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reservoir walk

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unfolding into another spring

mahmood darwish, sylvia plath, v.e. schwab, ana mendieta

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for either way you choose you cannot win

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me opening and closing tumblr like it’s a fridge

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يا مرادي.

في ذهني سؤالٌ لا يُسأل

له جوابٌ بكل حالٍ يُهمل

يمزق بمخالبٍ حادةٍ قلباً يُحقد

لا تخافي— لن يؤذيكِ

و لن تتعرضي لأذى هذه اللسعة

فأنا بكل حبٍ لما كان حباً أحميكِ

لا مانع عندي بأن أحملَ حمل الماضي، الحاضر

و المستقبل الذي تخشينهُ

من السؤالِ الذي لا يمكن أن يُسأل

يا من كانت هي جوابي، و آفاقي، و مرادي.

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I still wake to the same heavy heart every morning.

I soothe the pain with a fairytale: you take the burden from me in my sleep. You hold my heart in your hands so I could rest. You return it to my chest as I stir to wake. You’ve even warmed it with your fingertips. They’ve imprinted into the flesh.

That’s why it feels so heavy in the morning. So tender to the touch.

Thank you for this act of love, as uncertain as it is in its finality- but I deserve gentler hands.

Happy Valentine’s Day, wherever you are. Let me carry the burden in my own chest tonight.

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Got my hands on an old camera, I feel so powerful. (featuring highlights from my bedroom :3 )

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بعد كل الي صار

فكرك شو بقيلنا؟

غير غلطة حلوة كتير كتير

شي يوم نتفاخر فيها؟

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every week someone else is new on the internet and it can be you and it could save your life and it could make you money and it could have corporations in your comments calling you cute and sexy and beautiful and isn't that lovely?

i had a nightmare of a future where at red lights and stop signs, an ad would play across the stoplight. advertisers had sold it as "encouraging drivers to pay more attention." i woke up covered in thin sweat, grateful i don't live there yet.

i am playing video games with my girlfriend, make a twitch stream. i am good at makeup, make a youtube. i am good at crafts and mildly funny. tiktok and instagram and brand deal paid partnership.

commodity! make yourself a commodity! in this economy if you land the dehumanization of advertisement that's a godsend. get that bag! chase that coin! good luck paying off your student loans! make yourself a billboard. karl marx crawling in his grave, paint yourself as capitalist hellscape. show your followers. be terribly alone. build an empire of bone.

run, rat! run! but first, check to see if your fur is sleek. for that all-natural glow, check the link in bio.

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breathing organism

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The Sopranos Season 4 | Episode 2

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Johnny Cakes, The Sopranos

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The Sopranos Season 3 | Episode 11

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