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@arxnexe cont’d from [ x ]

       ❝ I’ve been expecting myself to be able to do just that and so far... well, I haven’t failed miserably, but I know I can do better. ❞

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popular text posts + ask memes (part two) 

❛ i don’t have time for a relationship. do you know how many books i need to read? ❜ ❛ i think it’s hilarious when people tell me i’m laid back because i’ve pretty uch been screaming nonstop in my head since like fifth grade ❜ ❛ coming out of my cage and i’ve been doing just… not good ❜ ❛ i’m a piece of shit, but it’s fine ❜ ❛ how i am supposed to have a lit summer with $4.65 ❜ ❛ i’m a huge fan of space; both outer and personal ❜ ❛ and to your left, you can see me, ruining everything ❜ ❛ any full cast musical number can be a solo if you believe hard enough ❜ ❛ kinda hungry, kinda horny, kinda tired, kinda wanna get a tattoo ❜ ❛ no amount of under eye concealer can cover up how tired i am of this world ❜ ❛ i’m ready for autumn, but not autumn responsibilities ❜ ❛ today i’m wearing a lovely shade of i slept like shit so don’t piss me off ❜ ❛ i’m not making enough boys nervous ❜ ❛ i really want my last words to be ‘hey, wanna see a dead body?’ ❜ ❛ don’t you hate it when money goes away when you spend it? ❜ ❛ i’m always a slut for conspiracy theories ❜ ❛ i wanna make a diss track about myself ❜ ❛ true friendship is bullying your friends into watching the tv shows you watch ❜ ❛ i’d be such a good girlfriend/boyfriend/s.o. you’re all missing out ❜ ❛ sorry i was late. i can’t conceptualize time. ❜ ❛ fuck what the aliens said ❜ ❛ sometimes it physically pains me to hold back my sarcastic comments ❜  ❛ if outfit repeating was a crime i would be sentenced to life without parole ❜ ❛ does anyone have ten thousand dollars they don’t want? ❜ ❛ i want a sugar daddy, but i know nicki minaj wants me to be independent  ❜ ❛ i stress about stress before there’s even stress to stress about ❜ ❛ i don’t have plans for tonight or the rest of my life if anyone wants to have a drink or get married ❜ ❛ tbh sometimes you just gotta let me be dramatic because i will get over it, but let me be dramatic first. ❜ ❛ painfully average looking with a great sense of humor and always down to get drunk ❜ ❛ if we date, you have to hold my hand in the car. no exceptions. ❜ ❛ in an unfortunate development, i am now awake ❜ ❛ you’re hella bomb, hella cute, and anyone would be hella lucky to have you ❜ ❛ kinda hurt, kinda offended, kinda not planning on saying anything about it ❜ ❛ trying to embarrass me is so unnecessary. i do it to myself just fine. ❜ ❛ if you don’t think i’m a princess then you’re 100% right. i’m the fucking queen. ❜ ❛ fuck summer. i want it to be dark and misty and frigid and october. ❜ ❛ lana may have fucked her way up to the top, but i am bullshitting my way up to the middle ❜ ❛ i don’t want to get involved in the drama, i just wanna know 103% of the information on what happened ❜ ❛ so… do you want to watch 49.7 hours of parks and recreation with me? ❜ ❛ i hit rock bottom like every two weeks ❜ ❛ can someone please be proud of me? like fuck, i’m trying. ❜ ❛ give me a few days to overthink about it ❜ ❛ can i sell my feelings on ebay? i don’t want them anymore. ❜ ❛ i’m really fucking sarcastic for someone who’s about to start crying most of the time ❜ ❛ when does hibernation start because i am 100% participating in that ❜ ❛ don’t you hate it when you wake up and you’re awake ❜ ❛ i lowkey just wanna make sure you’re happy as fuck ❜ ❛ i literally have no idea what i’m gonna do if i don’t end up rich ❜ ❛ you know you’re in deep when you love listening to them talk and you get attached to their voice ❜ ❛ no offense, but when is it my turn for someone to be in love with me ❜ ❛ i’m an asshole with a really big heart ❜ ❛ i have to be funny because being hot is not an option ❜ ❛ can i apologize in advance for basically everything i will ever do ❜ ❛ okay that’s cool, but consider the following: snuggling with me until i fall asleep ❜ ❛ please handle me with care. i am a very sleepy and soft creature. ❜ ❛ drunk me is the me i really want to be. confident, hilarious, and most importantly, drunk. ❜

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Sorry for the small absence, guys! I should be replying to everything tomorrow, once I’m back from my shooting call <3. 

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✘

Mixed meme | Accepting

11. “Could you help me with this?” 

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MIXED MEME! 

Send “✘” and I’ll generate a number between 1 - 50 for what my muse says or does to yours. Mix of angst, fluff, implied nsfw, crack and other randomness. 

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       ❝ Not entirely stupid. Just uh... top weird. Sounded like the kind of stuff guys tell girls while leaning against a wall. An image I was waaaaay better off not picturing. ❞

       Gwen pays attention to what he does; something she usually doesn’t do... something she definitely never does, but apologising after making a comment like that wasn’t usual in guys. Much less guys with that face. 

       ❝ You look so lost, no use lying about it. ❞

Great. Why was he so bad around women….               He clears his throat, and glances away. He               lifts his hands slightly, fiddling with the watch               on his wrist.

   “….Okay, alright. Sorry, that was pretty stupid of me to say.”

      He reaches up and rubs the back of his neck.

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       ❝ Not really sure how I feel about you toning it down for me. ❞ She stared up at him, a hand on her hip, the other by her side. ❝ Sounds inconvenient. Also for me. ❞

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                  “Sorry…”

                                     “But, my sarcasm can’t be swayed so                                               easily. But for you, I could possibly                                                dial it down.”                           

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❛ i survived, but i paid for it. ❜

HAMILTON → STARTERS | Accepting

@anotherweapon

❝ You really don’t need to tell me anything you feel you don’t want to, Laura. ❞ … But please do tell me because not knowing is killing me.

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❛ i’m willing to wait for it. ❜

HAMILTON → STARTERS | Accepting

@arxnexe

❝ Jeez. That sounds like a hell of a long time for you to wait. You sure you want to keep poking me about that in the future? Just so I know not to open my mouth. ❞

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❛ awesome. wow. ❜

HAMILTON → STARTERS | Accepting

@pclypus

❝ Tone it down like two notches with the sarcasm, dude! I’m clearly a delight. ❞

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HAMILTON : AN AMERICAN MUSICAL  → STARTERS

❛ he was longing for something to be a part of. ❜

❛ and the world is gonna know your name. ❜

❛ there’s a million things i haven’t done, but just you wait. ❜

❛ you never learned to take your time. ❜

❛ talk less…smile more. ❜

❛ who’s the best? c’est moi! ❜

❛ the plan is to fan this spark into a flame. ❜

❛ i’m not throwing away my shot. ❜

❛ i may not live to see our glory, but i will gladly join the fight !  ❜

❛ they’ll tell the story of tonight. ❜

❛ tomorrow there’ll be more of us. ❜

❛ i’m looking for a mind at work. ❜

❛ look around at how lucky we are to be alive right now. ❜

❛ oh my god. tear this dude apart. ❜

❛ i will send a fully armed battalion to remind you of my love… ❜

❛ dying is easy, young man… living is harder. ❜

❛ then you walked in and my heart went ‘boom’! ❜

❛ you look at me and suddenly i’m helpless. ❜

❛ i am so into you. ❜

❛ i’m just saying if you really loved me, you would share him. ❜

❛ love doesn’t discriminate from the sinners and the saints. ❜

❛ i’m willing to wait for it. ❜

❛ i am the one thing in life i can control. ❜

❛ call me son one more time —…. ❜

❛ i don’t pretend to know the challenges you’re facing. ❜

❛ that would be enough. ❜

❛ and we could be enough. ❜

❛ let me a part of the narrative in the story they will write one day. ❜

❛ you have no control : who lives, who dies, who tells your story. ❜

❛ history has its eyes on you. ❜

❛ awesome. wow. ❜

❛ i’ll make the world safe and sound for you. ❜

❛ why do you assume you’re the smartest in the room? ❜

❛ what’d i miss? ❜

❛ run away with us for the summer. ❜

❛ take a break. ❜

❛ well, hate the sin, love the sinner. ❜

❛ no one else was in the room where it happened. ❜

❛ and then we’ll teach them how to say goodbye. ❜

❛ we both know what we know. ❜

❛ i will choose her happiness over mine every time. ❜

❛ god, i hope you’re satisfied. ❜

❛ i saved every letter you wrote me. ❜

❛ you built me palaces out of paragraphs. ❜

❛ be careful with that one, love, he will do what it takes to survive. ❜

❛ when you were mine, the world seemed to burn. ❜

❛ the world has no right to my heart. ❜

❛ i hope that you burn. ❜

❛ everything is legal in new jersey… ❜

❛ i’m so sorry for forgetting what you taught me. ❜

❛ it’s quiet uptown. ❜

❛ they are trying to do the unimaginable. ❜

❛ there are moments that the words don’t reach. ❜

❛ forgiveness. can you imagine? ❜

❛ i had only one thought before the slaughter. ❜

❛ i imagine death so much, it feels more like a memory. ❜

❛ what is a legacy? it’s planting seeds in a garden you will never see. ❜

❛ death doesn’t discriminate between the sinners and the saints. ❜

❛ i survived, but i paid for it. ❜

❛ have i done enough? will they tell my story? ❜

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       ❝ Can’t I? I guess I just like giving others the same help I’d like for others to offer me, if I were in need. ❞

       It was partially true. Gwen was kind of oblivious, and at times, more than she’d actually like to admit, she found herself unable to realise about some stuff because her mind was already convoluted with other stuff. Juggling between her uh... works and lives hadn’t been easy so far. 

       Then the other part of her wanted to know if there was more going on about Laura’s current state than she wanted to let on. 

       ❝ Hmm. A kickstarter wouldn’t do you bad, though. Food, a shower? And then you can go if you want. Promise. ❞

       “Why would you do this then?”         She couldn’t understand her kindness. She guessed that Gwen probably wanted her to do something for her. She didn’t believe that anyone did anything out of pure genosity. She believed that everyone wanted something. She had only just met the girl and she had shown her more care then the people she stayed with for most of her life.         Her request of telling her how to help meant that Laura would have to talk to her, to trust her with information. She didn’t know if she could. “You can not help me.” She said after a few moments shaking her head. 

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        ❝ Well, that’s okay, because I’m not asking you to, Laura. Now, before you think I’m actually a serial killer or something, I’m Gwen, I work across the street and uh... well, here we are. ❞ 

        Had someone hurt her?, Could Gwen be of any help? Not wearing her mask didn’t mean she didn’t have to make an effort to be there for others. Small gestures counted just as much as bigger ones, and she wasn’t just going to let this one pass. 

       ❝ The city can be a little unforgiving at times, alright, so some scratches here and there are normal, but you look like you... stumbled down and fell down a hill full of rocks. Come on, it’s no problem. I’ll be glad to help if you let me. You just need to tell me what I can do. ❞

          Laura couldn’t understand the girl’s kindness. She didn’t think that only could be so nice especially to a stranger. Growing up in the environment she had led her to doubt the motivations behind generosity. She could tell that they had were joking but she hadn’t grown up with jokes. She didn’t know how to react to it. She forced a lopsided smile onto her face, even though she knew it looked unnatural. “I can’t pay you back.”          “I’m fine. I’m new to the city, but I’ll survive.” 

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       ❝ I know I don’t have to. ❞ 

       The girl didn’t look alright; now that she was out from behind the dumpster, it was easier to see. ❝ But I would like to. Come on. What’s some student-musician-clerk life if you’re not making getting by an adventure? ❞ She retorted to joking, seeing if that helped in the least. 

       ❝ Everything’s alright? I hear ya’, sleeping on the first place you land on is comfortable at times, but it looks like you’ve been doing it a little too often. ❞

         “Laura, Laura Kinney.”

        She stood from the ground with a sigh. She could tell that she needed to leave, and didn’t want to intrude. She knew well enough that she could fend for herself. She just needed to figure out where she would stay for the night. The first place popping in her mind was under a bridge. She should have realized that staying near a restaurant would have been bad. 

        “You don’t need to do that. I can just leave.“

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( Tag Dump )

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       ❝ I can’t really let you stay there, uh... you. What’s your name, again? ❞ 

       Scratching the side of her head, Gwen realised she also felt bad just kicking her out from behind the dumpster, but what else was she supposed to do? Her boss wouldn’t be happy if she knew she was letting people wander. It was very possible someone had tried to look through the garbage one time and... anyway, wanderers were bad for business, apparently. So of course she felt compelled to try and help. 

      ❝ Want a hot dog or something? I’m buying, but I’mma need you to come out first. ❞ She offered, burying her hand in her pocket to check for money. 

Since running away to New York, she has had no home. She wouldn’t stay in one place too long. She normally fell asleep at the part but after being yelled at by someone she decided to find a private place. She had gotten used to not having some place warm to sleep.

She didn’t know anyone in the city and had no place to go. She had grown up used to harsh circumstances. She didn’t let herself get too comfortable in one place ever. 

Laura had heard the footsteps coming toward the dumpster. She opened one eye seeing the blonde. She looked at her assessing her to see if she would be any threat. “It works fine for me.”

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︴OPEN STARTER  ︴

      Gwen still hadn’t figured out how she managed to keep her job when she was either late or someone went and stole the cash register, but she wasn’t going to keep questioning it, or complaining about it, even if one of her chores was to take out the trash when there weren’t many people in line.  

      She looked around to make sure no one was watching and easily threw the huge bag into the dumpster, though some of the contents spilled to the back. Blowing a strand of hair in a bit of an exhausted gesture, she went around it, only to see someone else there.

      ❝ I’m not entirely sure you know this, but uhm… the back of a dumpster isn’t exactly the best place to sleep. ❞