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Wow what a very normal superhero I sure hope he wasn't the sixteenth president of the United States of America.

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stu standing behind billy as he rants about his mommy issues to sidney that he was NOT informed of

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Before y’all ask, YES I am working on Everything pt4.

However, I wanna rant real quick. TW for shitty ass feelings.

Idk if this is just me, but I have such a love hate relationship with the fact that I take meds for my depression and anxiety. On one hand it’s like “dude, you really need these meds. They help you. For fucks sake you’ve been hospitalized before”. On the other hand it’s like “why do you need meds to feel ok? Why can’t you just be normal? For fucks sake, you’ve been hospitalized before and kept bouncing between hospitals for over a year”. Surely this can’t just be me that’s felt this way right? I know I need these meds, but I hate that I need them. I went without meds for months and felt fine, but then the depression hit and I had to go on them again, so idk, I kinda feel like “damn. I’m never gonna be normal” and that’s so ass. And my shit is BAD. The persona I have online may seem very free and “I don’t give a fuck. Imma do me” but that is so not me irl. I’ve had to leave class because my panic attacks. School (before I went to an alternative school) was extremely difficult because so much of it was social work and for some reason my brain just shuts down. I’ll legitimately start shaking if I gotta talk to someone I don’t know. I get anxiety when I think about crossing the street. My brain is dumb as hell and I know this. And bitch the depression? Just take me out the game cause shit gets wild. I’ll neglect my responsibilities, my hygiene, I’ll just sleep all day so that I don’t have to think about how much I wanna control alt delete.

So believe me, I KNOW I need meds. I just hate that I can’t function like a normal person without meds. When it came to my ptsd, it got better. I can stay home alone, I don’t panic as much as I did when I hear cars passing, I can walk by myself without worrying about getting attacked, if my dad were to text me right now I’d be annoyed instead of scared, shit like that. It took like, 4 years but it got better. I don’t see me ever getting better when it comes to this and being what’s considered normal. Some days I’m ok with that. Some days I’m not.

And bitch while I’m typing, peep game. So my dad was abusive, hence the ptsd. Once I got away from him, I never spoke to him again as you can imagine (he kept harassing me through text but speeding past that-). But I never imagined that my dads side of the family would never speak to me again as well. And don’t get me wrong, they’re not my favorite people. One cousin in particular can never come around me again for a specific traumatic reason but we’re gonna move past that and focus on the bigger picture. And I’ve tried to keep in touch with certain people and my mom even asked one of my cousins that I actually like to check in on me because it isn’t fair that everyone dropped me, but no one is doing their part. That cousin never contacts me and I’m always reaching out. It’s always me calling. Me checking in. Why can’t y’all do the same? I’m the bitch with trauma. So I stopped calling and we’ve stopped speaking. And apart of me is like “Slices, they’re your grandparents so maybe technology is hard” but another part is like “they have multiple phones. How hard would calling me be? What about my cousins and aunts and uncles that never make the effort with me too? Why am I doing all the work and these grown ass people aren’t doing shit to keep our relationship growing?”. It’s just not fair. And I know “not fair” sounds childish because life isn’t fair, but that’s the only way I know how to describe it. It’s just not fair. The whole court shit happened when I was 14. I am 18 now and none of y’all have tried. And it’s not like I would just visit so our relationship ain’t that deep. Nah. I’ve lived with these people. Our family was close. So like?? And all my dad had to do legally for us to possibly start talking again was go to counseling, and he hasn’t done that yet and never will. So it’s like, why am I not worth holding onto or fighting for to anyone on that side of the family? What’s wrong with me?

I’m getting sad as fuck so imma end this here and go watch some edits or smth. This isn’t some cry for help, I promise. I’m not finna take myself off the Census. And this isn’t me fishing for anything. I’m just ranting. It’s a lot easier to do online, yk? I don’t feel like I’m bothering anyone with my shitty ass feelings because you can always just skip it. Sorry for bitching on main. I’m still the strong leader of our bread slices cult💪🏾🍞

Also the beginning is NOT an attack on people waiting for Everything pt4. I just know people are waiting for it and I’m working on it, but I feel like buns and those chapters are longer so they take longer to put out.

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We should’ve gotten more scenes of Daemon and his daughters and imma stand by it. Honestly I think we should’ve gotten more scenes of Daemon, his daughters, AND Laena.

Here’s what I don’t get about his situation;

So I understand that he and Nyra really wanted to be together. I understand that they make each other happy. The thing is though, you’re capable of loving more than one person. Yeah, Nyra wants Daemon but she’s shown to love Harwin and Laenor (Laenor being in a platonic matter, but platonic love is still love. Like how you love a homie). She’s shown to love her children that she had with Harwin. Was he her first pick? No. But she still cared for him and had 3 of his children, who she adores.

I don’t get why they didn’t give Daemon the same treatment. Yeah, Laena wasn’t his first pick, but we still could’ve been shown he cares for her. Didn’t they spend 10 years together? They had their own children, but we hardly see them interact with him. Maybe that wasn’t the family he initially wanted, but I don’t think it’d be a strange concept for him to love them regardless. Like, my favorite animal is a panda, but that doesn’t mean I hate all other animals. I’m quite fond of elephants.

And I’m not saying that the show makes it seem like he hates them. It’s just like,,, please feed me more? His and Nyra’s love wouldn’t have been fake if they showed he loved Laena, ykwim? Maybe that’s what they were worried about? Idk. I just wanted more scenes of his family.

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Team Green this

Team Black that

I’m here to see pretty people fight while using medieval ass insults, and both teams got some pretty ass people.

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The fact that this teams and stan crap is leaking over into real life again, needs to stop. Seriously, it's not a big deal if you want to keep things seperate so you don't wander into a fandom space you don't want to be in, but lashing out at the actors? Inexcusable.

First it was Fabien Frankel's social media comments being filled with hate for Criston Cole and for Fabien himself. Then it was Tom Glynn Carney's. Fabien has had to deactivate his socials several times and TGC's is handled by a manager now.

Then someone literally got in Olivia Cooke's face when she was minding her own business in a bar and called Alicent a "cunt".

Folks bitching at Harry Collet for being Team Black - HUH? Did you expect him to be Team Green? Give me a break.

And now it's racist crap being thrown at Bethany Antonia.

This needs to stop.

It's a fucking show. It's not that deep. It's a show.

Get some mental help if you struggle to seperate the two.

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Debbie

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Y’all I like Robb Stark in the books and I saw he’s played by an actor I know, right.

And I know he dies, which is unfortunate, but I keep hearing about this red wedding AND I’M SO SCARED? Someone said the wedding in HOTD wasn’t as bad as the red wedding and I’m legit shaking in my boots. I’m dodging all spoilers. I haven’t even looked up edits of him. My heart is in my throat cause wtf did they do to him? (Do not tell me)

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I adore them

— I hate the gods for making me as they did. —I do not. You are a honorable man. With a good heart. It's a rare thing.

Rhaenyra + Laenor Relationship | House of The Dragon — season I

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I wanna love Ned Stark so bad but he’s so DUMB?

HE’S A DEAD MAN WALKING. I-

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Well Idk, some people like monsters I think? Monsterfuckers, is that what they're called?

Or they just really enjoy the weird ones 🤔

I've seen people simp for mk11 Kollector once! I think he's worse than Shao and Ermac lol

I forgot who Kollector was and bitch-

I still love y’all but my love can only go so far

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You just need to be brave to simp for mk1 Ermac!!

That being said, I am one of the simps for Mac ☝️

I’m a coward then,

Where are y’all coming from? What is happening?😭

Ykw, I want y’all to tell me why y’all simp for Ermac and Shao. I’m brave enough to hear y’all’s reasonings

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BROOOO GIMME 5 MINUTES I GOT A WHOLE SLIDESHOW

A SLIDESHOW? WHERE ARE YALL COMING FROM? IS THIS WHO YALL REALLY ARE?

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Listen mannnn Ermac can spawn multiple arms at the same time 👀👀👀

Imma just take the 2 arms everyone else has because GIRL?? IS THIS YALL MAN?

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Wait people be writing smut for nutsack lizard

Nah nah listen listen,

Syzoth is mainly a human tho soooooo, I will allow the “hear me out” people.

If you’re writing smut about him as a lizard, I’m not religious, but you need to find a higher power to apologize to.

Also I haven’t written smut about Syzoth yet so this ain’t a pot calling the kettle black calling the pot black calling the kettle pot pot calling the kettle type of situation.

Shao is human looking but I have a one sided beef with Shao and he looks like he asks for head but calls coochies disgusting. ACK TOOT💦

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What’s wrong with Shao Kahn smut 😔

Ooooo if you weren’t anonymous I’d block you for a solid 5 minutes. I will NEVER hear y’all out

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Is there anything more beautiful?