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“You weren’t ready to love, and I wasn’t ready to be hurt.”

— lipstaen

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Honestly,

I think about you too much. First thing in the morning, when the sun is fixated on waking me up from the dreams I have you. During the day, when I have nothing better to do, I daydream of you next to me. When I see something I think you’d like I drift off into thoughts of you. At night, when I’m winding down and wishing I was in someone’s arms… your arms.

It’s you… it’s always you.

And late at night, when I can’t sleep and the world is silent, I can’t help but wonder if you’re thinking of me too…

But only in my imaginary world is this real… you actually thinking of me… and you… together as one.

Silly me, there I go again dreaming of you…

Yours truly,

-E.S.

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Without you, everything seems harder

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Aku sekarang jarang nongkrong, pulang kerja lanjut kerja, jarang punya temen ngobrol juga selain di kantor.

Palingan nyempetin waktu buat main game sesekali sama baca komik seperti yang biasa aku lakukan.

Sabtu minggu aku kerja juga, tiap hari nyoba nyemangatin diri sendiri, walau pengen kaya orang lain punya waktu luang. Tapi aku gabisa, aku gabisa untuk bersantai aja sekarang.

Ada harapan keluarga, ada mimpi yang belum terwujud.

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Hidup alunan lambat dalam kesederhanaan, detik yang berbisik pelan, awan yang menatap pelan. Di antara kebisingan, keraguan, kebahagiaan.

Menyilaukan dan angin kencang, bergerak tanpa henti, melaju cepat. Lupa, setiap hal kecil penuh makna yang bisa di rasa.

Sejenak saja, nikmati setiap kesederhanaan, setiap kesedihan, setiap kebaikan.

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Ternyata benar, selama ini memang aku yang selalu butuh kamu. Sedangkan yang kamu butuhkan, kamu tidak menemukannya di aku.

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I never wanted to let you go.

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I miss you so bad.

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“so important to realize that some feelings you carry aren’t necessarily ones that belong to you, but feelings connected to past or younger versions of you that felt unseen, unheard or unloved. certain feelings don’t just appear from thin air, they stem from unresolved energy.”

— iambrillyant

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Middle of the crowd

Aku pikir dengan menyibukkan diri dan mencoba berbaur di dalam ramai membuat aku bisa mengalihkan pikiranku darimu. Ternyata sama saja, aku cuma jadi manusia yang hatinya sepi di antara berisiknya sunyi.

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Love is indeed too grand.

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Love is misery and also a mystery, what can be found inside someone heart is not something human can predict.

No matter how hard you try to guest what inside her heart, it just will also hurt your heart.

If you love someone, why can't you just focus on your love instead of trying so hard to get the feedback.

There's so many definition of love, but I always believe that love is just about what you can give, not ask.

Because if you don't get what you asking for that love, just be ready for heartbreak.

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“I have a million things to talk to you about. A million things we have to talk about. All I want in this world is you. I want to see you and talk. I want the two of us to begin everything from the beginning.”

— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

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I may not see you everyday, but I love you everyday.

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You are the moon, the brightest diamond I've ever seen

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