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nct 127 ◇ the link log ep.1 (mark lee)

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17daysofshua [D-11]

↳ jarms ♡

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‼️T/W Su*cide‼️ I ranted a lot here so... Yeah.

Today is 18th of December 2021. It's a hard day for SHAWOLS and Blingers all around the world. 4 years ago we lost an incredible singer, lyricist, producer but most importantly a poet and an artist, Kim Jonghyun. He had a beautiful soul. He always spoke about issues that are "taboo" in Korea, despite receiving backlash, he openly stood up for what he believed in. He wrote songs about depression and how hard it is to handle it. He refused to say "I love you" because it's such a "poignant phrase" but always expressed it with his actions. He never hid his struggles with mental health, he said that he wanted to talk about this topic more but his manager always stopped him, that's why he wrote songs about his feelings and desires. All he wanted for himself was peace and happiness. He always thought of other people first instead of himself. And 4 years ago he finally did something for himself. And that's not selfish at all. I wish we could go back in time and change the outcome but we obviously can't. Instead of feeling sad, I want everyone that knew him (whether you found out about him before or after his death, it doesn't matter) to celebrate his life.

💎 I want everyone that reads this post to tell me, how and when did you discover SHINee or Jonghyun for the first time. Let me go first.

The first time I found out about kpop was in 2008. I was 6, I just liked the music and I never knew what "stanning" meant or anything. But in 2013 was when I REALLY got into it. I knew SHINee but I never bothered to check them out because I wasn't interested in boy groups. In 2017 (around January I think) I was getting bored of just listening continuesly the same artist everyday. So I listened to "Tell me what to do" by SHINee. I was always more into groups that are strong vocally so I was fairly impressed by them. As time went by, I found myself getting more connected with Jonghyun. Then I started listening to his albums. They were magnificent. They way he portrayed his feelings and thoughts just got to me. Time goes by, he announced his 4th solo concert. I was happy for the fancams that are about to be filmed since I'm not Korean nor could I ever afford the tickets. Then December 18th hit. I woke up to commotion on Twitter saying that Jonghyun passed. Something felt really wrong. I had a feeling that it was he's own doing but I wasn't sure. Then about a few hours later, they said that it was suicide. I felt really... I don't know how to explain it. I didn't really feel anything if I'm being honest. I thought a lot about everything. His lyrics, his way of words, even his last Instagram live that he did when a fan asked him about his plans for the end of December and he said that he was going to rest. I never thought about it much at the time but... After everything, I realized he already made his decision a long time ago. He planned everything. He celebrated his members' birthdays, he went to support them for their solo activities that year, had his solo concert 8 days before his death, he even recorded his album and filmed his music video. And again, he thought of others first before himself.

Thank you Jonghyun, for existing. I'm sorry and I love you.

💎You did well💎

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Sunday Kind of Love : Frat Mark

⇢ Synopsis: Mark is fine with having a crush on the girl in the library. He’s fine watching her from afar. And he’s fine with never speaking a word to the girl who he spends many nights chasing in his dreams. But fate, and a few nosey frat brothers, think Mark would be much better if he was forced to talk to the cute girl from the library that he can’t seem to get out of his head. 

⇢ Pairing: Mark x fem!reader  ⇢ Genre: slow burn, comedy, smut after 30k of pining. ⇢ Warnings: inexperienced/soft reader, frat nct, extreme pining, tooth hurting sweetness, the softest boy in the world, a love so pure it’s going to hurt you, oral (f/m receiving), dry humping, tiddie worship, multiple orgasms, switchy/no bdsm role Mark, etc… ⇢ Word Count: 35.7k ⇢ Tropes/AU’s: Frat au!, slow burn, soft boy x sweet girl, library romance, frat found family, general frat shenanigans, etc…

⇢ fic music inspo: Sweet boi (chevvy) - Flaming hot cheetos (clairo) - Pink bubblegum (lavi) - Sunday Kind of Love  (Etta James) -  I’m Yours  (Jason Mraz)

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If you don’t have any money/means of donating- please feel free to read the fic as long as you give it a lil reblog and maybe a cute tag- It would still help me immensely :) if you’re struggling like i am- financially, or with mental health- please don’t feel pressured to support me right now :)

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2 minus 1 ◇ joshua

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all that i’m saying is i’m about to k*ll mys*lf

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Chenle isn’t a minor??? Stop babying idols.

yeah i know chenle ain’t a minor anymore 🌱🌷

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Im six months younger than Jisung and I’m 18 international age and 20 korean age so doesn’t that mean that all NCT members are legal?

i guess they’re all legal now yeah

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and idols hate crusty, raggedy, racist ass bitches like you anon. Come off anon and lets talk 💜

deadass somebody need to make this person come correct. they ignorant as fuck.

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Idols don’t date niggers lmao get over it

relax, jamal. don’t pull out the nine. i don’t wanna date an idol bruh i’m grown

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you really don’t like chenle or were you just kidding ? 🥺

i was just clowning him sweetie 💛

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why are you guys sexualizing minors.... especially chenle.... wtf

never did i ever sexualize chenle. don’t like that weird mf. anyways have a nice day 💛💛💛

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DO NOT JUST LIKE THIS AND KEEP SCROLLING FUCKING REBLOG THIS

script from @bluecollarbabe1 on instagram. even if you can't protest, you can still be heard. use your voice. do something.

TEXT:

To whom it may concern:

I am writing you about the murder of George Floyd by MPD officers Derek Chauvin, Thomas Lane, J. Alexander Kueng, and Tou Thao. These men were not upholding the law, they were committing murder and terrorizing their community. Being fired is not an appropriate response to the crime. All officers must be charged with murder.

We cannot continue this way. This is not the way forward. Use your station and power for change; for good. Give a voice to the smothered. Prove that all lives matter. Do your job.

police@minneapolismn.gov

When the streets clear and the ashes fade, George Floyd will not be forgotten. The events transpiring may very well be plastered into history books. The world is watching. My generation will not fail to tell our children exactly what happened. Your actions now will cement how you are remembered. If you stand up and act, you will be remembered for your bravery, choosing to enact justice. If not, history will sneer at your cowardice. The choice is yours.

MPD EMAILS:

police@minneapolismn.gov

policepio@minneapolismn.gov

sean.mcginty@minneapolismn.gov

chris.granger@minneapolismn.gov

katie.blackwell@minneapolismn.gov

DO NOT JUST LIKE THIS AND KEEP SCROLLING FUCKING REBLOG THIS

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i want a guy whos bigger than me to fuck me while i’m wearing his cloths. telling me how small i am compared to him. how weak i look. just ugh. UGH

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i was tagged by no one and i’m tagging no one

DISPATCH HAS CAUGHT YOU WITH AN IDOL AND ARE ABOUT TO SPREAD THE WORD ABOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP!!

Reblog this post with the most recent photo of an idol to see who you were caught with

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Are you fine?

I really don’t know

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Get yourself a sweet, hot drink and listen to some music you really enjoy if you can't wake others up and ask them for help. Then perhaps do some little reading until you are relaxed and tired again. This works when I used to suffer from really violent and gory nightmares and auditory hallucinations. I hope this helps 💐🌺💙

thank you so much! 💛💕🌱