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Found the guys from the "children, this is dirt" meme you all love! They are saara hardwickii, close relatives of uromastyx who live in India and Pakistan (uromastyx live in Northern Africa)

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My hands look like this [picture of hands covered in bike grease with all but the banjo nail trimmed as short as possible] so that hers can look like this [picture of the same hands with the same nails but now the hands are clean and decked out in a bunch of femme ass gemstone rings]

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brings me comfort when i hear someone else’s car making a weirder and/or scarier noise than mine makes

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We ask your questions anonymously so you don’t have to! Submissions are open on the 1st and 15th of the month.

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I have emerged from the zofran/oxycodone fog with only moderate kidney pain and the stone probably out of my body. And out there in the big world things have somehow gotten even worse. And in here in the small world the cat is throwing up again, one lizard is dead, and the other lizard is constipated. And me, I don't smell so good either. So I'm gonna deal with all that now

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what a piece of shit country

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Dog did a LOT of grumbling about the cat getting into bed with him, but he has accepted his fate

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The oxycodone makes me very constipated but I have to take it because otherwise it feels like my kidney is being stabbed every time I inhale. I haven't pooped since Thursday. I need to pass the stone and the poop. When lizards are constipated, you hold a vibrator on their belly. Maybe it works on people too. So I am sitting here with one vibrator on my back (to move the stone) and another on my belly.

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The dog is taking care of me too

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Last night I got hit with another kidney stone. Last one was in 2021. This one was worse. N got to watch me experience the worst pain I've been in in my life. Yelling nonverbally and involuntarily (undignified, embarrassing) in the urgent care, etc. Threw up seven times in two hours from the pain. Got to experience how differently doctors and medical staff treat you when you're being Unpleasant--normally doctors etc love me and are nice to me because I am a Good Patient and So Polite. But they did give me two liters of IV fluids and zofran and oxycodone and today I'm not doubled over or throwing up, just zombified and bad at walking, getting up and down, and rolling over.

I won't be able to do my 30-mile Wildwood end-to-end run tomorrow as I'd planned. And probably won't be able to do my race in three weeks either--last kidney stone, it took a couple weeks before I could run without the jostling hurting my kidneys, and ime the month or two after a kidney stone is a bad time to risk getting dehydrated (a thing that tends to happen when you run 50 miles in July). Sucks, man. To have a thing you've been working toward for months and have this happen.

And we are leaving in 40 minutes to take Ronin to the vet to say goodbye. My plan for today had been to spend time with him and with my emotions. I have been holding him, but my feelings are behind the oxy cloud. I am doing this important time all wrong.

N is taking good care of me and of all of us and I am very grateful to have such a wonderful partner.

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so I have a really unusual first name /last name combo and I don't think anyone else has it, so I'm curious what it's like for other people

Please reblog to reach more people!

PSA: do NOT share your full legal name on this post, please stay safe

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sick animal cw, pet death cw (no one is dead yet)

Ronin took a turn for the worse this evening. I was able to get him comfortable and he's gone to sleep for the night, but I'm calling his vet first thing in the morning to see if they can get him in for euthanasia. Can't help feeling like I've failed him. Like maybe if I'd asked more questions the first time he had a "that's a little weird, but it's probably nothing" ultrasound, we could have caught the tumor soon enough to take it out. Like I wasted this beautiful creature and the opportunity I had with him. You don't have to reassure me that this isn't the case (it won't make me feel any different). I'm really really sad.

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daily affirmations:

i am kind

i am in control of my emotions

it does not bother me when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

everyone in the house has the right to be in the kitchen

i am kind and in control of my emotions even when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

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When I (M29) was a young boy (M7) my father (M35) took me into the city (X167) to see a marching band (M23, M21, M22, F22, M24, M25, F21, M