Byler from Mikes POV is so delicious and sad but GODDDDD Byler from Will’s POV???
CW:SUPERRR ramble-y post I go in circles
Falling in love with the boy who doesn’t treat you differently despite everything people say about you, who defends you and fights for you when people give up hope
Falling in love with the boy who stays by your side when you’re in crisis and tells you you’re a super spy and comforts you and stays in a chair next to your hospital bed, and tells you that being your friend, merely meeting you, was the best thing he’s ever done. The best decision he’s ever made. And it gives you hope for the future, maybe it’s okay that those people say things about you…
Falling in love with your best friend. Whose normal and isn’t like you is heart breaking and terrifying because you have to watch from afar as he finds love that you will never have. It’s awful and gluttonous and consuming and makes you feel like shit…but then, after a time where you guys fought, he softly questions if you could join someone else, and he smiles at you ever so purely when you admit that you could never leave him behind. You could never join someone else and have it be the same. That it was him who saved you and not the science people who stuck wires to your head, that him merely being there and supporting you through it was enough.
Falling in love with him means that everything those people said about you was true, that he defended you from bullies for merely stating the obvious about you. But because of your love for him, because of the fact it makes you feel so complete and happy, like it was something you were made to do, it doesn’t matter if what those people said is true because if loving him means you’re a mistake, how can it be so bad?? How can loving someone so purely and entirely be so bad??
It was a mistake to fall in love with him but god the way it makes you feel doesn’t prove it. How could you not fall in love with him when it makes you feel whole?
So you resign yourself to watching from afar as he loves and you support him the best you can. Because it’s okay if you can’t have everything you want. He’s happy and you’re by his side supporting him….using your stupid and wonderful feelings to help him live a normal life.
And that’s okay. Because merely loving him makes it worth it.