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I have to make everything ok really fast

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I'm afraid I'm gonna fuck this up

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kia souls are either spies or guardians and i can’t tell which

everyone is watching me and i’m unsure to what end

every time i leave my house and return im struck with a vivid vision of arriving home to my entire family having been murdered

the more i try to make sure im not watched the more suspicious i’ll look

everyone hates me because of my mom sticking up for me (???)

everything happens in threes

if i miss an angel number it’s a Bad Omen but not as Bad an Omen as stepping on two cracks with one side of my body

^ cumulative also. luck meter go 📈📉📈📉📈📉 and if It happens on a down swing Oh No. but it hasn’t happened yet. I’ll Know when It does

people with big dogs are trying to corner me and my dog so that they can prove my dog is dangerous or so that they can kill him

when i have an interaction that doesn’t go my way sometimes instead of being angry or feeling a bpd moment coming on ill just suddenly feel this. sense of bliss and peace. everything is already determined. it is what it is

i could probably go on and this probably sounds like a very normal experience with generalized anxiety and bpd but I Feel like i’m going crazy.

i often fear i’m being slowly driven to psychosis

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everything is so heavy right now

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i often fear i’m being slowly driven to psychosis

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my granddad hasn’t been answering my words with friends requests and he’s started to get worse at typing

he’s already like. mostly deaf, and he’s been declining cognitively for a while. he’s planning a birthday celebration for may and i’m just hoping he makes it that long. he’s always been in decent health, but he’s 90 years old now. im not ready for him to die :(

i need to get some kind of recording of his voice before it’s too late

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january 12, 2022

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I keep looking for you everywhere I hope I never find you

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A piece about society asking victims why they didn’t speak up, when society itself is the reason they weren’t able to.

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reflection

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sorry bro I didn't hear your bit I got a little distracted reflecting upon my inadequacies

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i thought i saw him at the mall and now i can’t stop shaking

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ok so my sciatic pain started a little before/during? the time i met ⚡️. it got so bad i was having a lot of trouble walking and had to rest a lot of the time. i went to the doctor a couple times but nothing they offered helped and we couldn’t afford physical therapy. so it just stayed like that for months. it got worse with stress and i don’t exactly recall any specifics about the assault but i knew it kinda hurt my hip. idk. it didn’t get better until like randomly it just cleared up a bit when my mental health did? it still comes back sometimes when im really stressed or i do too much exercise but. idk. i wonder if its psychosomatic. i store a lot of trauma in my pelvis as i’ve discovered over the years trying to figure out what helps

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hm i wish my body would stop uncontrollably shaking when i think too hard about ⚡️ assaulting me

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who up experiencing emotions they can talk to no one about