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What's It Like to Feel at Peace?

Walking around with nothing to do, I stared up to the sky and imagined my life. There would be a family of four that would take care of each other no matter what happens and everything in my way are full of cherry blossoms and fallen orange leaves on the ground. That could happen right? It is possible, but in order for me to even reach that level of peace and sanity, I would have to do something positive and productive in my life. What could I do now if the times was never shown? What if I never knew what night and day was, even when it's dark or light? I could do a lot of things and only exhaust myself because I have done the things I wanted to do . Isn't that the life of everyone? Maybe not, but this is what I think of every day. Living my life to the fullest and not giving a care about anything around, just because everyone is fine and living their life too. Isn't it a waste to just stand around and do nothing? Yes, but I'm standing and thinking about a lot of things. That's one way to be productive.

I'm done looking up to the sky and asking for answers, even though I know what I should be doing by now. I might as well walk somewhere along the path that has been created for me. The road is not the long and I guess someone out there is a guide for me. Whoever it is, I hope to get myself out of this misery of depression. I shouldn't be sad, but this is me and I choose however I want to feel. If that person chooses to judge me in any way, then that's all on me to react and all on her to keep up her act.

This girl that was standing right in front of me, kept yelling out my name, “Fefe!!” And there's no surprise that I was startled by the way she called out to me. I don't know her and I'm not even as close to where she is right now.

The way that my mind told me, “You should go run now and find out what she wants,” made me hesitate for a little bit. As sketchy as this person is, I did run up to her and asked, “How do you even know my name and what do you want?”She told me to just follow her and stay quiet. As a person who thinks a lot, but seldom says anything, it was easier for me to stay quiet.

I followed her and at some point, I felt her fingers lace through the middle of my fingers. I felt confused at first, but her warm hands made my heart beat and I suddenly didn't feel hollow. Is this the way I wanted my life to be? Maybe, but this seems like a path way to heaven, for now.

As she lead me through the open road of cobblestone we stepped on and trees at our sides, we smiled as if we were childhood friends from the past. I felt at peace and I also felt calm. Nothing could go wrong at this point right? I mean, I am not sure if she's the girl of my dreams and I don't even know how old she is. But this is just the day when I don't even know what time it is or even care for any reason.

“Let's go there!” She said, as she pointed at the carnival. I told her, “Where ever you want, is where we would go together,” and that made her cry of happiness. We're just kids hanging out in our own place and time, with no one around to bother us. Even the carnival was self operated. There were no workers, just machines that gave us free money and tickets for her and me. Even though we're having fun, I was curious about what her name was. It's important to me since I want to remember her as I pass through my own life when I can't be with her at some points.

“By the way, what's your name?”I asked her as she was finishing off her ice cream dots we purchased from a vending machine. She then told me, “My name is Momo.” Another curiosity hit me again, but is it worth knowing? I'll ask anyways since I really want to know the answer. “How do you know me and why were you waiting for me at the end of the road?”Mome then said, “The blinking icon spelled out your name.” I was confused and I asked her clarify, but not with words. I made a face expression of confusion and then she giggled. Momo pointed at the top of my head and I saw my name. It was like a role playing game thing, where everyone knows your name just by looking at your status or something. I haven't been playing much games in awhile, so I forgot a lot about video games. At least I know how she knew my name now. But why I didn't I know hers?

Momo said that I looked curios about why I didn't know her name and she told me that she was part of a computer program and usually, no one gives importance of givng a personification to something that's known as an item. That seemed sad to me and I just patted her head just so she knows that she's the one that is important to me right now. She gave me her thanks and hugged me as if we were already close enough to do that. I am not much of a hugger since I'm not used to it, but I just let her carress me like no other. Her hug was tight though and I couldn't breathe as much. I guess she had a lot of pain from whatever it is she had to deal with.

Was it me who gave her a sense of unity? To be honest, I have no idea what I'm asking about, but that's the only word I could think of right now. The important thing is, she's happy right at this moment and it's possible for me to be happy too. For now, I just feel chill and calm. I don't want to leave this place and most importantly, leave her too. I do know that I have to diminish from this world. So cherishing every moment of my time with her is the most important thing that I could do right now.

I don't want to let her go and it feels like she doesn't want me to let her go either. I just want to sit her on this bench with her and just keep eating the ice cream with her as we clasp our palms together for a whole period of time. Of course, my hands and her hands would get sweaty and we would have to wipe that sweat off, but for now, who cares. It's just me and her in this world we somewhat created and imagined and she's all that matters to me.

At this moment, my eyes were getting blurry and I just kept asking her,“Hey, don't leave me please?!” she sensed that I was panicing and she tried to hold me tightly, but I couldn't feel her hands around my body. I just cried my eyes out and she did too. I didn't see her cry, but it felt like she was crying at the same time too.

I have no idea what was going on and I didn't want to let go of the thought that I would be leaving her at this moment. I couldn't hear anything, but I can just sense that someone, which was her, had these certain feelings of sadness. I know crying wouldn't help and I knew that trying to feel her warm hands again would not be possible. So all we did do is say our goodbyes, even though our voice were unheard. After that has happened, I woke up from my bed and just questioned myself, “So, this is where I have been lead to, huh?”

Yes, I was disappointed and I felt sad too. I wished that I could have cherished every moment I had with her higher than a hundred percent. “That wasn't enough!” I said in my head and I, again said it once more, “That wasn't enough!”There was no way to even go back to where I felt a sense of happiness. I guess this was one of those day where we just set it aside and just live like nothing happened.

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Perspectives from Someone's Pressure

Dream 12

I'm trying really hard to recall what my dream was last night, but I have no idea what happened.

I was going to type it down, but then I wanted to nap for a little bit until I really was awake.

Mistake has been accomplished and now I'm still trying to figure out what I was hallucinating about.

For a second, I think I got a glimpse of the images.

I still don't know what happened.

Now, I remember some parts of it.

It was my dream when I wasn't even a high school graduate yet.

So I got confused why I couldn't use and receive the items of gifts from the table.

But when I got back to that dream, I started taking the clothes, accessories, and foods that said,

"Congratulations!"

And then I realized that I was in a dream and I couldn't take the stuff with me.

This part of the event didn't happen first, though.

It actually started really weird and off.

I saw Ariana Grande with a slicing weapon and she just kept stabbing some wood.

I didn't tell her to stop, but I grabbed some art supplies and gave all of that to her.

All she did was draw with pink colors of something.

It wasn't even crayon or paint, but all I can tell you is that, when you put it on the paper, the medium starts feeling like slime.

Even though you move it with your finger, it goes back to place and never messes up the art.

I'm not sure if we have that type of material in reality, but I really want one of those.

After all that happened, few more celebrities came in and some people kept calling me up to the stage, when I repeatedly said,

"No! I'm staying right here."

I gave in and went up on stage.

We all took pictures with a bunch of people and someone told me that every someday, I will become a celebrity that everyone would want to be recognized.

I told them,

"Oh, cool..."

Another thing happened after I went through a door, I was teamed up with the same aged people with me.

I had a feeling that something scary was going to happen, but then my mindset was switched around.

Instead of being afraid of something that I have never seen, I just had fun with exploring the place before almost ending my dream with me taking a bunch of items in one room.

Someone from my group told a guy to go outside and just manage a certain place for some reason.

His name was Omar and I only knew a guy named Omar from myspace and facebook.

He was my friend since 8th grade up until I graduated from high school.

He was going to be my internet boyfriend, but we just named ourselves as noobs.

He was the first Mexican guy that I liked through two social networks.

So he did check it out while I was taking the items and afterwards, I started worrying about him.

I went outside and found him.

Not the guy I talked to in real life, but it was just a dude that was named Omar.

We hugged, kissed, and then I woke up.

I then took a nap and woke up before ten.

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Understand the Other One

Dream Week 11

Seeing things from someone else's perspective, is not that hard.

But understanding everything about them and why the person do the things he does, is difficult.

That's what I had to do while I was still asleep.

A guy that seemed to be in his thirties told me that it's a blessing to even have an opportunity to know what really is going through someone's head.

I told him that it's probably weird, but I'll try to understand why it's a great opportunity.

The guy lead me to a lab that had two pods that could fit a human body.

There was another girl that was inside one of the pods.

It seemed like she was in some deep sleep or something.

The guy told me to simply get in the pod and relax.

I gave him an expression of,

"What are you talking about?!"

In the end, I did follow his direction and tried to relax.

Afterwards, he spoke to me as I was in the pod.

He told me to just stay calm once I get to the place. I just kept asking him questions and all he told me was,

"You will know once you get there and don't worry about it, just take life as it is."

After not questioning him, since he walked away to his machines, my body felt weird.

He told me it will take just a few seconds and then I felt my body move a lot. Afterwards, my eyes were open and I was released from my pod.

So then I thought it was me, but I actually switched bodies with the girl beside me.

She woke up too and asked me what was going on.

We turned to the guy that switched our bodies and he told us that we have 30 seconds to evacuate from where he is and get as far away from him.

I was going to ask why, but it felt like something terrible was going to happen.

We held hands so we wouldn't lose each other on the way and ran as far as we could.

We had no idea where we were going or trying to go, but our guts just told us to just keep running.

Both of us heard noises behind us and out of no where, my mind was telling me to cry even though I didn't want to.

The person who switched bodies with me said that she would cry at these moments, but she didn't have that feeling with my body.

She told me that she felt strong and chill.

I told her that I feel the need to cry even though there's nothing to cry about.

As far as I know, her personality and behavior was transferred onto me and I had to handle as good as I can.

To her, it wasn't a problem at all.

But I was wondering why I was still questioning while I'm in her mindset.

All we did was run fast and talked when there were short times when we could.

We saw a shadow at some sides and got scared for a little bit and tried to get away from the shadow.

We just noticed that the guy was the one who turned into something and someone who we tried to get away from.

At that point, I just felt the need to stay calm and not give a care about him and this whole situation.

Both of us confronted the guy and told him to just stop scaring us.

He then calmed down and turned back to the guy he was before he was turned into something. Afterwards, I just woke up and questioned myself,

"What just happened?"

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The Disappearing of Control

Dream Week 10

Playing video games in my dream is one of the craziest thing that could happen.

I happened to play two games in one dream.

It confused me how I could be playing and then becoming the character I was controlling.

Every step I made was controlled by the person that had me as their character.

I hoped every time that I wouldn't get hurt or die in the game.

I couldn't turn my back to talk to the person controlling me, since it was a first person shooter type of thing.

All he saw was my hand holding a gun and whatever I saw in front of me.

I did say out loud that I felt movements in some directions and he listened to me very well.

But at one point, he decided to go his own way and not give a care about my health or anything.

Of course the player didn't want to lose in the game, but all they were thinking was,

"She could regenerate and come back up multiple times."

In my case, I had no idea if I can really come back alive again. So I told the controller,

"You know what, I'm going to do what I want to do!"

He yelled at me to not get away from him, but I did anyways.

After getting away from his sight of the screen, I hid behind a wall and looked back at him.

His face was looking down and he just kept cursing at the screen.

What I did after witnessing the controller's expressions was, I did not go back to him.

I just ran and hid every step of the way.

I shot any players that came in my way and I did whatever it took for me to stay alive.

Later on those struggling times, I saw a player that was not in any team like I was.

Her controller's screen wasn't even behind her either.

So I thought,

"Someone did the same thing as me...

but I don't know how she did it."

I wanted to yell at her so we can team up or something, but instead of doing that, I walked and hid to walls until I got close enough to talk to her.

I said,

"Aye, why don't you have any color tags on you?"

She told me that she got shot so many times by both teams that her color tag disappeared.

I was thinking it was all lies, but then again, I don't really know how this game goes, so I just listened to her with no judgement.

"So, you're in the red team, huh?"

I told her that I am and she just laughed a little.

I asked her why she laughed and she told me that it's nothing.

After getting to know her a little bit, we have set a plan to team up, without my team knowing anything.

Every time one of us were in trouble, we backed up each other while we acted oblivious.

The team work we had was not as easy, but it wasn't as difficult to know each other's signals.

Almost the end of the game, we had to say our goodbyes and we thanked each other for being chill and cool with one another.

After the game was done, I was removed from the video game and went back holding a controller.

I just stared at my screen and said,

"Well, that was a trip."

I looked all around me and stood up to get food, since I felt really hungry and thirsty too.

As I was paying for my food and drinks, I handed my money to a girl and noticed that she looked the same as the girl I was teaming up with.

The girl smiled and told me I deserve a good day after I wake up and I just thanked her.

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Silent Until Curious

Dream Week 9

Ever walked in something that you wished you were oblivious to?

I really wished that what I saw and heard in my dream was nothing but lesser than dust particles.

I saw people getting along without me and they were just in my room having conversations.

Yes, I was envying every part of what I witnessed, even though there's not reason to be jealous of anything.

I guess my heart was breaking down because in real life I do have conversations with people and exchange expressions with them, but I don't know if they're really true.

Although I did find a lot of the inside jokes funny, I was wondering why those things made me laugh.

From this day on, I still don't know why I laugh at things that a lot of people don't find funny.

Not even a slight sight of them laughing was found.

I did feel annoyed and sad, just like how I felt in this dream.

Every time I tried to talk to them, they wouldn't hear me.

I was even some inches close to them and they still couldn't hear me.

I wondered why the whole time I was there and then I left my own bedroom.

I went outside of the house and started to walk to a park that was five minutes close to where I lived before.

It was weird though, because the park was not the place I have once noticed in real life.

There were only teenagers around and no parents with their child were in there.

The park had skateboard places and some spots had sports being played, such as, tennis.

I went down there and started to see everyone just skateboarding and biking around the park. Someone walked over to me and said,

"Yo, what's up?"

I said,

"Nothing much."

That person told me to say more and I did, a little bit. I said,

"Just standing."

She then made her palm slap her face and she held my hand like she was taking me somewhere.

"Follow me and I'll show you what you can do."

I replied back,

"There's no need for me to follow you, since you are forcing me to go somewhere with you."

She led me to a place where people were skate boarding and told me to talk to them.

I told her not to force me to do things that I don't feel like doing and then she pushed me right onto a guy that don't know.

I apologized to him and he said not to worry about it.

I just said,

"Okay,"

and walked away.

The girl grabbed my arm and dragged me back to where the guy was.

Only this time, I knocked him over with my back and really apologized to him, like my whole life was going to end or something.

At that moment, I didn't try to move to another spot, since I didn't feel like getting dragged and pushed onto someone again.

Instead, I started up a conversation with the guy and then it led me into learning how to skateboard.

I felt a lot of times, but it was fun laughing and smiling with someone.

Even the girl that I sort of despised laughed and smiled, which made me like her as a friend.

When someone smiles, I just don't have a feeling of being angry at them.

Unless someone is smiling for the wrong reason, as in, smiling because someone got hurt by someone on purpose.

At some point, the two people I tried to talk to came to me and asked me what I wanted from them and I just said,

"Nothing."

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Care of the Unfamiliars

Dream Week 8

Being in a babysitting place was just confusing for me.

I either had to jump down to go to a playground or jump up to go back to where I fall asleep and get taken care of some people who were were the same age as me.

All these jumping felt real and I was really scared of dying every time I had to jump.

It's just terrifying and I hope every time I awoke from my bed dream that someone would help me go up and down from different locations.

But no, everyday I had to struggle to do everything myself.

I did have someone who was taking care of me in my own bedroom though.

She gave me food when it came to a time of five in the morning.

I have no idea why I was eating breakfast that early and why I didn't have any other meal times except that time.

Everything was just confusing to me and I didn't like it.

This is going to be weird to understand, but I wake up and then dream in my dream.

It's like inception, but not really.

Because when I dreamt in my dream, there would be another person who would wake me up from my nightmare and give me water to relax.

Everything that happened in my first hallucination felt real and it confused me if I really was awake or not.

I did ask the girls who were taking care of me if all these things were legit and they said that, "All that matters is what you think is real."

And right there, I was thinking in my dream.

All my thoughts were floating around in the room and the girls could see it.

I have no idea what were the thoughts of mine were going around, but I realized that I was really dreaming.

Although everything there was confusing, I felt content and happy that someone was just there to help me out.

I did go to other places other than the play ground and my bedroom though.

I drove a car that sped up so much that it looked like I was driving on a white sphere.

I wasn't going anywhere else, which made me even more lost.

Then I thought,

if I my mind wasn't imagining anything else, then why am I not waking up?

That's what I kept asking myself the whole time I was in the car.

I did evacuate from the vehicle at some point though.

The car was telling me that it will explode in 10 seconds.

I got out of there and ran as fast as I can and after 10 seconds, I didn't hear anything explode.

I thought I was getting played, so I ran back to where the car was.

That's when it exploded and I walked back to where I was running.

Like I said, it was like walking in a place with no path since it looked like I was running around a big sphere.

I tried waking up a lot and nothing happened.

I looked at my hands and everything visible parts of my body and I thought I would wake up if I realized that my body was existing.

There were no mirrors for me to see my own face reflection, so I never knew if I was in my dream with my own face features.

I then woke up, finally, and I just laid on my bed tensed.

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Leading to True Companions

Dream Week 7

There was this time I was in a place where it was seen as a school.

I have lived there for some time and decided to break out from it.

All I saw were bob wires at the edges of the the buildings.

I was afraid of getting out of there, but I planned and planned like I knew how to escape.

For whatever reason why I felt the need to escape the the place I was put into for just one night, my heart was beating like it were the last beats to conserve whatever it is in my chamber.

That chamber is my heart.

I call it that way because there are 4 sections of it that will only break if one side is damaged.

It has been broken so many times that I have no idea if I still have the need to protect it in the real world.

Sure, I'm breathing and my heart is still beating, but what I believe is that, I'm just existing in this world where we are forced to find and create our own home.

I also believed that the place I have come to in my dream was trying to make me think that somewhere in there, is my home.

Everything that surrounded me were school events that I have never truly placed my feelings upon on.

I guess these things tried to haunt me and it kind of did.

The people organizing these events were none other than the bullies from the past.

I tried to join them, but I was only pushed to the edge of the stage and was told not to ever ask them to join them again.

They did tell me that there were other places I could stay in and they pointed to the right side.

What I saw there were people who didn't look like them or even me.

They looked like floating ghosts that we see in movies and some looked like those disney characters that weren't accepted by anyone.

I looked back at the people that I tried joining with and gave them my middle finger.

They gave me a face expression that were supposed to scare me, but I just straight up laughed at them because they looked funny.

I eventually left without bruises on me and stood next to the ones that weren't accepted.

I talked to them and all of us were just telling each other jokes.

None of us were left behind from the group and that was cool to see.

Usually there would be someone in the group that didn't feel like they fit in, but everyone had fun and that's what mattered.

All of a sudden, the people who told me to go to the right came to our table and started to spit at one of my homies like he was nothing.

I stood up and beat the people up and told them to never mess with my crew ever again.

Although these creatures were just made up in my head, I still chose to protect them like they were part of my family.

A family that I created since I didn't feel accepted in my immediate family.

At some point, my friends and I decided to escape from the school.

Some of my friends died and I don't really know how they even died.

I stayed alive and came to a stop.

I was then shot down and I woke up.

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When Boredom Hits Wonders

Dream Week 6

When you have nothing left to do in your dream, do you wake up or just stay there until you finally wake up?

I ask that question because there was a time when I was just lost in my hallucination when everyone and everything was just standing still.

In that moment, I just walked up to a person and asked him what is he doing, just standing there. He just looked up to the sky and told me that he doesn't really know.

So I just stood right next to him and tried to look from his perspective.

All I saw were neon colored clouds drifting from side to side.

It was interesting, but I still didn't know why his attention was lead up to there.

He then told me to look closer and simple minded as I was there, I was said,

"Well, I am looking closer, but I don't see anything..."

He grabbed my hand and opened it up asa my palm was facing the other direction. I asked him,

"What are you doing?"

He just told me to wait and be silent for awhile.

I did stay silent until I felt the palm of my hand feeling weird.

It felt cold, but not as ice.

It felt like my limbs were relaxing a bit.

"Do you feel anything different?"

he asked me as he was still holding my hand directly to the sky. I

didn't answer back.

He said that something out there is willing to show me something, but only I would know.

And I was like,

"Huh? What are you talking about?"

He told me not to judge, for it will not help me out in the long run. I didn't think I was judging, but just said,

"Oh, alright."

He then placed my hands to my sides, where it was and then faced me.

All I know is that he was asking me a lot of questions and I only answered with some words that might not have answered his questions as much.

The inquiries might have been all about life.

Maybe it was something else, but noticing how he was teaching or showing me about the palm healing or something, I'm just going to assume that he was asking me about life.

One question that stood out to me though,

"What are you going to do in your life, when you wake up?"

My answer to that was,

"I have no idea..."

The guy told me that I have ideas of what I will do in my life, it's just that, I need to take action for it.

I told him that I have done things in reality that were hard to accomplish. The guy then told me,

"Then improve on it and see what you can learn from them."

I said,

"Well, alright."

After all this conversation with a guy that I don't even know, I just walked somewhere far away from him.

As I looked back to see him, he went back to looking up at the sky with awe.

From that point on, I just looked straight to my path and kept walking like everything I just noticed was a lesson.

Just noticing things closer, without actually moving there close enough for me to sense something.

That's what I have done through out the day of waking up too.

Nothing but small laughs and some smiles after that.

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Realize Something Deeper than Reality

Dream Week 5

To come to realize that only a few things are remembered after waking up from a dream and knowing that something is important from them, is really difficult to understand.

Only certain events come to mind when I feel the need to write down what happened and what I heard during my coma of hallucination.

The thing I remember is that I was taking care of people that were not the same color of me and all of us had fun every step of the way.

That may mean that I am diverse to any type of race, but then again, I have to think deeper to why that showed up in my dream.

For now, I have no realization to that statement.

Also, I have dreamt that I was going away to another place with another family that didn't have as much than what my family has.

There's not much food, but the people there share whatever they can to each other.

I found it really nice that I could see these types of things in my dreams.

But what I have not yet get to answer is why does this not happen when I come back to reality?

Only few people do share what they have to a countless amounts people, but I only see that happening to people who are poor and don't have as much.

As a middle class person, living with people who have the luxury of a lot of things, no one really wants to share as much with anyone.

Of course, they only share when they really do like you, but within a family, nothing is being recycled around.

Everyone's greedy when they think that everyone else around them has everything they need. That's my own opinion, but that is what I interpret things from my perspective.

But, then again, I would have to think much deeper, because putting things int assumption will not improve or help anyone or me at any point of time.

It will just have me circulate what I think and not give other people to give out opinions from their findings and perspectives.

We all need to know what others think about something.

That's what I believe and not like a security type of knowing other people's set of mind, I meant that we consider what other people say and see if we can come to an agreement with them.

If disagreement is shown, then we shall choose to compromise.

Peace is all we want in the world, and we don't want people fighting for what they think violently and physically.

That's already happening, but a dream is not bad to mention.

We should all speak about the truth and none of those white lies.

The truth could hurt the person hearing it, but not letting them know something means they are not worthy of what is to come.

Also, we live in a world where we consume a lot of secrets as we grow up, so it's good to exercise being honest once in a while and then not have to think to be honest, but just being truthful as an instinct.

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Occurrence of Nothingness

Dream Week 4

My dreams reoccurs over again like it is telling me about something.

I only knew that my dream last night was repeated once I got to the middle of it.

Only some people seemed familiar, but I just ignored them because their face and body features creeped me out.

They were also trying to pressure me to do something and as a stubborn person, I will only go for something if I really feel like it or just say no and walk away from the situation.

There are times when I have to stay in a spot where there are a lot of problems since I feel the need to fix them or else something will go wrong.

But that is my way of thinking, even though my beliefs should be changed into positivity of new perspectives.

Even though a lot of thinks were going on in my dream last night, I did not force myself to wake up.

My surroundings were not as bad as waking up from my dream.

I was having fun at first and I saw a lot of cute stuff in places that allowed me to buy items, if I only had the money.

There were not much in my wallet and I have lost my wallet in certain places so I just kept going through shops to look at stuff.

I did talk to some people while I was still stuck in my hallucination.

I talked to a guy that kept offering me something, but I had no idea what he was trying to offer me even though he was showing me the item on his hands.

I probably just did not know what the item was named, but it was pretty cute.

I told him that I had no money and I have no use for it.

The item was shaped like a crystal and it shined with the light on the ceiling as I saw a glimpse of imaginary ocean in it.

It seemed interesting, but like I said, I still had no idea what to use for it.

As I kept telling him no, his eyes were crying and I just told him that I had to go do something.

I went out of the shop and just kept walking to some destination that I did not know, but it felt like I was made of a gps device, so I just kept leading myself somewhere.

I am not sure if I made it to my destination, but I woke up feeling confused.

I guess, I thought the dream was real.

I felt items that had some functions and saw items that were just pretty to look at.

All I can say is, I felt a glimpse of imagined happiness last night and I hope to be there again.

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The Unknown Events of Separation

Dream Week 3

Something was calling out to me before I was going to dream.

It creeped me out a little bit, but I decided to let it go.

It's just a sound coming from my mind anyways.

It isn't like I have never heard my voice in my head before.

Like right now, I hear it while I'm typing.

It's not as bad if you think about it.

At least I know that I have a lot of ideas for other times.

It could be replayed in my dreams or before it happens.

And that's what happened that night. It told me,

"Go down the stairs and see what's going down there."

My dream didn't lead me to the staircase, but it did lead me to a really bright place.

At first, I couldn't stand it, but when I saw a rabbit or a bunny in a bucket, I suddenly felt energetic and controlled by something.

I wasn't myself, well at least I just didn't see myself doing these stuff in real life.

Of course, everyone has seen me laughing and smiling, but not this long. I

was just following everyone's rules who had some kind of authority.

Usually, I wouldn't follow anyones rules just because I didn't feel like going for it.

Stubborn as it sounds, that's what I show to the world most of the time.

I don't give a damn, even though I worry in the long run, and then not give a damn again.

In this dream, I did care about something.

The bunny that was in the bucket got me curious.

What was his purpose in a place like that?

All he did was come out of the water of a bucket.

The others were being circus entertainers.

At some point, something felt wrong.

Everything seemed really happy and I couldn't handle it.

For some reason, there was an event going on and I was the main person.

As in, a person that people are going to look at on the streets while I wave hi to people.

I got on the the car with the top window open.

The reason why that top window was open, was because I had to go through it and have myself shown to the people and creatures in the event.

After doing all the waving, the car lead in front of the darkest building in the whole place.

I opened the door and saw stairs going down.

I was curious about what is under there, but I just kind of peeked inside and then ran out.

Well, I tried to run out but these two girls came up to me and told me that was my home and I should stay.

I told them they were crazy and I tried to get out the second time.

After my failed attempts, I acted as if they were my sisters and just stayed in the building.

I tried sleeping in one of the rooms and went into inception, I think.

I was dreaming within a dream and I thought the dream I had within my dream was realistic.

To shorten that hallucination, I was living in Japan and everything was blurry in sight.

I then woke up from my dream and woke up to my first dream.

The girls were just staring at me and I didn't think it was weird at first, until they kept showing up.

That's when a lot of crazy stuff happened.

One of the girls died outside on a picket fence and the other stabbed herself to death.

I woke up after meeting this one guy that was a hostage to those two girls.

I got up from my bed looking confused and frightened until I ate food and drank water.

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Out of Sight, In the Mind

Dream Week 2

A guy was leading me into a playground that seemed familiar to me.

He was holding my hand and both of us ran to the slide.

We didn't use it to go down the spiral, but we hid under it instead.

"What are we hiding from?"

He told me to stay quiet and just look at him while he looks the other way.

I just said,

"Aight, bro."

The guy told me not to address him that word.

I asked him why not and he told me that he isn't my brother.

I didn't mean that he really is my brother, it's more of a title that I give to people.

He knows that I didn't mean it that way but he just felt weird about it.

He told me to call him by his name.

When he told me his name, all I heard were scratchy TV sounds.

And I was like,

"What?"

He told me again, but I kept hearing the same sounds. I just called him,

"Guy,"

instead of trying to know his name.

So it has been awhile since we were sitting under the slide.

Should I question him again or just keep quiet?

I asked again and he told me that he's trying to hide from something.

Why was I brought up with him?

Am I really supposed to be here?

I just stayed with him anyways.

Suddenly, we heard a noise and his eyes turned worried.

The noise got louder and he just sweated off like he was going to get kidnapped or something.

I touched his back and told him to calm down.

I have no idea what's going on, but this person should chill out.

I tried to get us out of the slide and he just kept yanking on my arm and kept telling me to sit back down or else something bad will happen.

What is going on?

What is his problem?

I know shouldn't be concerned with other people's problems, but I'm in this situation with him, so I have got to know what is going on.

All he said to me was that something bad will happen.

I told him that if he never moves from this spot, he would never know what's outside of this hide out spot and there will be no improvement.

We couldn't stay here any longer, so I grabbed his hand and told him,

"Trust me, everything will be okay."

I smiled at him and he smiled back.

We then stood up from the hide out spot and the noise was gone.

He tapped on the fake green grass a couple of times like a dog who never touched grass before.

"Come on, we got to get out of here and do something,"

I said and he replied back,

"What are we going to do?"

"You will see,"

I told him.

We then kept moving forward somewhere and now I am the one leading him somewhere.

Although, I have no idea where I'm going, it's best to just keep walking.

For all I know, there might be something out there, but we shouldn't be frightened.

I guess both of us heard the same thing, but it was just all in his head.

It wasn't telepathy that we did, but it's more like we understood each other.

We were both alike and I always chose to hide from a lot of things.

So in this dream of mine, I was just telling him that something cool may come forth to him.

I did not say us since I had to leave at some point and wake up.

There are no predictions to what happened to him, but I know that he's doing great.

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Through the Glasses

Dream Week 1

It was dark and cloudy.

I couldn't see as much in my path way, but I still kept on walking.

There was this girl who haste right towards me and handed me glasses.

I put them, regardless of knowing who she was.

When I placed it on my face, I saw a lot of beautiful things around me.

Everything was lit up and I could see the clear skies playing it's roll.

The sun was shining down on everyone and me.

I chose to accept the light and see what it could do for me.

My sight was better and I could see the things I wanted to see.

People on stage rapping, doing poetry, dancing, and doing spoken word in front of the audience.

I reached for my glasses to take them off, but the girl stopped me from doing that.

I wondered why and I tried to take them off again.

Her eyes got fiery and I was just questioning,

"Why do you feel the need to have these emotions?"

I didn't ask her that question, but she answered me anyways. She told me,

"I do not want you to see the other side of this world."

Again, I wondered why and all I thought of was,

"I can easily adapt to a world that seems unknown and unfamiliar to me."

She then warned me,

"If you take off the glasses I gave you, it will shatter into pieces, float up into the air, and never come back again."

I told her that I will be fine and she should deal with her own life and worry about herself.

The glasses she has given me, shattered into many pieces and I watched it float up into the air like it was nothing but a gift that I have broken.

The dark world has shown to me again and the girl was just standing right next to me, staring into the distance.

She told me that she fears something will happen to her and I.

I grabbed onto her hand and told her,

"We will be fine, don't worry about it."

And so we walked into the darkness.

We saw nothing but despair.

She started to cry silently and I used my other palm to pat her head.

We stopped for a moment and I told her to face me.

"Smile,"

is what I asked from her and she did a smirk.

I helped her smile by stretching out her mouth with my thumb and index finger.

I let go of her mouth and the smile I have created has been imprinted on her like her face was made to be that way.

She told me that she felt calm and better.

All of a sudden, our pathway was lightning up.

Both of us were surprised and just stood on our spot in awe.

"What's happening?"

I asked myself.

This time, she didn't answer back.

So I asked her face to face and she told me that she doesn't know.

Nonetheless, both of us felt at ease.

What shocked us the most is that the things I saw in the glasses, showed right in front of us, but better.

Everyone kept popping up like reincarnated angels.

It was like they felt content and happy at the same time.

I chose not to question and the girl I held hands with didn't question it either.

"This place, I have seen before."

The girl told me that she has never seen this place before.

I just turned and looked at her.

Her hands were disappearing, but as she was drifting off into air, she said this to me,

"Thank you."

I did not cry or mourn for her, I just smiled and looked at her face as she went on and on.

That's when I woke up and said,

"Well, someone has been released."