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[rileysterling]

I'm not traveling halfway across the country to go to a park. I don't miss it that much. Especially not driving.

Well, a: car, b: who needs money to go to a park?

[rileysterling]

Because a: halfway across the country, and b: money.

Why don’t you go back to Golden Gate Park on a trip then?

[rileysterling]

Awfully disappointing Saturday night.

[rileysterling]

You know what? I miss people-watching in Golden Gate Park. I mean, I love Lincoln Park and all, but it just doesn't compare.

[rileysterling]

You know what I think? I think drunk you is reading way too much into this and has no idea what casual sex entails. 

I'm exhausted...

You’re sure even though you’re not. That makes no sense.

Sex too? Why’d you have either if you’re not lonely. You want something even though you won’t admit it. Even drunk me can see that.

[rileysterling]

Hm, I'm sure.

Uhm, duh?

I'm exhausted...

It’s the also the happiest thing ever and for ever bad memory I have many more happy ones.

Not that you’d know that…miss refusing to try love. How can you understand something you refuse to experience? Have you even kissed someone before hm?

[rileysterling]

You really should do something about that. Sounds miserable to be so hung up on one person.

I'm exhausted...

So I’m your toy for tonight? And you said love is painful.

Maybe you can only say that because you’ve never had it? I use to never have it to…till I met Paige. *leans back away and flops onto the bar top.* Paige, Paige, Paige. I wanna forget about her sometimes but I can’t.

[rileysterling]

Only when I'm bored.

Not lying. Scout's honor. [she raises an eyebrow.] Nothing at all. Maybe a raise and a cup of coffee. I don't need 'love'.

I'm exhausted...

Then why does you keep giving me advise to. Or do you do this with all your customers?

For a straightforward girl you lie alot…*leans forward a little.* Nothing at all?

[rileysterling]

Obviously.

I don't want anything. 

I'm exhausted...

So I’m just a customer to make money off of hmph?

That’s a lie, otherwise you wouldn’t of spent most of your day sitting by me listening to me speak like an i-d-i-o-t. I’ve always been lonely since I was young and I know everyone wants some love even if it’s not romantic…

Tell me what you really want.

[rileysterling]

Well, heartbreak's great for business.

Nope. 

I'm exhausted...

I will, I’ll take the blow and then come back here to cry while I bleed.

How do you cope anyway, don’t you get lonely? Don’t you ever want more?

[rileysterling]

Alright, alright. Then stick with it and wait for it to stab you in the back. Your choice.

I'm exhausted...

But without love what is there? Sex? How pointless, everything is pointless without love. I don’t want to live pointlessly…done that for too long.

[rileysterling]

Exactly.

So make things simple. It's not that hard. Don't get caught up in all that love crap.

I'm exhausted...

Right…RIGHT! Which is why someone can say they love you and then do something to purposely hurt you. It makes no sense right?

For one night I just want things to be simple and straightforward…easy right? RIGHT!

[rileysterling]

The world is fucked, sweetheart, nothing is simple.

I'm exhausted...

I’m a model citizen of stupidity!

That’s good, it’s a gooood trait! You’ll find a guy like that because guys hate being confused. They like simple things. I like simple things. Why isn’t the world simple?

[rileysterling]

Oh, yeah, evidently.

Never saw the point of being evasive. 

I'm exhausted...

So you would think but grown adults have the amazing ability to be grown idiots too.

You know you’re really straight forward, I like that. You know how hard it is for a lawyer to find a straight forward person, verrrrry hard! Even more own girlfriend isn’t straight forward!

[rileysterling]

You're a grown adult, you should be able to do that yourself.

This isn't--the headache you'll have tomorrow if you continue will be, though.

I'm exhausted...

This is the part you’re meant to stop me before I drink myself to death.

*Takes a sip of the drink* Or maybe this is my punishment for being a romantic idiot?

[rileysterling]

Yeah, let's go with that.

I'm exhausted...

That it’s an excellent idea and I should indulge in it to the max?

[rileysterling]

Hey, it's good for business.

What did I say about drowning your sorrows? [she gets him another drink.]

I'm exhausted...

Oh I see that was your goal all along.

Well if that’s how it’s going to be…*downs the rest of his drink.* I’ll have another one please.