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oh my god. I thought I deleted this blog as well – feels like ages since being on here (almost 3 years lol)

Feels strange <\3

Don’t know what to do don’t know what to say

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I'm sorry for not being active AT ALL babes I'm just on a trip right now and I really don't have time at all ;(

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Back to me. - a Billy Hargrove's series (Prologue).

Pairing : Billy Hargrove x f! Reader.

Genres : heavy smut, heavy angst, major character death (?).

General Warnings : nsfw. angst. swearing (a lot). fluff. smoking. use and mention of drugs & alcohol. violence. mention of child abuse.

A/N : I love Billy very much, and I had this one in mind for a few days, hence the series. I'll add the chapters' titles soon, and I'll try to update at least once a week! For the sake of the plot, Nancy, Steve, Robin & Jonathan are 19 and in their last year of high-school; even if I know that they should graduate around 18. Also, Billy is 20, just like the reader, and they both had to repeat a year. It's all to make it easier for me.

+ It won't follow the Stranger Things 's main plot, so you'll get Brenner here even if my story takes place ~ 1984. I will mix some things up purposely, and I will also not make some stuff happen (ex : Billy's situation in s3. It is gonna be slightly different.) So don't be surprised if things seem different from the main plot, I arranged everything so that it could work out for me!

Tagging :@scandescent @satisfactooru

masterlist.

Years after leaving Hawkins, you came back to unravel the truth and discover what really happened to your missing father –you knew, deep down, that he wasn't gone. And despite sensing that something was off, nothing could have prepared you for what you would have to face there. 

But love comes from chaos, right…? In all this mess, you found him, and maybe Billy Hargrove wasn't as bad as people described him –maybe he just needed to be saved, too.

In a game of secrets, lies and forgotten promises, will you be able to uncover the truth? 

Because sometimes, saying goodbyes means forever. Because you discovered quickly that unlike movies, there wasn't a second chance. And because you were always so keen to save everyone, but who would save you?

Chapters Index : TBA.

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Reblog if you miss Billy Hargrove.

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SHOULD I POST THE PROLOGUE OR SHOULD I WAIT

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hello i miss u ;’((

Hello my love i miss you TOO

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I LOVE UR ICON IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL

BILLY BEING A FREAKY MAD BOY IS SO HOT OMG

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billy + max (stranger things) | wasting my young years edited by xbreathofmadness

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Billy Survives / Billy Rescue Mission

aka how I cope post-ST4 LOL. Dedicated to @memes-saved-me thank you so much for making this possible ♡

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Goodnight babes <33

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daydreamer me: all the yesss yess yes yess billy fucking you in the houseparty bathroom!!! rl me: eeeeew nah, nasty, abso-fucking-lutely not in the freaking bathroom and yet here we are, people still not understanding that often fantasy/fiction are not the same as our rl kinks

PLS-

The way writing and reading fics made me realise how different my rl kinks were from what I'm writing :'))

Actually, I wouldn't mind having sex in a bathroom buuut I would think of too many things lmaoo >.<

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billy fucking you in the bathroom during a houseparty bc the way your dress hugs your forms is just too addictive <3

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"billy’s willing to be the bad guy, both because he doesn’t know any other way of professing his affection for the people important to him, and because he knows, all too well, that, if he doesn’t teach them the lessons he’s been taught his whole life now, in his own mitigated terms, someone else, heartless and merciless, will do it later."

Okay lemme just cry in bed now.

was skimming through sadie’s yahoo interview to get to the billy parts and she says sth along the lines of ‘billy was the greatest source of pain in max’s life’ and instinctively i was like. how about her abusive stepfather lol. but, like, that’s the thing? billy spent the entire time he knew max placing himself as a shield between her and the man he knew his father to be, so that max would never have to find out for herself.

billy’s last and only source of affection can be traced back to his mother, who, if we accept canon, left him alone with an irascible and violence-prone father at a very early age, so it’s not inconceivable to presume that billy’s idea of affection is, not an active display of tenderness, but the absence of violence. his love language is protecting the people he loves from what he knows is worse using the only method he’s familiar with, namely a watered-down version of neil’s abuse. billy uses intimidation and the threat of violence, hoping those’ll scare max into behaving in a way that doesn’t make her a target in neil’s eyes.

in a way, this is paralleled in billy’s ‘you were moving your feet. plant them next time’ at steve, which, taken into the context of the basketball scene, feels excessive, but. it’s actually a pretty solid piece of advice? billy shoves steve to the ground and then, instead of helping him up once, provides him with the tip he’ll need to never get beaten again. it’s billy’s way of saying ‘life is hard, and i’m here to prove it to you now so you’re not forced to realize it later.’ it’s his way of taking back some of the control he’s never had by teaching the people he cares about what he’s known from a very young age, and making them earn the lessons he’s had violently seared into him.

in max’s eyes, and in steve’s, billy’s behavior obviously translates to cruelty, because neither of them are as desensitized to violence the way billy’s been conditioned to. they don’t understand why they need to be exposed to it in the first place, and it’s natural to view billy as the primary source of it, when, in reality, billy’s trying, in his warped way, to shield them from a marginally worse display of cruelty.

billy’s willing to be the bad guy, both because he doesn’t know any other way of professing his affection for the people important to him, and because he knows, all too well, that, if he doesn’t teach them the lessons he’s been taught his whole life now, in his own mitigated terms, someone else, heartless and merciless, will do it later.

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Tay I love u

I love you TOO Abby

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Now gonna work on my gojo&geto 3some and my Billy smut >:)

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OKAY I THINK IM SHOWING UP IN THE TAGS NOW THANKS GOD

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@taixju IT WORKED EHE