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i wanna talk about it but i really dont wanna talk about it

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“The people who are meant to be in your life will always gravitate back towards you, no matter how far they wander.”

— Robert Tew

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Normalize not forcing connections with people. If somebody doesn't see the value in having you by their side, don’t try to convince them.

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scent of a women (1974)

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—If We Were Villains, M. L. Rio

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gripping my thighs with my nails about this written by @ryebreadgf

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Louise Glück, from “Stars”, Poems: 1962–2020

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Hanif Abdurraqib interviewed by Ruth Awad: Joy Is Not Promised to You

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- Evelyn Waugh, from Brideshead Revisited (1945)

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“Strawberries”

-Caamp

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Sage,

I can’t listen to caamp without thinking of you. They dedicated this song to you at their last show. 26 years wasn’t enough time for you to be here.

It still doesn’t feel real to me that you’re not here. That I won’t walk into some random store in my hometown and see you there coming to give me a hug. I went a few days without crying but the past two days it’s hit me all over again that you’re gone. You were so special Sage. You made everyone you talked to feel so special and important to you. I’ll never forget when I was 19 you showed up at my door and dressed me up in drag clothes, we went out in the town and pretended we were in the 20s. Bold lipstick, bulky jewelry, we danced at the bar to 20s music on a random Tuesday in January. Fur coat and all. We stayed up all night that night. You told me about growing up with your dad. We talked about your mom. We told each other all the trauma and all the things we wanted in life. That was one of the best nights of my life Sage. I felt alive and free. I felt fun. And it breaks my heart you’re gone Sage. You were one of a kind. I hope you know how much I loved you and adored you. I’ll never forget working with you, staying up all night, the pizza nights, the crazy party nights. Hearing you come into the juicery and someone would tell me “Your boyfriend is here!” And I immediately knew it was you. My gay boyfriend or course. I’ll miss it all. All of it. I’m so sorry I distanced myself when I got pregnant. I’m so sorry I didn’t check on you more. Everytime we spoke you told me you were hanging in there and I should’ve checked in more. I should’ve been there more. I should’ve helped you more. This hurts so bad. It’s been weeks and it still hurts so bad. You would’ve been so pissed at your funeral. We all were for you. You are so beautiful on the inside and out. The most talented yet troubled soul and you deserved more than the hand you were dealt. I hope you’re at peace. I hope you’re holding Teddy. I love you so so much. I don’t know when or if this gets any easier. I’ll miss you forever.

So what do you say, when we're 26

We'll get married just for kicks and

Move out to Alaska way up there

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keep the sun in your heart