sarastuss

[sarastuss]

sorry for the radio silence (again) i am very all over the place rn i know, i am just preparing for a move + i am stuck doing a project on my own bc two groups i tried to get into did not reply so :) i have four days try to finish this so wish me luck!!

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whaaaaat who got this footage of me looking at the dash &. seeing all my talented mutuals???? that's craaazyyyy

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☼ APPEARANCE STUDY. SARASTUS, THE NEW SUN.

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THE GOLDEN GLOW SOFTENS AGAIN, : ALONG WITH THE CURVE UPON LUSH LIPS. so readily did he offer an apology, his condolences for her state. something that was spilled with nothing but honesty, followed by a reassuring, momentarily tightened grip. something that said, ' you are not alone ' without ever using the words. A TREASURED THING, &. the simplest of touches can carry so much weight, especially when they are rarer. ❝ thank you, ❞ she voices gratitude again, instead of saying there is no need for condolences. there is a reason for that ; ❝ but it is not as bad as it could be, for upon my wakening, i got to meet you both. ❞ this is the reason. something she further confirms with the nod of her head, ❝ i consider myself lucky, this way. ❞

BUT THEN THE SUGGESTION FOLLOWS, : &. FAR BE IT FOR HER TO REFUSE THE CALL. something fitting for the one who held the seat she did. so she follows. one hand keeping the fabric at bay as she exits soon behind shawky, hand brought to rest at her side loosely, relaxed. THERE WAS NO DANGER HERE ; not yet, at least. not anything that she sensed.

&. perhaps she does not directly need it, but does not refuse a helping hand. never. she takes his hand for support with a smile &. another slight nod in gratitude, before she focuses her gaze ahead, down toward the beginning of a dark tunnel. something makes her gaze return to that serene, yet serious expression again ; almost as if contemplating what is ahead. ... but upon hearing shawky's voice, her head tilts toward him again. ❝ i'll be right by you, ❞ confirmed with lighthearted melody in angelic voice. THERE WAS THAT DETERMINATION TO HIM, willing &. ready as ever. more willing than most, to dive into unknown. he &. buzzy seemed to share that kind of trait.

SO THEY BEGIN THEIR JOURNEY, the flashlight upon shawky's grip brings light upon their path, &. yet still in this darkness, glow of her hues is slightly more prominent. sarastus keeps her head low, but captures glances at the stone walls, some faint markings there, but nothing too direct ; as if they were drawn more to carve a map of the path ahead, leading toward hope in slumber. ❝ i do not think i have yet asked, ❞ ethereal voice has an echo to it now, ❝ how long have you and buzzy known each other? ❞

she is, by far, the coolest thing buzzy and shawky have ever found... but then again, given how confused @sarastuss appears to be, maybe it's not cool after all. maybe it's sad, imagining this powerful being trapped underground, asleep, for however many years. she doesn't know how she got there. she doesn't know what put her in that hidden passageway, or how long she'd been sleeping there, abandoned. that's for buzzy and shawky to discover. that's their job.

"i'm sorry you can't remember." shawky extends a hand and gives her fingers a light squeeze of support. his gaze remains steady, hoping his encouraging expression will soothe her anxiety rather than add to it. "buzzy and i are working tirelessly to figure out what put you there and why it happened. if you'd like to come with us down to the spot where we found you?" a gesture. they can head back down into the darkness, set up lights, and start work on the room where they found sarastus. "come with me. maybe you can read the symbols on the walls and see what it says about you."

shawky exits his tent and waits for sarastus to join him before carrying on. he grabs a flashlight, waves to an assistant in the camp, then guides sarastus down into the darkness — the staircase is shallow, so he offers a hand in case she needs help climbing down. "it will take some time for us to reach your chamber, so... keep your head down. i'll lead you there." he smiles. "you're safe with me, sarastus."

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but what if you liked this &. i sent you hc asks??

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i wish i was kidding but my bus back home was late 25 minutes, &. also, the bus broke down as we stopped in another city &. i got back to my apartment hour and a half later than i was supposed to. luckily the driver was so sweet &. fun, i also felt so bad for him having to stress out on stuff like this

hello all! ☀️ ended up having problems with my laptop again as i was visiting my parents, but i have drafted replies on mobile &. i will spend sunday formatting them etc >:) hope you all have enjoyed yourselves!✨

[sarastuss]

hello all! ☀️ ended up having problems with my laptop again as i was visiting my parents, but i have drafted replies on mobile &. i will spend sunday formatting them etc >:) hope you all have enjoyed yourselves!✨

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PREDECESSOR &. SUCCESSOR.

☼ ENDLESS EDITS: SARASTUS, &. DYNAMICS. NON-MUTUALS DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS POST!

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good morning, i need to work today but look at her. thank you

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pov: your muse reached sarastus via linkpearl. what do they say?

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yes i am fine. just thinking about how after endwalker arc, sarastus recalled hades'/emet-selch's words &. thought about her promise to see all of what this star has to offer, like she has always done, before the sundering &. god i am so normal-

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[ ⛓️ ]ㅤ.ㅤwhat does guilt feel like to them ?

ᴹᴱᵀᴬ . FEELING GUILT :

guilt runs soul-deep for sarastus, i fear. i think one of sarastus' 'faults' is that she more-or-less expects perfection from herself what it comes to doing what she does, even though she would never expect that from anyone else, &. often is able to reassure people of this &. support in that right way, when people feel guilt over not being able to do something right/like they expected.

when sarastus was woken up, long after the sundering, &. she started her journey without memories of her past, i think sarastus had, though naivety is a wrong word, but she expected a lot of herself, thought that because she was able to do what others couldn't, she needed to do it right constantly. the lead up &. start to heavensward-arc &. events in that arc, are prime examples of it. when the scions got betrayed, &. were attempted to be framed for the murder of nanamo, sarastus carried guilt of the way it led to almost all of the scions being scattered, one of them lost, though hers wasn't as bad as alphinaud's, who had his vision of what the crystal braves could have been. even here, sarastus took more of a supporter role. but after haurchefant's death, that is when it hit real bad. the fact that sarastus was focused on her goal of getting to thordan &. not letting him escape, she was blinded to her surroundings for the moment, &. noticed all-too late the incoming strike, that haurchefant had, &. shielded her from, &. eventually, the one that got him killed.

i think that is the first time she felt guilt so raw it began to eat her &. who she is as a person alive. because she is supposed to be this champion, the one who beats every single threat, challenge. but she couldn't save a dear friend. a dear friend lost his life, because of her personally. ( there has been sacrifices in arcs before this, but this one was personally for her, which, makes it this hard to swallow ) &. it was the kind of guilt that almost changed her completely. but, it was his last words, his deeds &. how he viewed her, that she in the advancing arc remembered herself. from there on out, there is more events that run deep such as these, &. she feels them just in that same way; raw, deep, unrelenting. but there is the "comfort" of her having seen so much upon her adventure, that it doesn't change her as a person, but it doesn't change the way she feels it.

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🌺 send this to ten muns you think are wonderful 🌺

me? actual footage of me below after receiving this message

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new icon time, finally

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just thinking a lot about sarastus rn 😔 &. ffxi.v in general. so many thoughts

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❝ my dear friend, my successor as azem. to you, i entrust the future. it is time that you wake, for the never - ending journey calls for you. walk free, &. bear the light for others to follow, as you've ever done. title of azem shed centuries ago, now, you must become the warrior of light. ❞

an independent, mutuals-only writing blog for THE WARRIOR OF LIGHT / AZEM, named SARASTUS. based on the final fantasy xiv - game, with my own adaptations to the lore, ( the main importance sarastus' soul remained mostly unharmed during the sundering, because of hydaelyn ) written by deax, ( she / her, 25 )

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there is no actual post &. neither do i just have anything to say, i am just iconing &. i love thse screencaps