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every day i wish i died instead of you. people would be okay without me, but without you we are all broken.

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My entire existance is a mistake.

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Did I ever say I wish a good life? I just don't want to be punished for my existence.

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I am a total night person

I am at my highest intellectual and emotional peak after midnight

I'm a whole other person when the world quietens down under the dark

It's then I get losest to the original version of me

So if you're not staying up till then talking to me, you'll never know the real me

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I want to start over. Get rid of these memories which only bring me pain & replace them with new ones. I want to run away, far from here where no one knows my name. I’ll be happy there. I will be, right?

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Any moment might be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we're doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.

Homer, The Iliad

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why am i such a mess?

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When Oscar Wilde said, "I am tired of myself tonight, I should like to be someone else"and when Sylvia Plath said, " I wish I knew what to do with my life, what to do with my heart " and when Rilke said "this heavy humanness".

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a dark academia checklist

books 🗞

– the secret history by donna tartt

– the picture of dorian gray

– the rules of attraction

– black chalk

– frankenstein

movies 🎥

– dead poets society

– kill your darlings

– the history boys

– the dreamers

fashion 🧳

– plaid skirts

– high-waisted trousers

– collared shirts

– oxfords

– ruffled socks

– dark blazers

miscellaneous 🔎

– have a book with you at all times

– study various topics on your free time

– be passionate about learning

– ask questions. don’t be afraid to challenge your classmates.

– quote your favorite books at random, perhaps unnecessary times

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If I died without hearing a single guy tell me that I’ve bewitched him body and soul and that he loves , loves , loves me and never wishes to be parted from me from that day on , I wouldn’t have lived a happy life at all .

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Sums up this past few months

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there must be something very wrong with me

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It's time to face the music again

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I've been avoiding life for way too long