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Remus is clicking through the shots on his camera from the show. Heās a pretty decent photographer when he wants to be. He managed to capture a few perfect moments - the moment the lead singer jumped into the crowd, the bassist climbing the speakers for a solo, the synchronized jump just before the chorus dropped on the third song - however, he finds that most of his pictures are of their guitarist. Long hair, leather jacket, combat boots - Remus found him the most fun to watch. Embarrassed, he starts rapid fire deleting the excessive extras when he feels a tap on his shoulder.
Of course, itās the guitarist. Heās smiling as bright as the flash on Remusā camera. The other band members are about a foot behind him, looking tired but happy.
āHello,ā he says, and extends his hand for the guitarist to shake.Ā āYou guys were awesome. Iāve never seen the crowd so into a set before.ā
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āShe thinks youāre sensible?ā Sirius asks with a scoff, his brows high - though heās only joking. If any of them are sensible, itās certainly Remus John Lupin, and anyone with any sense is well aware of that. Itās why Dumbledore made him a Prefect. He should be Head Boy, too, and Sirius wonāt be surprised when heās given the badge. If heās honest, Remus is the reason his head is still attached to his body.Ā āMmā¦ denial. Yes, itās such a strange thing, isnāt it?ā His eyes have gone all hazy as he looks at Remus - almost like heās aware of the state of denial the two of them are in, too. He snaps out of it rather quickly, flashing a smile to make up for the expression he was only just bearing.
āThank Merlin. Iād probably lose my hat if you didnāt forgive me.ā He says and theyāre not close enough as Moony smiles up at him in that way only Moony can. His heart stumbles in his chest and Sirius leans closer - almost like he canāt bear the thought of not touching Remus now. This room is intoxicating.
āThis is fun.ā He says, almost sleepily and he looks like heās in a dream.Ā āYouāre funā¦ā His head is resting lazily against the back of the sofa, the fire in the corner dancing in his grey eyes as he looks so intensely at Remus, his breath ghosting across the other boyās cheek.Ā āIām glad we came here.ā
āWell, sheās not wrong. Especially when in comparison to the rest of you,ā Remus counters. He has saved his friends from the worst possible outcome several times with his sensibility - sure, they mightāve gotten detention, but no one died. And with the rest of the marauders, that was certainly something to be proud of after six years.Ā āLook at that. None of you have died, and nobodyās even lost a limb. I think Iām filling the sensible role quite nicely.ā
Remus catches Siriusā eye just for long enough to wonder about what he meant when he said that thing about denial. Remus was very good at both being in denial and denying himself things. It was practically his forte. Sirius, on the other hand, seemed to always take what he wanted without a second thought.Ā āI suppose it is strange.āĀ
āIāve forgiven you for worse,ā Remus says, because itās true. He thinks heād probably forgive Sirius anything, not that Sirius needs to know that. While heās talking Sirius has moved even closer, and Remus is certain heāll hear the rapid strumming of his stupid heart.Ā āIām glad you made me come here. It certainly does beat being in detention.ā
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āDonāt act like you donāt play favorites, too, Remus Lupin.ā Sirius answers with a cocky little half-smile and an unreadable gleam in his eyes.Ā āI think favorites are subjective. I love the whole lot of you, but sometimes you one-up each other - not that this is a competition or anything.Ā āCoz, if it is, Iām clearly in the lead, butā¦ā He purposefully trails off, laughing at his own stupid joking.
āAny sacrifice I make for you, Moons, is one I want to make. One I think you deserve and one that will, hopefully - potentially - make life easier for you. As with this moon thatās coming up. Absolutely going to make that sacrifice to spend time with you. I canāt let you be alone for that, butā¦ā He holds up his hand because they clearly arenāt going to agree.Ā āLetās not dive back into that conversation right now.ā He leans closer, presses his cheek against Remusā ( realizing how utterly absurd it must seem and look and feel, but he lost all confidence the moment he thought he should go in for a cheek kiss ),Ā āDonāt thank me.ā
āWhat book were you reading?ā He asks, pulling back and trying to act like what heās just done is completely normal.Ā āWhat you said implies that Iām your favorite, and you canāt take that away from me, Lupin. That would be cruel.ā
āOh, are we doing a tally now? Then youāre my favorite in terrible puns and narcissim,ā Remus jokes.Ā āIām probably the favorite inĀ āturning into a bloodthirsty monster once a monthā. Oh, and,Ā ācomfortable jumpersā.ā Heās smirking up at Sirius, waiting to gauge his reaction.Ā
āI donāt mean, just for me. Youāve had to sacrifice a lot...ā He pauses, knowing he should approach the subject delicately.Ā āBecause of your family. You could be a proper heir, living lavishly, not having to struggle...but you gave it all up. To do the right thing, to live the right way, even at the expense of losing so much. Not many people would do that, you know. Having to make you sacrifice even more...especially because of me...I. It doesnāt sit right with me.ā For a moment he thinks Sirius is going to kiss his cheek, and heās surprised, and then excited, and then disappointed all in the matter of a few seconds. Itās certainly a weird display of affection, for Sirius to be pressing their cheeks together, but he leans into it anyway, nuzzling against Siriusā face, offering reassurance.Ā āYou deserve to be thanked. Thank you.ā
āCount of Monte Cristo,ā Remus answers.Ā āItās about a guy who gets wrongly accused of treason and jailed without a trial. He breaks out and swears revenge on the three friends who betrayed him. Itās very dramatic. Lots of swordfights.ā He shrugs, and gives Sirius an innocent look.Ā āI never said anything. You decided the implication on your own. Donāt look at me.ā
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Sirius canāt help the laugh at the joke and he shakes his head.Ā āThen what are you? Howling mad?ā He arches a brow and shakes his head.Ā āYouāre lucky youāre cute.ā If they start arguing now about whoās not good enough for whom, theyāre going to end up like that annoying couple everyone hates who kisses at the foot of the dormitory stairs for fifteen minutes saying you let go, no you let go. Sirius would hate to end up like that, so he lets it die knowing how he feels and understanding how Remus will always feel. Itās a pill he has to swallow, even though he thinks the world of Lupin.
āIām going to have to have a word with all of them. Do you think Lily knew, too? Youād think sheād help us out.ā He frowns, thinking, for a moment - then heās grinning once more. Itās best for him to not think about the war - if only he could see into the future, see what Dumbledore would do to Remus, then heād make them both run off. The seventies - peace and love. It wouldāve been so easyā¦
āWhat?ā He asks, turning to look at Remus as he prepares the drinks for them. His brow is crinkled and heās grinning.Ā āI thought it had to have been a touch more important than thatā¦ I knew you were lying, but had no way to prove it.ā He takes his drink, clinks his glass against Remusā, and downs it quickly. He sets the glass down and moves in closer, grabbing Remusā hand.Ā āAt least you almost had the courage. The best I did was send you all those anonymous, shitty poems in third year. Remember those? They were so bad that James and Pete were convinced it was that weird Ravenclaw girl who used to follow you around in the library, and I just went along with it because - until they mocked them - I had thought they were quite good. So embarrassing.ā
āI suppose I am,ā Remus says, and laughs.Ā āOh, please, you loved it. You thinking Iām cute only made you love it more.ā He says the phrase aloud - you think Iām cute - and the realization sets in. Sirius really does think heās cute. It makes him feel impossibly light.Ā
āTheyāre all going to be so smug,ā Remus says, and shakes his head.Ā āI bet theyāve all got wagers on when we were going to hook up. Letās not tell them. I donāt want anyone to have the satisfaction. Not yet, at least.ā He wants his friends to know, in time, but he also wants to protect this thing he and Sirius have for as long as he can. Heās been fighting for years for this, for a moment for just the two of them, and maybe itās selfish, but he doesnāt want to let it go yet.Ā
āI was completely lying,ā Remus admits, looking sheepish.Ā āI just. You walked in, and you were you, and I...I couldnāt tell you. To your credit, you werenāt even mad.ā He raises his glass in a toast to Siriusā patience.Ā
āThose were from you?ā Remus says, and laughs. When heās finished, he leans over and kisses Sirius, and it goes on a bit longer than he intended.Ā āRemember them? I kept them. All of them. Sure, they werenāt amazing or anything, but it meant...it meant someone fancied me, you know? And...they were sweet. I quite like them, actually.ā He leans back into his seat.Ā āI know they werenāt from that Ravenclaw girl, by the way. I asked her about it. She looked at me like I was mad. Like I had three heads. I basically ran away in shame. I hadnāt any idea who they were from otherwise. Wish I wouldāve known.ā
He takes a drink and sets his glass on the table.Ā āI never wrote you poems, but I did write about you, a lot. Took me a while to figure out why. Every other page I basically rambled on about you - your hair, your laugh, your clothes...honestly, itās embarrassing.ā
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Sirius offers Remus a flash-bulb smile and tilts his head to the side slightly ( looking very much like a puppy who has just heard a new and interesting sound ).Ā āRight. How could I forget that heās your best mate. We donāt play favoritesĀ āround here, do we?ā Thereās a slight hint of something akin to envy in his tone but he knows heās got no right. He has James, itād be unfair for him to expect Remus as well ( though, if heās honest with himself, he expects them all to consider him their best mate - it goes without saying ).
āNot a pitiable life, just a life that leads one - such as myself - to believe that you deserve better.ā And now heās being more honest than heās possibly ever been, the sincerity is etched onto his face and he purses his lips for a moment - for once, not looking like a joking teenager but an earnest young man.Ā āI donāt feel bad for you. I just want whatās best for you and I think, given the sacrifices youāve had to make in your short life, those close to you should be willing to make some of their own. And Iām willing to do that.ā Because I love you, he doesnāt say but ( again ) it goes without saying.
āNot really. If Iām sleepy or have big plans, Iāll attempt to behave myself but detentions donāt really have the intended effect on me. I can always just ditch out or find a way to have fun. Theyāre going to have to start getting more creative around here.ā Heās all smiles once more before he laughs.Ā āI didnāt mean keep the points you took away, I meant Iād keep that as my punishment - you docking me a couple of points here and there. No detentions, please.ā He uses his best smile ( hoping it will work ) and leans his head on the other boyās shoulder.Ā āYou smell like tea. And grass.ā Itās a nice smell so he stays close.Ā āLook at that, I am your favoriteā¦ big shocker.ā But his eyes have lit up now and theyāve given him away, this is the best thing heās heard in ages.
āOh, come off it,ā Remus says, and gives him a playful shove.Ā āThatās the point of us - all of us - weāre all close. Just because you and James play favorites with each other doesnāt mean we all have to.ā The thing about that, though, is that heās a bullshit liar and he knows it. He loves James and Peter with his whole heart - truly - but thereās something that draws him to Sirius, something he doesnāt quite understand yet.Ā
Remus is touched to the point of speechlessness at Siriusā words. It is a battle for him everyday to allow the idea that he is loved into his head, and moments such as this make it impossible to ignore. He doesnāt think heāll ever get used to it, the praise, or compliments, or how he has people in his life willing to work to make his life better.Ā āYou shouldnāt have to make sacrifices,ā He says, and he means it sincerely.Ā āYouāve made enough already. Thank you, Sirius, I...just. Thank you.ā
Sirius is smiling at him and it tugs in his chest. Now that Siriusā head is on his shoulder he can smell him too - some of Jamesā dadās fancy new shampoo (heās been testing a few formulas out, Remus likes this one the best - it makes Siriusā hair all shiny, and soft), leather (somehow, this scent follows him), and rain.Ā āI was reading a book outside earlier,ā He explains.Ā āHey! I never said that. I said, or not. Did you hear me? That could mean anything.ā
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Sirius gives Remus a look,Ā āI donāt think Iāve ever used a line on a woman unless it was to get out of detention or to distract.ā He grins again the scratches at his upper arm just to give his twitchy, fidgety hands something to do.
āHe really is an arrogant toerag, but I have to at least pretend like heās not. Heās my brother, you know?ā Siriusā forehead is crinkled now and, for a minute, heās not smiling. Heās hoping to convey the idea that I can make fun of him but no one else canĀ theory runs true for him and James.Ā āSheāll warm up to him, I think. Heās a great guy with a heart of gold, and a small fortune besides. Heās not half bad looking and heās sometimes funny. He really likes her. I think theyāre a good match.ā He shrugs and smiles once more but looks offended when Remus scrambles to the other side of the couch very much affronted.
āHey, hey, nowā¦ā His voice is soft as he reaches over to brush a stray curl off of Moonyās forehead. His thumb grazes down the other boyās face slowly.Ā āI was only takinā the piss out of you, Moons. I know youāre fun - loads of it. I just rarely have the opportunity to spend time with you. Donāt be cross. Iām genuinely sorryā¦ didnāt mean it. Honest.ā His fingers have wrapped around Lupinās wrist now and heās tugging gently to try to pull him closer once more.Ā āForgive me?ā
āOf course,ā Remus replies, but he gives Sirius a confused look. He and James make fun of each other all of the time - itās the sort of thing best friends do. Or, at least, he thinks it is. He never had a single friend in his life before he met the rest of the marauders, and he knows there are not many willing to accept him - truly accept him - as they do.Ā āWe talk, you know,ā Remus adds, a small smile on his lips.Ā āLily and I. She thinks Iām sensible. She hasnāt said as much, but I get the feeling sheās more than come around and is just in denial about it now. Itās only a matter of time, especially since she and Severus are no longer...close.ā
Remus was only a little offended, truth be told. Heās inherited a flair for the dramatic after spending so much time with Sirius. He wouldāve gotten over it pretty easily anyway, but Sirius is talking to him with that voice and his touch is so soft that he has to stop himself from climbing directly into the other boysā lap. Instead, he allows himself to be pulled back to where he was before. He thinks he would give Sirius anything he wanted if he just had the sense to ask for it.
āI suppose I can forgive you,ā he sighs, but his smile betrays him.Ā āAgainst all odds, I know you think Iām fun.ā
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At the assumption made by his friend, Sirius barks out a laugh that twists his face into the most genuinely pleased expression. He thinks itās absolutely hilarious that Remus would think that then has a moment of mental clarity where he realizes itās on brand for Moony to think less of himself than others do.Ā āYouāre barking.ā He says, his teeth catching the light and gleaming like crazy.Ā āIf anyoneās not good enough, itās me.ā And heās got a whole trunk full of reasons, but theyāre having a good time so he wonāt sour the mood by reminding Lupin just how crummy of a person he can be.
āAnd to think, we had the same misguided thoughts. I was certain weād all be fucked if you found out how I felt. James and Peter really have some explaining to do to us. Did they find our pining and agony to be entertaining? Itās truly unfair. I did everything I could to help James and Iām sure you were an excellent wingman for Pete.ā Heās laughing again, shaking his head. Heās so happy, he thinks he might burst, so he looks out the window again and tries to still his breathing.
Remusā arms are around his waist, his chin on Siriusā shoulder and the older ( taller ) boy closes his eyes, tipping his head back just so before putting his hands on top of his friendās.Ā āLetās just be like this forever.ā He says, but itās hardly a whisper, his breath leaving a cloud on the window in front of him.
āYouāre the barking one, Padfoot,ā Remus counters, choosing to deflect rather than discuss the topic farther. Sirius is far too good for him - anyone with bloody eyes could see that - but he doesnāt want to think about that, not now. There will be plenty of other nights to worry. That is, if they both survive the coming war.
āI canāt believe this,ā Remus says, and he means all of it. Mostly that Sirius isnāt turning tail and booking it away from him, but also that they were both suffering the same thoughts.Ā āHad toāve. After all of the good words I put in with Lily, too.āĀ
Remus tightens his arms around Siriusā waist, trying to pull him in closer.Ā āI wish we could,ā he says, and looks out into the city. How many days did they have left, where they could just be...like this? There were already stirrings, talks of recruitment, a resistance led by Dumbledore. He knew in his gut they would all join, and though he knew it was the right thing to do, a terror for the safety of his friends seized him at the thought. Could he protect the reckless, courageous, beautiful boy in his arms if it came down to it?
Thereās a mini bar and itās on no oneās tab so he steps away from Sirius and fixes them both drinks. He wants to not think about whatās coming and think about whatās happening now.Ā
āRemember when I made you skive off Astronomy because I had something important to tell you, and asked you to meet me in the Common Room? Then when you got there I asked you to proofread my Potions essay and threatened to dock points from you if you didnāt?ā Remus asks, smiling over the rim of the glass.Ā āYou let me ramble on about fluxweed for five entire minutes. I was going to tell you then, but I got scared, chickened out.ā
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Siriusā face is contorted into a confused, almost offended expression as he follows Remus into the crisp air outside the pub.Ā āIāve literally shown zero interest in anyone in the last half a dozen years - aside from you, and James ( by the way ) is well aware of my feelings - but youāre as obtuse as a Muggle faced with magic.ā He laughs and allows himself to be pressed against the door, effectively silenced by Remusā lips. While heās usually gearing for an argument ( for the sake of it ) heās willing to be hushed by this.
It ends too soon but Lupinās got ideas and Sirius is definitely interested. Moony coming up with mischievous ideas is enough to get Siriusā blood really pumping and he pulls the other boy with him toward a hotel he had taken note of earlier in their day. Itās called the SavoyĀ and it certainly doesnāt look like the place these two sweaty boys should be, but Sirius wants to get inside of it.
Heās lived a life of luxury and he thinks Remus should get a taste, too, before everything is laid to waste ( besides, thereās always that sinking feeling that they wonāt make it through this war, and Sirius wants to make the best with what time theyāve got ).
āNo, Jamesā is a bad idea. Letās catch the bus.ā He pulls Lupin to a spot where a couple of Muggles are hanging out and they act natural until itās time to board. Heās got enough for the fare and they manage to make their way to Central London and are faced with a beautiful building. Sirius hasnāt let go of Remusā hand and he squeezes it as he gazes up at the hotel.
āHere will do.ā He says and he walks in like he owns the place - oozing charm and confidence, they arenāt even stopped ( they look like typical kids their age for the area, probably assumed to be rebellious children of someone in a suite ). He drags Lupin up to the top floor and they manage to find a room, charm their way in and Sirius casts a protective charm around the room so they wonāt be interrupted.
Finally, he lets go of Lupin and walks over to the window to look down on the city.Ā āThis, Moonyā¦ is the life.ā
āYes, but I thought you just hadnāt met anyone good enough for you yet. And I still donāt think you have, by the way.ā He doesnāt say that Sirius deserves someone who isnāt going to put him at risk, because for one bloody night, he really does want to believe the two of them could make it.Ā āI think James and Peter figured it out before either of us. Thatās...they should have said something! The whole time Iāve been thinking Iām going to solely disband the marauders because of my stupid feelings.ā
Remusā heart skips a beat when Sirius agrees to his plan. They really were going to do something outlandish and ridiculous, but most importantly, they were going to spend some blasted time together alone. Had they ever? Really been alone? Remus couldnāt remember, all the time at Hogwarts and James and out in places like the pub. Remus has taken muggle buses before, but is surprised and a little impressed that Sirius doesnāt need guidance.Ā
The hotel is. Well. Itās nicer than anywhere Remus would ever dream of staying, and before they even walk in, he already feels painfully out of place. He tries to shake the thought - heās with Sirius, they belong anywhere. Siriusā confidence is enough to not get them questioned, and he thinks he couldāve just faded into the background.Ā
The room is nice, so nice he feels weird being in it, but he thinks heāll eventually get used to it. Plus, thereās something he likes about them truly breaking the rules like this. He follows Sirius to the window, wrapping arms around his waist and reaching up to rest his chin on his shoulder. The view is stunning, but even more stunning is the reflection he sees staring back at him in the glass.
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Siriusā mouth is moving before his mind has the time to think better of the words leaving it.Ā āDunno.ā He answers with a certain measure of sincerity.Ā āNever tried it.ā His brows are high - as though he is deep in thought - but he still has the mildest of smiles on his lips.Ā āWas it really that bad? For you to be mocking me in such a manner?ā He arches a single brow now but laughs as the line replays in his head - it truly was pitiful but definitely not something beneath the self-proclaimed King of Puns.
Sirius warms under the glow of Remusā positively radiant grin and he finds himself leaning closer, as if to bask in the rays of it like sunshine. Heās pushing himself up on his elbows and Remus is so close, he can smell the chocolate ( rich and dark ) on his breath and his stomach betrays him with a gentle rumble. He squeezes the other boyās hand - as if this sort of embrace is the most natural thing in the universe - and shrugs.
āHeās too busy trying to convince Evans heās not a - what was it? - arrogant toerag.ā He snickers, his nose crinkling.Ā āIām as forgotten as that pile of old socks at the bottom of his trunk.ā He shouldnāt say it, but his jealousy is coming through.Ā āBesides, I never knew you could be this much fun on your own, else Iādāve tried it ages ago.ā
āReally? Sounds like you would have. Just testing it out, eh? Well, itās bad. Very on brand for you, but still bad.ā Remus doesnāt know what Sirius is interested in, but he is pretty sure itās not women - heās never seen him be remotely interested in one, though he knows Sirius to not be above dropping bad lines for the fun of it.Ā
Remus and Sirius keep getting closer, and Remus tries not to think about it, but itās very hard. Itās very hard to have coherent thoughts when he thinks his heart might beat out of his ear drums and heās worried that Sirius is so close heāll feel it. He takes a cue from Sirius, who is looking as cool and laid back as usual, and relaxes.Ā
āMmm,ā Remus says, thoughtfully.Ā āShe knows he is an arrogant toerag, though, right? Thatās just an unquestionable fact. Heās a great person, one of my best mates, but also - an arrogant toerag. Sort of comes with the package, right?ā Heās snickering, too.Ā āIām sorry youāre forgotten socks,ā Remus says, then pauses.Ā āIād never forget you to run off and chase a woman.ā He squeezes Siriusā hand. Then, immediately regrets his sympathy, and scuttles away from Sirius to the other side of the couch.Ā āHey! Iām very fun on my own, thank you very much, sorry Iām not James, but I still think I bring an acceptable amount of mischief to the table.ā
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āAh, poor Peter.ā Sirius replies with a faux expression of sympathy for their friend.Ā āWonder how many times heās heard that, that someone would take me over him? I reckon quite often. Who wouldnāt take me over him? Probably even his own mum. I mean, look at me, Iām beautiful, arenāt I?ā Heās teasing, but only just as he flashes a brilliant smile and a lightening quick wink at his friend.Ā āYou make it sound as though you donāt have a good time with Peterā¦ he can be fun, right?ā Heās studying Lupin now, his teeth dragging across his bottom lip. He understands, though, he knows he and James are far more entertaining - though they are quite often too caught up with one another, leaving Peter and Remus to themselves. Things are changing, though.
āI donāt pity you, nor do I want to.ā He continues, his face scrunching up in an expression that suggests heās scoffing at the very idea of being sympathetic toward Moony. But itās a lie and, as Remus has just been so kind to point out, Sirius is quite skilled in the art of it. His lips curve up into a semi-smile and his eyes are bright yet they belie his true feelings of utmost empathy and compassion for his dear friend. Heās perhaps too overprotective of Remus ( refer to their earlier conversation ) without much regard for his own well-being where the other boy is concerned.Ā āI suppose weāre all right at it.ā
āGive me a detention and youāll really be left to play chess with Peterā¦ my schedule will be full of detentions.ā Sirius is now giving Remus a truly unfair smirk, and he knows just what heās doing - manipulating the situation.Ā āIāll keep my points, and the fact that Iām most obviously your favorite.ā He says it so casually, itās almost like heās not only certain heās Remusā favorite but that heās been aware for quite a long time.Ā āYour secret is safe with me.ā
Remus rolls his eyes so hard he fears that they may get permanently stuck. Still, heās chuckling, at the absurdity of Siriusā statement, and how casually Sirius delivers these bold statements of arrogance. Remus looks confused for half a moment at Siriusā question.Ā āOf course I have fun with Peter,ā He answers.Ā āYou realize Peter and I have almost spent as much time together as you and James, yeah? He might be my best mate. He just doesnāt...push me out of my comfort zone the way you do.ā He gets that sinking feeling in his gut again, the one that tells him that the only reason Sirius even bothers with him is because James is busy, and tries to shake the thought.Ā
Remus looks at the face of his friend as he says he doesnāt pity him and has to commend the effort. Sirius is quite good at lying, but Remus spends a lot of time looking at his face and even more time interrogating James and Sirius to figure out what theyāve done now.Ā āItās okay if you do, Pads, Iāve lived a pretty pitiable life. Just donāt, ugh, feel bad for me.ā He hates the underlying condescension that comes from that statement - i feel bad for you - and scoffs. He knows Sirius would never turn his nose up at him, though, and he appreciate that to his core.Ā
āIsnāt it always? Do you ever have a night off?ā Remus raises an eyebrow as he turns his face towardsā Sirius. The smirk - coupled with how confidently Sirius is attempting to manipulate the situation almost disarms him - almost.Ā āYou canāt just keep points after Iāve taken them away. Iāll let you slide on the detention...until youāve forgotten. Til you least expect it. When you think, oh, Iāve got myself a free week - then I will be there to serve you righteous punishment. My favorite or not,ā He says, non-committaly. Sirius is probably his favorite, but he figures he ought to say itās Peter, right? Peterās been the one to frequently seek him out.Ā Ā Ā
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Sirius would be content to hold onto Remus and just kiss his face off for the rest of eternity, but he knows thereās no sanity in that, and that theyāll have to break to eat and sleep and whatever else it is normal humans do. But heās so elated, he can hardly remember to breathe let alone function properly when the only instinct in him is to kiss Moony again and again and againā¦ At least Lupin has his wits about him.
Sirius looks flummoxed by the question. I canāt believe - really? You - really?
āWho else?ā He says because he canāt think of any better counter argument.Ā āYouāre daft! Iāve loved you since first year, you self-deprecating toad!ā He laughs and it feels so good, makes his head lighter and fuzzier than the beers theyāve had and now heās accutely aware of the sweat trickling down his temples, down his back. He nods, ready to go wherever the other boy wants but fully without an idea of where they can go. Theyāre in London and thereās no way theyāre going to the Black Residence.
āWhere? Back to Jamesā?ā He asks, but it sounds stupid the second it leaves his lips. Theyād never be truly alone at the Pottersā. A hostel wasnāt private enough and Sirius had no way of knowing how to get a hotel room. Heās pretty sure his brain is moving faster ( and in a whole other direction ) than Remusā, but heās seventeen and there arenāt many other places for it to go.Ā āYou lead, Iāll follow.ā for once.
āI donāt know, I just thought - not me,ā Remus says, and his face is starting to hurt from all of the smiling.Ā āIām daft? Why didnāt you say something? We couldāve sorted this out years ago!ā He gives Sirius a playful shove and though heās poking fun he is genuinely touched - that admission, since first year -Ā and it makes his chest grow tight with fondness.Ā āItās been a while for me, too, Sirius. I just thought...you wouldnāt want me.ā He looks away as he says it, and even though he knows he was wrong now, itās still hard to admit.Ā
āAnywhere,ā Remus says, and he means it. Itās strange how much brighter the world seems now, how much any place he could think of was made better by knowing Sirius was going to be with him. Sirius wants him to lead and while heās not very good at it and he hasnāt the faintest idea of where they might go, he takes Sirius by the hand and leads him out the back door of the pub anyway.
The most pressing matter on his mind is to keep kissing him, as much and as often as possible, so as soon as they are both out of the door Remus pushes Sirius back against it and kisses him for a good long while, until someone forces the door open and disrupts them. The air is brisk enough to be refreshing but not cold, and heās happy that the night is stealing away some of his heat. He wants to kiss Sirius all over London now that he finally can - every back alley, park, rowdy pub, and more. He thinks they donāt really need a destination, not when theyāve got the night air and the darkness and each other - finally.
But - the thought does cross his mind - the two of them could probably swindle a hotel room out of some hapless muggle. They werenāt old enough, and they probably didnāt have enough money, but they had a few things going for them. They were quick-witted, Sirius could charm nearly anyone out of anything, and Remus was very good at looking helpless and pathetic. Oh, and they had magic, too. They were of age now - it wouldnāt be anything to unlock a door and sneak in...
āIāve an idea,ā Remus says, raising an eyebrow.Ā āIt isnāt a good one. In fact, itās pretty poor, and very risky, and definitely illegal. So, youāll love it. If you really want to be alone...ā He tells Sirius their options - attempt to successfully charm their way into a room, or sneak in and steal one for the night.Ā āWe could also just go back to Jamesā,ā He adds.Ā
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Sirius grins like an idiot in response to the question. He has been staring an awfully long time, hasnāt he? The glow of the fire reflects off of his teeth and he leans in just a bit closer.Ā āJust admiring the view.ā He says, and itās done so with just the right lack of inflection so Moonyāll be left wondering if itās sincere or another bout of sarcasm. Sirius has to keep himself safe, thatās his number one priority, and heād hate for Remus to take the piss out of him for something heās said while love drunk on a plush sofa in a room thatās begging them to snog each otherās faces off.
āIf you made me go back to Slughorn, Iād never forgive you.ā And this time he sounds sincere, his brows high and his jaw set. He keeps this expression on his face for all of thirty seconds before heās grinning again and leaning forward so as to gently knock his head against Remusā.Ā āI am not deflated.ā Heās regaining his composure, coming to terms with the fact that this is nothing more than an awkward hangout for Lupin - he can handle that, far better than rejection were he to confess any deep-seated feelings, anyhow.Ā āIām happyā¦ā He reaches out and grabs Remusā hand, squeezing it softly before letting go ( did he hold on too long? heās not sure. ).Ā āThereās honestly nowhere Iād rather be right now.ā
Remus rolls his eyes with great exaggeration to fully convey how he feels about Siriusā sarcasm.Ā āTell me, does that work on women? Admiring the view,ā He scoffs, but heās smiling all the same. Even if it werenāt sarcasm(and it couldāve been sincere - Sirius gives him compliments all of the time, most of which he brushes off), it was still a laughably awful line.Ā
Remus swallows and nods and knows that heās going to be trapped here indefinitely now, the nagging voice at the corner of his mind telling him they ought to go back but the fear of upsetting Sirius outweighing that in spades. They were going to be here until Padfoot wanted to leave. That and...if he were being honest with himself, he would really rather stay here, as well. He cherished the time he spent with each of his friends, together or alone, but there was something about having Siriusā full attention that he liked. Probably too much. It was not often he caught Sirius without James, though that had been changing recently, as James spent more and more time with Lily.Ā
Sirius says heās happy and a grin comes bursting out of Remus on reflex. Knowing that eases and calms him significantly, and when Sirius drops his hand he laces their fingers together again on instinct.Ā āMe too, Pads.ā The moment feels a little too tender than what he expected and, resorting to his usual defense mechanism, he tries to deflect it with humor.Ā āIām telling James you said that, by the way. Heāll be distraught.ā
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Sirius is a good sport and, so, he smiles and shrugs his shoulders when Remus makes the suggestion that heāll offer Sirius up to play against Peter.Ā āIf you think heās annoying, you havenāt met me.ā He answers with the worldās biggest shit-eating-grin. Peter, poor Peter, can grate on oneās nerves but - in his defense - itās never intentional. Sirius, however, has spent over a decade finely tuning his calculated annoyance into a veritable weapon (typically, itās used against his mother, but he has no qualms in employing it against his friends).Ā āOne match and I doubt heāll ever want to play me again.ā He crinkles his nose with the magnitude of his smile and stares, once more, up at the ceiling.
āI find it almost hilarious - almost - that anyone can believe you innocent with your wide, amber eyes and your wand hiding behind your back once weāve been caught. Oh, poor Remus, only guilty by association, itās too bad he got sucked in with that Potter and Black.ā He snickers and is looking at Lupin again.Ā āYouāre just as bloody awful as the rest of us, possibly even worseĀ ācoz sometimes you get way with it. Youāre lucky youāre cute.ā His fingers rake through his hair and he breathes a little sigh before looking at Moony with a particularly fond twinkle in his grey eyes.Ā āWhen you do it, itāll be to prove a point. I know you all too well.ā
Siriusā face contorts into a look of perplexity and he swallows the last of the cake in his mouth before supporting his weight on his elbows.Ā āSee? I told you. Proving a point!ā He sighs then flops back.Ā āIāll earn those back and then some in Charms and Transfig tomorrow. Waste of your breath.ā He teases with another almost predatory smile.
āOh, Iād take you over Peter any day,ā Remus says, chuckling.Ā āYou either are really bad at being annoying or youāre holding back for my sake. Whatever the case, I appreciate it. If you can get him to stop, you have to teach me your ways.ā He hadnāt really intended to put Peter on Siriusā trail, but after hearing this, it presented somewhat of a challenge. It would be rather interesting to see how it played out between them, and who would get discouraged first. Heād have to make a bet with James.Ā
At Sirius wordsā Remus stifles a grin and assumes hisĀ āweāve-just-been-caughtā look. His eyes do go wide, his expression apologetic, and he stares down at Sirius with as much feigned innocence as he can muster. With the facial scars, tattered clothes, and permanent look of exhaustion, he thinks he makes it work quite well. Then, he laughs, loud and long.Ā āPeople want to pity me, Sirius, I just make it easy for them. You use your looks and charm, I use my ability to look like a stray puppy.ā He plops down next to Sirius again, clearing a space from the fallen candy he dropped unceremoniously onto Siriusā bed.Ā āThatās entirely unfair. You two can get away with it, too, sometimes. Not that anyone thinks youāre innocent, youāre just much better at lying.ā
āOh, you think?ā Remus says, with a sly grin.Ā āYou deserve to have points taken from you, even if itās not for the reason I gave. Keep it up and Iāll have to add a detention, too.ā He bounces his brows.Ā āDumbledore would be so proud. I think this is exactly how he intended me to use my powers as Prefect.ā
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The most horrible feeling of dread, panic, and sickness takes over Sirius the second he hears Remusā laugh. His head is reeling - a mess of gears spinning - as he tries to think up a feasible explanation for why heās kissed Remus. Heāll never live this down ( and, in his head, heās thinking how heāll never be happy because all heās ever wanted was Remus, and heās been pining after the other boy the same way James has been for Lily since first year - but maybe heās being dramatic ), heāll be the joke for the rest of their time at Hogwarts, heāll have to move somewhere far away and change his name. Heās starting to sweat.
But thenā¦
Remus is pulling him back down and their lips clash in a much more forceful manner than before. Sirius feels like heās floating. Heās lightheaded and thereās a smile on his lips as their pushed against Moonyās. Then heās laughing, too, and he gets it. He understand why Remus laughed. Because thisĀ is amazing, and it feels great; it feels right.
He doesnāt even stop to think about it when Remus confesses his feelings because Sirius has been aware of his own ( acutely awareĀ ) since he was twelve.Ā āI love you, too.ā He answers and heās suddenly leaning with his elbow on the bar, his back curved so that their faces are closer and - for once - he can feel the eyes on them and he thinks everyone must be so jealous of him for getting to kiss Remus. And he feels so proudĀ that he leans in and kisses again - making sure he gets a taste of the inside of Moonyās mouth this time.
Remus is smiling against Siriusā mouth as they kiss, because he canāt stop, the kissing or the grinning, and he breaks off to pepper little kisses all over Siriusā stupid, beautiful face, like heās imagined for so long. The happiness, the relief heās feeling, he could survive for years on that alone.
āJust like that, then, hmm?ā He asks, the smile threatening to split his face.Ā āAll of that worry, all of that time - and just...here, in a muggle pub, with warm beer and people staring at us from every angle?ā This time he feels no bitterness at the eyes on them - Sirius wants him, is choosing him. He smells like cigarettes and sweat and probably tastes like old beer and Sirius still wants to kiss him. Incredible. On the other hand, Sirius looks absolutely radiant, the joy lighting up his features makes him look like the sun.Ā āI love you,ā he says, again, because itās true, and heās waited so long to say it.Ā āI canāt believe - really?ā He gestures to himself.Ā āYou - really?ā
And he laughs again, and then heās kissing Sirius again, and itās blissful and he thinks Sirius is quite good at this, actually, and heās hoping he can keep up and that Sirius wonāt suddenly change his mind.Ā āWe should go,ā He says, once he pulls away for air.Ā āYou promised me we could be alone.ā
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For a moment, itās as if this magical room has cast a spell over its two inhabitants. Sirius feels a dizzy ( yet not uncomfortable ) sick from how close the two of them are and he wants to lean in and bridge the gap but thereās so much stopping him.
Yet, it seems laughable. Sirius Black, the boy everyone wantsĀ is worried about someone not wanting him. But it isnāt just someone. Itās Remus Lupin, one of his closest friends since year one and someone Sirius considers to be delicate. He doesnāt want to upset the balance of their relationship - of the relationships between the four of them ( because how can he forget Pete and James and how his desires can screw them all over? ). He swallows hard and the movement of his Adamās apple is almost painfully slow as his eyes dart between Remusā mouth and his eyes. Heād kill to kiss Lupin now but he canāt muster up the courage.
Ha! A Gryffindor and heās not so brave, given the circumstances.
His heart is hammering in his chest and his fingers are trembling. He rubs his lips together and nods, his breath comes out labored and he shifts ( like heās going to stand up but he only ends up closer to Remus; shocking ).Ā āWell, we could get back to detention, if that would make you feel better?ā He wants Remus to sayĀ ānoā, wants him to give Sirius some sort of sign that this is what he wants, too, but heās bracing himself for a return to Slughorn ( as much of a killjoy as it will be. ).
Sirius stares at him for a long while, and Remus is left to wonder why. Is there something on his nose? Does he have a bit of chocolate on his face? He reaches up and tries to nonchalantly touch the space around his mouth to check. He realizes then that thereās something else in Siriusā expression, and he looks pained, almost. Remus is seized with guilt again, thinking that heās done something else wrong to upset his friend. He wishes he knew what he could do to make Sirius happy, instead of that sad, strained look. He watches Siriusā eyes fall to his mouth and reasons that it must, indeed, be chocolate, and wipes mouth on the back of his hand. Sirius gives him a quizzical look.
āWhat? You were looking at me like I had something on my face. Is it chocolate? Did I get it? Are you going to let me go back to detention with chocolate on my face?ā He asks, and as Sirius shifts theyāre somehow closer together and he feels his heart hammering. He knows itās the right thing to do, to go back, before they get caught, but he gets the sense from Siriusā words that he doesnāt want to. He would rather face an entire monthās worth of detentions than do something that would upset his friend even further, so he smiles instead and says,Ā āNo. Whatās life without a little risk, eh, Pads?ā
He positions himself more comfortably, practically falling into Siriusā lap at this point, but he doesnāt look like he minds.Ā āAre you going to tell me why you look so absolutely defeated? I skived off detention for you. You should be glowing<.ā
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āMaybe Iām just quick on my feet, Lupin, canāt you give me a little credit?ā Sirius asks, pouting slightly though itās gone as quickly as itās come and the smile on his mouth looks like it could melt a polar ice cap.Ā āCāmon, that sounds like loads of fun.ā His eyes are gleaming with a particularly nasty brand of mischief and heās already thinking of ways to set Remus up to have to play Wizardsā Chess with Peter. Heās practically snickering as he commits it to memory - Remus absolutely does not want to play, so Sirius will have to make him ( if only to save him from it in the middle. ).
Sirius rolls his eyes and huffs softly, a half-smirk on his lips as he looks over at Lupin - his hair falling in his eyes, and he doesnāt even bother to shake it away.Ā āThatās the biggest load of centaur dung Iāve heard this century and there are very few who would fall for your false image of innocence, Remus.ā He snickers and shakes his head ( finally! ).Ā āJames deserved it. And you docked Peter points that one time for sayingĀ āerā too many times in one conversation. Youāre a proper Prefect, you are.ā Itās said with perfectly honedĀ sarcasm that only the closest to him would pick up on.Ā āBut youāve not docked me anyā¦ mmā¦ā
Sirius doesnāt even bother trying to look where Remus keeps his stash of goodies - if he really wants any, he knows he can ask or go down to the kitchens or buy the whole of Honeydukes next Hogsmeade trip. His smile is fox-like as he stays completely still save for the move of a hand to swipe a cake from his chest. He removes the wrapper and devours it in two bites, speaking to Remus with a still-full mouth.Ā āYouāre the greatest, Loopy.ā
āThat smile looks awfully suspicious,ā Remus says, and his eyes narrow as he examines Siriusā face. Heās well versed in reading Siriusā expressions, and this one is not giving him the response he had hoped for when he confided his chess plight.Ā āYou look like you are planning a betrayal, right underneath my nose. It stings, Sirius. I bear my soul to you and you immediately decide how you shall use my own weaknesses against me. Iām going to suggest he play with you next, since he has so masterfully defeated me.ā Heās smiling as he talks, clearly joking. Still, heād have to be on the lookout.Ā
āAre you trying to besmirch my good name, Pads?ā He asks, giving him a mischievous grin.Ā āIāve never done anything wrong in my life. Any questionable activities I have ever participated in are a direct response to your undue influence.ā Heās absolutely full of it, but he thinks he makes a pretty good sell. He nods as he remembers when he docked Peter.Ā āAh, deserved it, that one. Couldnāt string two words together without punctuating them with an er.ā It didnāt occur to him that he never took points from Sirius. He probably deserved the punishment more than either of their friends. āYet, Sirius. I havenāt docked you any yet.ā
āI know,ā Remus says, as he watches Sirius eat from above. How he survived on nearly junk food alone was a mystery to him.Ā āFive points from Gryffindor,ā he adds, raising an eyebrow.Ā āFor speaking with your mouth full, and for not even bothering to chew like some sort of barbarian.ā
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āIāll pack the cloak.ā He answers immediately with a confident (if not, cocky) smile.Ā āAnd the map - that way Iāll see anyone coming and no one will see me. Itās brilliant, honestly - just like I am.ā Sirius teases with a grin before crinkling his nose at the other boy.Ā āYouāll still have Pete.ā He suggests with a soft laugh because he knows Remus much prefers his company to any of the others (does he know it or is he really just that confident?).
āWeāre bad influences?ā Sirius is suddenly scandalized with wide, grey eyes.Ā āYouāre the one, Mr. R. J. Lupin, who is suggesting I ditch out on detention just so that you arenāt bored. Whoās the bad influence? Mr. Prefect who never scolds his friends? Just because youāre a goody-goody doesnāt mean James and I are naughty.ā He laughs before the sentence even fully leaves his lips and heās staring up at the ceiling again, his arm over his head.Ā āIām starved, Lups. You got any snacks?ā
āIām guessing that by how quickly you formulated that plan this will not be your first time skipping out of detention,ā Remus says, and cocks and eyebrow.Ā āI should have known. It is a good plan, though. Brilliant.ā He adds the last word sarcastically.Ā āYeah...Pete. Sounds like loads of fun. Who needs you or James when Iāve got Pete?ā He asks, but drops the act as soon as the words get out.Ā āCome on, Sirius, you know heāll just want me to help him with his homework or rope me into the least exciting or challenging games of Wizardās Chess that I will ever play. I let him beat me last week just so he would stop asking, but now he thinks heās some sort of master and wants me to play more.ā Heās almost begging, donāt leave me alone.
āOf course you are, Iām merely a pawn in your terrible, prank-ridden games,ā Lupin says, and feigns more innocence than he really deserves.Ā āI take my title of Prefect very seriously, thank you very much. Just yesterday I docked James five points for eating all of those little sandwiches I like at lunch. That is a fair and responsible use of my power.āĀ
āYes, but Iām not showing you where I keep them,ā He says, and disappears from Siriusā four poster and moves to his own. He rummages for a moment and then returns, dropping an array of cauldron cakes, pumpkin pasties, chocolate frogs, and bertie botts on Sirius prone form. In fairness, a lot of it are things that Sirius has bought them. āI hoard them, but I have such a hard time actually eating them.ā
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