renegonbeatrix

[renegonbeatrix]

You know what the difference is between you and me, Violet? No. Me neither.

GINA GERSHON as CORKY BOUND 1996 — dir. the Wachowskis

[renegonbeatrix]

hmmm

[renegonbeatrix]

characters who view themselves as tools/weapons first and people second... characters who martyr themselves for a cause because they think that's the only way they can be worth something... characters who push themselves past their breaking point again and again and again... characters for whom devotion and masochism are inseparable... characters whose self-sacrifice becomes self-annihilation...... what was my point again? i had a point. anyway.

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[renegonbeatrix]

hi, i love dynamics that r like “we make each other worse” on the surface but when u look deeper it is actually just “we understand each other on a level that no one else does and nudge each other out of our typical comfort zone” which just circles around to “we make each other better”. it’s abt the accidental growth just by being in each other’s lives. idk

[renegonbeatrix]

i still havent given up on my lets play. ive just been drained of energy the last few months and havent even been playing the games (besides a bit of modding sometimes). ive also been putting off adding subtitles to the latest videos for the same reason

[renegonbeatrix]

going back to beatrix's companion dossier. i wrote what i have all at once in the middle of the night and so unsurprisingly it's not my best work lmao. making an actual effort now to construct a companion arc for her. reworking what ive got and then i plan to finish the me3 section

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the girl I like when I leave her on read for 10 mins

me trying to spell “gorgeus”

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wondering if i should just cave and make beatrix from boston. rn she's from the chicago area but ive never even been there. i dont know boston well but im at least more familiar... like how do i flesh out her childhood in a state ive never been to lmao

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18 year old pre-Alliance Beatrix (finally finished this 2 years after starting it ahhh)

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*sweating, taking a tylenol, chugging some water* almost done with beatrix's arc playlist

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messing with artbreeder to make damian (beatrix's half brother). he's 9 years younger and, up til the reaper invasion, worked on cargo ships in the attican traverse. still haven't decided what to do with him in beatrix's life but i want them to be in each other's lives eventually

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i wanna make a beatrix character development playlist but as someone is who Not a music person at all, and who knows like... very few songs and artists... ummmmm LMAO

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beatrix’s newest head morph and its inspirations

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she’s so happy to see him, just gonna weep a bit