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i need a $10,000 grant to go cluuuuubbbingggg

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You’re not depressed. You just need $250,000 in your bank account.

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why he fyne as shit in this pic 🫡🙏🏻 who did ur brows king lmk

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I feel like I don't belong in this world. I'm trying so hard to be resilient and hopeful but everything feels so bad. It's like I've been hit repeatedly with a sledgehammer and the pieces are being held together by the sheer force of my will, are slipping from my grasp and I'm collapsing. Against my wishes, best intentions, against all I hold dear and believe. I'm not holding it together anymore, and I don't know what to do. I have no more energy to just pretend that things are okay the way they are anymore. Every waking moment is just suffering and I'm losing the capacity to ignore this pain. It hurts so much to even be alive.

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Star Trek: Deep Space Nine "Past Tense, Pt. 1"

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I don't know I'm not done talking about it. It's insane that I can't just uninstall Edge or Copilot. That websites require my phone number to sign up. That people share their contacts to find their friends on social media.

I wouldn't use an adblocker if ads were just banners on the side funding a website I enjoy using and want to support. Ads pop up invasively and fill my whole screen, I misclick and get warped away to another page just for trying to read an article or get a recipe.

Every app shouldn't be like every other app. Instagram didn't need reels and a shop. TikTok doesn't need a store. Instagram doesn't need to be connected to Facebook. I don't want my apps to do everything, I want a hub for a specific thing, and I'll go to that place accordingly.

I love discord, but so much information gets lost to it. I don't want to join to view things. I want to lurk on forums. I want to be a user who can log in and join a conversation by replying to a thread, even if that conversation was two days ago. I know discord has threads, it's not the same. I don't want to have to verify my account with a phone number. I understand safety and digital concerns, but I'm concerned about information like that with leaks everywhere, even with password managers.

I shouldn't have to pay subscriptions to use services and get locked out of old versions. My old disk copy of photoshop should work. I should want to upgrade eventually because I like photoshop and supporting the business. Adobe is a whole other can of worms here.

Streaming is so splintered across everything. Shows release so fast. Things don't get physical releases. I can't stream a movie I own digitally to friends because the share-screen blocks it, even though I own two digital copies, even though I own a physical copy.

I have an iPod, and I had to install a third party OS to easily put my music on it without having to tangle with iTunes. Spotify bricked hardware I purchased because they were unwillingly to upkeep it. They don't pay their artists. iTunes isn't even iTunes anymore and Apple struggles to upkeep it.

My TV shows me ads on the home screen. My dad lost access to eBook he purchased because they were digital and got revoked by the company distributing them. Hitman 1-3 only runs online most of the time. Flash died and is staying alive because people love it and made efforts to keep it up.

I have to click "not now" and can't click "no". I don't just get emails, they want to text me to purchase things online too. My windows start search bar searches online, not just my computer. Everything is blindly called an app now. Everything wants me to upload to the cloud. These are good tools! But why am I forced to use them! Why am I not allowed to own or control them?

No more!!!!! I love my iPod with so much storage and FLAC files. I love having all my fics on my harddrive. I love having USBs and backups. I love running scripts to gut suck stuff out of my Windows computer I don't want that spies on me. I love having forums. I love sending letters. I love neocities and webpages and webrings. I will not be scanning QR codes. Please hand me a physical menu. If I didn't need a smartphone for work I'd get a "dumb" phone so fast. I want things to have buttons. I want to use a mouse. I want replaceable batteries. I want the right to repair. I grew up online and I won't forget how it was!

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Anyone feeling generous and wanna help a struggling black woman pay off 5K cad (3.5K USD) worth of debt? 🙃

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IRENE The 1st Mini Album 【Like A Flower】 Image Teaser #6 ➫ 2024.11.26 6PM (KST)

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IRENE The 1st Mini Album 【Like A Flower】 Image Teaser #6 ➫ 2024.11.26 6PM (KST)

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IRENE The 1st Mini Album 【Like A Flower】 Image Teaser #6 ➫ 2024.11.26 6PM (KST)

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I was able to get a new computer so I can start working and taking art cømms again.

If interested, please dm for more info on pricing and available services

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New zine that's free for anyone to print and distribute! Read the whole thing at newlevant.com/COVIDzine or in the rest of this post.

UPDATE 4/11/2023:

I swapped out the colloidal silver nasal spray info for xylitol nasal spray info. I originally included colloidal silver spray because of the linked study and recommendation from RTHM, but I don't want to be pointing people toward something with notable health risks. Xylitol spray (Xlear) is also cheaper and more widely available!

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IRENE The 1st Mini Album 【Like A Flower】 Image Teaser #4 ➫ 2024.11.26 6PM (KST)

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IRENE The 1st Mini Album 【Like A Flower】 Image Teaser #4 ➫ 2024.11.26 6PM (KST)

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IRENE The 1st Mini Album 【Like A Flower】 Image Teaser #4 ➫ 2024.11.26 6PM (KST)