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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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I need to hear that out of your mouth

summery: bobbys perspective on 'worse'/bobby figuring out how to help reggie (i guess, not actually tho. honestly i have no clue what i wrote)

ohh also, bobby uses they/them pronouns

words: 1150

warning: mention of abusive parents, visible signs of violence, swear words (message me if you think i should add something else)

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They knew they shouldn’t have left.

For gods sake they knew.

But despite Reggies attempt to never let anyone see, Bobby also knew Reggies secret.

How could they have missed that.

Maybe he was good enough to hide it from self-centered Luke or from "everyone has anxious ticks" Alex, but he definitely couldn’t hide it from Bobby not before and certainly not since Bobby is in love with him.

The way Reggie anxiously grabs the sleeves of his flannel as if his life would depend on it, bare what would happen if they would just slightly slip up his wrist.

Or layering long sleeves and pants even in summer and even if they go to the beach. Bobby can’t even remember the last time they‘d seen Reggie actually swimming in the ocean instead of coming up with excuses about guarding their towels and soda or that he’d just ate one of the pre-packed sandwiches Bobbys mom made for the band and can’t go into the water just yet, as if he suddenly started to care about such things.

However the main indicator of Bobbys observance was the way Reggies nose scrunches up and his tongue plays with his teeth as if he’s back in middle school and just got his braces for the first time whenever he is lying.

Yes, Reggie is a good liar, good enough to convince Luke and Alex and his teachers, even himself, but Bobby is greater at detecting Reggies lies than he will ever know.

Ever since Bobby put the pieces together they‘d been waiting for Reggie to finally say that out loud so they can properly help him and not just plan movie nights or road trips to get Reggie out of his house, but Bobby didn’t want to push Reggie. Reggie has to say that because he wants to and not because Bobby resists on.

But now that Reggie finally has the courage to say those stupid fucking words, as Bobby called it in their mind ever since they discovered Reggies confidential information, now that he finally talks about it Bobby is the first one to run away, registering the low "they hurt me" only through the echo of the garage door yet this mumbled sentence was probably the most clean-cut words Bobby ever caught up and everything needed for them to fully break into anger.

Maybe they weren’t ready for Reggie to talk about it. Maybe they didn’t got to prepare themselves properly. But what should they do, everything Bobby can do in this situation is calming down and being there for Reggie and thats the one thing Bobby isn’t doing.

So they gotta change that. Hopefully Reggie is still in the garage.

As Bobby enters their studio, the three other sunset curve members are yet paddlet up on the couch, impossible for Bobby to tell which body part belongs to which boy.

Only their soft breathing is stopping the room usually filled with obnoxiously loud noises, music blasting on full volume or chattering about nonsense, from being silent.

Maybe Bobby isnt ready for this yet, however, they have to be ready. This is not their fight, this is all about Reggie, all about the boy they are eying up a little bit too intense, rose-colored glasses refining their view.

Clearing their voice to get at least one of their friends attention, Bobby is still standing awkwardly uncomfortable in the middle of the room not really knowing what to do, what to say or how to act.

It‘s Alex being the first one to break the hug and facing Bobby, though, as soon as Reggie registers the sound, all his attention is on the suspenders-wearing lad.

Nothing but a low undefinable noise was leaving Bobbys throat as they opened their mouth.

Though their mind was filled with millions of things to say, they weren’t physically able to, something stopping them from moving.

As Alex caught up on the situation, he pulled Luke aside leaving their two oblivious friends alone.

Yeah, maybe Bobby isn’t the only one being in love with their best friend but maybe (or most definitely) is this not the right time to address that.

"I assume you already knew?"

Reggie hated how weak his voice sounds, but honestly there wasn’t a lot of explaining needed to understand why.

"Yeah I- ehm, I figured. Was easy to catch up on once I got behind all of your habits"

Bobby still hasn’t moved, unsure if they should go up to Reggie or if physical touch is too much to handle at the moment.

"Thanks for never mentioning it. Kinda hoping we all can just forget about it, pretending today never happened, you know?"

The bruises on Reggies still uncovered skin are the most captivating, hypnotizing thing Bobby ever experienced.

Green and purple shadows dancing their way from Reggies wrists up to the straps of his Tank Top, telling their very own story about two people who should have never gotten any kids.

"Can you- uhm? Please-"

It is as if Bobby lost all their knowledge about being a functional human being, their voice an octave below average.

Shaking of and breathing out, they finally get their shit together, finally sitting next to Reggie on the couch, finally able to form coherent sentences, finally able to think.

This is about Reggie. This is about helping the boy they like, their best friend, the one who’s always there if they need him. Now it’s time to pay their bill back.

"I know this is probably hard for you, and I can promise not to ever talk about this ever again if you wish, still I need you to know that I’m always gonna help you, protect you, give you custody or just distract and cuddle you whenever you’d like. You’re not going down by yourself, you’re having me and the boys and we act the way you want us to. But can you please, one last time, can you please say those stupid fucking words out loud for me? I need to hear that out of your mouth. Please?"

Bobby was practically bagging but for some reason this is very important for them, maybe because they need it smashed right into their brain to actually realize the gravity of the situation.

Reggie is just leaning into Bobby’s arms. Being hold by them, makes everything seem less big of an issue, being hold by them makes the world seem to disappear.

He can do this. It’s just saying it once. It’s just betraying them once. And it’s not as if Bobby wouldn’t know already. Saying it out loud, admit the issue is hard, is complicated, but being hold by Bobby, it’s not impossible.

"My parents abuse me"

~franky

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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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Green (Falling Asleep At The Wheel)

Alex x Reggie

Green is some kind of separate reality focusing on Reggie x Alex in a love is overrated let’s just vibe way. The stories work perfectly fine without each other and every single one can be read as a oneshot, yet there is a storyline visible.

this part is not connected to the storyline

moodboard, playlist

470 words

warnings: mention of underage drinking, underage smoking, bad mindset/thoughts

songfic

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"I fucked you up"

It was the same story as just so often. Reggie getting Alex attention by throwing rocks at his window, Alex (only waiting for Reggie) climbing out of it immediately and them two sharing lots of kisses and words of affirmation in the middle of the night when the wolves come out hidden in the dark of the streets where even the moths can only find their glimming cigarettes.

"What do you mean?"

Although Reggie was known for his self-depreciation and his talent of calling himself the miserable friend, especially when he had a little or lottle bit of beer intus like just now, but breaking the pleasant silence by saying he fucked Alex up? Yeah, that was even a little too out of context for Alex to understand. His thru love and nicotine intoxicated brain not helping him.

"You never smoked this much before we met at night"

This was true, yes. Alex did indeed had one or two cigarettes after their gigs sometimes, however it recently reached a peek at his secret little rendezvous with Reggie.

Still, his only reaction is lighting up another cigarette.

"I can tell you’re drinking only to forget"

Alex breaks the silence again as the THC calms him down a little from the confrontation.

Smoking wasn’t any worse than drinking right?

"I get dark sometimes" Reggie sighs "does it pass you by?"

Alex was unsure on if he is too sober or Reggie too drunk for this conversation but he definitely does not like the direction this takes.

He likes Reggie in a very very loving way, so why exactly does it feels like he’s about to lose him right now?

"Of cause not. I thought- I thought that’s why we’re doing this? Forgetting that we’re getting getting dark, to be each other’s ray of light"

"How am I supposed to be your ray of light when I don’t even know how I got you in such a mess?"

Is this really the way Reggie feels about Alex? Like a burden? The one that causes all the ugly thoughts when he’s the one helping him through them?

"All these emotion that we‘re buried in? Tied up?"

Reggies words keep Alex speechless when at the same time he has so much to say.

"We’re fried up on this adrenaline. And I‘m falling. Falling in love with this and with you. You are strong enough to wake me up and if you’re just pretending I‘m having your attention you made me think it was real"

Before Reggie had a chance to get on Alex words, he was quiet down in the most beautiful way possible and his favorite pair of lips ever.

"I guess that means we’re fine"

"Not a cloud in sight, what a perfect night"

~franky. that’s messy. soooo, anyways.

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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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fannypack; an Alex Mercer song

my handwriting isn’t as good as alex tho but also not as bad as lukes so should be fine is it?

~franky

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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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the boys sleepwear:

these are just my nightly thoughts, i probably was already asleep before writing that, so don’t expect anything, but i thought it’s funny

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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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the sunset curve boys as 5sos album

alex

youngblood

more specific: why won’t you love me

favorite lyric: if me and you are living in the same place why do we feel alone? a house that’s full of everything we wanted but it’s an empty home. why can’t we choose our emotion? cause we can feel somethings broken. mY hEaRt

reggie

don’t stop ep

more specific: rejects

favorite lyric: go ahead rip my heart out, show me what loves all about

luke

sounds good feels good

more specific: jet black heart

favorite lyric: situation: no motivation. destination: permanent vacation. we’re the voice of the new generation.

bobby

calm

more specific: old me/teeth

favorite lyric: our house on fire, we’re burning. we danced inside your hurting. if you’d leave me in the morning i’d have such a lonely heart.

~franky (also i tried to add julie but the only one that would fit would be youngblood and i didnt want to pick it twice and i could have changed alex but i made that post cause i thought about alex x youngblood so, im sorry. next time julie)

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Green (dancing in the rain and naked cuddles)

Alex x Reggie

this part is not connected to the storyline

moodboard, playlist

700 words

warnings: mention of underage smoking, message me if you think i should add something else

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“You won’t close your eyes tonight, will you?”

It was the first night the boys spend in the studio. Bobby went home a while ago and Lukes asleep on the couch so it’s just Reggie and Alex again cuddling up close. Reggie didn’t plan on sleeping, his body requires less sleep anyway, a trait he adapted over the past years, and since the brunette boy knows that Alex mind can be a major obstacle, he was just trying to comfort Alex with cuddles until Alex falls asleep.

“Don’t think I‘m able to”

“Come with me”

With that and a giant smile on his face, Reggie gets up, pecks a quick kiss on Alex lips and then takes Alex hand to get him of the mattress as well.

“But be quite, we don’t want Luke to wake up”

Being on the garages ground, Reggie grabs an umbrella and a boom box for which all the boys put their money together. With that and Alex, he heads outside far away enough so neither Luke nor anyone else in the neighborhood will be bothered by the music. Reggie puts the audio system on the ground and covers it with the umbrella hoping this will protect it from the rain. He presses play giving back the tune of Green Days latest record Dookie. Luke got it for his birthday but just as with everything else, one boys property is every boys property.

Their hands interlaced, Reggie starts dancing around in the rain and although Alex feels a little weirded out at first, he soon joins Reggie.

The dancing, if one could even call it like that, it’s more a jumping around and screaming the lyrics from the top of their lungs, really clears Alex mind.

Everything boiled up inside of him just disappears for a second, the occasional kisses he shares with Reggie also helping with that and it wouldn’t be one of their activities if it wouldn’t be for the THC and nicotine in their veins.

The world was forgotten, it’s just the two boys, the music and their soaking wet clothes now.

They end up laying washed-out yet pumped up with adrenaline on the ground, all giggly and smiling, their minds not able to worry about anything.

Only as Alex lips ardently brush over Reggies, he snaps back into reality. Reggies lips are stone cold, however, Alex still isn’t quite able to not kiss Reggie and Reggie isn’t able to not reciprocate this kiss.

“We should get back, we’re drenched to the bones and the boys gonna kill us if we end up being sick on New Year’s” Alex mumbles while getting up, slowly followed by Reggie.

On their way back, Alex is the one carrying the boom box while Reggie stumbles back a little.

Back in the studio, Alex puts down the portable music player and follows Reggie up the loft. It’s just as cold in the garage as it is outside cause at the end of the day it’s exactly this, a garage and not habitat for three homeless teenagers and their not yet a runaway other best friend.

After stripping down his wet clothes, Reggie is about to put on dry clothes. Alex smiles a the pink hoodie Reggie has in his hands and as much as he wants to see Reggie wearing it and as much as a half naked Reggie let’s his thoughts drift off, he manages to stop Reggie in his action and guides him under the covers.

“Trust me. It‘ll be warmer soon”

With that, Alex finally gets rid of his dripping clothes as well, hangs them over the fence so they won’t get moldy, changes into dry underwear and lays down next to a still shivering Reggie.

Other than as they went to bed a few hours ago, it’s now Reggies head laying on Alex bare chest, the blond one dreamily braiding through the brunettes hair.

“Not that- Not that I‘d mind but why aren’t we wearing clothes?” Reggie giggles then pecking Alex lips.

“To keep us warm, body warmth really does wonder”

“I’ll hope you’re right otherwise you’re gonna be the one explaining Luke why his best friends snuggle chest to chest in only underwear”

~franky

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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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Green (Alex comforting Reggie until he falls asleep)

Alex x Reggie

this part: is not connected to the storyline

moodboard, playlist

1150 words

warnings: mention of parental abuse, mention of alcoholism, excessively staying awake/mention of forcing yourself to not fall asleep (message me if you think i should add something else)

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“Not today. Not today” Alex mumbles to himself, laying in bed and trying to sleep but glancing out of his window most of the time.

If Reggie isn’t here yet that means he’s probably asleep, something – Alex knows that – Reggie barely does. And it’s not as if he’s blind, Alex sees Reggie everyday and Alex saw Reggie today; this boy needs some rest. So Alex wouldn’t be the one bothering him by showing up outside of his room. So why exactly today, no one around to distract Alex, did Alex father decided it would be a good idea to drink one over the eight? Sure, he doesn’t know his son sneaks out of his window every night, meeting up with the boy he loves but only ever can love after midnight cause of his father but not tonight cause Alex doesn’t want to be a nuisance and yet exactly this night, his father being drunk and due to aggressively abusive with no shame to hurt his misfit of a son.

Alex tried falling asleep, he really did his best, but after the loud noises his father makes while stumbling around the house turned into angerly screams, Alex knew he couldn’t stay the night in this house.

While heading outside he is in a inner debate whether to just walk along LA for a few hours until his father hopefully is asleep, go to Reggie and just sleep there or make his way to the bands garage. But since LA at night is dangerous and Reggie would not close just a single eye if Alex would sleep next to him to protect his blondie, it was a quick decision. The garage it was. He hasn’t spend the night there for eternity, well at least since he started seeing Reggie at night and he was hoping to not spend another night in the shaggy and cold place, yet a roof is a roof, is it? As fast as his feet leads him, he walks his way to the bands rehearsing room almost turning around as he sees the dimmed light through the window, yet only thinking they must have forgotten to turn it off in the afternoon. Who else should be in the garage at night anyway? But wasn’t this question just too rhetoric, considering the fact that Alex started seeing Reggie cause he was also spending night after night in the garage? So while slowly opening the garage gate, he glances through the room and actually sees Reggie on the couch, wrapped in millions of blankets just staring at the wall across him.

“What are you doing here? Reg?” The brunette seems like he doesn’t even notice Alex running through the room only as he sits next to Reggie laying an arm around him, Reggie seems to come back to life.

“What- what are you doing here? You should be asleep. Alex you need to rest. C’mon, lay down on the couch, I’m with you, here’s no one who could hurt you. I-” Reggie got shut by the blond one pressing his lips on Reggies and soon, the world around them seems forgotten. Reggie pouts as Alex pulls away but as Alex eyes up Reggie skeptical, Reggie turns serious again as well.

“Somethings up at home?” Reggie questions Alex unexpected appearance.

“Everything as fine as always” Alex laughs it off “Could ask you the same. You look terrified. And don’t lie to me but you haven’t slept at all this week, did you?”

Reggie just scoffs it off with a bad try of a smile, only ensuring Alex in his theory.

“Reggie please, you need some rest. As you said, here’s no one around who could possible hurt you in any way. And I’m here as well, watching over you. Why didn’t you come to me in the first place if you knew you’re not gonna sleep anyway?”

Alex tries to keep his voice as calm and soft as possible trying to not rambling down too many questions so Reggie could actually answer them besides being that tired.

“I didn’t want to be the one keeping you awake. You need to sleep. You-”

Again Reggie gets interrupted by a really quick peck on his lips, causing a grin appearing on his face.

“I should say things you disagree with more often. I could get used to this reaction” Reggie whispers, still staring at Alex lips, then osculating them again.

“Don’t change the topic Reggie” Alex mumbles into the kiss before pulling away fully “You know I can’t resist you”

“Can’t resist me or can’t resist my lips?” Reggie asks amused yet temptingly, only receiving a humming sound by Alex whos still in trance of the closeness, meaning something like a yes yet only implying he hasn’t listen to a word Reggie said. Reggie smiles about the effect he has on Alex before the blonde boy snaps back into reality.

“Back to what I was saying,” Alex starts for the third time this evening “you really should catch some sleep. And if it’s just a few hours. You will seriously damage yourself with this lifestyle. Also, you‘re walking around like a zombie. A really, really tired zombie. Even the teachers start to question your behavior and don‘t let me start about the boys. C‘mon, Luke and Bobby aren‘t blind. It’s only a matter of time now until they put the puzzle together and catch us doing this-” Not that his voice ever was something else than soft but it gets even softer with every word he says until it’s nothing more than a low breath before gently and slowly peeking a very brief kiss on Reggies lips. And another. And one more. “Please go to sleep Reg”

Then one last kiss.

With Alex pulling away, Reggie leans in, not wanting to end this but Alex knows he needs to be unwavering about this and since a normal argumentation will not work out – he knows Reggie good enough to know this – there is only one more way to try it. Ensuring Reggie. So he puts his arms around the brunette and snogs a soft kiss on his collarbone before tugging his face into Reggies neck.

“Please” he murmurs onto Reggis skin followed by another kiss. “Let’s just lay down and you can close your eyes and as you’re opening them for the next time, I‘m still laying next to you and you’ll feel better again” Just so slowly tired Reggie doesn’t even realizes it, Alex carefully pushes them back on the couch until he feels the couch at his back. He gently wafts a kiss on Reggies hair, Reggies face snugged into Alex green hoodie. Drifting off to sleep, Reggie blabs something like a “but i need to protect you” while Alex caringly brushes over Reggies back.

“You don’t need to protect anyone. Tonight you’re the one that needs to be protected”

~franky

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Green (24/7 diner)

Alex x Reggie

this part: not connected to the storyline

moodboard, playlist

750 words

warnings: mention of unsafe households (message me if you think i should add something else)

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Reggie was so absentminded in school today that Alex just knew Reggie would not even try to sleep tonight but instead spend time with the boy he would never openly admit he loves but very clearly does. Therefore, Alex didn’t planed on sleeping as well but instead waits for the familiar sound of rocks thrown at his window. Sure he could have waited for Reggie at the open window but where would had been the flavor of that. For some reason this tiny act makes Alex feel really appreciated so as soon as he heard the first clinking noise he climbs out of his window to meet up with Reggie in his backyard. Naturally the first thing he does is peeking a really quick and innocent kiss on Reggies lips but it wouldn’t been the boys if Reggie wouldn’t turn this quick and innocent kiss into something a little bit more passionate. The grin he has on his face since Alex opened the window never leaving his lips.

There were no words they could add to make this moment any better, just having the other ones company was enough to survive their lives but while staring deep into each other’s eyes not even the dark of the night could hide the bags under Reggies eyes.

“You look tried. You’re sure we shouldn’t head back into my room? You need some sleep and if my parents won’t notice me missing they also won’t notice me having a plus one in my room.”

Alex words were soft and honest. It could have been days since the last time Reggie slept but Alex couldn’t blame him, he barely sleeps himself. Their houses aren’t safe and the boys are scared, yet if Alex keeps an ear open for his parents, his house is way safer for Reggie than his own is, but Reggie just waves it aside with a “Coffee will do”

Intertwining their hands, they walk through the empty streets of LA, not saying another word but the silence between them is something they really need since everyone else always screams at them. Just enjoying the cause of the moment, they stumble into a 24/7 diner that looks more shaggy than savory, the green neon lights only giving back half of the name, but it also looks like two tired teenager boys who just couldn’t let their fingers off each other and this late at night wouldn’t attract too much attention.

Hearing the tinkling sound of the bell at the door, they step into the almost empty diner, inbreathing a mixture of cheap cigarettes, tacky frying oil and beloved coffee while skimming though the modest amount of people. Besides one of the waitresses, no one cares to glance at the two boys that are still holding hands.

“Just two cups of black coffee please, thank you” Reggie orders for them both as the waitress comes to the little niche in the very back of the diner. She takes note of it with a gentle smile and comes back to their table with two cups reaching each boy one and filling them with the jug of coffee she has in her other hand.

“If there’s anything else you need and if it’s just a refill, feel free to call me. I don’t want to interrupt this, you guys seem like you could need some privacy” the lady tells them with a wink and adds a “and also some sleep” before turning around.

The tepid brew actually make Alex feel a little bit more alive and Reggie a little bit less the zombie he is, but even if he doesn’t feel safe enough to sleep in his own house, he would never change anything about his situation at home cause otherwise he would had never gotten into this really intimate yet only periodic relationship with Alex.

The atmosphere couldn’t be any more pleasing. Soft noises in the background, a waitress chattering with a trucker about his wife and the person they love most on the other side of the table. It almost feels like life actually isn’t as bad as reality makes it seem but both Reggie and Alex know that this feeling will not be for long. As soon as the sun rises again, they’ll be back in their screwed up existence and their relationship will be nothing more than two bandmates, glazing a little bit too often at the other boy and sharing a knowing smile if they catch each other’s look.

~franky

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Green (New Years Eve and love confessions)

Alex x Reggie, Luke x Bobby

this part: is part of the storyline

moodboard, playlist

3280 words

warnings: underage drinking, underage smoking, being drunk (kinda), jealousy, a few swear words, message me if you think i should add something else

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It’s December 31 and the boys have zero to do. They actually should be at soundcheck for a small pre-midnight gig but the promoter of the club found out that Sunset Curve is still underage and that on New Year‘s Eve could get him in major trouble, so the gig got canceled last minute and now the band hangs in the garage super unmotivated. Alex behind his drumkid but more of gently brushing the drums with his sticks than actually smashing them the way it’s supposed to be, Reggie laying on the couch, strumming his bass which makes obnoxious noises, Luke angerly scribbling in his songbook but crossing out every word he wrote and Bobby the only one who isn’t super depressed about it, watching the other ones going insane.

“Guys c‘mon. I know this sucks. We don’t have money and we live in a garage. Clearly not the optimum. But we can’t change anything about that now, so get your shit together and get over it. This won’t be the last time we get rejected that doesn’t make us any less worthy okay? We’re still Sunset Curve. We still can reach our dreams. This club was stupid anyway, tomorrow is a new day, a new year and a new chance. So snap out of it and let us clink our glasses. It’s New Year‘s Eve. There’s no time for being sad now”

With that, Bobby grabs himself a can of beer out of the fridge and throws one at Reggie. For the boys it’s Reggie and Bobby drinking alcohol only, just as they have a smoke before their gigs together at some point of the evening they always end up with a cup of beer. Although Alex indeed was drunk a lot the past couple of months while his late night rendezvous with Reggie, this was a secret between him and Reggie and him and Reggie only. Luke is the only one in the band that has never and without lying about it like some blond haired, pink hoodie wearing other band member, just had a sip of alcohol yet in his life but he was ready for his first beer now. Alex shrugs just thinking about this bitterly brew. He once tried it with Reggie and almost felt like vomiting. Beer wasn’t his thing, rosé was but wine was something Reggie really couldn’t stand, so they either bought separate drinks or agreed on stronger things. Whiskey was something they both enjoy and they both really had a thing for gin.

“I’ll stick with water for now, maybe switch to beer when the evening goes on” Alex answers Luke as he asks him if he wants one as well, knowing perfectly fine he’ll never in a million years just sniff a beer.

“I bought wine as well. Just in case someone feels like it”

Alex knows Reggie is talking about him just with the way he stretches out the ‘someone’ and Alex tries to hide his excitement. It isn’t only his obsession for wine that causes Alex mood turning better, it was mostly the fact that Reggie, the boy he fell in love with to add, though about him while buying their drinks. It doesn’t seem like a lot but for Alex it feels like a lot since they still never openly addressed what they are and it doesn’t seem like Reggie wants to change something about that.

“Don’t want to disappoint you with being the sober one” With that Alex gets up his stool, grabs himself the green bottle of white liquid and ends up sitting across Bobby and Luke on the floor, Reggie joining them after putting away his bass.

“Cheers to 1995. This is gonna be our year”

As they all start drinking, Alex couldn’t not grin about Lukes grossed out facial expressions when gulping down his beer. Maybe he turns tipsy enough today to share his wine but for now he wants to see Luke suffering for a little longer. He sure will continue on drinking beer, he has too much pride to admit this tastes disgusting.

It is visible for everyone in the room that Luke doesn’t enjoy his beer at all but they all have much more fun laughing about him than actually offering him something else, so while the boys chatter there is always at least one of them having to hide a suppressed giggle every time Luke brings the can to his lips.

“Thanks for the wine or I’d be looking like Luke now, if not even worse” Alex whispers at Reggie, always making sure the other two are distracted enough with themselves or their alcohol.

“You always had weird taste A. You like me though” Reggie giggles as an answer causing Alex to roll of his eyes. This was a bad joke, but Alex can’t deny it. He likes Reggie, a little bit more than he should, and his bad jokes might be another reason why.

“Here, try this” Alex changes the topic by talking to Luke and handing him his wine. Luke inspects the green bottle of wine sceptical, not sure if this is a nice offer or if Alex has a ulterior motive but he can’t find something odd about it so he ends up trying and actually liking what’s inside.

There’s not even half of the bottle left and Reggie and Bobby are already at there second beer and while neither those two nor Alex feels the alcohol in their bodies, Luke already starts getting jittery so Alex decides it’s a good call if Luke is left with the rest of his wine whereas he gets himself a new one and grabs a beer for Reggie as well when he’s up anyway.

Maybe his body doesn’t feel the alcohol but his mind starts getting thoughts that his sober brain would never have. Luke and Bobby across them all cozy and cuddled up as the good couple they are and he has to be two feet apart from Reggie.

It is depressing and he feels bad for being jealous at his best friends but he just can’t help it. They were never too much into PDA, it almost was as if they are nothing more than the best friends the four of them are but now that Luke is drunk, he gets all touchy and it starts to annoy Alex how happy they seem and how they stare into the other ones eyes just right before their kisses. How it’s always Bobbys look drifting down to Lukes lips first, yet it’s always Lukes lips moving forward to actually touch Bobbys and how they can’t stop smiling at each other. Maybe Alex eyes them up a little bit to intense but what else shall he do, sit there and watch them being in the happy relationship he wants to have with Reggie? Sure what they have, the hiding and sneaking around, is something Alex wouldn’t want to trait in for anything, but Bobby and Luke are their best friends, why can’t they at least know about how happy Reggie makes him? Or watch them being head over heals for one other? Is this really too much to ask? And without realizing it, Alex freshly opened bottle of wine is gone in almost one go, gaining all the lads attention but no one dares to say a word about it. If Alex goes full drunk then he should. The boys are a safe space so if he wants to get pass out befuddled, then that’s fine with them. Little do Bobby and Luke know that besides Alex look, he isn’t light weighted. A bottle of wine won’t kill him. He just hopes to get those murdering thoughts out of his brain.

They make him feel like his throat is drying out – the wine not helping with it – and his heart stops beating.

Intoxicated by the wine he decided it’s now a good idea to tease Reggie. If Reggie isn’t gonna give him attention on his own, maybe Alex has to give his destiny a little rush.

“Do y’all remember last New Years as you dared me to kiss Luke? Bet Reggie still thinks I have a crush on Luke since I came out just two weeks after that. He was so sure I realized I like boys while that kiss and honestly, I can’t blame you, Luke is a really good kisser” Although the first part of his sentence is dedicated to the group, it’s pretty obvious that he’s talking directly to Reggie with the last part and Bobbys “can’t disagree with you” isn’t really helping curbing Reggies anger that slowly boils up inside of him with the thought of sharing Alex. But Reggie isn’t stupid, he knows what game Alex starts playing but this is a game for two.

“Bobby you’re in for a cigarette? I think those two could need some privacy” Reggie says, winking at Alex.

Oh the privacy part, no that’s not what’s triggering Alex, it’s the cigarette. Reggie knows Alex is only waiting for him to come up with an excuse so they can have a smoke together without the rest of the band noticing they do indeed have three smoking members and not just the two everyone expects.

So with Bobby and Reggie leaving for a cigarette or two, Alex gets up as well grabs a mixtape he knows Luke will not be able to resist dancing to and will use that for his benefits. If Reggie wants to play, Alex is going to win.

He takes of his hoodie, not only to rag Reggie, but it’s really getting hot in here due to the alcohol and also the tension between him and Reggie and now only in his shirt, Alex gets Luke stumbling around the the studio and just right on time, he had a lot of cigarettes in the past, he knows how long they last, he grabs Lukes arms and make them, accidentally, lose balance. So the first thing Reggie sees when he’s entering the garage is Luke and Alex laying all cozy and giggly on the ground, Alex hoodie right above his head just as if Luke was the one undressing Alex. Fake blushing, well probably red cheeks due to the amount of wine he had, Alex rolls Luke off his chest. Bobby isn’t as triggered by that as Reggie is although Luke and Bobby are literally in a relationship but Bobby knows his boyfriend and he recognizes the song, no way was there sexual reason behind.

Alex is sure he won this battle especially as the two feet of invisible border between them two disappeared. Reggie now sits there cross crossed, his knee touching Alex leg.

Alex doesn’t know whether to enjoy this little touch or tense up but after Reggie smiles at Alex yielding, he decides it’s gonna be enjoying.

For about and hour there where no further interruptions. Just four best friends having fun, talking about life and drinking some alcohol nothing to worry about. The more alcohol there is, the less tension is between Alex and Reggie, but one is for sure, Reggie wouldn’t let Alex win this. No chance.

“Shit”

Thats Reggie. Before Alex even has the chance to turn his head facing Reggie, Reggie is already standing up, his shirt in his hand. Oh this idiot, accidentally and out of clumsiness, emptied his beer on his shirt. Alex really thought Reggie relinquished but very clearly, he did not.

It’s not as if Alex has a choice, but he just can not not stare at Reggie and Reggie, obviously proud at being better at teasing the other one, stands there, a huge smirk on his face and winks at Alex.

At this point Alex is sure his face is about the same color than Reggies flannel, that’s still tied up around his hips. It’s not as if Alex has never seen Reggie shirtless, but today, in combination with the alcohol and the situation, it isn’t really helpful keeping a clear mind and not immediately pounce on Reggie.

“Don’t you- Don’t you want to put on a, a, a shirt a-a-again?” Alex stutters. He knows that was a very bad try, cause even if Reggie had planed to get dressed again, after seeing how big of an impact this has on Alex, he sure will not.

“Don’t you think it’s hot in here anyway? I think I’ll stay like that a little longer just to cool down. Unless it makes you uncomfortable?”

How does one breath again? Okay no, no matter what Alex tries, there isn’t even enough air in the garage to fill his lungs, that’s for sure. And with Reggie sitting down again, skin to skin with Alex, it just gets worse. Alex feels like his arm is burning where it gets touched by Reggies torso. But he also can’t slide away from Reggie. His body is addicted to Reggies. He is literally craving for his touch but only his arm touching Reggie is more torture than relieve. If Reggie isn’t gonna kiss him in front of the boys, he needs to get the boys away from them. Or get away from the boys. As much as he just wants to sit on the shirtless boys lap, press his lips on the boys ones and kiss him way to unrestrained to make it appropriate in front of their friends, he needs to find a better solution. So Alex activates all his acting skills and pinchly rests his head on Reggies shoulder. The naked skin feels like pinpricks on Alex fiery cheek. Is is to late to take a step back? Alex needs Reggie now, there’s no going back. To relieve his cheek from the lovely pain, he slowly slides his head down, now laying in Reggies lap.

“I feel dizzy”

Luke and Bobby are to busy with themselves to give the guys across them any attention but Alex now being uninhabited in physical touch, his hands on his tummy and saying he doesn’t feel alright? It’s more than enough for Reggie to worry about him.

“I feel like throwing up”

Alex voice is just a humming whisper but loud enough for Reggie to register it. Maybe Alex doesn’t take a bottle of wine as easy as Reggie thought, so Reggie sits Alex up very carefully as if he’d be about to break, gets up and then helping Alex to get on his feet. Alex clings at Reggies body, not able to put just one foot in front of the other one if it wouldn’t be for Reggie and like that, and with Alex hoodie that Reggie quickly picks up the ground, the two boys totter out of the garage.

“Some air will help” Reggie mumbles but as soon as they are out of sight from the other boys, Alex suddenly feels better again.

“You’re right. The cold air does a trick. Feeling so much better now”

Alex eyes are literally glowing and before Reggie realizes what’s happening, their lips touch. Their kiss is desperate and very passionate. The boys not able to tell if their chills are caused by the december areal or the hot atmosphere but one is for sure, it is the most lustfull kiss they ever shared.

Out of breath, Alex rests his forehead at Reggies, not wanting to lose their closeness. He only now notices Reggie wearing his significant pink hoodie.

“Not that I mind but what was that for?”

Reggies words tingle at Alex lips since they are still intimately close but Alex doesn’t mind, he finally got what he desired the whole evening.

“I just can’t resist you”

With this, there was another kiss, however, not even half as venereal as the first one this evening, this one is more of lovingly, amorous. It is soft and sweet yet screaming out how much they love each other.

“We should get back, we don’t want to worry the boys do we?”

Being in trance of the moment, Alex doesn’t realize Reggie pulling away and then grabbing his hand. His body just has to follow his lead.

Back with the couple of the group, there were no more boundaries now. Still not sharing kisses but filling that gap with snuggles and also a few wet neck pecks. Something changed out there and Alex is definitely not the one to mind. He likes this whatever it is and really hopes it’s not just the cause of the alcohol letting Reggie forget about their company.

This thought gets brushed aside as the four of them starts counting down till it’s midnight.

It was Luke starting counting.

The other boys now joining him.

They all start to get twitchy.

Honestly, they don’t even know if they are on time, the clock in the garage was broken for a while now.

But it doesn’t matter as long as the four of them were together.

For a life changing year.

Their big blow up, the bands big blow up.

No more worries.

Silence.

Not spoken out, said only in their minds.

Bobby and Luke having their New Years kiss and Alex and Reggie doing exactly the same. Alex was a little shook at first, but there is no time for doubts. All their emotions condensed into this kiss. Everything they ever wanted to do is now reality.

“I love you Alex”

It was still quite in the garage, too quiet, so Alex just assumed Bobby and Luke are already outside watching the fireworks but even if not, this doesn’t really matter right now. The only thing that matters is Reggie and what he just said. I love you.

“And I wish I could have told you earlier but I was scared. There is no solid excuse for this, I just thought I will not be able to make you permanently happy but everyday I’m just craving to feel your lips on mine and every night I wish I didn’t have to say goodbye. I just hope there will always be one more kiss, one more smile, one more day you make me feel like I belong somewhere”

Alex doesn’t realize there where tears falling down his cheeks but he couldn’t focus on them anyway. Reggies words are honey fixing his broken soul. Although he never thought he’d hear something like that, he also doesn’t want Reggie to stop.

“As things at home- as things with my parents got worse, you were the only reason I wanted to get out of my bed. Everytime I see you chatting with someone in the schools hallway I couldn’t wait for the night to come so I could be the one you ramble to about banalities yet I’m listening to every word you say cause when the words come out of your mouth, they are automatically special for me. You’re the only one that makes me feel alive. I’m not drowning in my own shadows anymore, and that’s only thanks to you. I am really, super fucking in love with you A and I hope that we maybe can show this love to the world.”

Alex is too overwhelmed to add something, he just osculates their lips again, the biggest smile on his face.

“Wanna go outside watching the fireworks with the boys?”

With that they get up, their hands intertwined and neither of them able to drop their smile. They both are happy, genuinely happy and no one could take that away from them.

“I love you too, Reg”

Green fireworks lighting up the sky.

~franky. can y’all tell i never was in love lol? cause, i don’t know what people do or how they act when they are. every experience i ever made about love is out of 1d fanfiction when bella finally realized that it was niall all along or zayn leaves gigi hadid behind in new york so he could start a new life with liam in la. yeah i got issues lol.

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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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Green (matresses and new year’s eve)

Alex x Reggie

this part: is part of the storyline

moodboard, playlist

780 words

warnings: mention of underage drinking, mention of unhealthy family life, mention of homophobia

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Luckily no one questions two teenage boys carrying a mattress through LA while the sun stands high but daytime was the only possibility to get Alex mattress out of his room since his dad is at work and his mother is on her weekly encounter with her friends and there would be no way on getting his full size mattress out of his window.

It’s not even 12 hours ago since Reggie set the statement of them all moving into the garage together and as much as Alex looks forward on not being afraid of coming home everyday and snuggling up with Reggie every night, he’s also scared he could loose their bond. Besides the one time Reggie found him crying in his room, neither Alex nor Reggie ever labeled what they have as love and since they only started seeing each other at night to escape their lives and safe then from their ugly minds, there was no need for whatever their relationship is anymore. Also if they continue on hiding it away, how should that work if Luke is living with them and Bobby probably is spending more and more nights in the garage as well until he has the courage to move in with them as well?

“Alex? We- we’re there. Stuck in your thoughts again?”

“Just thinking about what my parents will do as soon as they find out”

Not in the least would Alex tell Reggie about his actual pondering and it’s not even a lie, Alex is scared about his parents reaction mainly because he knows there will be no reaction. Since he came out as gay they didn’t dare to care about him but as his father realized Alex is currently seeing someone as he found Alex index finger painted in nail polish and Alex tried to explain in a gender neutral way that this was just the person he likes who thought it would be a fun idea and Alex didn’t actually wanted it but he doesn’t know how to get it off his finger. It was a lie, he loves his painted nail and he loves all of Reggies painted nails but a boy with nail polish, no he couldn’t explain that to his father. Bad news for Alex, his father wasn’t drunk that day. It didn’t take long until he discovered his lie and since that day, it was as if he doesn’t have a son anymore. Alex mother always on the side of her husband.

“Don’t worry about them. We both know our folks will not be looking for us and yes, sucks to know but let’s focus on the bright side. Our band is going as good as ever, today we’re in the garage, soon we’ll be spending our nights in hotel rooms all over the planet. The less they care about us the less image-ruining headlines they have about us” Since they are yet alone in the garage, Reggie kisses Alex softly which actually helps calming him down. Reggie likes this affection just as much as much as Alex likes it so why should this stop now?

“The only difficulty we should focus on right now is getting the mattress up the loft”

Getting the mattress up there was easier than expected especially since Luke and Bobby came around and offered them a little help.

“Does and of you has plans for New Year’s Eve already? Cause I was kinda hoping we could spend the night together in the garage. Just us. You guys are the only people I need in my life” Bobby starts talking after they all sat down on the couch, that’s gonna be Lukes bed for a unknown period of time, or the floor in front of it.

“I‘d buy beer for us but non of us really can effort that, can we?” Reggie asks the boys getting sceptical looks by all the other ones. They just ran away from home or are about it and their band doesn’t really brings income as well so where should they have money from?

“I know where my parents store their cash. I could sneak a hundred bucks without them noticing. I should just do it fast, who knows when my mom comes back from her coffee appointment” Alex more off mumbles thinking about the stacks of green paper bills in a hidden cabinet in the kitchen.

“Be careful about that. Don’t need our plan ruined last second” Alex nods as registration at Reggie, then getting up the floor.

“I should leave then. See you tonight”

“Pack your things A. I’ll pick you up at midnight.”

~franky

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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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Green (runaways)

Alex x Reggie (but also Bobby x Luke a the end)

this part: is part of the storyline

moodboard, playlist

1050 words

warnings: homophobia, mention of violence, alcoholism, mention of death, mention of smoking, underage smoking, kinda victim blaming, abusive parents, message me if you think i should add something else

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Where does one belong, if one does not belong anywhere?

Reggie and Alex sure hadn’t have a lot left. They play in a band full of broken families misfits. Luke the runaway, Reggie suffering from abusement, Alex sinning by being gay and Bobby who ruins his parents reputation by being friends with the lads. None of them has it great, yet Alex‘ and Reggies hell burns a little hotter just as the alcohol in there fathers throat, the stringers on their skin and the smoke in their lungs. None of them has it great, yet Alex‘ and Reggies worthlessness goes a little deeper, six feet to be exactly. Luckily for them both, they found each other before digging up the hole. One big grave is easier to hide than two smaller ones.

“Almost thought you wouldn’t come today” Alex whispery yells out of his bedroom window after hearing the familiar sound of rocks thrown at it.

“Parents wouldn’t go to sleep. Busy screaming at each other” Reggie answers Alex, the typical ‘Reggie smirk’ never leaving his face, only as Alex places his lips on it, the smirk went away.

Intertwining their fingers and both of them a cigarette in their other hand, they walk through the dark of the night. The streets drying of the rain from the day and only lit by the moonshine almost making the asphalt seem green and since it’s getting really cold outside lately, the lads hurry into the garage.

“About the other day” Reggie starts a sentence again, breaking the silence that was between them ever since Alex house “does this- does this happen regularly?”

This is exactly the talk Alex never wanted to have. Although Reggie knows a lot about Alex family, Alex does not have the courage to dob his father out like that. He knows what Reggie thinks about physically hurting your own children, Reggie faces that almost everyday himself, but pain is only temporary and at the end of the day his father is still part of his family – his shrunken and broken family – but his family. And he couldn’t peach them like that since he is already the reason for his family going south.

“That was nothing. I just-” The sooner and more confident Alex answer sounds like, the more likely Reggie will believe his version of the truth that isn’t quite a lie but also not really what happened in reality.

“My dad found out I was seeing someone and surprisingly he wasn’t very amused finding out it’s not Gabriella from church”

That’s not a lie. It’s the truth hidden in humor but enough of an answer to quiet Reggie down hopefully although Alex was talking around Reggies question. He pecks Reggies lips just to make sure Reggie doesn’t think about it too much and gives him a small smile after that.

“Not that this would excuse anything but was it at least a one time thing?” Reggie continues as if their kiss never happened.

“Reggie” Alex chunters and wants to osculate him again in order to make this conversation stop but Reggie gently pushes him away and looking him into his eyes with way too much seriousness.

“I’m a sinner in his eyes” Alex voice doesn‘t leave space for emotions. He knows there is no excuse for violence but he can’t help it.

“Aren‘t we all sinners? Especially abusing your own kids gives you a free ticked to hell” As much as Reggie wants to punch into the next best wall, he knows that this will not help getting Alex to cooperate, so Reggie copes his anger with as much humor as there is left. Hasn’t he heard enough anyway? He has his answer, a clear 'no it happens regularly’ so if Alex doesn’t want to share more about it, there is nothing else to add.

“Not for him. I know I should hate him but I can’t. Whenever I look into his drunken eyes, I still see the caring father he used to be. The person who taught me how to ride a bike and always had a bandage if I fell off. Theres not a lot of this person left insider of him and that’s all my fault. Whenever I look into his drunken eyes, I see the person that I broke. This hurts more than anything else.”

Reggie couldn’t say something about that. Other than Alex, he never had a dad at home. Sure he has his biological father but being a dad is way more than just that. Reggie never had someone to bring to father-son-day at school, he never had someone to talk to as the people in gym class picked him out last, he never had someone that taught him how to play football or how to be in a team. Whenever Reggie comes home from school all he sees is his sperm donor on the couch, a empty bottle of gin in his hand and cigarettes all around him. Reggie couldn’t say something, but he can make Alex feel loved in his very own way. With a very passionate kiss.

“We need to get you out of there. You need to realize that you are not the problem”

They don’t losen their hug. In fact Alex face only gets buried deeper in Reggies shirt, a pale shadow of nodding rubbing his tears into the fabric.

The same time Luke parks his bike in front of the garage. He was only walking his bike since he arrived at Bobby’s place and stumbled to the garage, his boyfriend carrying his guitar and gently leading him the right direction with his arm around Lukes waist.

“What are you doing here?” Reggie was the first one to see the other boys.

“Luke ran away but he can’t stay at my place you know my parents don’t really like any of you. What are you guys doing in here all cozy?” Bobby asks, a smirk on his face. Alex tries to throw a pillow at him but his vision blurry through tears and his body craving for Reggie, his aiming isn’t really doing him a favor.

“Me and Alex are gonna move in here”

~franky. that one was though tho, sorry for any mistakes i might was crying a little while writing that.

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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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Green (honestly idk)

Alex x Reggie

this part: gets mentioned in the storyline but isn’t important

moodboard, playlist

610 words

warnings: abusement, visible signs of violence (message me if you think i should add something else) also it’s really really bad lol

im on revising it

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Whit the sound of shattered glass, Reggie shrugs. Alex house is filled with angered screaming and Reggie only watching this scene from outside. As much as he wants to leave, he knows Alex needs him. So he waits quietly in Alex backyard until he can see the light in Alex room turning on. But as the screaming stops and the whole house is filled with unpleasant silence in general yet Alex room stays dark, Reggie starts to worry. Hoping Alex window is as open as always he climbs onto the roof. A little bit less elegant than Alex would but to be fair, Alex does it almost every day and this is Reggies first time using the alternative entrance. But Reggie was right, the window might look closed but it’s not locked. He is too concentrated on not falling off the housetop to actually realize that Alex sits in the corner of his pitch black room, his chin resting on his knees, his face hiding behind his arms. Only as Reggie hears the quiet sobs, his head immediately turns this direction and there Alex was. Crying in a pitch black room.

“Oh my god. A? Are you- are you alright?”

Sure the answer to this question is obvious, but Reggie doesn’t quite know what to do. It’s one thing distracting Alex from his problems but calming a crying Alex down, that’s Lukes cup of tea.

He sits down across from Alex and gently brushing over his arm, causing Alex to tense up.

“Please don’t- don’t touch me” Alex whispers almost inaudible. It doesn’t actually sounds like Alex actually registers the person as Reggie, but Reggie doesn’t push it. He gives Alex the room he needs, instead he nervously plays with his fingers.

“If you- If you want me to leave then I will do so just tell me but- but I’m hoping you won’t. I can just sit here in silence so you’re not alone or, or I could tell you funny stories like that one time as I made Luke laugh so hard, his Pepsi was gushing out of his nose and he couldn’t breathe so Bobby almost had to get an ambulance. Okay, maybe that wasn’t too funny but I‘m sure I‘ll find some actual funny stories to tell” Reggie blabbers quirkily, then adding a soft “unless you want to tell me what happened to you. I will just sit here and listen. Just tell me what you want me to do”

Alex doesn’t answer, so the room stays quiet only Reggies steady breath and Alex occasional sobs extend the room from silence.

Reggies appearance has a calming impact on Alex and minute by minute the sobs more and more transmute into loud breaths.

“Thanks for being here Reggie. I- You make me feel safe which is ironic cause falling in love with you was probably the most dangerous situation I ever got into” Alex chuckles after a few more minutes of calming down. Although this was the first time either of them ever called whatever they have love, Reggie was to distracted by the very clear red handprint on Alex cheek. Carefully and as in trance he cups Alex cheek, gently brushing his thumb over it.

“A- Alex”

Reggies voice breaks the unpleasant silence but Alex simply takes his hand and peeks a kiss on it.

“Don’t worry about it now. Can we just- can we just lay down in bed and cuddle?”

“Promise me we talk about that somewhen else?” Reggie asks, receiving a nod from Alex as an answer.

“Sure then. Oh and Alex. I also fell in love with you”

~franky

i literally hate this so fucking much like so fucking much but i felt like i need to post something new so here you go but like i hate it.

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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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Green (nail polish and masculinity)

Alex x Reggie

this part: gets mentioned in the storyline but isn’t important

moodboard, playlist

630 words

wearings: homophobia (message me if you think i should add something else)

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As Alex hears the familiar sound of rocks thrown at his window, he quickly puts on his jacket and climbs downstairs to Reggie as quietly as possible. It was as their bodies move for them, their minds totally out of control as Alex makes his way to Reggie and instead of a greeting they just kiss very zealously. Their hands entwined they walk though the city lights without actually having a destination they plan to be. It’s just wherever their feets lead them. They find themselves in a deserted park and come to rest on one of the green benches. Reggie sitting on it crisscrossed and Alex laying his head in Reggies lap.

Reggie grasping his cigarettes out of his pocket and reaching one over to Alex, his spare hand gently braiding through Alex hair.

“You have a lighter?”

“Yeah somewhere in my jacket, left side”

Alex doesn’t care to get up out of his very comfortable position especially since getting up brings the risk that Reggie stops ranking through his hair but Reggie playing with Alex hair was one of his favorite feeling in this world. Reggie would get along with finding the lighter.

“Alex?” Reggie asks amused after rummaging around in Alex pocket, only receiving some kind of humming as an answer.

“Do I wanna know why you’re carrying around nail polish in your jacket?” Reggie laughs, not actually expecting an answer.

“The boys in school-” Alex starts after a long pause but holds on for another second. He sits up facing Reggie, grabbing his lighter and lighting his cigarette. He only continues on talking again after inhaling the smoke of the cigarette a few times.

“The boys in school-” He starts again, fidgeting with the lighter, staring at his cigarette. Reggie takes Alex lighter, lits his own cigarette before slipping it in his own jacket and comforting Alex by taking his hand and drawing little circles on it with his thumb.

“They gave me a few things like eyeliner, pink lipstick and also this nail polish cause boys don’t like boys, that’s gross. I must have forgotten it. Not that it would matter anyway.”

Alex voice is nothing more than a whisper, yet Reggie is able to tell the hint of despairing playing along.

“Paint my nails” Reggie says with vigor, not taking his glance of Alex.

“What?”

“I’m a boy liking boys, well one in particular, so paint my nails.”

Alex looks at Reggie confused but as he sees how settled Reggie is about that, he slides a little closer to Reggie and with a last nod from the brunette boy, starts painting his nails with the dark green polish in the middle of the night.

“Wait, leave that finger out” Reggie says, gaining a confused look from Alex but smiling in a way that says “it will make sense later on”

Half an hour, three cigarettes and a few kisses later, nine of Reggies fingernails are covered in green, only his left index finger left out.

“I love it. But you know what would make it even better?” Reggie more of rhetorically asks, not lifting his head while taking the nail polish container out of Alex hand and grabbing his hand softly. Alex being frozen due to Reggies slow motions and just stares at the slightly older boy not being able to move even if he’d want to.

“Now it’s perfect” he mumbles, intertwining their hands and peeking soft kisses on Alex palm, careful to not mess up the drying nail polish on Alex index finger Reggie just painted.

“It’s not a shame to like boys Alex. Don’t let their words be stuck in your mind, they would die if they only knew what special bond their bullying attempts created between us two.”

~franky (ok i hate the words in this one but i like the idea behind, yk?)

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s-jatpfic · 4 years ago

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Green (stargazing)

Alex x Reggie

this part: is part of the storyline

moodboard, playlist

950 words

warnings: mention of parental abuse (in a methaphoric way), mention of homophobia, consume of alcohol, consume of cigarettes, underage drinking, underage smoking (message me if you think i should add something else)

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“What are you doing here? My parents could see you”

It was about 2am but Reggie was wide awake. After hearing the door slapping for the first time a few hours ago, he knew there was no such thing like sleeping today. He was staying as quiet as possible listening to every step his mother took until it seemed like she fell asleep. Quickly he grabbed everything that seemed useful like his wallet and keys, put on his distinctive leather jacket and snuck out of his house before hearing the door slapping for the second time implying that his father came back being as drunk as the sailor early in the morning which would not only cause an other screaming battle but also turning the feeling of being uncomfortable into the feeling of being unsafe. Now there he was, throwing rocks at Alex window hoping for his not quite yet but somehow already boyfriend having an as sleepless night as he has himself.

Seeing Reggie in his backyard, there wasn’t even anything Reggie needs to say to get Alex climbing out of his window. It was just his natural reaction after grabbing a spare hoodie just in case. Alex was glancing at Reggie once more absorbing how beautiful he looks standing there just so casually in the moonshine knowing every girl in school would be jealous at Alex if they could see him right now, yet it was Alex and not every girl in school seeing Reggie like this which makes him feel even more special about it.

“Cigarettes and coffee” Alex mumbles just so close to Reggies lips the slightly smaller one still could feel the vibrating of the motion after a quick amorous kiss “i am jealous.”

Reggie again connects their lips to the sweetness of admiration and passion, a million loving thoughts condensed into a moment.

“What we gonna do?” Reggie chatters after finally pulling away from Alex lips – as much as he would love to never let off them – making Alex smirk widely.

“You tell me. You came here. But how about getting out of my parents lawn first. Would be a shame if they find me kissing this handsome boy in leather togs in their holy ambiance” Alex says in a soft voice still cupping Reggies cheek with one hand and ranking through the brown hair with the other one.

“Was that an lousy attempt to call me your knight in shining armor?” Reggie asks amused, wandering one of his hands that are resting at Alex hips to combine with the hand holding Reggies face “I love it.”

Breathing in this closeness one last time, Reggie swiftly pulls away from Alex, yet intertwining their hands and guiding the boy he fell in love with along the streets of Los Angeles’ nightlife.

“Hold on for a second. There’s a bottle store, how about some Hennessy?” Reggie more off rhetorically asks while already heading this direction “Wait right here, I got this” he adds after seeing Alex anxious expression. They were only teenagers, yet it’s not Reggies first time buying liquor, he knows what he’s doing.

Smiling wildly, he shows Alex the brown paper bag that clearly has a bottle in it and two cans of Mountain Dew in the other hand.

“Told you I got this.”

Whenever Alex and Reggie spent time together, they just could forget the existence of life for a second. They could escape their unsafe surroundings that some people might call their homes and just be around someone who makes them feel accepted and appreciated. They started to hang out just as friends as they found each other sleeping in the bands garage more often cause neither of them really could sleep in their houses but they soon realized that just friends does not quite work out for them so in between their sessions of complaining about life, they begun with harmless physical touch like holding hands or snuggling, then there was a period of time where they peeked some really innocent kisses here and there until it led right into the relationship they have right now. Some kind of double life. Best friends and band mates at day and a connection lots of people would get jealous about at night. They have a very special bond, yet they hide it from anyone else. It was their very special bond, it wasn’t no one elses interest.

Inhaling the cold of the night, exhaling the smoke of their cigarettes, they are laying down on the asphalt watching those peacefully burning yellow dots in the sky hinting how small and unimportant human existence is while always making sure they are never too low on alcohol.

It wasn’t as they need the alcohol to feel free if the other boy is around but the sweetish bitterly mix of Hennessy and Mountain Dew in combination with the burning feeling the cigarettes leave in their lungs paired up with all the kisses they share leads to the perfect amount of intoxication by love and lust.

For once in their lives they feel like no one could ever hurt them, like no one had the power to rip them apart, to take away the most important person in their lives, their source of happiness, their yellow mixed up with the blue night sky, making their love as green as the empty can of Mountain Dew they use as ashtrays, as green as Alex hoodie Reggie now snuggles into, as green and as magical as the haze of the shooting star that just flew along.

“Make a wish”

“I don’t need to. Im all happy laying next to you.”

~franky. i started writing this in online class and finished it after one and a half bottles of wine. can y’all tell the cut or is my teachers sobering way of teaching offsetting my intoxicated brain?

sources of inspiration: dat adams hennessyxmtndew, 5sos‘ wrapped around your finger

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