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Can we go back?

Why dont you talk to me? You dont tell me how you feel. You dont tell me whats wrong. You dont tell me why youre happy. You dont tell me how you feel about me anymore. You dont say “i love you” anymore. I just want to be let in and not be intrusive.

We curled up in eachother tonight and i lost myself in the smell of your hair and the touch of your skin.

It was the best ive felt in months.

I hate that weve lost connection with one another i want to take our phones and throw them away. i want to never watch watch a movie or tv show again because our eyes are focused on the screen and your eyes bounce right back as soon as your short sentence is finished.

When were not watching a movie youre on instagram or facebook and i hate that i am too but i dread sitting alone while you slip away into a seperate world. Id leave technology behind forever if i could stare into your eyes instead of the pseudoemotional world on “social” media.

I love you.

I miss you.

I want you back.

12/3/18 2:48am

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I cant make you happy like I used to, can I?

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I get it. Here? Im a little bitch. Meet me in person? Im an adult who knows how to handle himself.

This is how I get overmyself. I try not to make all of my problems someone elses. Unless i need to. I dont complain to mom or dad when school gets tough. I dont cry to my girlfriend that my test was too hard. I dont go to my superiors when someone is bothering me. I talk to that person. I use common sense when enlarging issues. Shit happens. Get the fuck over it. There is absolutely no need to change the world because youre a little bitch who has hurt feelings. Be whoever the fuck you want to be. Do whatever the fuck you want to do. Go where ever the fuck you want to go. I dont care. No one cares. No. One. Cares. Be a goddamn adult and make a fucking decision for your self. And handle your own goddamn problems. I dont care who you want to be. Boy? Okay. Girl? Okay. If you wanna switch? Okay. But you look like one, and want to be the other. Do not get pissed at me for not knowing. Be an adult and instead of assuming i should know everything, just tell me. Will i fuck up? Probably. Will i apologize? Yes. But hell, I might even ask a few questions out of curiosity to get to know you better. You might even make a new friend. But DO NOT PUSH YOUR LIFE STYLE ON ME. Not every one is going to be your friend. And in the big picture? There are newrly 8.5B people on earth. If you count it, almost no body is your friend. If you want people to accept you and your lifestyle, you need to accept the fact that people have a seperate lifestyle.

I am 19. I am ashamed of the world ive grown up in. Everybody is soft. Everybody need everything done for them. Go order your goddamn food from a real person. Make the fucking phone call. Go ask your boss that question. When our parents told us to be whoever we want to be they didnt mean little bitches. When our parents told us if someone hurts our feelings to tell someone. They were telling us that because we were in elementary school and didnt know how to resolve situations yet. NOT to cry to our boss because someone else was put on the project you wanted or that someone else got promoted.

Oh, and while im at it. The whole open borders or closed borders thing? Send every illegal home. We have an immigration process in place. Do not cry about the families being split up. Had they done it the right way then they wouldnt be where they are.

Are you working a job and still broke? Get another one. Work. Nothing is handed to you once youre an adult.

Its October 28th, 2018 the high today was 52 and the low was 46. And somehow there are fucking snowflakes everywhere.

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PLEASE PUT YOUR PHONE DOWN, HOLY SHIT.

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Everything’s fine for us until i do something wrong and you get upset and i dont know how to fix it.

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I suck at this

I want to be my best for you but all I do is fuck things up.

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I wish you two were here to see me tonight. I hope you’d be proud.

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Im not crazy in thinking its okay

to feel weird about the fact you just spent $100 on birthday presents for someone who almost had us arrested and ruined our careers but you didnt get the $8 patch i asked for for my birthday that was 4 months ago...... right?......

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Why can’t you just live life? Why does everything have to be such a process?

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Why does doing everything have to be so fucking difficult

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girl: come over

me: i cant

girl: i understand

me: i love you

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Isn’t it amazing?

How quickly it falls apart.

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I must have the best girlfriend ever

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“Fuck.”

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I’m wasting time working towards something I don’t even want to do

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If life was one notch easier

It would be so much more bearable

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Everyone tells me to just do what’s makes me happy.

But nobody knows how hard the choice is.