schara-wyrmrest

[schara-wyrmrest]

[schara-wyrmrest]

"You're no good to anyone if you aren't learning."

Yes. I know. And I have been learning. I constantly learn, try to get every bit of knowledge that I can. I feel so behind on everyone, always playing catch-up. It's always been this way, not having memories of when I was alive. At least my body seemed to remember some things that I couldn't, kept me surviving long enough to learn more. I pick things up quickly. But I am still at that disadvantage in years, and constantly running to close the gap.

I never stopped. And I never want to. I don't want people to know that I am young, because I don't want concessions. I don't have the time to take it slow. If I'm not good enough, others suffer, having to make up for it.

I never stopped, but I thought I had at least... been doing better? I thought that I was continuing to learn fast. That there was still so much to learn, but that I was at least... -mildly- competent. Not today though. I need to do better. I will pick up the pace. I -will- be able to stand with the others, and be able to match them. I will be worthy of my place.

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I thought he was different.

I know that people don’t like the undead. It’s not a surprise that people don’t like people like me. It’s just something that is. But in Intox... some of them are different. Twitch and Flaxin especially. They don’t see people for what they are, they see them for what they can do. And I felt accepted, wanted. Alwrenn helped me to not hide as much and while not everyone is super comfortable with me, I am part of the group. I keep feeling, with each new person, that they will be weird about it, but they aren’t. With these people I got... spoiled? I let my guard down. Relaxed. I thought... I thought I at least knew Jhulen a little bit... That he was one of the ones who was different too, he was so nice to me. But I don’t know him at all anymore... Who else haven’t I noticed, in my hidden comfort?

[schara-wyrmrest]

Gotta start somewhere

The narrator of Schara has been debating for far too long on how to start this Tumblr. There have been many Tumblr worthy things to post, and then there have been thoughts of doing a backlog. For the most part, this Tumblr will have some journal or stream of thought feels. Some of Schara’s reactions to things that happened in the RP, without giving too much information to those who weren’t there. There will likely not be consistency in what gets posted about. There may be backlog posts here and there, and they will be marked. Anyway, here we go.