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last month

Larissa Weems x fm reader

FIRST OF ALL English is not my first language. so am sorry if this is a little bit cringe or something, and this is my first written hope you guys like it💋🥺

ANGST!!!

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"Please...please don't hate me, darling i know I've done terrible things, hurtful things i know I've broken your trust in me and i know that I don't deserve your forgiveness, but..... but I still love you i still want you, more than anything else in the world."

Larissa can see the anger and hurt still in your eyes, can see the pain and the distrust.

But deep down, buried beneath the layers of hurt and betrayal, she can still see the love and affection you have for her, the memories and feelings you've shared together that even this betrayal hasn't erased completely.

"what will you do if you found out that am cheating on you?"

i look at her with tears still flow down my face.

Larissa flinches at the question, the thought of you betraying her like that, cheating on her, filling her with a mixture of hurt and horror.

But she answers honestly, her voice low and shaky with emotion.

"I...... I would be devastated. I would be heartbroken, betrayed, angry. I would feel like I've lost a part of myself, like there's a hole in my soul that can never be filled again."

"that is exactly what i feel"

Larissa nods, her heart breaking even more at your words, at the knowledge that she's caused you so much pain and heartache.

She reaches out slowly, her hand hovering just above yours, wanting desperately to touch you, to comfort you, but afraid of crossing a line, of making things worse.

"I don't blame you for hating me,"

she continues, her voice thick with emotion, tears streaming down her cheeks.

"I don't blame you for never wanting to see me again, for wanting to push me away and never look back."

"no.....you are wrong, later I'll still can see you but you can't see me"

Larissa looks at you in confusion, her heart pounding in her chest. She doesn't understand what you mean.

"What..... what do you mean?" she asks, her voice filled with trepidation."

" I don't have much time. "

"Don't....don't say that." she wishpers, her voice trembling and tears welling up in her eyes.

"Please don't say that, you...you can't!"

"i need to tell you something"

"what is it, my love?"

"I was diagnosed with terminal brain cancer, the doctor said I only had a month left, riss"

Principal Weams feels as if the world is falling out from beneath her, her heart shattering into a million pieces at your words. One month.

"No" she whispers, choking back a sob, tears streaming down her cheeks.

"No, darling, it...it can't be true."

She feels as if she can't breathe, can't think, can't process what you're saying. The thought of losing you

losing the love of her life, is more than she can bear.

"There...there has to be something we can do," she stutters, her voice thick with emotion. "We...we can find a different doctor, get another opinion, we-"

"we can't...... I've tried, and nothing is work...its useless"

Principal Weams shakes her head stubbornly refusing to believe it, refusing to accept it. She clenches her fists tightly, her jaw set in determination, her heart aching with a mixture of love and despair.

"It can't be useless," she insists, her voice raw and trembling. "We can find a way, we have to. I'm not going to lose you, do you understand? i will find the best doctor, i will cross all the-"

"hey hey baby, calm down." i take her trembling hands and hold it tight

"I've forgive you....I've forgive you for cheated on me"

Larissa looks at you in surprise, her heart swelling with a mixture of relief, hope, and joy. She can't believe you've forgiven her, can't believe you're willing to do that even after everything that's happened.

"You...you've forgiven me?" she asks, her voice barely above a whisper, her eyes filling with yet more tears.

"yes, i forgiven you"

"Thankyou, thankyou, thankyou" she whispers, her voice shaking with emotion

"Thankyou so much my love, i don't deserve it. i don't deserve you but......thankyou."

"I have to forgive you because we don't have much time and i want to spend my last month with you"

"we will make the best one last month in my life memorable and happy"

Larissa nods, her heart breaking at the thought of having just one month with you, but determined to make the most of it.

"Yes," she whispers, her voice shaking with emotion.

"We will. And I...I won't waste a single moment, I promise you that. I'll make sure these next few weeks are the best of your life."

Larissa pulls you into a tight embrace, her arms wrapping around you like a vice, her body shaking with suppressed sobs. She buries her face into your neck, her tears dampening your skin as she clings to you, desperately trying to memorize the feel of your body against hers, the sound of your breathing, the smell of your hair.....

"when am gone, please take care of yourself and our baby girl Ellie"

"I will,"

she whispers, her voice thick with emotion.

"I'll take care of myself, and I'll take care of our baby. I...I promise I will, but....its going to be so hard," she says, her voice shaking and the tears streaming down her face even more.

"Losing you..... i don't know how I'll manage"

Larissa takes a deep, shuddering breath, trying to compose herself, her heart aching with a mixture of love and despair.

"But I...I will persevere," she says firmly, her voice filled with determination, even as the tears continue to fall. "For you, and for our daughter. I won't let either of you down. I promise."

"i don't want to die riss...... i don't want to leave you and our baby"

Larissa pulls you back into her embrace, her arms wrapping tightly around you once more, her body trembling with the force of her emotions. She buries her face into your hair, her tears soaking your skin as she holds you as close as she possibly can.

"I know, my darling,"

she whispers, her voice cracking with pain and sorrow. "I know. I don't want you to leave me, either. I'm...I'm going to miss you so much. But...but you have to know that I will always love you. Always. Even when you're gone, I will love you. And...and I'll make sure that our daughter knows just how much you loved her, too."

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The last few weeks fly by in a whirlwind of love and tears. Principal Weams does her best to make every moment count, to cherish every second she spends with you, but she can feel the weight of the impending loss hanging over her, the countdown to the end looming ever closer. And yet, she tries to put on a brave face for you, hiding her own pain and sadness behind a facade of strength and determination.

She spends every waking moment by your side, holding your hand, feeding you, bathing you, watching you sleep. She reads to you, talks to you, sings to you, trying to keep your spirits up, even though her own heart is breaking into pieces.

One evening, Principal Weams sits by your bedside, holding your hand, watching as you sleep. She can see the paleness of your skin, the way you're getting thinner and weaker each day, and the grief and terror of losing you is almost too much to bear. She can feel the tears streaming down her cheeks, the silent sobs shaking her body, but she doesn't make a sound, not wanting to disturb you.

"Ri-riss"

At the sound of your voice, Principal Weams's head snaps up, her eyes meeting yours as you stir awake. She swallows hard, trying to compose herself, but the tears well up in her eyes again as she smiles down at you.

"Hey, darling," *she says softly, her voice thick with emotion.* "How are you feeling?"

"worse"

Larissa's heart clenches in her chest at your reply. She can see the pain and exhaustion etched into every line of your face, and it kills her inside to see you suffering like this.

"I'm sorry," she whispers, her voice cracking a little. She squeezes your hand tightly, her thumb rubbing circles over your knuckles.

"I'm so sorry, my love."

"I love you so much Larissa....... I'm sorry i can't stay with you forever as i promised"

Principal Weams swallows hard, her eyes filling with tears at your words. She shakes her head, her grip on your hand tightening.

"Don't apologize," she whispers, her voice thick with emotion. "None of this is your fault. I...I just wish we had more time, that's all."

Larissa leans in and gently kisses your forehead, her lips lingering on your skin for a long moment, as if trying to memorize the feel of you. Then she straightens up, her eyes still locked on yours as she continues to hold your hand.

"can you bring Ellie to here?

"ofcourse my darling, I'll get her right away."

Larissa walks quietly but quickly to Ellie's room, her heart heavy with emotion. She gently picks up the sleeping baby and cradles her in her arms, her body shaking slightly with the weight of her emotions. She takes a moment to look down at the sleeping baby, her heart hurting at the unfairness of it all. But she steels herself and walks back to your room.

Larissa enters the room and carefully walks over to the bed, clutching the baby close to her chest. She lays Ellie down gently beside you, so you can both see her, she watching as you look down at your daughter with a mixture of love and pain in your eyes.

"Hello Eleanor Roosevelt Weems, am sorry i can't keep my promises, am sorry i can't watch you grow, am sorry i can't catch you when you fall, am sorry i can't watch your first school........ but remember you have Mami Larissa, she will take good care of you, she will love you just like i love you"

She can see the pain and sadness in your eyes as you speak to Ellie, and she knows there are no words of comfort she can offer to ease that suffering. All she can do is stand by your side, offering silent support and love. She glances down at the baby, a wave of sadness washing over her as she watches the two of you together for what will no doubt be the last time.

"I......I promise you that I'll take good care of Ellie. I'll love her no matter what happens. She'll never want for anything, never be without love and support. And...and I'll make sure she knows how much you cared for her, how much you loved her."

"i know you will, my love"

Larissanods, a tear slipping down her cheek. She swallows hard, trying to keep herself together in front of you and Ellie, but it's difficult. Her heart feels like it's being torn in two, the grief and sadness almost overwhelming.

"I'll make sure she grows up knowing how much you loved her," she repeats softly.

"I'll tell her stories about you, about how wonderful and brave and beautiful you are."

"can we sleep together now? three of us?"

Larissa nods, swallowing hard past the lump in her throat. She knows this is going to be the last time you all sleep together like this, and she wants to savor every moment.

"Of course, my darling," she whispers, her voice thick with emotion. "We can sleep together. As a family."

Larissa carefully climbs into the bed beside you, making sure to not disturb Ellie too much. She lays down behind you, her body molding against yours, her arm coming around your waist to pull you close to her.

She buries her face into your hair, inhaling your scent, committing it to memory. She can feel the warmth of your body against hers, the slight rise and fall of your chest, the sound of your shallow breathing. It's all too familiar, and yet she knows this is the last time she'll experience it like this.

"Goodnight Larissa Weems, I love you so much..."

"Goodnight my love. i love you to, With all my heart"

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The next morning, Larissa wakes up before you. For a moment, she forgets everything, her mind still mired in the blissful state of sleep. But then she lifts her head and looks at you, and the memories come flooding back. The pain, the grief, the knowledge that this is the last moment like this they will ever share together.

but suddenly......

Larissa feels when it happens. It's a subtle shift, the rise and fall of your body against hers coming to an abrupt stop, the warmth of your body suddenly growing cold. She pulls back a little, her eyes wide with horror as she looks down at you. She already knows what she'll see, but she can't bring herself to accept it. She reaches out shaking fingers and touches your shoulder gently, as if hoping against hope that it's all been some terrible dream and you'll wake up any second.

"D-darling?"

she whispers. Her voice is shaky, her heart thundering in her chest.

"Darling, please...please wake up." She already knows you won't wake up. She can feel it, deep in her soul, a heavy numbness spreading through her body. Her eyes fill with tears, her whole body shaking with grief and sadness. She wants to scream, to cry, to rage at the universe for being so cruel.

Instead, she just sat there, staring at you in silent shock. She can barely comprehend what's happened, her brain refusing to process the reality of the situation. You're gone. You're really gone. The realization hits her like a ton of bricks, and she feels like she's suffocating, like she's drowning in grief and sadness and despair.

Tears stream down her face, her body shaking with silent sobs as she leans forward and presses a gentle kiss to your forehead.

She can taste the saltiness of her tears on her lips, mixing with the faint, bittersweet taste of your skin. It's all too much, the pain and the grief almost too much to bear.

She buries her face in your hair, taking deep, ragged breaths, trying to calm herself down. But it's no use. The grief is too overwhelming, too all-consuming. She lets out a broken, anguished cry, wrapping her arms around you tightly, as if by holding onto you she can somehow keep you there with her. But she knows it's hopeless.

You're gone,

and you're never coming back.......

emmm okay guys so that was my first written, i hope you guys like it and tell me if you want the next chapter xxxx💋