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AND WITH THAT IM A GONER GOOD FUCKING BYE CRUEL WORLD

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I will never be over them smiling at each other

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Titania and the fairies A MIDSUMMER NIGHT'S DREAM 1935, dir. Max Reinhardt, William Dieterle

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Charles Baudelaire, from Modern Poets of France: An Anthology; "Ruin,"

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the 'what if you played it a little risky' post literally Changed my life but i cant fujkign find it in my blog because its. a tiktok screenshot

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Spot on 😆

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gaslighting myself into thinking im not actively having a panic attack

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when the whole house got the autism

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A school bully who keeps up with intercommunity issues so that he always uses the most non-problematic terminology to insult you with

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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it’s slut that old man out hours

OOOOOO BOY. 🧎🏻‍♀️🧎🏻‍♀️

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Going home.

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Lake Geneva, 1883, Robert (Jr.) Hudson

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the rise of skywalker is so interesting, because they made Reylo canon and yet also managed to piss Reylo fans off, they were really on a mission to give no one what they truly wanted lol. as a fan, im glad to know it was canon, if only to piss off the people that hated the ship with so much passion, because i didnt need confirmation, it was clear as day on the screen for me. but, it was a slap in the face to reylo fans and the antis in one fell swoop, its almost impressive. i just find it fascinating that the kiss scene, and the following sacrifice is at the very bottom in terms of my favorite reylo moments, i dont replay it in my head, i dont rewatch those scenes like i do with others, when the kiss should have been at the top of my shipping dreams. it was so oddly done, not only in the timing, those final scenes between them felt rushed (as did everything else in the film) and of course we barely got any time with Ben Solo, which was such a damn waste of the trilogy's best character. the very brief thought that Rey sacrificed herself was actually interesting, though id rather they both lived, it would have been the gutsier move, but of course the "villain" had to die because true redemption doesnt go unpunished, but yes, ive seen this ending countless times, but its not only frustrating, boring and predictable, it sours the end of your movie for the actual fans that had been defending and giving grace to the sequel trilogy more than most. you gave those fans something theyd wanted, proof that we didnt make it all up in our heads and the romantic subtext was real, only to immediately throw it away, robbing all of us a happy ending, as if we were children that needed appeasing so we'd rate your movie higher and shut up, but had no plans to actually do anything meaningful between the two of them, its frankly a little insulting, and comes across as hollow, rather than meaningful and passionate on their part. oh well, at least we'll always have the force-bond~

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ARTEMAS - i like the way you kiss me