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ideologies are built up on fears so how is it helpful? We are blindly following a judgement that came up through a period of time that would have been right and helpful at some point in the past where people needed these judgment to survive but do we need that judgement to be passed on in the future, and not should be the evolved with time, but I guess we have forgotten this part that with the humans evolving, we desperately need evolved ideologies that is not restricted by the barrier of time but is a function of time that changes and that is also the beauty of ideologies that they are a function of time that should not be seen as a constant.

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I have always struggled with the real meaning of spirituality and philosophy, what does a philosopher even do? Is it somebody who uses the lines of logic to make sense of reality. maybe spirituality is the reflection that goes inwards and asks the question what is inside beyond your mental computer the psychological universe built by our own self. Through out the history of human progress there is so much decorative put up around the word spirituality by the truth tellers and the lie tellers that we have maybe lost the meaning and the true essence of it and that is why I or we as humans find it so difficult to answer this mere question of what does spirituality even is?

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Each and every organism in the universe looks at the world in it's own way and that's the beauty of the world that it is made up of zillions of perspectives.

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As long is there is love there is grief

Grief is a giant neon sign protruding through everything pointing everywhere broadcasting loudly love was here, and love still is.

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Ek khwaab tha jo tera naam tha,

hasil na huya par har wakt saath tha,

har raat teri baaton pe rona,

seher meh tera yaad aana aur,

shaam se phele tujhse nafrat krna,

yeh sab sach nhi,

bas khwaab tha mera.

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har ek baat pe kehte ho tum ki mere liye tum kya ho,

ab kaise btaun tumhe ki tum mere liye woh sab kuch ho jo maine manga hai

tumhare liye ab kitne aur sabdh likhun, mai likhne baithta hoon toh ab tumhare khyaal likhne nhi dete,

aanken band karlun toh sheeshe si saaf tumhari hassi dikhai deti hai, bheed meh bhi bas tumhara hi chehra dhundhta hoon,

tumhari aanken sard ki dhoop ke jaise mujhe dekhti hai,

tum nayaab itne ho ki mere sabdho ka koi wajood nhi rha,

akele kamre meh tumhe nhi tumhari hassi, tumhari baatein aur tumhari saanson ki lay ke baare meh socta hoon

mai tumhare intezaar meh tumhe shayad tumse jyaada jaan gya hoon, aur shaayd isiliye kabhi bta nhi aaye ki tum mere liye kya ho.

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i dont know how to talk to you, or to approach you, i know you dont talk much now but i just want to know you are okay. i know you told me that you are doing fine and you are okay but even after hearing it from you, i still am not convinced about that. I am not a psychatrist but i know you, i have known you for years but also i have not seen you in years but i know you i know when you are okay and when you are not. i really dont know how to ask you i really feel like you have build a wall for yourself that keeps the world away from you and no matter how hard i try the distance apart us keeps on increasing, i dont know when would be the last time i would be talking to you but the only thing i want you to know is that i am here for you talk to me whatever you have inside you that is killing the spark that you carried, just spit it out cause seeing you like this is killing me.

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I now do believe in the existence of cosmic beings

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"I stay drunk on writings so that reality cannot destroy me."

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Kehdo tumhe ab mujhe mohabbat nhi hai Kehdo tumne jo saare vaade mujhe se kahe woh sach nhi the Magar Khuda gawaah hai ki Maine tumse sirf sachi mobbat ki thi, tumne jo kuch kiya woh sach nhi hai Aur agar aaj bhi mauka mila toh sabkuch bhula ke tumhare hi paas aaunga kyunki jo maine apni zindagi tumhare saath dekhne ki kasame khai thi woh jhooti nhi thi Tum hazaar baar mera dil Todd ke jana Mai hazaaron baar apne toote dil ke tukde leke tumhare paas aaunga Tum harr baar mujhe bhula ke nayi shurubaat karna Mai harr baar apni shuruvaat tumse karunga Maine tumhe apne harr ek kwaab harr ke kwaaish meh chaha hai Bhale hi tum mujhe bhula do aur tumhe yaad bhi na aaun magar yeh bhi sach hai ki Maine tumhe apni harr ek subah meh maanga hai.

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kuch kehna tha tumse, sunoge kya? mere saath kuch durr chalogo kya ? mai jaanta hoon akelepan se tumhe bhi darr lgta hai toh thodi der aur ruko ge kya? maine mere kwaabo meh tumse bepanaah mohabbat ki hai tum asal meh karoge kya ? mai jaanta hoon tumhe ucchaiyon se darr lgta hai, mera haath pakad ke aasam ki taraf udoge kya ? mai bheed meh tumhara chehra dhundhta hoon, tum meri kamoshiyon meh saath rahoge kya?

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when you are a child you learn about relationships as a essential thing for living, a emotion we all carry for one another, anger, hatred, discomfort, love, happiness and maybe some more complicated ones. we all share these emotionally driven bonds with people we see every morning, people we just know, or even strangers, we all have that bond. the truth is you can never run away from it the more you try the more you get tangled in them maybe for your own good or for the worst.

but these relationships are the only fuel keeping us alive, enables us to move on in our life

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the winds felt familiar, it smelled like you. there wasn't much that i could do, just stood there and let it tender my heart. i dont want to forget you and be oblivious to your existence, i want every bit of my soul to remember, not you but just the thought of you.

I wished for serenity and found peace in the chaos of you I wished for stars and wished for you on every falling star I wished for a home and all I have is a barren land of your memories and after all this, I still wished for you.

but if it wasn't for you I would stopped chasing you, I would have stopped everything that reminded me of you, I would have left these lines unfinished, I would have forgotten you.

and after all this, I'll still look for you on every sunset.

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mujhe teri latt cigarette se lag gyi hai, ek ko nhi chorhunga toh maut ke pass jaunga aur ek ko chorh diya toh.

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They say if you light the forest on fire from the center you also don't survive. I accept to be lost in that smoke.

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I can't remember you, and my thoughts are now oblivious.