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ONION RING!!!

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I AM SOMETBING PRETENDING TO BE HUMAN i have always been something pretending to be human i have always pretended to be human i have always been more thing than person i am something pretending to be human

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can i call you back im doing something weird

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i wish everything was good and nothing was bad

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you and me, me and you

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Adding to prev post i feel like social media art culture has fucked up so many artists so bad. Maybe the worst culprit is those fucking sketchbook tours where every page is a fully shaded, fully rendered illustration with no sketches and doodles in sight. When you only see other artist's great works you forget that even the greats have their bad days. The only fucking art youtuber i follow is scott christian sava cause hes the only guy i know who frequently posts about his own frustrations, mistakes, fuckups, etc and it makes me feel so much better about my own art.

generally speaking i rlly wish artists would post their ugly art more so everyone realizes the reality of how ubiquitous bad art actually is, even among professionals. Post your bad art right fucking neow i swear to god. So we can all realize we all suck equally and laugh about it...

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The "frustration tolerance" post has generated a lot of reactions and I wish I could keep up and read all of them, but it got me going into a lot of introspection and how I got over the "inaction due to perfectionism" issue.

IMPORTANT NOTE: I'm autistic but I don't have ADHD. It came as a surprise to me that several people were new to the phrase "frustration tolerance" and it is worth mentioning that this is a concept I learned during my time as a clinician in occupational therapy when working with kids on the spectrum, which yes, absolutely involves autism and ADHD, and you should know it's not your fault, but this should also give you a clue that this is something that can be worked on.

Tough self-talk (tough, not derogatory mind you) may not work for some of you, but it does for me, and the next lines might be unpleasant to hear. Also a disclaimer that this is all very specific to me and my experiences so take it with a grain of salt.

I found that the root cause of the "inaction due to perfectionism" is ego. I think about myself too fucking much. Drawing is just another problem that can be solved with a logical series of steps (practice, study, repetition). Deep down you know this. The problem is that this logic breaks down if you think of yourself as an exception to the rule for whatever reason, for instance if you were like me and was told at a young age that I was naturally gifted at drawing and didn't need further studies (I didn't start actually studying until I was 21-22). Well! Tough shit. But also I'm a grown-ass man who gives a fuck what my high school teachers said about me. The faster you get your head out of your ass about the gifted kid bullshit and just think of yourself as just another average schmuck the faster and more efficiently you can put in mileage and get things going.

An extension of point number 1: Did I really think I was the only person on earth who gives a shit about perfectionism? Of course not. Every other person who put out a creative piece of work is just as concerned as me and just as bummed out about the mediocrity of the results. The only difference is that they tried and they got something out of it. If the idea is really just that good just fucking go back to it later. Again and again, better this time. It's not a big deal.

I promise so much of this is just rooted to tempering down your ego and it genuinely is nuts how low self-esteem and being full of yourself are concepts that just feed into one another but I believe that once you're aware of this you can find some balance. Not everyday, some days are just bad. It happens. But just keep that in mind. OK!

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i want to play but my mind has been destroyed

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Damián Ortega — Controller of the Universe (found tools and wires, 2007)

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you could be the smartest person in the world but that doesn’t mean anything if you don’t have a yaoi soul

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Bruce Pennington

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Sometimes, asking for donations on Tumblr feels like shouting into the void, with nothing left but tagging people in the hope that someone will notice. The sense of despair grows with every ignored plea, like drowning while screaming with no one to hear. If you can help, please consider donating—every little bit makes a difference.

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would you guys still like me if I got shot in the forehead and fell backwards

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I've got to get back into hitting people until they fall over

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