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stabbing as a metaphor for penetration is great but when are we going to talk about pressing down on where someone is wounded to disarm them or just to be cruel while fighting. does nobody else care about the perverse intimacy of knowing exactly where to touch to overpower someone. the grotesque vulnerability of it. especially if you're the one who wounded them in the first place.

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Point out a flaw of my muse and see their reaction!

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this ask meme is based on the blog gravesuggestion.  i’ve divided it up into two categories  ( light  &  dark )  based on the themes.  some of these can be somewhat triggering seeing that the darker ones deal with a lot of death mentions.  please be cautious before continuing on!!

L I G H T

‘  at night i dream of you.  ’ ‘  don’t give up yet.  you still have time to fix things.  ’ ‘  falling in love with someone else is not a personal attack.  ’ ‘  i am still so weak when it comes to you.  ’ ‘  i can’t believe i let myself let you down.  ’ ‘  i don’t care where we go when we die,  as long as i’m with you.  ’ ‘  i dream of saying to you all the words i held inside until it was too late.  ’ ‘  i feel so warm  &  safe when you talk to me.  maybe i could love you if you’d let me.  ’ ‘  i finally let the right people in  &  i have never felt so loved.  ’ ‘  i like the way your nails paint red stripes along my spine days after you’re gone.  ’ ‘  i lived in your permafrost for twenty years  &  then you looked at me  &  i felt the warmth of spring.  ’ ‘  i once wished you’d leave me alone,  but i take it back.  ’ ‘  i want to be able to love someone else,  but you stretch your arms  &  spread your legs inside my heart so that there is no room for anyone or anything else.  ’ ‘  i want to believe that we got it right this time.  ’ ‘  i wonder how much longer i can cling to your light before it expires completely.  ’ ‘  i would travel across the world to be by your side,  because as long as you are with me,  anywhere is a perfect place to me.  ’ ‘  it took me awhile to realize it myself,  but you are not what other people say you are.  ’ ‘  it’s not that i really need you,  but life would be pretty boring without you around.  there’s no one i would rather be with.  ’ ‘  i’d like to stay like this for awhile.  ’ ‘  life  &  death don’t have to be so boring,  let’s make both an adventure.  ’ ‘  life imitates art,  they say.  i didn’t believe it until i started to notice the way your eyelashes look so much like tiny ink stroke.  ’ ‘  live your life so that when you die,  souls will come for miles just to hear your historic tales.  ’ ‘  make your exes jealous  &  your past self proud.  ’ ‘  maybe you’re what i needed to find in order to move on.  ’ ‘  never get caught falling harder.  they’ll never let you back up.  ’ ‘  please don’t go.  ’ ‘  some days it’s easier to just stop fighting it  &  succumb.  ’ ‘  sometimes,  you’ll find it hard to keep going,  but you always will.  ’ ‘  the desire i feel for you is that same itching,  insidious hunger that an addict has for their addiction.  ’ ‘  the worst thing about you is that you weren’t all bad.  ’ ‘  there is absolutely nothing  &  no one who can stop me.  ’ ‘  there is no route of losing you that is without pain.  ’ ‘  there’s still room for adventure  &  there is no one i’d rather have by my side.  ’ ‘  things didn’t turn out the way i planned,  but i’m alright with that.  ’ ‘  we could be really incredible together,  you know?  ’ ‘  you are beautiful  &  vibrant  &  confident.  you are light  &  laughter incarnate  &  every fiber of your being screams freedom  &  joy.  when i am with you,  i am truly happy.  ’ ‘  you are starlight incarnate,  from the grand way you sway your hips to the wide mysterious way you think.  blessed are any to be loved by you.  ’ ‘  you are too afraid of the future to let go of a past that was never kind to you.  ’ ‘  you call me yours  &  i have no idea what that even means to you.  ’ ‘  you remind me of bubblegum  &  sweets;  soft  &  pink  &  warm.  you are strong in the gentlest way.  you are so stubbornly kind.  i wish i could be like that.  ’ ‘  you still visit me while i sleep sometimes.  your fingers trace my spine  &  i listen to you breathe.  please stop haunting me.  ’ ‘  ‘morbid curiosity’ is a wonderful way to describe how i feel about you.  ’

D A R K

‘  a thousand empty bottles  &  fist fights will never return to us what we lost that day.  ’ ‘  everyone else has moved on,  but i am still here.  ’ ‘  everything about you screams danger.  ’ ‘  everything is worthless to you  &  you,  in turn,  became worthless.  ’ ‘  for once in my life i want to be surrounded by people that i don’t feel like i need to impress.  ’ ‘  freedom is really hard to get used to.  ’ ‘  how could you do this to me?  how fucking could you?  ’ ‘  i am becoming everything we always dreamed of  &  i am leaving you behind.  ’ ‘  i buried you so well that you might as well have died.  ’ ‘  i can rest easy knowing that the person i love is dead  &  not the monster you became.  ’ ‘  i can’t look at you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t ask how you’ve been.  what’s the point?  you’d lie anyways.  ’ ‘  i dream of hearing the words i so desperately needed to lay your memory to rest.  ’ ‘  i haunted this house first.  there is no room for you here.  ’ ‘  i have a right to be upset.  i loved them too, you know.  ’ ‘  i just want it to end.  i want it to all go away.  i want to go away.  ’ ‘  i may be a wolf in sheep’s clothing,  but a snake hiding in the skin of a mouse is far more dangerous.  ’ ‘  i saw your face today  &  didn’t feel anything.  i am free.  ’ ‘  i tried to save you,  but you didn’t want to be saved.  you just wanted someone to suffer with you.  ’ ‘  it’s almost as if you were never here.  ’ ‘  it’s unhealthy to do these things,  you tell me.  you say it’s time to stop smoking,  time to stop gambling,  &  dammit,  i f you don’t stop drinking it’ll kill you.  i sure hope you’re right,  darling.  ’ ‘  i’m always pleasantly surprised by how easy it is to kill you in my mind  ’ ‘  i’m not really scared to die.  i’m more afraid that no one will miss me when i’m gone.  ’ ‘  i’m not the person you left behind anymore.  there’s no one here to miss.  ’ ‘  i’ve been dead far longer than i’ve been alive.  ’ ‘  i’ve eaten nothing but flower petals  &  ivy for weeks because i want to be beautiful inside like you.  ’ ‘  i’ve never been completely satisfied.  i most likely will still be unsatisfied long after my death.  ’ ‘  no motive other than pleasure,  my dear.  ’ ‘  one day i’ll go or you will.  either way,  it will be as if i’m losing a piece of myself.  ’ ‘  our dreams  &  promises decay along with you.  ’ ‘  the leaves change,  but nothing else does.  ’ ‘  the only difference between avoiding  &  leaving is that now i’m not waiting up for you.  ’ ‘  there is no such thing as a person who is required to love you.  ’ ‘  there’s only so much that can be done to repair old damage.  ’ ‘  things aren’t going as i hoped.  maybe if i die,  i can start over again?  better luck next time.  ’ ‘  this is not something to be proud of.  this is a tragedy.  ’ ‘  trying to get rid of me?  oh honey,  you’ll have to try much harder than that.  ’ ‘  trying to get under my skin?  you’re nothing more than a pesky itch.  ’ ‘  unlike you,  i can’t hide my identity when it becomes an inconvenience or a danger.  ’ ‘  weeping is for gods  &  martyrs,  we cannot afford such luxuries.  ’ ‘  would you even miss me?  ’ ‘  you are not important enough to earn an eternal place in my heart.  ’ ‘  you complain nonstop about being unloved  &  alone,  i can’t imagine what you’d be like if that were actually true.  ’ ‘  you don’t know what it’s like.  ’ ‘  you made this so fucking easy for me.  ’ ‘  you should see me as a threat.  i will tear down everything you know until there is nothing left of you.  i am a walking threat.  ’ ‘  you think i’m already gone,  but i’m still fighting.  ’ ‘  you think i’m dead,  but i’m just dying.  ’ ‘  you were never an addiction,  you were a fucking disease.  ’ ‘  you wouldn’t dare cross me.  i am god  &  you are the soil beneath my feet.  ’ ‘  your existence takes up so much more space in mine that we might as well be one entity.  ’ ‘  your fingers are so cold  &  bruised,  but you’re still slamming your fists again the barricade as if it makes a difference.  ’ ‘  your hair is tied in a noose  &  your fingernails are razor blades,  your lips are poison  &  i will gratefully kiss them.  ’ ‘  your hatred has a body count  &  we will not forget.  ’ ‘  your loss,  not mine.  ’ ‘  you’re a sick fuck.  you know that?  ’ ‘  you’re not gentle with me  &  i would never ask you to be.  ’ ‘  you’ve trapped yourself so thoroughly in your own mind that it’s not even a rut anymore,  it’s a pit.   ’

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@yishuns asked : How far do you go with divergencies when it comes to your canon muse? + How would you describe your favorite OC?

How far do you go with divergencies when it comes to your canon muse? F a r. I feel like especially RP is a very deconstructed space where I'm willing to push canon very far to Explore the Concepts I think are interesting for the character. But I always like to think that I stay roughly within the plausible realm of the narrative. Like, typically I don't go so far as to go down the "this is my OC now" route unless the role was minimal in the source material and I HAVE to do that much filling in or they did the character REALLY FUCKIN DIRTY. I tend to take the parts of the canon muse I find that I want to explore and themes I like and focus on fleshing those out (and maybe sometimes blow them out of proportion but shhh). I think a lot of the times what I find to be the Essence (tm) of the muse may not be what someone else thinks is the essence of the muse, even if all the parts of the muse kind of exist canonically in the muse at the same time - but I also think that difference in interpretation is what makes RP fun.

How would you describe your favorite OC? I think it's funny because before this year if you asked me "who is your favorite oc?" I think I?? Wouldn't be able to answer you. But like, this year it's kind of become Very Clear to me that like...as much as I love all of em, I do have a favorite child, and it's Tang Tang. How to describe her, on the other hand...difficult. When I created her, she was sort of born from the concepts of nostalgic old wuxia of my childhood. She's a little contradictory - maybe that what makes her human though. Like sometimes I want to say she's a quietly unhinged - eccentric and impish and carrying out her own logic that may not make sense to everyone else. She certainly has A Personality (tm). And other times I want to say she's deeply insightful and attuned to human nature and accepting (tm) of it - in a weird way I think she's the least likely to judge anyone out of all of my ocs. She looks at life with peaceful (tm) and perhaps smiling eyes and that's all she does - she just looks and accepts that it is part of the world that she's living in and finds amusement in it. And sometimes causes mischief because she feels inclined toward doing it and disturbs the peace but shhh. Still other times I want to say she's Just a Girl (tm) traveling along her road, doing what she thinks needs doing and doing her best to stay free and happy. Basically - I love her, she’s best girlie.

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fleetwood mac // rumours rp meme

edit/alter/change pronouns etc as you see fit!  

second hand news.

there's nothing to say.

someone has taken my place.

i got nothing on you.

there's nothing to do.

i ain't gonna miss you when you do.

i've been tossed around enough.

i know you're hoping to find someone who's gonna give you peace of mind.

i'm just second hand news.

dreams.

you want your freedom.

who am i to keep you down?

thunder only happens when it's raining.

players only love you when they're playing.

i keep my visions to myself.

it's only me who wants to wrap around your dreams.

have you any dreams you'd like to sell?

never going back again.

let me in.

she broke down.

i'm never going back again.

you don't know what it means to win.

come down and see me again.

don't stop.

you'll see things in a different way.

don't stop thinking about tomorrow.

it'll be here better than before.

yesterday's gone.

why not think about times to come?

why not think about times to come, and now about the things that you've done?

if your life was bad to you, just think what tomorrow will do.

life was bad to you.

all i want is to see you smile.

it takes just a little while.

i never meant any harm to you.

don't you look back.

go your own way.

loving you isn't the right thing to do.

how can i ever change things that i feel?

if i could, baby i'd give you my world.

you can go your own way.

you can call it another lonely day.

tell me why everything turned around.

songbird.

for you, there'll be no more crying.

no more crying.

for you, the sun will be shining.

when i'm with you, it's alright.

i know it's right.

to you, i'll give the world.

to you, i'll never be cold.

i love you like never before.

i wish you all the love in the world.

i wish you all the love in the world, but most of all, i wish it from myself.

the chain.

damn your love.

damn your lies.

if you don't love me now you will never love me again.

you don't love me now.

you will never love me again.

you make loving fun.

you make me happy with the things you do.

this feeling follows me wherever i go.

i never did believe in miracles.

i never did believe in miracles, but i've a feeling it's time to try.

i never did believe in the ways of magic.

i never did believe in the ways of magic, but i'm beginning to wonder why.

don't break the spell.

you make loving fun.

i don't have to tell you, but you're the only one.

you're the only one.

you make loving fun, it's all i wanna do.

i don't want to know.

i don't wanna know the reasons why our love keeps right on walking down the line.

i don't wanna know the reasons why.

i don't wanna stand between you and love.

i just want you to feel fine.

the truth had come down now.

take a listen to your spirit, it's crying out loud.

you say you love me.

you say you love me, but you don't know.

now you tell me that i'm crazy.

oh daddy.

you know you make me cry.

how can you love me?

i don't understand why.

how can you love me? i don't understand why.

if there's a fool around, it's got to be me.

you soothe me with your smile.

you're the best thing in my life.

why are you right when i'm so wrong.

i'm so weak but you're so strong.

i can't walk away from you.

gold dust woman.

take your silver spoon and dig your grave.

lousy lovers pick their prey.

they never cry out loud.

did she make you cry?

did she make you cry, make you break down, shatter your illusions of love?

did she shatter your illusions of love?

is it over now?

pick up the pieces and go home.

rulers make bad lovers.

you better put your kingdom up for sale.

silver springs (super deluxe).

i would be your only dream.

did you say she was pretty?

did you say that she loves you?

she loves you.

i don't wanna know.

i'll begin not to love you.

i said i loved you years ago.

tell myself you never loved me.

can you tell me was it worth it?

was it worth it?

time cast its spell on you, but you won't forget me.

you won't forget me.

time cast its spell on you.

i know i could have loved you.

i know i could have loved you, but you would not let me.

i'll follow you down.

the sound of my voice will haunt you.

you'll never get away from the sound of the woman that loved you.

was i just a fool?

give me just a chance.

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Friends I’m a tired ho and I want angst

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the thing you should know about me is that a good harmony WILL launch me into the astral plane

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Chugs enemies to lovers soup

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Questions for the mun. A series of questions for the mun / the person behind the muse(s)

Basics.

When did you first start writing?

In what language did you start writing?

If your mother tongue is not the language you write now, what caused you to switch languages?

What was the first muse that you’ve written?

Do you still write your first muse?

What is the muse that you write for the longest?

In what style did you start to write (First person, third person, *-style or novel-style?)

What caused you to start writing? What was your key point?

Do you regret starting writing?

Is there anything you would have changed when you started writing now that you have more experience?

Do you tell your friends / family that you write?

How do you describe writing / rp to others?

On what platform did you start to write?

Canon Muses.

What is your favorite canon muse?

Have you ever written a canon muse that you first thought of ‘meh’ when they appeared in their canon show/movie/book?

Are you happy with how your favorite canon muse was portrayed in canon?

How far do go with divergencies when it comes to your canon muse?

OCs.

Who was your first OC?

Do you still write your first OC?

Who is your favorite OC?

How would you describe your favorite OC?

Do you have developed dynamics with the OC of another mun that has influenced your OC or Canon muse?

How do you create an OC? What are your steps for developing an OC?

FC or story first when you develop an OC?

Fandoms.

In what fandom did you start?

What is your favorite fandom in which you write?

Is there any fandom you regret exploring?

Have you ever developed an OC for a certain fandom?

Ships.

What are you looking for in a ship?

Do you tend to focus on shipping or do you not care at all?

Have you ever developed a ship based on writing with a certain other character / mun?

Have you ever started to ship a rare-pair?

What are rare-pairs that you’re passionate about?

Do you plot a ship or see where it goes?

What are your favorite ships on here (feel free to tag?)

Do you ship someone’s muses on your dash?

Tumblr.

What are the trends when it comes to writing that you adore?

What are trends when it comes to writing that you dislike?

What trend would you wish to see on here?

What was your first blog / URL?

Do you still have your first blog / URL?

What’s something you find weird on here?

What’s something you wish to improve?

What are your biggest (personal) Tumblr crushes?

What people make you happy when you see them on the dash?

What are things that you don’t wish to see on here?

What are things you wish people would tag so you can block it?

What new addition would make your Tumblr experience so much better?

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it occurs to me if i keep working 1.5 hours over time a day by the end of the week it basically equates to working 6 days

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ALICE BY HEART STARTERS

"There's a world we knew as we, before."

"We're falling through the ground, and falling slow."

"There's a golden silver song in the afternoon."

"Something whispers of something gone."

"How can you refuse when I tell you follow?"

"Something on the shelves holds something of ourselves."

"Where did it go, the world I left behind me?"

"Your heart begins to ache."

"The bottle tells you 'drink.' You never stop to think."

"What happens if I can't get out of wonderland?"

"The story goes as stories will."

"I'm late, I'm late, so late."

"I'm ahead of my time still if I keep moving forward."

"But how can I stop the clock in me when I'm chasing me still?"

"Time is chasing me still."

"Each afternoon stays rosy late, just me and you, our golden room."

"Stay where the grasses sway, the river stopped moving here, with the lazy blue day, your roses just blooming.

"Why can't we linger and dream?"

"Linger on with me still."

"Leave the talkers talking, the hum is what we want. Song beyond thought."

"Let the worry fade, no more 'hurry, hurry.' The summer is purring."

"We can rise beyond what's gone through a world they got so wrong."

"The key is within you."

"I won't let them move you on, play you like some ghostly pawn."

"Slow, slow time - tumble into my heart."

"We'll unwind the clock."

"To see is to dream within you."

"We will rise beyond what's gone, stop the night and hold the dawn in a world where we belong."

"Leave our shadows on the lawn, leave a world they got so wrong. There's a sky where we belong."

"Let the sorrow dance."

"Just hold her by the claws and waltz all night."

"Dance and give yourself to those long eyes."

"Waltz and waltz all night, ignore the tide."

"You plant a rose white, you best paint it red."

"The faceless must die."

"Don't they ask why?"

"We don't want in your head."

"Yes, we're sick to death."

"It's all about your pain."

"You're such a boring pain."

"Stop the analyzing of everything you've read."

"Sorry, but whose pain?"

"You'll leave me all the same."

"Words mean what we say they mean, and that's the way it goes."

"Senseless twit, go grieve a bit, and soon we'll have samosas."

"He's not some diagnosis."

"I will not give his soul up!"

"You can kick at heaven, or cry out to the sky. You can go below words, and sill there's no reply."

"There is no reason some things fall away."

"The heavens are forever - we only stay a night."

"Sorrow calls with the evening with the wind beneath your door."

"Meet their gaze, their grief is yours."

"We look again next morning and every word is new."

"There is no reason no one comes to stay."

"Give in to your grief like me."

"Bereavement is the key to survival."

"My heart is a dark polar block, dear. No one comes near."

"Love is brief and time's a thief."

"What will you do when I'm not here with you and you sit here and you're not with me?"

"How will you do, finding something to do when there's so much you thought that we'd see?"

"Will I still sleep in some part of your mind in some way I may never know?"

"Will I still dream that you're here and you're mine and I never have to let you go?"

"Will you find another room in your head, spend some time in another room in your head?"

"Will you dream it's like always, haunting as always, you still there wanting my love?"

"In my dreams when I'm falling, you'll be there wanting my love."

"In my dreams you'll be calling with longing, nothing there haunting our love."

"Talk and talk and talk - still you're never not you."

"All your same old wants, now where have they brought you?"

"No one wins at cards or plays like they ought to."

"Isn't it a trial to try and stay a child?"

"The world no longer fits, and still you're stuck in it."

"Now you have a past and no one understands."

"Yes, you dug a lovely ditch, dear."

"Do you think we hold no wisdom till our pages hold you in them?"

"I'm not gonna plead so you can judge if loving is the thing I'm guilty of."

"It's done, I'm done, I've shrunk enough."

"I hold the hand I hold, no shuffling with my soul."

"Growing up is not a crime."

"I'm gonna speak what you won't speak."

"Go back to being pictures in my dreams."

"A little talk could hold me for a little while."

"So little life remaining and the shadows won't contain me."

"The book of night is closing for the child."

"I knew you were a strange girl - or I thought you were."

"You mustered all the wonder from the room of hurt."

"We knew the world of summer."

"The melodies were sweeter left unheard."

"The heart will not remember what it will not name."

"The caterpillar gazes on a world of older faces but the butterflies go floating all the same."

"Who knew what to do with all I felt for you?"

"Roses linger with a sigh."

"With evening in their eyes, every bloom bids goodbye."

"Nothing comes or goes without a shadow. Somewhere in the soul you hold a candle."

"Let the sorrow go, it's half the battle."

"There are rooms you leave behind other wounds of other times."

"Other songs fill your mind."

"Summer drifts like a child."

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may all my favorite horrors be adapted well and with correct vibes (tm) cast

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oops it's my mandatory 12 am libra overthinking session

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@misericordiis asked : Goldilocks - tangtang 😉 - Send “Goldilocks” for my muse’s reaction to finding your muse asleep in my muse’s bed. (ACCEPTING!)

The spare keys and door code were a formality. He had blanket permission to APPEAR at her apartment whenever he liked long before that, and the security guard that dozed at the small booth office outside the building near the parking lot entrance knew of him as "that eccentric young lady's equally eccentric young man" for even longer. Still - it always IGNITES the part of Tang Sanyue that's looking to make mischief to see his shoes unexpectedly by the shoe rack, his jacket haphazardly hanging from the back of a chair when she comes through the door - a pleasant surprise to pay forward.

And so she toes her own shoes off beside his QUIETLY, closing the door with equal care. Hangs her bag slowly on the coat hanger, half crouching as she tiptoes across the room. Today there's no low thrum of music or permeating smell of something cooking in the kitchen - only her bedroom door is left half ajar. The hunt ends prematurely when she pokes her head through the door and sees the the familiar figure, afternoon light fragmented through the blinds dragging across his face.

She holds up her phone, fondness momentarily suppressing the amusement, and takes a picture. And then, NATURALLY, she pounces.

The bed dips with her weight when she tosses herself onto HER side. She first reaches over to poke his cheek gently, and when that doesn't seem sufficient, reaches with both hands to hold his face. Leans close to kiss him, suppressing quiet laugher. "...Hello sleeping beauty in my bed." And then she sinks her teeth into his bottom lip. "That enough to wake you up yet?"