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Thoughts I have on "TEEN" years.

This blogpost was actually written 2 years ago, when I was 19. I find this very noble to share, :') especially to them who are still enjoying in their sweet teen years. I’m 21 this year. Yes, I’m at a point of adulting and learning how to cope with handling different responsibilities including the hardest one, my own life.It’s really another new level of challenge to learn and I was put to face different kind of situations when transiting from teen > young adulthood.To look back, I realized that teen is perhaps one of the most difficult time of our transition in life, but also the most crucial point in life where the values and principles you learned and hold will determine the pace and life for your future.Why teen? Do you not know what kind of comments would adult actually give when they look at us?

“Ah, teenagers very impulsive, rebellious.” “They only know how to play, spend money and engage in risk-taking behavior…” “Teenagers like to focus on short-term gains.” “Aiya, you all teens, don’t understand things as you all are still young…”

All these comments, please never take it literally. Sometimes, adult live so long that they’ve forgotten how they’ve gone through those days. However, understand where they come from when they say this can actually challenge and build us up. Well, I just enter my young adulthood now. I’m here trying to share my experience of being a teen and what’s the best of it before I slowly forget those good old times. Let’s rewind this back to when I was 19, that was my last “teen” years to enjoy. I don’t know what exactly to feel when I’m letting this reality to hit on me. But, I could only say that (came from experience) being a teen is the best time of my life so far. I can say it is the most crucial and significant time of a person in searching his/her own self and in produce to the future self of them. People might start to ask why and what’s the core meaning that contribute to you in this case? Well, I think one of the major reason that I truly believe-in and stuck in my head is because it’s a lie to say youth gets tired. Being a teen, it is the time where energy remains full. The only concern for a teen is just the matter of time. I bet you can strongly agree this with me. Let’s think back to our thousand tons of homework given by teacher in just a day. We struggle to complete it and hence result in procrastination. The reason was because we had no time to do the works, is it really no time or just an excuse that we try to fool ourselves and teachers? The funny this is we never say no to outings, parties, celebrations, movies, or even procrastinate in getting a meal to fill our hungry stomach. In fact, being teen, we have the best ability to absorb new things. It’s the best platform to create and shape a person’s character.  For example, we learn humility, how to communicate with others, social skills, attain new skills and many more that you could think of. In this case, we’re maturing and widening our mind-set. People ever said that the wider you see, the wider you can go. We ought to focus on the bigger picture every time we see things. Are we focusing too much on the problem we see than seeing a problem solver in any given challenges we face now? Our perception will always affect our conception. Another unseen advantage which we all agree is that being a teen has the best platform to perform. Doesn’t matter if you happen to be a shy person, or afraid of showing yourself in front of audiences. The reason behind is we’re young and that’s the greatest advantage, because we’re no limit to try almost everything. Plus, even if we give the worst result, people would still think it’s good and node their head on it because we’re fresh beginners. Imagine a 6 years-old kid play 2 chords on a guitar, comparing to a 30 yeas-old man play. We always think 6 years-old boy is incredible because of his young age, but there’s no an impressive view on a 30 years-old man. Yes, we may have struggles with insecurities, identity and our own being, but it’s a test stage to build ourselves to become “the somebody” of what we intended to be. Don’t get me wrong, it’s a matter of self-confidence not pride. We always need to break the limitation, and exceed the expectation. Once we’ve overcome it, it will be easier for us to go higher and reaching a higher level of test. Lastly, there’s a great peer pressure in this stage. As we see how people behave, how we want ourselves to excel in align with our gifts, as we build our own portfolio, we must also aware of the tendency to fall. Don’t get pressure by the things which you know is not right, or in fact, things that you don’t want to do. Bible said that bad company corrupts a good character. Choosing right people in running this race is important. Your destiny is too important to spend it with people that are not making you better. Who are you allowing to influence you? Are they inspiring you, challenging you, pushing you forward? Have someone that can challenge you and bring you to the destiny rather than someone who blocks your way and stops you from achieving a greater self. Leaning to turn this peer pressure into a healthy competition can change one’s view. Or to take this into another extend, use influence rather than pressure. Have the right influence can change the future of a person. I learnt something about leadership. It is about exerting influence on the followers not authority. With all that being mentioned, it should be enough to convince even myself to believe in teens and treasure the time as a teen.

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Legal 21, another checkpoint.

Time flies fast, I’ve turned 21 this year. I couldn’t believe that I’m now a legal adult who can choose to make decision on my own.

A very heartfelt birthday this year, ​ On 24th March, my sister and her boyfriend brought me to Genting for a day-trip. It has been about 9 years ago since the last time I stepped my feet at Genting. Well, Genting changed a lot. Of course, it became well-developed with many fancy restaurants and expanding on it’s facilities. Except for the outdoor theme park which yet to be done soon. Up there, the first attraction that managed to catch my eyes is the lighting stage. It was somewhat an art, which the lights will have a short performance alongside with shows. Another attraction is what Chinese people loved the most, CASINO. I don’t really understand as majority Chinese likes to bet, especially it’s somewhat a culture that carried along in them. Like how they will bet and play with cards during every CNY.

Another memorable thing we did was going into the indoor haunted house. HAHA! I always love the fright, scare and fun of it. However, the experience was okay only, not as much jump scares compare to Sunway Lagoon. Moreover, children below 12 years old are actually allowed to enter this haunted house. :O It was just a day time spent up there in Genting. At night, my sis and her boyfriend brought me to try “Three little pigs and big bad wolf” at Tropicana City Mall. It’s famous and popular with its pork dishes.

The next day (25th march), I happened to have a dental appointment for my root canal treatment (2nd meet up). Just when I got home, I entered into my room wanting to get my low battery phone charged, I was shocked to see my room was being decorated. I was stunned and speechless for one second, and I found out there’s live video recording there. I burst into laughter and so much joy in me (still in shocked). Few seconds after that, my course-mates all crashed into my house, and into my room. I was filled with so much joy & surprised that I was lost of words and being a bit unconscious because the moment was so surreal to me. After then, they prepared a mini-game session for me, it was a “popping balloons” game. One of my least-like game because I don’t like the bursting sound as it always scare me away. They made video recording of my funny face reactions when I popped those balloons. Finally, I got some short notes inside the balloons and actually lead to the “secret” place where they hide my gift 😊 When I opened the wardrobe, there found a ukulele box, I was surprised and shocked with the second time. I kept asking that if they really bought ukulele for me and I was concerned because of the money they had to chipped in. Truth to be told, it was a freaking UKULELE. I seriously wanted to buy an ukulele as I’m saving up money for it. Who knows this has been fulfilled by my course-mates as a birthday gift for me. Couldn’t be more blessed by them. I’m really touched to receive such a splendid gift. I went to dress up and we took many nice photos together. I felt so so happy and touched because I’ve always wanted a birthday surprise party (HAHA, sorry for still being so typical and picky). It is my 21st birthday this year too and I swear I had the most and best birthday ever. It’s more than the surprise, gift that melted my heart. It was the effort behind, it blew away my mind to know that my course-mates actually travel down all the way from Nilai, some from Puchong or Klang to Subang and made this surprise party a success. That extra miles they willingly gave really taught me to be more generous and grateful. ​ For dinner, we went “After black” at Bandar Sunway. It was a very fancy nice black in colour design café. They had great menu and it’s delicious for their main-course. I ate baked cheese rice with chicken. It did not just satisfy my mouth-cravings but also my stomach was fully filled. The café is high-selling and a lot customer, you’ll need booking of seats in advance if you’re going in a group of friends. Booking through email for big group whereas few people you can book through phone calls.

Apart from that, I actually received a lot of text, video messages from my friends. My social media inbox were flooded with wishes too. I felt so blessed and so loved by so many friends & family members. ​ I can't believe myself has turned 21. It's definitely another checkpoint in life 🏁.  I always thought once you hit 21, you are given much freedom to do whatever things you like and free to make decisions. However, when much is given, much is required too. I faced struggles, challenges and setbacks, I've made countless mistakes, regrets in life. Given up on certain things which could be a success. Of course, there's ups too !! Through these, I've learned to grow up and being a little more mature every time.

If you understand me, I would like to share with u one word : responsibility :) It's important to know how to take full responsibility for your own life in every choices you make. ​Perhaps, it's my word for 2018.

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Conquering Jericho | 2018 |

New Year, New Self; New Goals, New Post.

In a blink of an eye, a quarter of the year has passed. Sometimes, I wondered what I have achieved throughout these short three months. Is it productive and fulfilling with my time?

Every year without fail, I would have write a beginning post (blog) of the year to count God’s blessings and plan out my resolution for the year. Last year was about life in a favour lane, in align with my youth group (church) theme and vision. I really experienced a lot of His favour as last year was one of the most difficult transition in life which I had to go and bear through.

As for this year, it is about “Conquering Jericho”. There are a lot of Jericho(s) in my life which need a breakthrough. In the bible, Joshua, who is the leader of the Isrealite people was commanded by God to conquer the promised land of Canaan.

Joshua felt unqualified for the monumental task of taking over for Moses, but God promised to be with him every step of the way, just as he had been for Moses. This same God is with us today, protecting and guiding us. ​ So, allow me here now to share a little more about my own Jericho(s). It was last year approaching October, I was being asked to join the next term (2018) GC -general committees of Physio Club. After the dilemmas and thinking, I’ve decided to involve and get new experiences. More than that, I thought to myself that it’s time that I should pick up a challenge with the time being in UNI. Hence, I was appointed to become Vice Chairperson of the club and truth to be told, it hasn’t been a smooth sailing journey. The hardest part isn’t about planning and running events, but more of getting people of different values and opinions together in seeing a same vision and goal. Physio club is considered quite an active club in our Uni, INTI. We hold many events in a year, may it be big or small. Since the start of 2018 till now, we had successfully held 2 events which are gathering night – the welcoming of newbies/freshies into Physiotherapy course and another event is Sports Meet 2018. This sports meet was my project and I really learned a lot though handling it. I can say it’s one of my breakthrough for this year when it’s accomplished and definitely another milestone to be remembered.

Moving on, I have a super hectic and busy schedule/time-table for this semester, upon the whole year. It’s funny how things could escalate so much just within a year as this is just my second year of UNI. Basically, I have things/activities going on almost every day apart from classes. It is CF club 😊 Tuesday night is prayer meeting, Wednesday night we have weekly CF meeting, approaching Thursday we have cell group Bible study night. ​ The only free night is probably Monday and sometimes, we have Acts Home group meet up every fortnight. I remember I wasn’t as involve as now back then. Despite the busyness, I actually found myself to be more productive with my time and it has been uplifting for me in my whole being as I got myself rooted in God’s kingdom. The changes in priorities and neglecting my time spend with God is one of the Jericho. One of the reason how I got so involve now is also because of one good friend of mine, who is also my housemate, Rebecca 😊 She’s really a woman of faith and inspiration. She is the one who never fail to hold me accountable with and encourage me to trust God more. I’m really grateful that she’s someone whom God has provided in this season of my life.

As for Taekwondo, I had to admit that I was pretty slacked in the beginning of the year. I often felt lazy and end up being absence for weekly training. It was one of my Jericho as it seemingly not working for me and I somehow stopped practicing with passion like before. The laziness and procrastination had hindered me from getting better with skills and techniques and I wasn’t able to thrive in this passion. For this reason, I just have to push myself through those days when I don’t “feel” like going for practices and training. Through perseverance, I’m glad to say that I had taken at least the first grading test last week 😊 I must really keep it going and hopefully I can achieve/get to my targeted dream before I graduate from UNI.

God always has a way out prepared for us when it seems no way. God has more in store for us. In John 16:33 says, “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world." Jesus did not come just to take away our pain and sorrow, but He has come to give us peace and perseverance which we could endure and put our hope in Him through the help of Holy Spirit. God has placed skills, connections, talents & gifts to forge a better destiny and lasting legacy in each of us. God did not choose the qualify ones, but he qualified the one He chose. God chosen us to be His people. Despite how unqualified you felt in doing His calling and commands like Joshua did in the bible, He promised to be with us just like how He had been with Joshua, protecting and guiding them into the promised city. The first step to MORE is only to start seeing ourselves as MORE. 2018 is going to be all about reinventing myself, new beginnings, being healthy physically, mentally and especially emotionally. Joshua's strong faith in God led him to obey, no matter how illogical God's command might be. Joshua also drew from the past, remembering the impossible deeds God had accomplished through Moses. Do you trust God with your life? Have you forgotten how He brought you through past troubles? God has not changed, and He never will. He promises to be with you wherever you go. I'm asking for a better 2018, pleading God for more joy & wisdom, less tears /cries, I'm learning to focus on all the positive things in life and refuse the negativity. (Phil 4:8) As best as I can, I want to live a life with more faith, trust, more courage and audacity in conquering all my Jericho(s) this year 2018. It’s not about winning to be first, but rather about have I fought the good fight, finished the race as I kept the faith. (2 Timothy 4:7) ​ This year is about bettering myself, and my relationship with God. 2018....I’m ready

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W.O.W. (Worship Outstanding Workshop)

“We were made to worship; if we’re not worshiping God, we could be worshiping someone, something else.” – Cathy 😊

It was 19th Feb (Monday), the worship ministry of our youth group has organized a small workshop to equip new band members and reinforce some of the cultures and values that we believed in and carried.

It was indeed a meaningful and beneficial workshop which I got myself reminded of why I’m here to do what I’m for as a worshiper of God. I’m reminded of my identity as a believer, my highest calling/duty as a Christian is to just worship. Worship Almighty God the Father, Jesus the son and Holy Spirit the helper. Well, it might sound preachy/cliché. But, the truth is we’re human being. Being forgetful and ungrateful are perhaps what we often do. Pastor Craig said, “worship isn't just the songs we sing. It's about the life we live. Christianity isn't a hobby. It's not just an interest or a piece of our lives. Christ is our life and we are called to lay down our lives daily as an act of worship to Him. (Romans 12:1) In this workshop, there are 4 different sessions shared by different speaker respectively. I was privileged enough to share on a session with the word of God, a bit of my thoughts and my personal experience in this worship journey. So, I started with the matter of the heart, the heart of worship. People often said the heart of the matter is really a matter of the heart. True enough, before we can tap into the “why” and “how” part, we need to have that heart of acknowledging God is the One whom we want to give our praise and He is our priority. We learned that the book of Psalm, is all about worshiping, all about blessing God’s name and praising Him as long as we live. Through this, we looked into Luke 7:36-50, a beautiful account of an extravagant worshiper – a woman. She has an unclean background, came to Jesus and offer Him more than what she could give, and without concerning of how people would think of her. Below is a brief description of these elements, which are some of the key factor of what a true worshiper should have: H-humility. Pride is the opposite of humility, and it is the primary hindrance to worship. E-emotions. Worship often cause emotions, we are called to show it freely, passionately just like how the bible encourage us to shout in joy, make noise and dance. A-adoration. Recognizing who God is. Giving praise and adoration is also one greatest commitment as a believer which we must maintain. R-repentance. In order to Worship God, we need to admit the truth – about who God is - and about who we are. True worship requires honest repentance. Repentance means more than just turning away from our wicked sins, but to turn-to God. ​ T-thanksgiving. We need to understand that true worship come at a cost. We should always give from our hearts with thanksgiving attitude and even more than what we can offer sometimes. 

Second session was shared by @jesonhuang through video, we learned more about the practical things on how to serve better in a worship team, especially working with many different team members. We learned the minimum requirements for a band member on their respective roles and tasks. He also emphasized on the importance of knowing the songs, tips in improving your skills of your own instruments. Some practical and very technique practices that can work and start of with as a band member if we are clueless of what we should do. One important criteria is that we must develop an interest first, and turn that into a passion. I agreed that only passion can keep us there and improve. 

After lunch break, we had our third session held by Max 😊 He is another incredible worship leader/drummer in the worship team. He shared about the difference of us worshiping, not just another music gathering and playing of songs without any purpose. He reminded us as believer, when we worship, we have a focus. And that focus is God, we recognize who He is and what He has done. Worship can be done in many form, but why music? Because music is the most relatable medium to be used in worship. He also shared different types of expression of worship. He also stressed on why we worship, how worship ministry can bring people into the presence of God instead and it differ from just any other clubs outside. Let me find what you treasure the most, and I have found what you worshipped. – @maxyong .    

Lastly, we had our all times best pianist to share on her experience and some techniques on how to teach/train musicians. What is the benefit of being in such training ground? What the good of serving in ministry? Well, one great soft skill she shared about that I think we’ll never be able to learn from school but through serving is social intelligence. She said social intelligence can be learned in serving to give a maximum effectiveness. For me, the character and capability I have/can now, it’s really not of me, but because of the ministry / opportunity from people who believed, trained and raised me up. These soft skills are really important as it made me compatible when I went over for further studies. In Psalm 33:3 “Sing to him a new song; play skillfully, and shout for joy.” She shared about excellence is where skills start because excellence is the reality of heart. In another word, practice does make it better, skills do not produce anointing. However, anointing rides on the wings of skills. The more skilful you are, the easier you are to tap into the anointing. – @stephhchia .

At the end of the day, God will look at the heart behind, not the outward appearance. (1 Samuel 16:7). Our worship should be pleasing, bringing a smile to God’s face. 😊 ​ Last thought of my own: Your own time with God affect how you serve in ministry. The more time you spend to understand God, the better you are in being His worshiper.

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Life’s a climb, from the valley to the mountaintop. 

Hiking is one of my favourite sports. To be honest, I don’t really like the fact that you need to climb up. Perhaps, hiking requires quite some energy and stamina compare to a lot of other sports. It also has the risk and difficulties. But what makes me persevere and enjoy the hike is the moment when you reach the top. That sense of achievement and the feel of victory telling you that “you made it to THE TOP OF THE HILL".

For me, standing on top of the hill, it gives me a more than just an accomplish feeling.

It actually give me a relief from all the stress in life, a refresh spirit, renew revelation and a different dimension and perspective towards life.

As you climb, you always find yourself wanting to give up, wondering why you even started. It’s normal for me to bow my head, looking down at the floor as I climb. But here, I encourage you to tilt your head up, look out for the surroundings while you are climbing. You’ll see that you’re one step higher as you move forward every time.

If you’re a mountain/hill person, do join me in this discovery. 😂

Here introducing you Broga Hill & Melati Hill.

Broga Hill is located at Seminyih. It was last year, 26th May. My class decided to get up early 4AM in the morning, drove a 40 mins ride to Seminyih from Nilai. We started our climb in the dawn just to catch sunrise when we reach the top. And, we made it. It was very achieving, and the view is just breath-taking.

Broga hill is one of the toughest hill for me, though I didn’t really climb many other hills.😂 It has three peaks and each got higher as you go. The difficulty is the steepness of the hill when you climb, there’s also few part that you need to rely on the rope given to climb because there’s no steps or concrete pathway up. You really have to be careful because one incident happened was my friend’s bottle dropped during the rope climbing part, and it rolled down until my other friends down there caught it. So, it can be very dangerous if it’s not the stuff that drop, but life that slipped. (or tripped).

Next, is Melati Hill located just at Nilai. 5-10 mins walk away from INTI campus.

I went to climb this hill together with my CF last Wednesday, 31st Jan. We got up 6:30am and start our climb up. Unfortunately, weather is not that bright and beautiful, there’s no sunrise. Well, Melati is one of the easy hill to climb. The specialty of this hill that differs from other hill is that Melati hill has a few peaks. They are known as centipede hill, cobra hill, mosquito hill, rope hill and etc etc. Not only that, in order to go from one peak to another, you will find yourself not climbing up and higher. You actually need to reverse downhill and go up again. 😂

This is because the peaks are located in different sides I guess. As I encountered this, I was reminded with a life lesson that, sometimes, not everything is smooth and go forward as we planned. There always be setbacks, detour and we need to learn reverse, use another way round to reach the top. We need to experience ourselves in the valley only we can enjoy the mountaintops and not taking it for granted.

Life’s a climb, but the view is great. - Hannah Montana

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Bonjour to all foodies out there !!!

Actually, if you haven’t already know, I'm also a foodie here !!! I love to eat and explore new food, food stalls, restaurants, cafes or any dessert shops.

I'm not any picky person in food and also, I’m open to try anything (except extreme “tid-bits” like insects). I love food until an extend that I created a tagline on my own

"Food can bring people together".

Don't u agree with me? We are always drawn to meet and hang out with people who share the same interest. For example, fashion, arts, music etc.

However, food is universal, and it draws attention. Food hunting is one of the way to strengthen friendship. It is the most common interest you can find in the crowd compare to other activities. If for shopping, you might need to intentionally find a specific group of friends who share the same interest of fashion sense only best to hang out with. For me, food is heaven. It also never fails to cheer me up in times of discouragement, frustration, stress or upset. As long as there’s food, I mean good food. I’m happy and satisfy.

So, straight to the point, today we decided to skip 8am class because we had Thaipusam holiday yesterday (31 Jan) “forgive me for this bad example”. Anyways, we went outing to Connaught pasar malam (night market) as a class and stayover in one of our friend’s house at Cheras.

The next day, he brought us to this Dim Sum Restaurant to taste its delicacies. He said it was one of the best dim sum shop in Cheras. So, if you’re a dim sum lover and looking for “dim sum” hunt, please stop by and have a try on this shop.

I’m not any expert in Dim Sum, but I really enjoyed the food and it exceedingly satisfied my mouth and stomach. One of my favourite dishes is perhaps the “fried fu zhu pi with shrimp fillings”. Another favourite dim sum there is the “shrimp dumplings”.

For more info and review, please click in the link: https://foursquare.com/v/restoran-dim-sam-%E5%A5%BD%E6%83%B3%E5%90%83%E7%82%B9%E5%BF%83%E7%B2%A5%E4%B9%8B%E5%AE%B6/4ca6a5aeb0b8236a30c8a1e6

Facebook page:

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Disclaimer: Image source are taken from other websites (because I didn't get to take photos) and I've provide the hyperlink on the descriptions of each picture itself, press in to see it.

好想食点心粥之家

Restoran Dim Sum 21, Lorong Durian Taman Cheras 56100 Kuala Lumpur

Contact: 017 – 611 5205 (Siang) / 03 – 9134 8131

Operation hours: 7.00am – 5.00pm

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VLOG about Jay Chou Malaysia Concert 2018. 😊 feel free to check out and support my Youtube channel.

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A dream come true. (JAY CHOU CONCERT 2018) - the Invincible 2.

I never would have imagined myself to be in a live concert, especially a magnificent one like Jay’s Concert. You might have wonder, why Jay? How did it start and what kept that passion and enthusiasm? To be very honest, I’m not really a “die-hard” fan out there if were to compare with others. However, this is the one and only CONCERT that I would go extra miles, and pay to go despite that super-duper expensive, costly admission ticket, which I bought for RM 573.90. YES, I actually bought a seated one. Quite far behind the stage, but yet privileged enough to be in the middle of the stadium with red chairs :P. Let me unfold one truth for you. If you ever truly experience a real, live and huge concert like this, and you’re not in the VVIP section, eventually, you will tell yourself to come back again with a VVIP pass ticket. I kid you not, it’s a real addiction I’m telling you here. :’D So, back to my point. I actually start to listen Jay’s songs ever since elementary school. When his music started to be a trend and hype in the past , because my sister loves Chinese music and she would come back home with those burn CDs copies from her friends :D remember how we used to “burn” songs into CDs? When we couldn’t afford original copy, and pen-drive is still uncommon. As time flies, I approached the age of 14, I start to pick up keyboard. I learn keyboard playing from my piano master, Stephanie so that I can serve in the worship team and be part of a band. During the time of learning, I was taught that it is important to have a musical inspiration. In another word, we need to have some sort of music style that inspired us to improve in our instruments playing. In that case, Stephanie and Calvin officially introduced me Jay’s songs. From then, I was pretty inspired, amazed and influenced by his ways of playing and singing. More than the talent he has, I think I was greatly inspired by his story behind all his success now. He didn’t start out like any other famous, popular singer who did work hard and get to wherever they are today. However, he worked extra hard, sweat himself off through sleepless night just to compose songs and give it a try despite how his previous songs were all rejected to be sung in the past. During his time of adolescence, he had to go through a difficult, emotional time as his parents’ divorce. He was rejected by any other University just because of his poor academic results. To fast forward everything, he managed to pull through the hardships, circumstances and facing rejections after rejections. In return, his talents were discovered and his very first album became a hit in Taiwan with high ratings. He is then now a very famous, knowing artist, actor and music producer that earns a lot of money. He now has his own majestic world tour concert too. For this concert in Malaysia 2018, it was a full house. I’ll briefly describe what I’ve encountered here. Firstly, I really want to thank my friend, Yong Jing and her brother, Zheng Kang who have both helped me in buying the concert ticket. Then I got to stayover in their house, and three of us actually went Stadium by car. We are favoured enough to get a parking spot once we reach, without the need to wait. There are a lot of stalls selling Jay’s souvenirs along the way to Stadium. Tshirts, fan, keychains, tattoos, accessories, recycle bags, snap back and light sticks for concert. I bought a few goods and paste temporary tattoos on both of my face and hand. As soon as we got into the entrance, there got another booth set-up in selling Jay’s original souvenirs that cost up to RM 100 for a single limited edition tshirts and stuff. As this concert is greatly sponsored by Great Eastern, an insurance company. They did a lot of promotions and free gifts give-away by hosting some small game session outdoor. Also, they set up a photo booth section for people to take photos, upload onto Instagram and you’ll be able to get a copy of the pictures printed out on-the-spot. One regret is I didn’t manage to win the limited edition “mechanic” fan with LED light of “I love Jay…” written because there were too many people participating the game session. As the time hit 7pm, we start to line up and head into our seats inside. Unfortunately, the security guards assigned at the entrance were all strict that they won’t let any so-called “counterfeit” goods into the field. Not even mineral bottles. This means our RM 50++ of light sticks we bought would be a waste, yet we just found ways to sneak it in. Because of many people and weather is hot, we sweat a lot and I really dislike that sticky feeling over my body and my make-up is pretty affected. Moreover, the ground where our seats are placed was muddy and stained over my whole shoes. ☹ I learned my lesson to just wear casual next time. I feel that having a better mood, which not to be disturbed by sweat, makeups and uncomfortable outfits is way more important in such manner. The whole night was a bomb 😊 I finally got to experience his singing on live. Not only him singing, he actually credited those musicians and back-up singers behind the scenes towards his end of concert. Transition from one song to another was well-rehearsed and LED screen and those MV, dancers were really awesome. For me, the best highlight is when we come to an “interaction” time among Jay and the audiences. Audience got to select a song they wanted him to sing on-live. It was very exciting and I almost tear seeing how happy and thrilled for those fans who stand at the VVIP section. One funny moment is a fan happened to carry a cardboard (cheer board) writing 杰伦，你胖了 (direct translate: JAY, YOU SEEMS TO BE FATTER NOW). Because of this, Jay actually noticed him and chose him to interact with him and be able to duet with him for a song that the fan selected. To summarize things, I really really enjoyed this concert and I’m beyond grateful. It’s a bonus that I got to attend this in my 21 years old. It’s not the end, I told myself that I would want to go again, with a VVIP seating next time at TAIWAN. 

Also, I really hope to go alongside with Steph + Calvin 😊

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2nd Semester break (Dec-Jan)

The shortest break in a year for my course. Although it’s only a 3 weeks break, I felt like I had a good long holiday back in my hometown. Mainly because I’ve allowed God to fully use me during that available season of my life. “And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.” 2 Corinthians 9:8 First thing first, one memorable event took place during the holidays. It was Raymond and Magu’s wedding. I’m privileged enough that I got to serve and be part of this remarkable wedding (once a lifetime) of them both. This is my 3rd time which I got to be part of a band and serve in worship for the wedding ceremony. It was very challenging yet exciting to play for a wedding. Secondly, I got to do what I love doing, which is to spend quality time with people whom I loved, treasured and valued. I got to meet up with my long-lost friend (used to be best friend back then) during elementary school, Ketty. It was good to hear from her again, catch up with life and just chit chat around without any agendas. I was very encouraged talking to her as she also input and challenged me with a bigger mindset, both in terms of our own personal, social skills and also relationships wise. Not forgetting JJARSS (my high school close group of friends), we went to hang out twice because Ming Ruey was back from Melbourne and everyone was around here in KK that period. Other than that, I got to spend time with my church friends whom I have always been treasuring all along. As for my cell group, PYA did a Christmas party. We had almost 30 over people coming in spending one night together with gift exchange as our highlight of the party. It was a blast. It’s been a while since we have an actual joyous Christmas party, especially now in the age group of 18-30, perhaps energy is what we have the most for now. When we talk about year end, Christmas is always in the topic. This year Christmas is the most unique, different and special one that I’ve ever celebrated. I never fail to spend my Christmas in going to church, BCCM Likas and taking part in any activities like caroling, worship and organizing youth party. Every year in tradition, we would receive gift packs from the church during Christmas day. As for this time, church decided to not give out gift packs but we (the church) will bring our food and goods to meet the needs of some community out there. So, what we did was we went from houses to houses, knocking on their doors, wishing them Merry Christmas as we give out our little love gifts to them as a blessing! I'm really blessed to be a giver and learned that there's more joy to see others being joyful and happy. As for my family, I did not really spend enough time with my parents honestly and I actually felt bad about it. There are days I stayed home and accompanied her / talk to her, but mostly, I was caught up with things and appointments outdoor. Another time I look forward during my semester break, is that I’m able to attend leaders meeting every Tuesday under Vincent’s leadership. It’s an inspirational, uplifting place that I can be vulnerable, accountable and have my mind expand and thoughts challenged. I’m always a sucker for knowledge and facts, theory and principles or guidelines of steps on how to increase and improve in my leadership skills and also improving myself better in general. Towards the end of 2017, we had this annual thanksgiving night, which we called it the Eucharisteo Night. A night to recall back and be grateful of what we've encountered as a church, to count our blessings and look back onto the goodness and how God has faithfully brought us through that year. I got to help out in decoration team for the night and also facilitate alongside with Jordan for the event night itself. For the first time, I got myself the best dress award for 1920’s theme for that night. Partly because not much girls attendance, and they aren't well-dress up because of limited time given for them to really go and buy outfits, and dress up for the night. As for the approach of a new year – 2018. We have this annual tradition as we will stay-over and celebrate countdown in Calvin’s house. However, Calvin wasn’t around for this time round. We had to run this countdown differently and on our own. The difference for this year time is, Vincent and the leaders team, a few close ones went for a hang out. We went to play Escape room and road trip to get mcD. It was a well-spent and meaningful night together for us all and Vincent for him to escape away from his works and ministry. For the first week of 2018, as usual, our church has morning prayer starts at 5:30am for an hour. Purpose is to cultivate a morning devotion with God as the start of the day and also to uphold our lives for a better year to God in the beginning of 2018. So, that will be pretty what had happened throughout the time when I was back in KK. It’s time to go back Nilai, time for a new start as I enter into Year 2 of my UNI. "It's blessed to give than to receive" - Acts 20:35 “love the life you live and live the life you love.” - Bob Marley

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Planetshakers Conference 2018. 

One day two nights conference which took place in SPCC (sunway pyramid convention centre). It’s a movement started out by planetshakers church to reach out generations, ignite the fire and empower followers of Christ to be on fire for God and expand the Kingdom of God. The heart of them is to create an environment where people all over the world could come and have a personal encounter with God through an extravagant worship and impassioned preaching of God’s word. I just realised this is my third time joining this conference since 2016. Except I didn’t join for the whole sessions for 2017 but only night admissions. Without a doubt, I had the best experience and greatly enjoyed my time there, both personal and also in a group. We went there together in a group of 7. Ian and I, alongside with hometown church friends, Ivan, Bennet, Ryan & another two new friends, who are Joshua & Brandon. To be honest, I wasn’t as anticipate in the very beginning for this conference because I was persuaded in signing up last year September by Bennet. It was not a good attitude of mine, partly because I thought I can expect what is going to happen since I’ve already been there for two times continuously. That so-called “been there, done that…” attitude. It’s bad, I was wronged by God after coming to experience Him. However, as time gets nearer to the conference, I felt excited because all of them haven’t been to any conference and this is one of a big thing / first time for them. It stirred up my passion and enthusiasm in looking forward. Truly enough, on the first night (opening session), it was a bomb. From the setup, to the schedule and flow, everything was very superb, eye-opening and majestic. The stage was set in the middle, which made the crowd surrounding the centre. It started out with Chelsie singing then followed by the band that came into worshipping. They mainly played their new album songs. My few favourite songs are Alive again, You’re the greatest, You’ll never leave, We speak life and New levels.   Sermon was shared by Pastor Andy about LIT. He uses the example of a candle in reflection of God’s light. We’re the candle for God. How we are designed and made to ignite that light within us, burning and light up the path for our nation. Sometimes, I asked myself why would I want to light up this small little candle in me, when it seems little and nothing to others. The truth is it’s actually the main source and direction under the dark room. It may seem small and insignificant to me personally, but it’s huge help and impactful to someone who goes through the dark, or under the dark. Fun fact: Do you know that the speed of light in a vacuum is 186,282 miles per second (299,792 kilometers per second), and in theory nothing can travel faster than light. I remember the altar call greatly touched me. Pastor Andy emphasized on restoring our faith, returning that love and faith for God especially to those who had fallen out. For the second day, Pastor Neil Smith shared about the sound of God. How we are the important voice for God. Another session by Pastor Sam, she shared on a very simple yet profound message on faith as a believer. She has this anointing from God, very faith-filled and powerful every time she shared and lead us into the presence of God through worship. I remember two years ago, it was her message that I broke into tears, as she preached for deliverance in 2016. I still remembered how I was set-free from my fears, struggles and bondage of sins. As for this time round, she shared on that authenticity of how we can come before God, listening to the Word of God through the personal relationships. How our faith in believing who God is, not bound by who we are. Faith comes by hearing, and hearing the Word. Faith is a gift from God to His people who believed and trust upon Him. Ephesians 2:8-9 “For it is by grace you’ve been saved, through faith, and this is not from yourself, it is the gift of God, not by works, so no one can boast it.” During the evening, the most awaited time of all, where we all are free to choose different electives to learn and receive. I decided to go for band, worship for first session. It was very good as they run it in a Q&A setting. They attempt to answer and give their thoughts on whatever struggles and questions by the crowd. I love how they said that worship is a lifestyle. One girl asked how did you know a confirmation from God to serve when she only saw this word “Worship” during her personal moment with God. Then Joth Hunt said, worship doesn’t necessarily mean to be in the band, playing instrument. As long as the things we do, intend to dedicate for God, it’s counted as worship. For example, ushering, preaching, dancing, drawing etc. For the night session, Ps Russel titled his sermon as “The River of God”. He encouraged us to entrust ourselves, to be set free by letting go and be fully immersed ourselves into the blessings, presence of God. Just like how Peter chose to have faith, and only he can completely experience the mighty hand of Jesus anchoring him without him being drown. Just that step of faith and decision, we can experience the supernatural and extraordinary miracles in life. The river of blessings, favour, strength, power, wisdom, and many more. One verse he shared that spoke to me the most, Psalms 34:7 “delight yourselves in the Lord, and He will give you the desire of your heart.”   The sessions and contents are pretty simple, but profound. It is significant and carry weight. Sometimes I reflect on my life, things can be as simple as giving a smile to people around us, or ask them “how’s life going”. It may seem simple and mundane, but it's significant in a sense that people may be touched and turn around just by one simple question that lead them to be opened up, and experience the power of God through your simple act of love and genuine care. Through this conference, my mind is renewed, heart is refreshed, faith is reignited, and energy is revived. What a good way to kick start my year 2018. Thank you God.

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Tadom Hill (12-13 January)

After the first week of classes commenced, we had a 21st and 22nd terms GC bonding trip to Tadom Hill during the weekend. It was a great time spent there, both include the bonding time, and remarkable experience we got through the extreme activities provided there. If you’re looking for a place of retreat, looking for team building activities or just somewhere like a secluded place far away from town. I would best recommend you this place, Tadom Hill which located at Banting.

Tadom Hill Resort is a bamboo-made resort with an emerald lake and majestic limestone hills.

Talking about the emerald lake, they do provide water activities, which they call it the “Tadom splash!”. The activities are 5m diving platform, tarzan swing, bamboo water swing and etc. These activities are challenging, frightening in a sense that it dare your fears. Moreover, they do host extreme adventure activities like exhilarating flying fox, and ATV rides.

If you are doing a company trip, or hosting an event there, you’re allowed to use their KTV stage and also an outdoor big LCD screen. They have BBQ facilities, and materials like charcoal on sales if you need.

This place is like an amusement park (outdoor team building extreme activities), you can come and enjoy for a day which cost RM 20 – RM 25 (students’ price) “daily admission”, if not mistaken. But best you can check with them again. If you intend to stay overnight, they do provide many accommodation options which are as creative as they are comfortable. The options are bamboo hut, which can contain up to 12 people, best for group outings. Another option is hammock sphere, quite nicely-design/made and interesting experience. If you prefer some personal space, you can go for bamboo tents or even to the comfort of chalets.

For me, I’ve chosen bamboo hut to stay-in for one night. It’s very comfy and airy. Every single bed is covered with a mosquito net. Its cost is RM 75, including breakfast for the next morning. :) Toilets and shower rooms are clean and accessible.

I really loved the time here in Tadom hill. Its definitely a best place for retreat, or an outing place for an out-going, adventurous person like me.

Below is the Facebook link and it’s official website that provided if you want to know more about the resort: 

https://www.facebook.com/pg/tadomhill/about/?ref=page_internal

https://tadomhillresorts.com/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=01TwpGVwG8Q

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It’s merely a feeling. Nothing more.

8 months later, did I really grow out of it? I hope I did, even just a baby step, it’s a good start. In this post, I’m writing a story that happened on me. You may continue read if you’re good with the content, whereas you may stop reading it if you feel unrelatable or uncomfortable. I’m just writing my thoughts out and hope this past experienced of mine can somehow be a reminder to you if you find this relatable and convicting.   My relationship areas of my life in 2017 were pretty broken, messed up and complicated. A lot of things happened… Let’s just name this guy – aircond. To find out in the end, he’s really an aircond that treats all girls super nice. He is just another Mr. Nice Guy. It’s just his style. If not careful, there might be a misunderstanding which had brought many misconception or confuse girls’ feelings for him. I’m glad that I’m not texting him anymore. We’re now just hi-bye friend too. I’m no longer being so close with him because I did pray to God, if he’s not the one, please shut this door. Through this, I also realised that it’s merely a feeling, who doesn’t like to be taken care of? A saying goes like this, “Your feelings are real, but not necessarily true. To be real is to exist. To be true is to be accurate & honest. God is always both real and true. Our feelings are not.” I’m glad that this “fire” had come to an end and somehow became a lesson for me to learn, reflect and reminded of my own heart and focus. So, let’s throwback to the start of the story. I met this guy in a curriculum club of mine in UNI. He was someone quite charming and noticeable. I was attracted to him when I first joined that club. However, I did not pay much attention in building a friendship with him as I don’t really care last time. As time passed, when September approached. Our club hosted a trip down to somewhere off campus for few days. Hence, it was there where everything began. My friendship with him started. Our common topic of interest was video recording and editing, that’s how things got both of us clicked fast and easily together. Moreover, he is a guy who loves music too. He plays the guitar and he is one of those popular people in campus. That’s because he is very sociable and charismatic. He is a nice guy, very much care for his friends and treat everyone equal and with his best efforts. Another bonus point is that he practices taekwondo and quite incredible with his skills and level. In this friendship, we chatted quite often until a point where we chat almost every day and night. This was pretty the first sign you get from someone if he has actually put you in the “close-friend” zone. Another quite surprising thing that ever happened in this friendship was, he literally went extra miles in lending me his charger when I was far away at a somewhere else to study. He would have given me a wake-up call early in the morning, 7am just to make sure I did get up to prepare for my test that day when his class is 10am. I was pretty happy, heart-fluttered and enjoyed these kind of attentions and cares. Just when I thought everything is going on smoothly and well. There’s this young girl that happened to show up in our midst. She had a huge crush on this guy. She really like him until a point that she made a lot of hang outs, intentionally bought and brought stuff for him. I have nothing against her and totally fine with that except one thing, which she tried to get close with me just to find out what’s my friendship with him because I was quite close with him back then. I wasn’t really happy because I feel being taken for granted, especially I was being put to know what’s going on with the motives all around. Not only that, there were few things that happened which really made me uncomfortable. Anyways, to fast forward things, they did end up being together. Well, I was quite shocked at first but predictable for me. I can’t deny that I was a bit unhappy with what had happened but I have nothing against that, and to congrats them. I realised that I was not really in love, or like him. May be some feelings, but all came out of the attention and cares he gave towards me in that particular time. I just missed being taken care of and attention being given. But I know, I responded to that feelings just to temporarily fill and cover that void, missing pieces in my heart that was being hurt and left by my first love. I really miss my first love. To this extent, I’m very sure that the one I was and still in love is, my first love. Well, I’m not sure when I can only fully get over it and really move on. Some people told me I won’t have feelings for him anymore because I’m not even in contact or communicate with him anymore, at least for now. Yet, the reason I could not really let go of him because I really do love him as a person and I just had already picture him as the partner whom I would want to spend the rest of my life with. I got back my hometown, the first time seeing him ever since the breakup was in a camp. I was there to be helper in the camp, and he happened to fly back for the last two days for preaching and help-out a bit. In his message, he preached about God’s love and how we should take hold of our times being youths to serve him. One key point that he shared was “love is a choice”. To think about it, it’s very true because God decided to love us and died on that cross for us who are unworthy. And it’s our choices now whether we want to believe and follow him for our lives. Life is a matter of choices, and every choice you make makes you. -Maxwell. One heart-breaking news is that I found out that he had already move on long ago. Knowing that he likes someone else, I won’t deny it hurts and the worst nightmare had happened. But, after multiple talks with my leaders and friends, I have no control and power over it, but I’m left with a choice to let go and move on. It’s never easy, but I can do it with God and the help of time. Someone ever said that time is the only cure for memories, especially a painful one. Sometimes God remove things from our lives for our own protection. Trust in Him. Letting go our selfish desire and ourselves. God will not forsake us.

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Colossal Lockdown. 2017

Well, just some throwback to 2017 and I realized I have not blog about this event, which was one of the highlights in 2017. It is a compulsory to write about a reflection after this amazing and impactful camp. Of course, there’s miracle took place and how God has personally called me through this event which I’m excited to share to all of you. This is the second year that we did Colossal camp, 5 days 4 nights teenager’s camp at STS (Sabah Theology Seminary). It’s an outreach event cater specifically to teenagers at the age of 12-14 only. We believe in the young generation by sowing into their lives now, because they will soon become the future leaders of the world. With the good values instilled and trained under Godly behaviours, this can make a difference to the world by creating a better life for individuals and society. Initially, we thought we could run this camp at our newly build building which located at Tg.Aru. However, there’s some delay of construction and we had to use back STS for this year. So how did this time round of camp impacted me personally in finding God’s call and what miracles had I encountered? Firstly, I wasn’t planning to go back for Colossal because of great deals of assignments, works and finals in the second week after Colossal week. In addition, there’s a OSPE (test) which initially set on 4th Dec, which was the second day of Colossal camp. However, there’s a still some part of me really wanted to go back and be part of this amazing camp. When Alex texted me in asking if I will go back, I decided to just try and ask my lecturer by any chance that the test could be pre-pone or anything. He offered me no choice but only if I have the whole batch of people agreeing in changing the date. I told God, if this is His will, He will make a way. Otherwise, it will be a close-door and I’ll just have to obey what’s given. To fast forward everything, our test date is successfully changed to one week earlier and I was given the opportunity to fly back and be part of it. It was a miracle, God is the God of impossible. I mean changing a test date normally its not that hard, uneasy. But this is different because it’s a under “finals” and they hardly change the fixed schedule unless anything urgent because of the management side, in consideration of the number of students to juggle and the availability of lecturers during the exam time. I was caught in surprise when this happened. For this time round, I did not lead any groups but were given roles to facilitate, be overall girls’ leader and also game master. Indeed, these tasks have challenged and stretched me to another level of doing and serving. One highlight in camp is Hobo day. Hobo day means one whole day spent (camping) with your own group out of the campsite. For last year, each cell group went outskirt of different places like beachside, taman (playground), and etc. As for this year, we decided to go Shittim (outdoor expeditions). Cell groups get to choose their own spot which far away from one another, but all remain at the same campsite. Shittim has their own facilities, outdoor game stations which serve for team building in groups especially teens. With that, we actually improvised the original game with some rules of our own method in playing a game called - Jumanji with addition of tasks.

Shittim somehow made me reminisce back to the olden days, which was 4 years ago. Back in 2013, when our year-end camp was still called Jumbo. It was my first camp being a program director, the camp was titled as Jumbo Extreme because of the activities and camping experiences there. I really miss those days, where some valuable memories were remembered. God is funny and just unexplainable with what He can do. I remembered just before Colossal, when I haven’t known that we’re going to Shittim, I actually have that moment of missing Shittim and wanted to go for a visit at the campsite. Truly enough, it happened and I’m just out of words to know that I’m going back to that place after so many years later. Throughout the game times, there were few incidents where campers got themselves injured, and we did not have people appointed to be first-aid. I was then had to fill in the gap even though I did not really know how to first-aid. Thankfully, I got to at least helped some injured campers who had their muscles strained, thanks to the little knowledge I learned as a physio-student. Somehow, I see the call and why I am studying this course, it makes more sense now :D haha. But what’s more amazing to this was, this camper, Sharon. She came all the way from Keningau just to attend this camp and I was truly amazed with her heart and desires in knowing and learn more about God. She accidentally hurt her back while she was playing the stepping balloon game as she was being pushed and fell. The pain was quite severe as this injury was the second-time prior to her first injury on the same spot. I did not know what to do, but to calm her down and help in massage to relieve the back muscles. I was reminded then to pray for healing and speedy recovery. Immediately, she felt relief and pain was gradually reduced. She was unable to bent forward her body that day, yet, she can then bent-over the next day. It was totally a miracle. I mean have you ever sprain any of your ankle, or any muscles of your body. The recovery and regain of strength need like at least a week, or more. But her recovery is miraculously faster compare to a normal healing, and I must say it must have been God. Towards the last day, we did parents dinner at night as an end of the camp. We invited all campers’ parents to attend, in recap of what had happened for the campers. We also hope that this can be an opportunity to reach out to the parents in knowing who Christ is. I was positioned to be emcee for the night. What caught off me was I forgotten how intimidating and frightening it was to stand and speak on stage as I had to face the parents who are all seemed to carry a serious and unresponsive face expression. Still, I got to face through the challenges and encounter a breakthrough. Because of this, speaking will be one thing that I want to work on and improve. It was tiring but fulfilling camp. It has always been impactful, meaningful and memorable one. I was stretched to exercise my gift and live up to the call which God has commanded me to be in. As a matter of fact, I did enjoy what I was doing back in that camp.

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Semester 2, July 2017.

The mind is the limit. How much you envision in receiving will determine how much you can and will receive by the end of the day. ​ I’m here writing a summary of what had happened throughout in my Semester 2. Indeed, Semester 2 passed by very fast, perhaps, it was because I have desired more from God and He has answered my prayers in many ways that I could not imagine and could ever have. One of the highlights in this semester is China Study Trip :)  Yes, I made it to Harbin & ShangHai. I was so happy which I finally achieve that goal of going out, overseas for once at least every year. Hope that I can continue doing this for next year. Before the start of this semester, I didn’t plan to go when this offer was posted in our Physio updates during semester break. I didn’t even have a second thought of going because the lack of money, the require of high expenses and this study trip is cater more for TCM students than Physio-students. However, I’m thankful to Wee Lee as he was the one who persuaded me and changed my mind on this. He reminded me that this trip can enhance our knowledge as we’re being exposed to outside world, widen our view and opened our eyes on different things. Be it for culture, people, skills or knowledges. Moreover, it’s about the experience we can get during our Uni life. I was encouraged and convinced that going out for study trip should be part of what a Uni student life should have. I mean, where else could you get that best time of your life if you wouldn’t do it now? With that in mind, I’ve decided to go and bought flight ticket to secure and take this offer into action. In China, I really love the weather as it was cold and dry, unlike Malaysia, hot and humid. I like the dairy product there, especially milk and yogurt. Food is quite salty and heavy in their seasoning. I enjoyed all the sceneric spots, a lot of their buildings are quite wester-nize as they were highly influenced by Russians culture back then. The down sides are probably cultures. People can be rude there and simply spilt on the floor. Traffic is bad, perhaps worst than our own country because they did not follow the rules and simply drive their vehicles. If you can withstand your urgent of going to the toilet, please do so until you get back hotel or your own stay because public toilet outside is just unclean. One memorable thing we did was going for ski at the largest indoor ski park, inside a shopping mall. Even though it’s artificial snow and ice, at least I got to try and learn how to ski, which is part of my bucket list :) In hospital attachment, which was the main focus of this trip. I learned a lot as we were divided into small groups. I was privileged in meeting a very incredible and skilful teacher. (推拿师). What fascinated me was his skills and how he can treat up to 10 patients in just 1 hour. He is very effective and dedicated with his job. Somehow, I got the opportunity to try on his massage and skills. Truthfully, before I even tell him my problems of headache, he has already palpated my neck area and found that my cervical spine was out of position. I developed stiffness of neck, unable to rotate and muscles weakness, which might disrupt the blood flow and result in headache because of my prolong playing of phone and laptop. Hence, he helped me loosen my neck muscles and I felt so much better. He also taught me some simple techniques which are very useful in maintaining a good posture. More than my problem being discovered and fixed, I was inspired by his excellence and skills which motivate me to be an outstanding physiotherapist one day. Well, it is without a doubt that I’ve used up quite some money and high expenses for this study trip. So, where did I got the money and how it came? It was not fully cover by my mom nor sister, even though they had actually contributed me quite a lot 😊 I’m grateful for them. To this, I actually applied for some part time jobs. My first job was working as a cashier, waitress in a café off campus, corner lot. Unfortunately, there’s some unpleasant management system, especially working under that boss of mine. I was last minute informed with my work schedule and many communication problems with him. I ended up quitting that job because it also interferes with my own campus activities and studies. Next, I took up promoter jobs by searching in facebook page. Thankfully, I met a very good supervisor and he was willingly to guide me and teach me patiently in being a promoter. The brands I promoted before were belvita, and chipsmores respectively. Despite the tiredness of standing whole day, I met quite a lot of friends who work as promoters and got some experiences on this particular job. Also, it’s the best way to earn fast cash. As for my curriculum, which is taekwondo club. I have successfully promoted to green 2. Still, on my way to become a black belt holder, at least by year 2019. One breakthrough in my taekwondo training is perhaps joining sparring competition on November. Seriously, I never imagine myself in sparing. I used to watch people spar in TV. Even when I started training, I vowed to myself not to join sparring because it’s terrifying. However, I learned to face my fears as I had successfully stepped into the ring that day. Well, I did not win the match, but it was a great experience and a stretch of faith as I had a comeback during the second half-match. I actually got closer with current taekwondo friends as we were bonded when we went for Port Dickson trip during September. Cheers to more journey with them in future. Talk about Port Dickson, I always thought it was a beachside, dock until I know it’s actually a town, HAHA. Well, I’ve been there twice just in short half-year. The second time going there was with Physio club 22nd general committees. Yes, did I just mention committees. I was appointed to be Vice Chairperson for our physio club in 2018. To be honest, I never wanted to take part in GC, even if I really take part, I never aim to be in such a position. Nevertheless, I was being nominated and eyed by previous president and really grateful for such opportunity too. I was noticed not because any of my capability, simply because I carried the enthusiasm and some strong values which she saw it during my problem-solving for a conflict/tension over the softboard issue for IPC. Yet, that values and potentials I obtained, I can proudly say that I learned it from Blast & Co and was trained under church’s leadership. I can foresee the challenge and busyness for 2018, and I’m hoping to see this team in overcoming these challenges together and grow to be better GC for physio club. Semester 2 has been an eventful time for me. Apart from China, Port Dickson trip, my mother came Nilai visit me during October after I came back from China. As a family with my sister, we drove all the way down to Melaka and visited those historical buildings and tourism spot. The last time of me being at Melaka was 15 years ago? When I was 5 years old. I hardly remember the places, the food and people there. One memorable thing there was probably the Human Body Exhibition, which is an exhibition showcasing preserved human bodies dissected to display bodily systems. It was eye-opening for me as I was very interested with this exhibition. For church-wise, I finally settled down in Acts Nilai. Well, it was a journey and quite a lot happened before I’ve come into rooting myself in Acts Nilai. I was pretty distracted, slacked and hopping around churches. However, something hit me hard throughout that period and I seek God. I was reminded by God that I wouldn’t know which place suits me until I really step my foot into that place. Sometimes, it’s not so much of waiting God to speak, it’s simply an act of faith. The trust in Him that He will guide and help us once we act according to His will. I’m thankful to another great friend of mine, Robin who has also helped me through this time. He reminded me to be rooted and serve in where my base is, which is Nilai. I enjoyed my current homes (cg) and we had just launched our Sunday service at new location, Desa Melati. As for CF, I got to serve twice as keyboardist in their worship team. Really glad to play alongside with different people and also Rebecca, good friend of mine 😊. ​ Another amazing miracle I’ve encountered in this semester was the opportunity given for me to fly back KK for Colossal camp and how it involved with the change of an exam date. You can read that in another post of mine. Just right after Colossal, it was my finals (exam). It was no joke as Semester 2 is quite a difficult semester because of the course subjects are all memorizing and theory-based. Yet, I thank God and glory to Him because He has helped me in going through all the struggles, fears and hence achieve a satisfying result. It wasn’t what I expected to be, but it was good enough for the time I spent on studies, provided just few days before finals. I learned to be grateful and content. In conclusion, it has been a great journey for another half-year towards the end of 2017. God has been good and faithful to me. “Ask and it will be given, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you.” – Matt 7:7 Time flies fast, I’ve been through so many things in just one year. There’s ups and downs, good and bad, tears and joy, encouragements and disappointments. One thing I will want to carry forward is to continuously trust in God, He will slowly uncover His favour as I walk faithfully… Indeed, life in a favour lane for 2017. Life is a journey, not a destination.

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TRUST -2017.

Just before closing down 2017, welcoming 2018. I saw a post from Instagram, it said “use one word to describe 2017”. That word of mine, is TRUST. Couldn’t think of a better headline other than this. Christ is the beginning of time, will also be the end. He is the Alpha and Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End. Trust has been that one word, that revelation for me in this year, 2017. When I felt alone and helpless, I trusted God. He was there for me and gave me hope. When I was frustrated, confused and angered, I trusted God. He was there to comfort me, and give me a peace of mind. When I failed and fall apart, I trusted God. He was there to heal me and build me up again. When I disobey and fearful, I trusted God. He was there being faithful. When I was unable to understand, I trusted God. He was there to guide and grant us wisdom. When I was weak and exhausted, I trusted God. He was there to give me strength and joy. It’s hard to believe when you see nothing, and God is good and perfect in His timing. ​In life, seeing doesn’t equal to believing. A lot of times, we must believe it with faith, only we’ll see a change in a situation or setbacks. God gave this faith in us, faith comes from hearing, and hearing by the Word of God. Honestly, there’s really nothing much I want to say for this post. My intention of writing this post simply want to remind myself of the value and core belief which I’ve been carrying all these while just to survive through 2017. If you ask me one thing that I would want to bring forward to next year, 2018. I think it would be the verse from Matthew 5:16 “Let your light so shine before others, that they may see your good works and glorify your Father in heaven.” The reason that I live on earth, breathing the air and working out my life, pieces by pieces are all for God, to fulfill His call and purpose for me on earth. My being and living here is to serve Him and make His name known to the world. To end this, I couldn’t really hate 2017. It was really a difficult year. At some parts, it was totally miserable, exhausting and sad. But for the better part, I met a lot of amazing new people and got to know better the ones I already had. But most of all, 2017 has taught and pushed me to be a better me :’) Thank you God for this amazing year. It was a turning point of my life and I couldn’t describe this year with one word any better than TRUST. Trust in God. I had, can and will continue to walk this life with faith, knowing God is with me. ​ Never lose faith, God loves you too much to let you down. God never leads us where He cannot keep us. His grace is always sufficient for us in any and every circumstance of life.

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Growing Up - Part 2.

Phase III – Meeting a need in a ministry. Not long after involving in ministry (cell group), there’s another open door to worship team. It was simply a need there to fill-in because the current keyboardist will soon leave for that time. It wasn’t any my request but I simply said I would like to re-learn piano because I used to play organ when I was 7 and it’s quite fun and cool. Just like that, my keyboard master, Stephanie just got me into learning piano. No kidding that she was a driven, responsible and strict teacher. I felt super pressure to learn under her. I felt super nervous and fearful every time practice with her because of her way of teaching. She would have scolded if I didn’t practice hard enough, or there’s just a wrong chord. It’s even more than a handful that I can count for the times I’ve cried when I serve for piano on stage. You may read this one old-post of mine where I poured my heart out after a difficult night being a pianist, when I felt like giving-up, how hope has hold me on.   However, because of her excellency and strict attitude that I got to excel the most and further in the end. I’m really thankful for her and couldn’t imagine where would I be if wasn’t for her help and guidance. She is the best teacher that you could ever find, that cares and patiently teach you even though my musical knowledge was totally a zero. There are a lot of best and great pianists out there, but to me, she is the best one so far I’ve met in my life. Phase IV – Communication. I used to be a shy person, quiet follower of friends and I never know I’m a talker and noisy person until I met the right group of community who will unfold the gifts in you. Even though I like to talk, but language isn’t my forte and I’ve always and still struggling with words and communication. As I’ve mentioned a lot of times, I was brought-up in a Chinese family background and raised in a way that my mother tongue is Chinese and I speak a lot of Chinese, but it doesn’t mean my Chinese language is good academically. In fact, I got a “C” grade for my Chinese paper in SPM. ☹ such a shame for me as a Chinese who even studied at private Chinese high school. I joined English Youth Service and I really struggled in communicating. I remember how I used to ask people whether they can understand Chinese or not, or else I would have just smile and walk away from those who can’t speak Chinese because I simply don’t want to communicate. However, I was forced to learn because of my involvement in youth and soon ministry. It was by “force” at first, sooner I find it a vital language and how words and language can connect people and bring lives to others. The process of learning was difficult, perhaps I’m still learning and struggling now. I started with reading, tons of Christians and motivational books and listening to podcast. Then, I started out to blog and write essays. Moving on, I try to speak in English despite those out-of-tune or wrong pronunciations. I still remember the phrases I used a lot, “what’s means” was being laughed around. But because of the teasing, that I got to learn and remember. The most challenging time was being called to share on stage for some nights. It could be offering challenge message, being emcee for the service or sermon for some scheduled roster. All these moments I had not forget but it was what made me better and improved in communication. I’m thankful to a brother, friend and a leader whom I always look up to, who has believed in me when I hardly see anything in myself and lead me all the way to where I am now. I’m who I can be now because he has faithfully trained and raised me up. Thanks Calvin, someone who I can’t afford to lose in my life. Phase V – Relationships. Life is people. One thing that we will never run out from is dealing with people every day of our lives. It’s all about relationships. God, family, friends, teacher, community and boy-girl relationships. Perhaps one great lesson we’ll never fully finish learning or master it is handling relationship. The best we could do is to learn how to be best in any given relationships. I never really appreciate my family in the past, yet I always think that I entitled with the things and comforts which I should get from them. As I grow older and went away for further study, I realised the little things they did and missed them being around. I realised I’ve taken them for granted so much. I’ve not seen much of the world, but up till what I’ve encounter so far in this world, I realised that family is the ones who won’t leave you and stick with you no matter what happens, unconditionally. ​ Next, I want to focus a little more on boy-girl relationship. Which I’ve learned through a priceless previous relationship I had. It was 18, I got into a young teenage romantic relationship. Everything was like rainbow and unicorns in the beginning, all I thought of a relationship was like how every drama out there, lovey-dovey and live happily in the end. However, the reality is…relationship is way harder and difficult than you imagine it is. That is why God always command us to develop a good relationship within one another. Back to the story, before I could even love someone else, I realised I have not understand myself and there’s too much that I need to work within myself before I can really be in a relationship with someone. Relationship is about giving not receiving from one another. I had not learn to give but keep on receiving and expecting from him, that’s when the relationship falls apart. I also come to realise that it’s not on getting approval nor understandings, but to be embraced as a whole despite the weakness one may have. There are many other things I’ve learned which I couldn’t write all-out. One important thing about relationship is heeding advices from people above or around you. Sometimes we might don’t understand the advices, we might think they are busybody. But it is actually the wise words that could have make a difference if only we allow them to interfere. ​It is hard without a doubt. 

To understand more, you could check these old-posts of mine, specifically with details on my past relationships. ​ In conclusion, it’s been 20 years now, since the day I was born into this world. Time continues to run, things change according to current trend, people aged unknowingly. It’s important that we don’t only grow old, but we grow up together! We intend for growth, growth that makes one becoming a better version of themselves. You never stop learning when you grow old, but you grow old when you stop learning. Never stop learning, because life never stop teaching. “It takes courage to grow up and turn out to be who you really are.” – EE Cummings.

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Growing Up.

No one gets a graduation from life. Growing up in life is a difficult task, we need to choose the path that will help us grow up as we grow older. So, there are times when we make the wrong or the worst decision which we might regret in our life. However, it is also because of the mistakes that we made which we learned and grow out of it. ​ Growing up is optional. Some people can be physically grown up, but mentally immature. They aren’t growing in their mind and as a person. Whereas some young people might look fresh from the outside, but they carry a mature mindset and attitude with them because they are growing mentally as a whole. Growing up is hard work. It is intentional. Many milestones mark the way to adulthood. One must be humble, willing and have endurance throughout that process. Growing up means learning in another sense. Every phase carries different message. Everyone has a different way of encounter in different phase of their lives along the timelines of life. The values, lessons and qualities are the same and there, but we learned it differently from one another. It depends on what comes our way while living this life. But one thing will not change throughout the process of growing up, that is “changes”. Changes is the only constant. We can never run away from changes in life. What inspired me to write this blogpost was today’s sermon by Pastor Andy on “new level, new devil.”, which pretty speaks the life of my current state now. Growing up is uncomfortable because we dislike changes. Perhaps we’re creatures of comfort. But the outcome is definitely rewarding and what makes us a better person. ​ Here, I would like to share my journey of encounter in different phase, different challenge in turn of different growth in myself. Bear with me 😊 I hope it somehow blessed you. 

Phase I – breakthrough in social behavior and attitudes I’m the youngest among my siblings. Hence, I was left following my mom alone ever since I was in my elementary school back then. Both my sisters had gone overseas for their further studies, I had no one to look after me, that’s why I need to follow my mom around to her workplace after classes or hang-outs on weekdays. I like going out, except meeting with those aunties uncles. No offense, I just dislike how you need to talk to them and present a “good-child” image for the sake of family reputation, which is very true especially being brought up in a typical Chinese Asian family. I was trained to call them “aunty-uncle” and greet them nicely. I don’t understand the importance and significance until now, I find it super helpful because it actually shows respect to the elders, people gone before us and also a reflection of ourselves. You wouldn’t want any younger ones to disrespect you by ignoring, undervalue your presence and being. Phase II – a decision between great and good. The fact is, we can’t have best of both worlds. Who doesn’t like to have win-win situation in lives? We all do. However, it just doesn’t work that way. We have only two hands, it’s a limiting factor and we must be wise in what we choose. During my high school life in Kian Kok, I took part in Chinese Orchestra. It was a high commitment, excellent uniform club. It seems students who are members of such club are said to be higher social status in the school. It was a real good club, where I got to learn not only music instrument, discipline and character-building platform. I was there for a good 3 years until I got calling from God to be a committed servant in ministry for my youth group back then. As a student with many priorities for that moment, I have to choose in the things I involved in. Please don’t get me wrong, it doesn’t mean you must only choose one like me. It’s more on the commitments of both sides which is more than what I can handle. Both are high in commitment and require to be physically presence at least. If you think you can handle both, please go ahead by all means. But I’ll give a better picture, my commitment of involving in ministry here is equivalent to involve in another high commitment club in school. To be honest, I struggled for half a year and unable to make the decision. Finally, I just made the step in quitting CO club. Quitting a club like this isn’t any easy, I had to go through the stare and fierce-ness of my club teacher. My friends all unable to comprehend this decision of mine, they felt a sense of betrayer and like don’t understand why I make such choice. It was quite a difficult time in my life that I have to trust God for His better plan and it took me quite some time to realize His will in this for me. Fast forward to about a year plus, my friends all are gracious and accepting towards me. When I went back to CO room for first time after I left the club, the juniors that I used to associate with actually welcomed me with a warm-heart and I felt respected from them. God indeed was in-control and He showed me his faithfulness even I was faithless. God shuts a door, in order for you to see another door He has opened for you. A door to greatness. When I decide to commit my heart fully to this ministry He has called me, I grew a lot since then and it was one of a few turning points in my life as an individual. I learned to not settle with good when I can be great in the things I do. Good is the enemy of great. 

To be continued... ...