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Please let me have you back even if it’s just in my dreams.

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Serendipity;

매브하고 은진 / 05.15.2020

Serendipity;

Your spring had just began

And my summer was about to end

You bloomed along with the cool breeze

And I shined along with the blue sea

It’s 1,600 miles apart

But you and I somehow met that night

A thought crossed my mind

I wonder, is this another ill-fated life?

Weeks passed by

You started to fill my well with your flowers

In return, I filled yours with my gems

You too started to shine

And I too, started to bloom

You were just like a mirror

Stranger yet familiar

A thought crossed my mind

I wonder, is this another ill-fated life?

As I hug the starless night

With this restless body could might

Longing to be a twilight

Instead of a chaotic mind

There you came,

Wrapping me around with the sound of your voice

Turning my thoughts into a morning sea

As I drift off to sleep

I whisper, let this be serendipity.

세렌디피티, 메브

당신의 봄은 막 열리고

나의 여름은 막 닫히는 참입니다

당신은 사늘한 바람과 함께 피었고

나는 열파란 바다를 따라 빛났습니다

거즘 만 리가 떨어져 있었지만

당신과 나는, 어찌 되었든 그 밤 마주뜨렸습니다.

한 생각이 또 스치웁니다

다시, 슬픔 한 겹 더 쌓일는지 않을까

달력을 한 장 넘길 무렵,

당신은 당신의 봄꽃으로 나의 우물을 함빡 채웁니다

나는 나의 온갖 보석으로 당신의 우물을 함빡 채웁니다

당신은 나의 색으로 반짝이고

나는 당신의 색으로 꽃핍니다

나는 잊었던, 처음 거울을 본 날을 떠올립니다

그 모습은 설지만, 또한 익습니다

한 생각이 또 스치웁니다

다시, 슬픔 한 겹 더 쌓일는지 않을까

별 없는 밤하늘을 껴안고

추워 안달하는 몸이 여기 있습니다

나는 어스름한 녘을 그립니다

이 산란한 마음으로 그립니다

아, 저기 당신이 오는군요

당신의 목소리가 나를 감쌀 때

다사로운 아침 해가 이 안에 솟고

마침내 나는 안락하게 잠이 듭니다.

그리고 나는 속삭입니다.

부디, 겹겹이 쌓인 슬픔

우리, 세렌디피티가 덥혀 녹이기를.

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Recuérdame

Someone told me before that for him one of the greatest gift a human could ever receive was — a memory. The ability to remember a certain person, a thing, a taste, a smell, a dream, and a feeling.

Then it suddenly hit me.

Aren’t we doing all this effort just to be recognized? To leave a mark on earth? To be remembered? Somehow a way to know that you had been part of something. That you really existed.

For me to be forgotten was a choice and it’s inevitable.

In my early 20’s I met that “someone”. I fell in love quickly than I could ever remember that I thought it was surreal. He was different, he was something new, we had this perfect balance of similarities and differences, and I love everything about him except one thing. He chooses to forget.

One summer night he told me, that he could easily forget about things, memories, and feelings. That he had this bad attitude of completely ignoring all of his exes.

I got scared. Scared of knowing that someday I could be part of his cemetery of forgotten people. And I knew from that very moment the only thing that I wanted is to be buried in his heart instead, to be chosen to be remembered by him. I wanted to leave a good memory of us. I wanted to imbed a part of me into his life. I wanted to steal a small piece of his heart and there the memory of us will be kept.

If it happens that things end between us by the time you found this, do you still remember me my old love? Or did I dig up my own grave alone?

I’m still hoping you’ll say — “recuerdo”.

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“It is not that we have so little time but that we lose so much… The life we receive is not short but we make it so; we are not ill provided but use what we have wastefully.”

— Seneca, On the Shortness of Life

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“The will of nature may be learned from those things in which we don’t distinguish from each other. For example, when our neighbor’s boy breaks a cup, or the like, we are presently ready to say, ‘These things will happen.’ Be assured, then, that when your own cup likewise is broken, you ought to be affected just as when another’s cup was broken. Apply this in like manner to greater things.”

— Epictetus, The Enchiridion

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“Yesterday is heavy. Put it down” - an anonymous six word story

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Today, I think we educate kids to be settled in the comfortable chair. You have your job, you have your little car, you have a place to sleep, and the dreams are dead. You don’t grow on a secure path.

Francis Mallmann

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i’m scared, always scared — to be left behind again

but with you, i’m willing to take a risk — the possibility of losing you

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In order to grow and improve, you have to be there a bit at the edge of uncertainty

Francis Mallmann (Chef’s Table)

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“To laugh often and much; to win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children; to earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends; to appreciate beauty; to find the best in others; to leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition; to know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.”

— Ralph Waldo Emerson

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I don’t believe in love at first sight. Love is not found, love is built by two persons each and everyday.

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Secret

So I'm going to tell you a secret that I can't tell to anyone. A story that I can only say here.

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This

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Buy me sunflowers every time we meet up so I know it’s real..

Meggan Roxanne (via kushandwizdom)

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One last chance, and then I'll let you go

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I hate that I'm questioning what I'm feeling right now