and kept that promise like his life depended on it.

Andrew who nearly killed Allison because of a promise. Andrew who would’ve never talked to Neil again because of a promise.

Yet when there was ambulances and injured foxes and you were amazing before Neil’s gear with his phone, with a 0 on screen and a Baltimore caller ID, Andrew turned on Kevin.

Can you imagine being the other foxes and watching that happen? Knowing what Andrew would do to them for so much as breathing at Kevin in the wrong direction, now Neil was missing and Andrew was hurting Kevin and something is happening here.

Andrew and Kevin don’t have the luxury of a second language to talk to each other in, either. Whereas secrets were usually shared in French and German so the others couldn’t understand, now there’s nothing to hide behind, and Andrew doesn’t care either. Where is Neil, who is he, who’s taken him, is he safe? Is he alive?

Then picture being Kevin, knowing Andrew, knowing what this means, that Neil is more important to Andrew than he is now, so much so that he would hurt him for Neil. Not only does he know that; but he knows there’s a good chance that Neil is dead. If it’s his father, it’s not the Moriyama’s; he is the butchers son, after all, and the butcher was never keen to spare a life.

So the foxes know nothing and everything at the same time on that bus journey out to wait for his return. They know they’re hurt, that something is very wrong. They know Kevin has bruises around his neck, and Andrew can’t look him in the eye. They think they understand now why Neil got everything he asked for from Andrew; and Andrew thinks he might never see him again.

I’d say it was the quietest bus journey of their lives.

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Happy Trans Jesus Day of Easter Visibility

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if you've never engaged with a creative art on a regular basis you need to understand that it requires concerted effort to get into "the groove" to make something and every second that it takes to get into that groove causes physical pain, but the only thing worse than doing it is not doing it.

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renees tattoos

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CW: MCR :)

'Cause I love all the poison away with the boys in the band

Okay so this one is L O N G- Don't question the format I'm trying new things.

Aftg, it's been a while! Almost got a full playlist of song that would match aftg and that I would love to animate, unfortunately I have exams to pass (3rd year art school film incoming) so this is a kind of compromise.

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And then they make out

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thinking about all the inaccuracies in aftg again and crying