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GUYS MY THERAPIST JUST CALLED ME SKINNY HE WAS LIKE YEAH I CAN SEE IT IN THE WAY YOUR CLOTHES HANG OFF UR BODY SJBDIDJSISBDK

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this is your (tw) ed reminder

that you should not weigh yourself right after/day after intense working out. my weight is 50 kg, but today it was 54 kg, because i burned 1000 calories yesterday. it might be water or your muscles are sore. so please, tell it to your ed friend, so they don't have to freak out.

stay hydrated, luv yal'l

also, i am starting 30 days Thinspo Challenge, so stay tuned today !

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Reasons to eat vs reasons to be thin pt 1

Reason 1: Food is fule

My crush likes skinny girls 👀👀👀

Fit into literally anything

Me and my best friend can finally trade clothes again (haven't done it since we were 10)

My skin will glow

Look hekkin cute 👁️👅👁️

I actually kinda like the light headed feeling

Cheek bones are 👌👌👌

Low-key wanna be thin for my cat ngl

I won't be as cringy

I WANT AN EXCUSE TO GO CLOTHES SHOPPING

Reason 2: Food is tasty

Is it tho,,,,?,,?,?,,,

T H I G H G A P

Thin feels better than any taste

I NEED IT

Be the skinniest in the group

"oH yEaH iM NaTuRaLLY tHIn" 🤡🤡🤡

I'm done with this "aCcEpT tHe sKiN uR In" bull like no sister I'm FAT

I'm literally a sandwich away from being the next episode of My 600lb Life

I'm gonna die anyway do might as well 🤷‍♂️

Instead of eating,,, I could be working on??? Graduating??? 🤔

Reason 3: Food is a great way to bond

I want feral lesbian vibes even tho I'm str8

I'll forget about past trauma bcz I'm to busy laying in fetal position in pain bcz I hunger

STARES AND STAIRS

No more of the thigh thing

I'm literally so excited for my collar bones

Don't wanna be no fool dancing

Clothes are generally cheeper for thinner people

Do all the hard work now so I don't have to do it later

Do it for the CLOUT

But like???? Not everybody gets to say that they have a BMI of 17

Reason 4: Not all food is bad

Umm try again sweety. Calories are calories

I WANT A SMALL BUTT IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK FOR-

Losing weight is probably literally like doing ecstasy but without the whole "law" thing

But like??? Imagining my thin body walking around the Christmas tree getting my next present aND MY DAINTY LIL HANDS-

I literally want to be thinspo

The sooner I'm thin the sooner I can recover 😜🤔😘😉

This existential dread I face is far less noticable when I'm panicking about how many calories are in breathing in bread fumes from a block away

I probably won't hate myself entirely when I make myself in The Sims

Hip bones are like 👀👀💯

I'm currently a 5 for $5 meal at Wendy's when I could be half an apple and 10 Cheerios

Reason 5: It's 'ok'

COSPLAY

Not eating is a true sign of willpower

FINGER GAP! FINGER GAP!FINGER GAP!

I want my bones

Let's be honest I'll probably be more successful 🤷‍♂️

I low-key wanna go to a rave don't @ me

Sell all of my current clothes for mad bank 💸💲 STONKS

I HATE MY PERIOD

Starving Artist™

I WANT A SHARP CHIN

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hold on a fucking second. delaware is a state?? i thought it was a river? or is the river more important than the state? why don't i know this? (i should mention i don't like in america, i'm just confused)

there is delaware (state) and delaware (river) 

both are equally strange

the state is a tiny little cryptid thing

the rive is a monster that spans new york, pennsylvania, new jersey and delaware. also washington crossed it once and that was like kinda a big deal i guess. like crossing the rubicon in rome.

the state tries to me more important with its “im the first state!!!” bs (seriously its even on the fucking license plates) but we all know. its the river.

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hello friendly reminder that you do not need a special occasion to use nice things! if you wait long enough your nice bath bomb won't be as fizzy! your favourite fruits will go out of season! candles are meant to be burned, not looked at! you're not enjoying your special tea if it's just sitting in your cupboard! you're allowed to have nice and special things on completely ordinary days! heck, it might just make that day special!!

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TW‼️ Eating disorder:

anyone who invalidates binge eating disorder is a horrible person. BED is just as life threatening as anorexia or bulimia. if you are struggling with BED know you are valid, your eating disorder isn’t any less important than the others and i hope you find the courage to recover because ed’s are shit and we should have to live like this.

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I found out consuming honey and cinnamon before bed helps with weight loss.

Here's how:

Btw I would use raw bottled honey. Regular bottled honey sometimes has sugar added to cut costs.

I mainly put this here so I can easily access it again if needed. I apologize if this seems 'pro ana' of me, not my intention.

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i feel violent, i feel mean

i want to hurt you because you hurt me

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Let me put you all on pigly.com, it's a weight loss calculator AND it tells you how many cals your gonna need to eat a day to maintain your current weight and goal weight!

It's helped me a lot because my biggest fear is not knowing how much I need to eat to maintain my goal weights, but now I know!

you just plug in some current stats, your goal weight, and when you want to reach it. The website will tell you what you'd need to eat to get there! no warnings or blocks if you would need to eat less than 1,000 cals.

here's a link: pigly.com

(while you can use ft/in or cm for your height, your weight is measured in lbs and I didn't find a way to change that. just a heads up)

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Today I heard this lady in the supermarket talking to her friend about me.

She said: look, my ex is just as fat as him *points at me* that's why I broke up.

She have no idea that I heard it. But i felt the pain. I'm gay, i have no interest on her, but i know that this sh*t is real, people will break up with me just because I'm fat.

I'm disappointed and disgusted with myself.

Fuck her. She's a stupid asshole. Nobody should listened to that. If you're fat don't listen to them.

But I do.

And I hate myself for it.

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So when you get on T your neck muscles get thicker (which is why your voice drops, or vice-versa, i just know its related) and it can make you feel like your neck got fatter because it takes less time for your chin to reach it.

This literally triggers my dysmorphia every damn day omllll

Does anyone else relate?

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my review of the body i was given

★☆☆☆☆

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Things no one told me pt. 2:

✿ You begin to spot other people in your classes, workplace, friend groups etc who have eating disorder behaviors.

✿ You’ll miss how hard it was to fast & restrict those first few times. Once your mind switches from thinking of restricting as a “diet” to restricting as a coping mechanism/comfort, you’re fucked.

✿ Water weight isn’t the enemy long-term. After having just one serving of progresso light chicken soup for dinner, I’ll likely wake up a little bloated and having retained water. I WOULD RATHER RETAIN WATER THAN GAIN FAT. If having that 70 calorie soup kept me from bingeing later on heaping calories of ice cream or chips, it’s better to have gained weight I can lose in any given 48 hours with water.

✿ You end up having to sell/donate/second hand a lot of your clothes. While you shrink and those large clothes stay well, large, they don’t always end up being the idealistic oversized sweater aesthetic we’re all hoping for. Most of those looks only photograph well but look like maternity potato sacks in real life. And don’t even get me started on saggy jeans…

✿ Your fat loss doesn’t always distribute well. Ladies: the butt and boobs might be the first things to go. Every body is different, and while some tumblr-famous girl’s “lazy” body might be perfectly hourglass and tiny, your DNA might just be looking at you from the sidelines going “HA. Doesn’t the hooman know it’s genetically impossible to achieve that figure with me?” “YA what a dumb fuck she’s gonna destroy her body trying 😂”

✿ Even when you’ve hyped yourself up to allow a cheat day or meal for a special occasion, it will be PHYSICALLY STRENUOUS trying to eat more than a few oz of food. Hi hello I’ve only had liquids and weed this week- so my stomach is a large strawberry at best and I’m wondering why a watermelon’s worth of food isn’t fitting. Who knew.

✿ Your alcohol tolerance drops. Fast.

✿ None of your actions or thoughts inside the eating disorder should be categorized by what OTHERS consider: good, bad, success, failure, right, wrong, ED or wannabe. So someone is having a breakdown after a 200 calorie “binge” and you think *I eat 600-800 calories a day and it’s hard to even do that…I’m a fucking failure* NO BITCH YOU’RE VALID! 2,000 calories a day is the standard adult need. You’re both restricting even less the caloric needs of a TWO YEAR OLD INFANT. If you think about it enough to consider it a problem, it’s a problem.

✿ Most people in your everyday life won’t notice your eating habits (or lack thereof) nearly as much as tumblr leads you to believe. Unless they explicitly know you have disordered eating, most humans are too engrossed in their own calories/meals to take note of anything you do. Even if you’re a minor, most parents only notice something’s wrong when a significant amount of weight has been lost.

✿ DON’T MARK YOURSELF AS A FAILURE IF PEOPLE DON’T NOTICE YOUR WEIGHT LOSS. They probably A) DO notice it but don’t want to bring it up themselves or B) Your tummy retracting 0.75 inched might be the biggest achievement in the world to you, but no one else scrutinizes your body half as much as you do to notice subtle changes.

DISCLAIMER PART 2:

-None of this is meant to “inspire” or “encourage” eating disorders, these were just things that I didn’t know going into my illness and hopefully it can serve as a some solid info for those of you struggling as well 🖤

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Maybe recovery is less about feeling good all the time and more about learning how to effectively cope with not feeling good...

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i've seen so many posts online along the lines of "these 3 pairs of pants are, according to their labels, different sizes, and yet they all fit the same, so if you go shopping and end up needing a higher number size than you're used to, don't feel bad about it!" and like, while it is true that women's clothing size are an inconsistent mess which makes shopping for clothes really confusing and annoying, i want to say that it's actually completely okay if you need a larger size than before and it's because you've gained weight.

gaining weight is not a crime, you do not need to have plausible deniability to be allowed to feel okay with needing a different size of clothing. gaining weight is not a moral failure. people gain weight sometimes, and sometimes that leads to people needing to use a larger size of clothing, and that's okay.