nvm mood drop back to sleep i go
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two words: assassin au. thanks 4 coming 2 my ted talk
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obi-wan // infinitesorrow
“SELFISH IS NEVER A word I would use to describe you, Satine,” he answers, soft words & a cold tone. Not cold enough for there to be an inkling of sarcasm or irony, for the compliment is genuine, but cold enough to be distant. He has erected his façade again. It is easier this way – he does not wish to allow her to peer into his heart because to do so would only cause her more pain. He has done enough damage.
ARE YOU FOREVER DOOMED TO HURT EACH OTHER SO ----------- ?? hands tremble, so you curl your fingers into fists, and when that does not stop the tremor, you merely allow for a dejected sigh. “ i am, though, you know. selfish. ” there is a great weigh upon your shoulders, but still, you remain tall, as if afraid you are going to shatter if you so much as bow under the pressure. “ i knew i shouldn’t love you . . . and yet i love you still. is that not selfishness then ?? to go against nature for sheer --- sentiment ?? ”
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unknown. // puerluunae
DO YOU REMEMBER THE WEIGHT OF WINGS SPROUTING FROM YOUR BACK ? pristine ivory ; when luminance of sun caught feathers in its luscious beams silvery haze would cast you in a wholesome glow ! DO YOU REMEMBER THE HALO ‘PON YOUR BROW ? a child so innocent ; wherever you threaded flowers would flourish , the world would sing & coiling shadows would slink back in their pits of darkness ! DO YOU REMEMBER THE FEEL OF SPRING GRASS ‘NEATH BARE SOLES ? a young boy , laughing , caught ‘twixt the fold of mothers loving embrace , a boy who crafted a flower crown & placed it atop her golden head ! DO YOU REMEMBER THE FEEL OF SUN KISSING YOUR SKIN ? no .
you live in darkness , you became the shadow ; the obscuration you , when a child kept at bay ! wings torn from scarred back , leaving nought but gaping chasms ‘twixt protruding shoulder blades . & the halo , radiant in its sacrosanct light replaced by crown bedecked with BONE . you are a killer / sinner you are a walking blasphemy & god has cast you out !
‘ life is not fair & it will never be . we just have to find a way to live with that . ‘
BURNT AMBER, SUMMER GLOW --------- there is laughter dying within the cage of a chest thorn open by the claws of the BEAST, glass-heart aflutter on the cold concrete, still twitching and spurting blood. do you even remember what warmth feels like ?? GLACIAL QUEEN entrapped within ivory, the fingers ripping at your flesh to feed the hungry is are naught but your own && when the morning comes, do you realise that you are empty ?? a vacuous mass, black hole which consumes the nothingness within you and nothing more. / you were a child once, a lamb to be placed on the altar, donning ivory and silk so white so that when the blood seeps through from the dagger’s kill to your chest, it may form poppy blooms upon your skin. childlike empress in a world ruled by the gaping maws of monsters. what changed ?? nothing. EVERYTHING.
pallid cheekbone turns so that the moonbeam may illuminate the genteel swoop of your neck, lashes spider-web shadows over your skin && for a moment, you are silent. the shiver running its course through your body may be caused by the evening’s chill, but you know there is more to it than it meets the eye, animalistic instinct to RUN AWAY from the wolves searching for their prey into the night. you steady your trembling hand. steady your voice. tilt your head in apparent confusion.
“ ---------- no one ever said it was MEANT TO BE fair. what truly matters is how you work the hand you have been dealt. ”
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anakin // @oletherian
a shame to see. a little boy with no home to no longer call his own. a mother to no longer hold. lonely and isolated in a world he was unsure of. only nine years old, still a child. still learning and adapting, with the help of a mother’s hand - a mother’s hand that is soon ripped from him. a mother who’s body he saw breathless on the ground. her skin was cold and he didn’t understand why. she wouldn’t open her eyes, no matter how much he begged and begged. no matter how much he cried and shook her skin. she wouldn’t wake up and the young child never understood that in that moment, he had lost his only family. but that was until she came along, a woman who took him away from the horrors of the orphanage, away from the bullies, from the kids that hurt and tormented him. she had taken him away, somewhere safe.
he was unsure at first, small and careful steps were taken into his new home. his eyes, curiously taking in everything. it was more decorated than his apartment with his mother was. there was no leaking pipes, no holes in the walls, no furniture that belonged in a junkyard. no - it was filled. it was a home. it was HER home and now his. looking up to meet her gaze, the boy forced back the lump in his throat. ❛ it’s … big. ❜ he softly answered her, unsure on how to feel about a place that was bigger than any other house he had ever seen. but god, did his face light up at the mention of his own room. he had never had his own room. he shared a room with his mother, slept in the same bed as his mother, she was his comfort blanket … and now she was gone. ❛ my own room?! ❜ he practically lit up, quickly nodding his head in anticipation to see his room. HIS ROOM. one he could decorate, anyway he want. a place for him and him alone.
DEPRIVED --------- a child brought up within the cradle of WHAT IFS, a question no grown up can answer for him, not when a world so cruel digs clawed digits within the chest of infants to leave them bleeding on the bathroom floor, unsuspecting. you have seen such CRUELTY and still remain soft . . . morning dew ‘pon the lily petals, graceful goddess to try and bring JOY in the hearts of the unfortunate. those kids mean the world to you ; amidst the chaos that is your PERSONAL LIFE, interwoven with the mess of a political career, visiting the orphanage has been an oasis of calm --------- and then you met anakin and simply KNEW that he was meant to be held in your arms.
“ your own room, yeah. ” the smile you give is BEAMING, sheer difference from the one borne out of an innate need to please --- but there is so much more to give, your fingers gentle as they tug him through the open space of your living room to the room to the right. “ i didn’t really know what you would like, so i took tomorrow off work, ” hardly difficult --- you have overworked yourself to exhaustion more times than you can count, they would have given you the week off if not for your insistence, “ so we can go shopping for everything you need. ” ( and you swear to yourself now, that you will be stronger than your mother. that you will be nothing like your father, because the child next to you deserves the whole night sky. )
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i want to die like satine in moulin rouge: being applauded, covered in petals, and in the arms of ewan mcgregor
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saltine bryze is the best mother in the galaxy thanks for coming to my ted talk.
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Send “Who did this?” for your muse to discover my muse with a black eye or a busted lip
Potential TW warning
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the only spoilers that matter
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i have gotten good at never thinking of you. when we were reunited, it was almost as though we were strangers & i was thankful, because anything else would have been too difficult.
( i wish i could hate you. )
take a child out of her mother’s arms and throw her into war. what do you get — innocence lost of martyrdom gained ?? when the battlefield cuts into her skin, tears apart at vertebrae so that she may crown herself an EMPRESS OF LOSS, the galaxy does not weep for the infants born to the sound of blasters. rip a child away from her mother’s bosom. show her the blood coating her hands where she tried to stop the bleeding. tell her : little girl, you will drown. tell her : you will choke on your dreams and on your love and you will die not knowing what peace truly feels like. tell her : be the sacrifice, throw yourself at the lions so that others may survive. what do you get ??
selflessness. no sense of self. you would kiss the devil if it meant keeping your people safe. ( you get a being made of flesh and bone who does not know she is made of flesh and bone — she will think herself fire, ardent and bright & she will think herself ice, freezing and thawing and glassy. do not let herself look into the mirror least she sees past the glaze of ivory to the beating heart within !! )
a story as old as time : girl meets boy, boy meets girl and they fall in love — STAR CROSSED LOVERS have littered the history all thorough the ages, so why would you be any special ?? ( it’s because of the pain, MY PAIN, my choice, the weigh of decision hanging heavy atop my shoulders alone — and no matter what choice i made, it would hurt & i’d find no help in him . . . it’s the way he took my breath away with him when he left and now i’m left lungless, heartless, FLOATING by, more machine than human, more ———- no, no, GIRL-CHILD. you are no different that anyone else. )
strangers. two beings gravitating towards each other but never touching — did you ever know him ?? was the time spent together not a CLEVER LIE, built around the need to keep you docile, soft, agreeable ?? a MIND-TRICK, jedi games, your heartstrings wrapped around his hand so that he may rip it out of your chest when he leaves. ( wasn’t it easy ?? you see him turning his back at night, when you twist and turn with the ferocity of your nightmare. venomous words still coil around your throat, constricting with each passing moment && you truly hope he does not writhe in the same agony that you do ; you hope he is happy. you hope . . . )
so take this weapon-child away from her people, give her love. what do you get ?? a walking tragedy. a broken shell, a broken soul, half a being. but it’s also easier, isn’t it ?? offering yourself to naught but the cause. once broken, your heart does not mend and in a way, you ought to be grateful to him for doing it so soon, so as to spare you the hurt.
i wish i could hate you, you want to tell him. because you can’t — because you see him, so many years later, and find the garden he had planted within your chest still alive and thriving. because you love him.
( sometimes, in your sleep, you do not think of him, but when you wake, there is a hole within your chest && the moment you inhale to fill up the gaping chasm, you are drowning in memories of him. )
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I have aged 80 years.
me rn.
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my life for @rutalonidir and everything red does 2017
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the only spoilers that matter
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I JUST WANTED TO MAKE THIS POST to tell you guys how important you are to me. when i made satine 7 months ago, i wasn’t really aware on how much i would love her --- but i cannot ever regret making this blog, because you guys are simply the best. while the community might not be the tightest, i have found people who share the same love for their characters as i do and, even more so, people who are simply the best writers i have had the pleasure to interact with on this hellsite. anyway i love you so much. i would personally punch george in the face for y’all.
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