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ill go hibernate again, bye

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it came to a point when i didn't deserve that mental torture so i had to do something about it. silence ended up being the key 🙂‍↕️

silence is nice. my mind hasn't been this silent since idk when. i like it this way. no good thoughts but no bad thoughts either. still it took months of learning how to look and walk away from horrible or unhelpful thoughts to get here so im proud. its a very useful skill

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silence is nice. my mind hasn't been this silent since idk when. i like it this way. no good thoughts but no bad thoughts either. still it took months of learning how to look and walk away from horrible or unhelpful thoughts to get here so im proud. its a very useful skill

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this pinoy cola tastes like medicine

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don't want to use words, just want to use art to share my thoughts nowadays. but right now i can't even do that. so i'll just shut up for a while

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the current disconnect between the me in my mind and the me that i show. and i don't want it anymore, help

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skill regression so bad it's starting to affect my grammar

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according to my friends yesterday sa event where we had to wear retro: yesterday very fuckable, ngayon hinde

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hinay hinay sa pagtawag sakin ng babae.... 👁️👁️👁️

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I will never treat them unkindly, but I have a feeling eventually I will get left behind most simply because I do not belong

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The amalgamation of properties of everything I have ever loved and the culmination of the information I have gathered and brainstormed to hell and back ended up just being. Light. It's light. It's everything about light. I am dumbfounded that it's so simple yet took so much self discovery to find, but at the same time I understand why that is. It's not often you see someone try to deconstruct themselves down to their very core

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No matter the amount of grief I am still feeling and will continue to feel likely for a few years more, seeing this person happy brings me an enormous amount of joy. I think in the end that's what matters.

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Perhaps I really was overreacting. That was not the most understanding of me

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"okay lang naman parang kagat lang ng dinosaur" lam mo ah

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You’ve heard of “don’t monetize your hobbies”; get ready for "don’t master your hobbies".

Your hobbies are here to help you decompress and have fun. They do not have to be disciplines you toil over for expertise, unless that is something you genuinely enjoy doing.

It’s okay to enjoy language-learning without ever becoming fluent, or even conversational. It’s okay to like playing guitar even if you only know a few clumsy songs. You can read books and never finish them, bowl without ever scoring even halfway to perfect. We’re here to explore and play, and we cannot do that if we’re chasing perfection in everything we do.

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it's kind of harrowing to realize that most people around you think only in black and white. they don't know that alot of conflicting ideas can actually coexist. im so used at compartmentalizing ideas and when it's time to share beliefs im treated like an alien. and it gets worse because rn i still suck at articulating my thoughts 😭😭❗😭❗😭❗

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but still even if im going through this i feel a sense of joy for others and a feeling of understanding