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I will blast this shit super loud before I:

a)commit suicide

b)take place in a mass shooting

c)Both.

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Wildlife documentary...

Untitled (Is "untitled" a title too? Does this make this titled? Oh well...)

*person runs away from screaming cat, jumps over like 200 books, stumbles. the scene freezes before they hit the ground** Hey, it’s me. You’re probably wondering how I got into this position. This is how a director would start a comedic movie about my life, cliché but effective. My life however is far away from some comedy movie. It isn’t a drama either, it’s far too boring for that and the fact that the protagonist is done giving fucks doesn’t help to keep it interesting. Could it maybe be a crime movie? Only if illegally downloading music keeps the audience entertained. It certainly isn’t an action movie either, I might sometimes flee from my cat and exchange slaps with my sister but that isn’t enough for my life to qualify itself as an action movie. Because of these reasons, I like to think of my life as soemthing that should just get documented as it is: Boring and in it’s nothingless sometimes interrupted by some not really mind blowing happenings. The scenery doesn’t know much variety - sometimes it’s my room, sometimes the school, and of course the way between those two place too. I sometimes imagine Morgan Freeman narrating it, it just fits the calmness. Dear future me, have fun reading that (if that’s possible) and remind yourself of who this weird 15- y/o girl was that you used to be.

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A night just like the others...

This was a night just like the others,my bladder feels full but im too lazy to get up the couch and go to the bathroom. I was supposed to go to sleep at 10 pm to get a good 8 hour sleep,even though i've read many times that teenagers need to sleep 9 hours for better development. That thought comes to mind,But flashes out as quickly as it came. And now all i can think about is how people tell me that i need healthier food and more exercize,and how i know they are right,but only for a brief moment,as my hands almost automatically choose the next video for me to watch on the youtube app of my ps3. The clock strikes 12 or 1 or 2. now that a few hours have actually happened, I cant hold the pee in anymore,so i get up and walk a meter to reach the bathroom door. I switch on the light,revealing the tiny room. I get the toilet seat up and start peeing,I think about how I could really use more friends,and how unlikely it is that i find more. I don't go to school, i am being homeschooled (only for this year) and the thought of going back to regular school is terrorizing as much as it is comforting. At last my life will have "order" Go to sleep at a cetain hour,to wake up at a certain hour,To fear and be feared by fellow students,to flirt,to chat,to get bored in class. To reject the girls that like me and be rejected by the ones i like. The perfect highschool ecosystm. Well...If not perfect,at least functional. i flush the toilet and almost rigurousley wash my hands. Many times i get the need to pee again right after i've finished and so,if needed i do it again. I go to the kitchen and half-heartedly make myself a sandwich with more ham and mayo than what its actually needed. More mayo is good, too much mayo is gross. i eat my sandwich and eat the crust half an hour later,maybe give some of it to my dog. I dont go to my room...i play the same rain "ASMR" video as always,I crawl on to the futon and fall asleep. This was a night just like the others.

-Miguel Ángel...I’m @Migpi1 on Instagram...