sagesongbird

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

I know I should have asked you... To be honest, I probably would have enjoyed the tour a lot more if you were there with me. You were so angry at the Chris Keller part of things that night, and we had that huge fight, so I never thought you'd be on board with the tour. I know I can't take back what I did, and if I had it all to do over again, I'd obviously handle things differently, but the damage is done, and I know I need to deal with the consequences of that. I am sorry for my part in all of this, though. {I quietly admitted. At the time, though, emotions were high... as were our tempers, so I was convinced by how Nathan basically gave me an ultimatum the second he found out Chris Keller was also going on the tour too, that there's no way Nathan would have agreed to come on tour with me, or even support me in going on it. That night I left he basically told me it was him or the tour, and in a fit of stubbornness and the disdain of ultimatums as a whole, I made a choice... One that I would probably regret for the rest of my life. I just hoped we could find a way to leave it in the past and start fresh from here. Yes, I know the mistake was made and the damage was done, but I didn't want us to keep rehashing it either. The only thing that would do was continue to keep the wound fresh and the anger at the surface. If we were going to move on from here, we'd need to find a way to get beyond what broke us} Yeah? Look at you spoiling me with the Jello. {I playfully aired out in response; all the while a soft smile rested across my lips} As long as you keep the Jello coming, then I promise to follow yours and the doctor's orders to rest and heal. If the Jello stops though, be ready for more whining from me about being stuck in this hospital bed. {I joked. Amusement lingering across my lips as I did so} Who knew there was such a fine line, and it resolved around Jello. {I further quipped. Trying to keep things light and airy between us. I mean, if we were ever going to rebuild and fix us again, then we needed to find ways to laugh and smile together again. If Jello was the first step in doing that, then so be it}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

I know you are upset with me, and I don't blame you one bit. {I paused before adding} I'm upset with me, too, and I'm so sorry that I hurt you, Nathan. I know "sorry" doesn't fix things, and I know I can't take back what I did, but I am genuinely sorry, Nathan, and my heart is and always will be, yours. {I shared sincerely. I knew this was all probably just words to Nathan now because I broke his trust in me, but I meant every word of it from my heart. I hoped I would be able to prove that to him over these next few months} Oh, don't I know it... Between you and Lucas, I don't stand a chance in getting out of here sooner rather than later. {Amused written across my lips as I spoke; all the while a soft smile traced my lips. Nathan was right in saying I hate hospitals. I do. The smells, the beds, the noisiness, and just everything about them, but all that aside, it meant so much to me to know he still cared enough to put his foot down about me staying here until the doctors give me the okay to leave} At least there's one upside to being here in this hospital bed... {I paused. The amusement resting across my lips as I continued with my playful thought} I will get my fill and hearts desire of orange and red Jello. Yes, hospitals are like my least favorite place to be, but I do love the Jello. {I quipped playfully as a soft grin came to rest contently across my lips}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

I know and I am sorry... If I could change the past, I would, Nathan. Hurting you was the last thing I ever wanted to do. I was impulsive and selfish, and I am really sorry. {I knew "sorry" didn't fix anything or make up for the hurt I caused or the trust I broke, but I felt I owed him a sincere apology for all of this} And that's fair. One day at a time... No strings attached. We'll just take it one day at a time and see where it goes. If graduation comes and you decide you don't want to be with me, I will respect your decision. We can go our separate ways and I promise to give you the space you want and need. {I meant that too. Grant it, I hated the thought of the latter portion of that possibly becoming a reality, but bottom line, I couldn't force Nathan to want to be with me, so if we gave it our best shot, and he made up his mind that this was over between us, then I would respect his decision. I loved Nathan. With all of my heart and I knew deep down that he still loved me, so I just had to have hope that love would conquer all over these next few months} That's true... Lucas can be a total pushover with a lot of things, but this would be one of those times he'd put his foot down. {I chuckled softly as I joked about this in return. Nathan was right about me not wanting to be here, but I knew it was necessary, so I'd be a good patient and stay here for however long I was forced to} I promise to behave myself here at the hospital. I'll rest, eat the horrible hospital food, and follows yours and the doctors orders. {I said with a playful smile before adding} I'll be on my best behavior... Scout's honor. {I jokingly moved my good hand to make the scout's honor motion, even though I was never actually a scout}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

I know, Nathan, and I'm sorry... I should have asked you to come with me on the tour. I don't know why I didn't, and I can't take it back now. I am sorry, though. I know I messed all of this up. It's my fault that the trust is broken between us, and that's not something I take lightly. Trust me, nobody is angrier at me right now than I am at myself. {I shared... Not knowing why I was saying this again, but maybe I needed to... I needed to remind him that I regretted my decision every day, and if I could take it all back, I would without a second's thought. I couldn't though, so all I could do now was to live with the regrets of my decision. I did feel a sense of a smile pull at the corners of my lips though when I heard Nathan's words. His reminder that he was here now. That was something that did give me optimism that he still cared about me, and if that was the case, then there was a chance for us... Maybe. I could hope that was the case, at least} Okay, that's fair. We'll take it one day at a time from now until graduation and see what happens between us. {I agreed with a warm smile. That compromise felt fair. At least it was a chance. Certainly better than him walking away ever time I tried to talk to him until I got hit by the car and ended up here in the hospital. At least now that he was willing to talk to me and hear me out, I knew we had a chance of fixing things between us} And, for what it's worth, I'm glad you're here now. If you weren't, I'd probably be trying to persuade Lucas and Brooke to break me out of this hospital or something. {I lightly teased. I wouldn't do that, of course, which Nathan knew since he knew me better than anyone, but I only said that in hopes of putting another smile on his face}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{I didn't know how to respond to Nathan's reply. I could always count on Nathan to keep it real with me. Candor, blunt, hurtful or otherwise, was something that Nathan never struggled with, but honestly, I liked that about him because it meant I always knew where we stood with one another. Then again, probably the reason I had welcomed it before was because Nathan only ever reminded me how much he loved me... Now, though, I knew I had lost him... I knew I messed up and the reason our marriage was over was because of my own selfish decision to go on tour. Why wouldn't I regret going on that tour? Not when it cost me my true passion and first love, as a result. I lost Nathan so music and touring was the last thing on my mind now. Truthfully, I didn't know if I'd ever even have the desire to sing again. Knowing if I did, I'd always be reminded of what that brief passion cost me. Bottom line though, I wasn't stupid... I knew the only reason Nathan was here with me now and we were even having this conversation was because of the accident. If I hadn't been hit by that car, I could guarantee Nathan would still be ignoring me and walking away from me every time I tried to talk to him} How could I not regret it? That tour... That passion for music... Nathan, of course I regret it. That path cost me you. {I quietly murmured out. Not really knowing what more to say at this point. Something told me once I was all healed up, Nathan would be gone, and there was nothing I could do or say to stop him. I broke his trust. I broke his heart. I ruined what we had, and although I always naively believed nothing could ever come between our deep seated love for each other, I was now realizing just how wrong I was. I thought to myself as I laid my head back against the pillow; bringing my eyes to a close as I could feel the tears beginning to pool in them. I didn't want to give Nathan another reason to get mad at me, so I kept my eyes closed in an effort to hide the tears that had formed and were now threatening to fall}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{I understood Nathan was mad at me. He had every right to be. If I could take back what I did, I would in a heartbeat. Don’t get me wrong, I loved getting to tour… To explore my passion for music hands on, but not as much as I would have if Nathan had been there with me. Sure, I knew Nathan never would have come on tour with me. For one, he had basketball and a life in Tree Hill. One I couldn’t ask him to uproot. Not to forget he hated Chris Keller, so the odds were high that Nathan would have beat Chris Keller up on that tour every chance he got. In the end, I gave up the chance to tour and I came home instead. Fully intending to get Nathan back… Only to be met by a door being shut in my face. I deserved it though. I just wish it didn’t take me getting hit by a car, after pushing Nathan out of the way of it, for us to finally sit down to talk things out} I know, Nathan… And you have every right to be angry with me. What I did was wrong, and if I could take it back, trust me, I would. {I stated the obvious. Ultimately giving a nod of understanding though when I heard Nathan say we didn’t need to make decisions about our future now. Further recommending that we should focus on me healing first. He was right. Deep down I knew he was. Still, I couldn’t help but to worry that we might not be able to fix us, or even if we could, Nathan would still decide that he would go to Duke, but didn’t want me to go there too. I didn’t want to be apart from Nathan anymore. In my heart, he was my husband, so naturally I wanted to be wherever he was} You’re right. I’m just a little worried, Nathan… {I started to say then I paused; wondering if me being honest would make Nathan angry. At this point in time, I was afraid to say anything since lately I felt like any little thing would give Nathan another reason to be mad at me} I’m a little worried that once I do heal, you won’t want me around anymore… I know you’re mad at me, and you have every right to be. I messed up. Big time. I love you though, and I don’t want to lose you, Nathan. 

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{I flashed Nathan an amused grin when I heard his comment about the girls being lined up outside the hospital in hopes of seeing him} Just as long as they look and don’t touch. Otherwise they’re going to see what I can do with a pair of crutches. I’m telling you, I can be lethal with crutches when necessary. {I joked in reply as a means of keeping the mood light and fun between us. Something I felt we both needed currently given the circumstances surrounding us. Truthfully though, it wouldn’t bother me if girls really were lined up outside to see him. They could look all they wanted. They could scream out his name, take pictures with him, fan-girl over him, and do whatever else they wanted. None of that bothered though me because I trusted Nathan. Sure, I knew things were currently strained between us in our relationship, but at the end of the day, I knew Nathan only loved me. He’d never give any of those girls a chance. I thought with a content smile as my eyes remained locked lovingly on him} You’re my dream, Nathan. {I aired out honestly before continuing} My eyes were opened to that when I went on tour. I thought music was my dream… I thought going on tour would be this amazing, life-changing thing, but I soon learned that none of those other things mattered to me without you. {I confessed quietly before a light breath left my lips} All that to say, I want to be wherever you are. Whether that’s at Duke, or Sanford, or some college in East Jabip that neither of us have ever heard of. {I said as a playful smile pulled at the corners of my lips}Anyway, we don’t need to make any decisions now. We have plenty of time to figure out what we both want. {Assuming things between Nathan and I work out, and we find reconciliation in our relationship and marriage. At this point things were starting to look like they were heading in that direction, but I didn’t want to get my hopes up just yet. I needed to wait it out patiently to see where Nathan’s heart and head were in all of this}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{I was admittedly relieved when Nathan first took my hand in his own, and then he cracked a joke about "stalker vibes" when I made my confession about me applying and getting accepted into Duke. Given how rocky things had been between us lately, I was justifiably worried that Nathan would be angry with me. Claim that I was trying too hard or pushing for us to have a future together when he wasn't sure we even had a future together anymore. In my defense though, that wasn't at all my intention. Simply put, I applied to Duke to show Nathan how much I love him. Yes, when I was growing up, it was my dream to go to Stanford, but dreams change. People change. If anything, going on tour gave me a sense of reality. It made me realize that there isn't any dream I want for myself, unless Nathan is there to share it with me. I want us to experience life together; not to have our futures and dreams taking place while we're thousands of miles apart. The thought of that sounded horrible to me. All that to say, that's why I applied at Duke. I wanted Nathan to live out his dream to play for Duke while I was in the stands cheering the loudest for him each game} Well, have you seen you? How could anyone not want to stalk you? {I joked in reply while a humored smile creased my lips. It hurt to breath, so I avoided laughter, but I still welcomed the lighthearted and fun exchange of retort between us. It gave me hope that in time, Nathan and I would be ourselves again. Still, my eyes widened a bit in surprise when I heard his confession about Stanford. I've gotta say, I never saw that coming since Duke had always been his dream} You did? Nathan, that was really sweet of you. {I said with a soft, touched smile before adding} It's always been your dream to play for Duke though, and honestly, as much as I wanted to go to Stanford when I was growing up, it doesn't really matter to me anymore. At least not like it once did. Besides, it's your turn to live out your dream, and I want to be there with you, cheering you on every step of the way. {Giving his hand a gentle, weak squeeze as my fingers remained contentedly laced around Nathan's palm} We have time to figure all of that out though. We don't need to decide here and now. It's good to know we have options though. {All of this felt good. No, not the hospital and broken bones portion of this, obviously, but Nathan and I discussing our futures together gave me a building sense of hope that he and I did still have a future together}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{I knew Nathan was mad at me for leaving him, and honestly, I couldn't blame him. I was mad at me too. The problem was, we both had dreams... Very, /very/ different dreams. Ones that took us far apart from the other. Nathan had a dream to play in the NBA, which would take him all over the country, and possibly the world too, and my dream was music. Grant it, once my dream to tour and make music became a reality, I started to realize it wasn't as amazing as I thought it would be. Sure, maybe if Nathan had gone on tour with me, I'd love have loved it, because then I'd have both of my loves with me while we traveled the country together. Knowing Nathan didn't support my dream, and it cost us our marriage though made me realize it wasn't what I wanted. Yes, I loved music, and touring was a lot of fun too, but I loved Nathan more. Ultimately I gave up my dream and walked away from the tour. Of course I naively returned and thought Nathan would be able to forgive me, but sadly, that wasn't the case. I mean, up until I got hit by this car, he wouldn't even speak to me. In fact, when I walked into a room, he left the room because he couldn't even stand to look at me. Bottom line, I lost everything; both my career and Nathan too, which made my decision to go on tour my biggest life regret yet. All of that to say, the fact that Nathan was seated here beside me in my hospital room was and we were actually talking gave my accident one upside, you could say. I briefly considered as the topic of college was brought to the table. A part of me was afraid to admit this to Nathan, because I didn't want him to get angry at me for not giving him space, but I had actually applied and got accepted at Duke. When I applied, I had decided that wherever Nathan was, that's where I wanted to be. Yes, Stanford was once my dream college, but not so much anymore... I wanted to be with Nathan, not thousands of miles away from each other} I did get accepted into Stanford, yes, but prior to my mistake to go on tour, I had also applied to and got accepted into Duke. Please don't be mad at me, Nathan... I promise I'm not stalking you, but at the beginning of the school year when I was considering colleges, I knew in my heart that I wanted to be wherever you are. I didn't want to be thousands of miles away from you. I know how much going to Duke means to you, so I knew as long as we were together, I would be perfectly happy going to Duke too. {I quietly confessed before adding} I didn't tell you in case I didn't get in, but my acceptance letter arrived a few days ago, and honestly, I didn't know how to tell you. {I shared; all the while bracing myself for what could possibly be an angry reaction from Nathan, but I hoped not. I hoped that he'd see I may have failed him when I chose going on tour over him, but I learned from my mistake, and going forward, I'd always choose him and our marriage over any other dreams and passions I may have in life}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{I knew in my gut that I wasn't going to be released from this hospital as soon as I would like to be. I didn't like hospitals... They actually scared me ever since I was a kid. In fact, the only thing keeping me from freaking out about all of this now was that Nathan was here with me. Of course I knew he wouldn't be had I not gotten hit by that car after pushing him out of the way... I also knew he was still angry with me, and wouldn't be talking to me now if he could avoid doing so, but if nothing else, maybe this was the opportunity we finally needed just to sit and talk. Not the most ideal opportunity, and probably about as painful as they come, but if it opened the door for Nathan to finally give me a chance, then so be it} I know... I just really hate hospitals. {I said through a soft chuckle. It hurt to laugh, but I was trying to keep the mood as light as I could. By now I shifted the conversation to High Flyers. Flashing Nathan a genuine smile as I saw his face light up while he responded} I'm glad, Nathan. You deserved that opportunity. {I meant every word of that too. I knew for years Nathan questioned whether or not basketball was even for him anymore, because of the pressure Dan put on him. Dan actually made Nathan lose his interest for basketball at one point... Not to mention practically forced Nathan to take uppers and then collapse on the basketball court all because of the pressure Dan put on Nathan to be the best. Dan messed with Nathan's head for years, so I was relieved that Nathan seemed to find his love for basketball all over again, now that he had separated himself from Dan} I can see it now... In the next month or so, you're going to be getting that call for a full ride to Duke. It's your dream, Nathan, and I know it's going to happen for you. {I added genuinely. Wanting Nathan to know that I always believed in his and I always would}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{Obviously a part of me couldn't help but to wonder if Nathan was only putting this offer out there now because he felt he was to blame for me being in this hospital bed. As much as I didn't want to admit it, that explanation made the most sense. I mean, Nathan is still clearly angry with me, and given the fact that he has barely said two words to me since my return to Tree Hill, I knew he had made it clear that he didn't want anything to do with me. He didn't care about us fixing things, because in Nathan's eyes, our marriage was over. All that to say, we probably wouldn't be having this conversation, nor would Nathan be putting out the offer for me to stay with him while I recover, and during that time, we'd see if there was any hope for our broken marriage. Of course it broke my heart to think that Nathan more than likely still wouldn't be talking to me had I not nearly died at the result of that car, but I knew I couldn't dwell on that fact. No, none of this was ideal, but what mattered was that Nathan was willing to try. Saving our marriage may be a long shot for us, but I loved Nathan, so I would do whatever it takes to make him see that I learned my lesson, and that I would never leave him again} Hopefully my discharge from here is sooner rather than later. I never was a fan of hospitals. {I said with a soft smile before deciding to change the subject to a topic that I hoped Nathan would warm up to more than the current one} So, I never got to ask you... How was your High Flyers camp? Was it all that you hoped it to be and more? {I asked with another soft yet warm smile}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{I wasn't naive. I knew we couldn't be fixed overnight. We were currently broken. Our marriage was falling apart and up until tonight, Nathan couldn't even stand to be in the same room as me, or even so much as look at me. We weren't in a good state of our relationship, and honestly, I knew had that car not hit me tonight, Nathan probably still wouldn't be speaking to me. Still, it happened... Nathan was safe, and I would heal over time. Did I regret pushing Nathan out of the way of the speeding car? Not. Not at all. I loved Nathan with all of my heart and I would always do everything I could to protect him. Yes, I knew I made a mistake when I left for that tour, but at the time, I was afraid if I didn't, I would end up resenting Nathan for keeping me from my dreams. Looking back on it now though, I realized I only had a passion for music because Nathan put that passion in my heart. When I lost him though, I lost my song... My ability to write, sing, and perform. Turns out my dreams of music meant nothing at all to me if I couldn't share them with Nathan. I silently considered as he remained protectively beside me as I rested in the hospital bed. I listened with hope as he offered for me to stay at the house with him while I recover. Further offering a couple of months to try to fix us, and with that, to see if we still had anything worth saving between us, but if we didn't, we call it quits. Did I like to think of the chance that we might have nothing to save? No. I hated the thought or even a possibility that Nathan and I would end up calling it quits, but I couldn't focus on that. I had to have hope that our love was strong enough to come back from this} That's fair. We'll just take it one day at a time and see where we end up. {I aired out softly in agreement}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{I could see the lingering look of anger resting on Nathan’s face as I asked about the driver involved in the hit and run. I knew he was a coward for leaving, but at the same point, in spite of how upset I was with him for causing all of this, at the same time, I didn’t wish him any harm or ill-will. Holding a grudge never worked out for anyone. Unforgiveness either, for that matter. Thoughts I’d keep to myself, for the time being, since I didn’t want to upset Nathan anymore than my questions about the driver already had. We were finally at a point where he was actually speaking to me. Not yelling or storming off angrily, but he was actually here as someone who cared. Shame it took me getting hit by a car for that to happen, but circumstances aside, I’m just glad we were talking. I just hoped this moment between us would continue; especially after I posed my next question. Inwardly cringing as I awaited his response. As I saw his expression though, I could see asking Nathan about fixing us was a mistake. He wore that torn expression on his face now, as a result. No doubt going back and forth between lying to me just to humor me, or crushing me further. Thing is though, the truth hurts, so although it would be horrible to hear Nathan tell me he had no intentions of givings “us” the chance to work things out, it would be better than the lie and false promises. I silently considered as I braced myself for his answer... The “Hales...” starter leading me to believe it was the truth about to follow, and it was going to hurt. Still, it was better than the lie. I once again reminded myself as I listened intently as he continued. I was surprised to hear Nathan confess that he still loved me. Relieved but surprised. Even more surprised when he mentioned wanting me to stay at the house with him, while I recover. Honestly, I figured once I was released, Karen and Lucas would take me in to stay with them until I was healed. No offense to them, but I liked this idea so much more. A soft breath released from my lips and tears I couldn’t hold back pooled in my eyes as I heard Nathan’s response. Tears of joy, because I never thought he would give me a chance again. He had been so angry with me that I worried we were done. That, no matter what I said or did, Nathan would never forgive me for going on that tour. This being one of those times that I was beyond relieved to be wrong} Oh, Nathan, I would love that. {I quietly said as my voice broke. The combination of joy and relief filling my every word as I spoke} I can’t tell you how happy I am to hear you say all that. To know we still have a chance to fix us. {Purposely wording it that way, because in my heart, I knew if Nathan and I could fall in love with each other once, we would do so again. I knew there was hope for us; especially considering that, although Nathan was angry with me, he still loved me. As long as the love was there, I knew we could figure out a way to make our broken marriage whole again. I always believed a love like ours would last forever, and my mind wasn’t about to change on that now}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{My parents had always raised me to see the best in people... Even when people made it difficult, to do so. They also raised me to care for the well being of others. Case and point why my mind went to the driver of that car. I mean, were they driving too fast down that road? Absolutely. Was their driving reckless, considering they didn’t even have their lights on while driving? Again, yes. Still, mistakes aside, that was still a person driving that vehicle, so yeah, I did worry about their well being, and I did hope they were okay. The thing is, I’ve made my fair share of mistakes in my life... Especially in the last several months, so couldn’t fault another person who made a mistake; even if this particular mistake nearly harmed the man I love, and left me injured in a hospital bed. Judging by Nathan’s reaction though, I could tell he was angry at the driver; both by the accident itself, but also the fact that they left the scene of the crime without even caring if I was okay. They were cowards, yes, but I’m sure fear played a big part in their decision to leave. Either way, and in spite of their horrible way of causing and handling the accident, I did hope they were okay} I know you’re upset, Nathan. A part of me is upset too, but it’s still a person who was involved. So right or wrong, I do hope they’re okay. {I aired out softly; all the while giving his hand another gentle squeeze. I guess just needed the reminder that he really was here now, and that he was okay} I’m just glad you’re safe. {I added with a soft smile; love and sincerity filling my every word} Nathan, I know we still have a lot to figure out, but once I get out of this hospital, can we please just spend some time together? Not in the road, if we can avoid that, but I just want to work things out between us. {I knew it was a big ask, but if me getting hit by the car, instead of Nathan, proved anything at all, it was still that Nathan was my one and greatest love} I miss you... And I know I screwed up, but I miss us, Nathan, so please... Please give me the chance to made amends for the mess I made.

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{I didn’t want to worry Nathan. I had already put him through so much recently that I didn’t have it in me to stress him out further. Hence the reason why I said I was sore when he asked me how I was doing. My level of pain currently went well beyond sore, but I didn’t want to say that, because I could already see how shaken up Nathan was about all of this. Besides, a part of me still worried that if I give Nathan another reason to be stressed, he’ll leave. Yes, I knew somewhere deep inside of him, Nathan still loved me, but given the failed state of our marriage currently, my gut told me he was only here at my hospital beside because I got hit by the car after pushing him out of the way of it. I could see the guilt and torn feelings written all over his face now. Sure, I knew if that car hadn’t hit me, Nathan would have been long gone tonight, and I would be back at Brooke’s place wallowing over my failed marriage. Bottom line, I knew Nathan was done with me, and although he was offering to take care of me once I get out of the hospital, a part of me couldn’t help but to wonder what all of this would mean for us, and our marriage too, once my body was healed up. A thought that I knew I had to push to the back of my mind for now, and instead, to just focus on the here and now. Nathan was here with me, and regardless of his intentions behind that, he was still here. That’s what I needed to remind myself of, since it meant there was still a chance for us... I hoped so, at least} I’m just glad you’re here, and that you’re okay, Nathan. {I quietly aired out} What about the driver of that car? Are they okay? {Maybe other people wouldn’t even think about that, since the driver’s speed and negligence was the cause of all of this, but hey, people make mistakes and accidents happen. I know this first hand, so whatever caused them to drive recklessly, they are still a human being, and I hope they came out of this accident okay}

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@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

@heroicfaithful

{Over the next several hours, I found myself in and out of sleep. Each time I felt myself awakening, I’d barely get out Nathan’s name, before my body was forcing me back into a state of sleep.  My sleep was restless, but I did feel more at ease just by knowing Nathan hadn’t left my side. Mind you, I didn’t know what would happen between us once I was awake and on the mend, but I suppose I’ll just need to cross that bridge if and when the time comes. In time, I started to feel a bit stronger... Still in a lot of pain, and I was really groggy, but I at least felt strong enough to wake up. This time managing to get out a few more words. I felt relieved when Nathan assured me that he was okay. In turn hearing his concern when he confessed that he was worried about me} A little sore, but I’ll live. {I said in a lighthearted tone. The last thing I wanted was for Nathan to be worried about me. Don’t get me wrong, it felt good to know he still cared about me, but at the same point, I didn’t want to cause him worry. It really was a complicated line, you could say} Thank you... {I quietly aired out in hearing him assure me he wasn’t going anywhere. Maybe that was selfish of me to feel that way, but either way, I felt more at ease just knowing he was here} I’m sorry to put you through all of this. {I eventually added in not much higher than a whisper. Sure, deep down I knew this wasn’t my fault. That car came out of nowhere. Still, this wasn’t at all how I expected that evening with Nathan to go}

Continued.. We'll find a way

@sagesongbird

It was complicated. That was the only way Nathan could find the words to explain his marriage. For a while it felt gloomy, it felt like our love had fallen apart. And he didn’t want to say an accident is what brought him here but it was. He was so stubborn, he was bent on hurting Haley the same way she had hurt him. He was playing close to the vest because he didn’t want to let his guard down again with her. But he also knew the second he watched her lifeless body get placed in the ambulance that he was still crazy in love. No heartache, no time of her being gone on the tour could replace the love he knew he had for her. He did blame himself; if he had given her the talk she craved, if he had been more willing to hang out to repair our damage we wouldn’t of been tricked, we wouldn’t have been on that street the moment that zooming car came in our direction. 

I was guilty; because Haley jumped in front of a car to save me, to protect me from getting injured, probably to protect my future as a basketball star, but I hated how we got here. Over pride, over the stubborn acts. Nathan told himself he had to communicate, he had to be willing to meet halfway; in order for us to survive. He stayed; he was the one who sat at her bedroom as the brunette was in and out of sleep. He reassured her he was here; he was the one that held her hand. 

His palm never left her own; as he held her touch, His head leaned onto his shoulder; which is why his neck felt stiff when he felt his eyelids lift open. He saw her face; bruised up, her eyes were closed at first until he heard her voice, he held onto her voice as it was a sense of hope for him. “ Hales.. I’m fine, I’m more worry about you. How’re you feeling?” 

It was a stupid question she was hurt; the bruises on her face, on her arm said it all. But Haley was there asking if I was okay; I came out of this unstretched, I was fine. I was walking, I was breathing without injury, I had taken care of myself for years; I could handle a slight fall when she pushed me out of the way, Bringing her palm up to my lips; I pressed a tender kiss to her skin as I mumbled the words. “ I’m not going anywhere.” 

We’d figure out the past, how we overcome it all because we said always and forever.

[sagesongbird]

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{I had a feeling all it would take was the threat of a hex before Sirius would mind his tongue. A satisfied smirk tugging at the corners of my lips when I heard his response} A wise decision, Sirius. Injured or not, I will have no problem waging a hex, should the need arise. {The soft smirk lingering on my lips as I gently reminded Sirius of that. Before long he dismissed himself from my hospital room, so Remus and I could spend a little time alone} Thank you for checking in, Sirius. I will make sure to send Remus back to you lot before curfew this evening. {I assured him with a soft grin before turning my attention back to Remus. My shoulders rolling into a nonchalant shrug as I heard Remus pleading with me to just focus on my own healing currently. I knew his pleas were out of love, but a broken arm, a couple of cracked ribs, and a few others bruises and cuts weren’t going to keep me down for long} I will focus on healing... I promise you that, Remus, but we both now that, even while injured, my mind never stops. {Nestling gently into his hold, while my head rested against his chest} That said, I will be mulling over ideas for a potion that we could use, and then once I am freed from this bloody hospital wing, I will do some research in the library, in order to see what I can conjure up. When it comes time to me actually putting test potions together though, I might need your steady hands... After all, something tells me this cast on my arm is going to hinder me from pouring and measuring just the right amounts, and I certainly don’t want to muck it up.

Oh, Sirius.

You should know not to poke Lily even if she is down.

Lily is still lethal when it comes to hexes.

From the looks of Sirius's expression, he knew he should have kept that statement to himself even if it was true. Lily might be only joking, but he knows deep down she could do some destruction if she wants to.

Sirius brings his hand up to his face while a smirk pulls on the corner of his lips.

"Point taken. I don't need one of your hexes to ruin my handsome face."

He chuckles while dropping his hand back to his side.

I shook my head as my eyes looked towards Lily upon hearing her response to my comment.

If anyone could make a potion to help me with my problem, Lily would be the one to create one.

She's bloody brilliant.

That's why.

As she continued, I quickly shook my head since she shouldn't be worried about me while she was healing. I've been a werewolf for this long. Another few months isn't going to hurt me.

"As much as I love the potion idea that could fix me, it can wait. I've been a werewolf for a while now, so all of that can wait. The only thing I want your beautiful mind to worry about for now is your healing. It would be best if you didn't worry about me. Okay?"