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HIIII im. sorry i like. auchfhfb mental health slash neg

but im soing better now! hru?

guess who is alive and back on tumblr :3

:O OH MY GOODNESS HIIIIIII I missed you I missed you a lot TwT how have you been? :D

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Opinion on hyuluka? Like do you think hyuna cares about luka or not? :0 (sorry I just want a hyuluka analysis..)

Thanks for the ask! There were so many things that needed to be brought up that it made me dizzy lol

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Hyuna -> Luka is probably the most complicated of any relationship line in Alnst because there are layers upon layers of conflicted emotions tied into it and ultimately it's this turmoil that forms a knot in her heart that she can't untangle or cut.

Does Hyuna care about Luka?

Yes, of course. Undeniably and uncontrollably.

Does she want to care about Luka?

Absolutely not. Everything in her life would be so much easier, so much simplier and straightforward if she didn't.

"I should have never approached him and treated him kindly from the very beginning.... Should we talk about something else?"

— Hyuna about Luka, Artbook

Hyuna wishes she had never approached him because if their paths had never intersected, she never would've had the chance to love him, treasure him. To hate him, resent him. And he in turn never would've had the chance to love her or betray her.

But loving Luka was never a choice. Not for her.

[Breakdown of the incident here]

Needless to say, Hyun Woo's death is the event that impacted what became of their relationship the most.

She blames him — he was the one who started it, he was the one who committed the act, he was the one who ultimately betrayed her in killing Hyun Woo, her most precious person.

She also can't blame him — Hyun Woo's death was accidental, Luka doesn't appear to even see what he's done, his crime is that he didn't know how to love but how could she put blame to that?

She blames herself — she was the reason for their fight, she never stood up for herself when it came to Luka which prompted Hyun Woo to feel obligated to stand up for her, meaning that ultimately her indulgence of Luka is what led to this.

How is she supposed to process this? How is she supposed to move on? She can't.

And that in and of itself is Luka's fault. His lack of acknowledgement of everything not Hyuna means he himself doesn't process Hyun Woo's death.

Can she blame someone who doesn't know? Can she forgive someone who doesn't understand? She can only resent him.

— Breakdown of Hyun Woo's incident

Arise and walk reflects both Hyuna's love for Luka and her inability to forgive him. Her refusal to, because the very fact that he makes her want to forgive him is what makes her unable to forgive herself.

It's worth noting that Hyuna understands and sympathizes with Luka on a deep level which is why it's hard for her to fully blame him.

But no matter how she feels about him or how much she tries to run away from what happened, reality is still there.

Hyun Woo's death was not just the loss of one of her most precious people. It's the loss of all of her most precious people.

One to death, and the other to the fact that she will never again be able to let herself love him for his role in it.

In the end Hyuna -> Luka is a love-hate relationship where she wants to hate him, but she can't, and she wants to love him, but she can't.

(Additional probably unpopular opinion under the cut)

Whenever I say "love" in this post I don't necessarily mean romantically.

I actually don't think Hyuna holds romantic feelings towards Luka in this timeline. She cares for him yes, very deeply. But not romantically.

In Wiege we see what could have been in another universe.

Hyuna and Luka always had the potential to love each other romantically but I think part of the tragedy of the alternate universes is that that wasn't possible in this one.

It wasn't possible because it's this one.

Alnst broke Luka, which in turn led to the inevitable events leading up to Hyun Woo's death. This all happened too soon, too early for that potential in Hyuna to romantically love Luka to develop.

In other words, they could have been.

If not for 'Alien Stage.'

(I personally don't have a problem with that bc *points at blog title awkwardly* romantic relationships aren't the be all end all for me. But if you're a shipper, the loss of this potential can be taken as part of the inherent tragedy of Alien Stage.)

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Hello! I haven't seen you in a while!

ahhh hello!! im so sorry for my leave and absence!

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OH MY GODDDD

Fireworks

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jp twt found the dang alleyway

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minaide rikai dekinai deshou?

soba ni ite

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woof :3

reblog to tell prev it's a very good doggy!!!

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Everytime you reblog this post “Student A”(or whatever his real name is) gets kicked down the stairs

Yeah fuck him I hope he gets pushed off a cliff, impaled, and set on fire all at once

That transphobic piece of shit

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THIS IS SO ME STOPPPP.

whats up with blonde men and mommy issues

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tweaking out!!!!!

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Gambel’s Quail (Callipepla gambelii)

© Nathan Wall

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identity

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we were looking at the same sky

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mzkn doodle

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I had to draw something for Mizu5...

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2hr practice

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emu otori ☆ ☆ ☆