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I have to have a psyche eval bc I switched doctors in the same practice.

And, I guess he's trying to learn me as a human before treating me.

Anyway, these appointments are so impersonal which I get but, nothing like being asked the most gut wrenching questions about the violent occurrences in your life and receiving no condolences, after care, just them typing away while you cry and having to plow through decades of trauma to get it all done in the one appointment.

He did however schedule this for 90 mins, because he read my file and obviously there is a lot to go over 😮‍💨, and then the next 4 appointments are 30 mins, so I won't have a normal in and out med check until the beginning of next year.

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Went to my psyche eval early bc it *seemed* like there was a mountain of paperwork to fill out that I was procrastinating...

It was like 5 papers and 3 were filled out.

Also, he gave me this one for OCD, which in getting real about the symptoms I've been experiencing, I very much meet the criteria for obsession........ However, I don't meet the compulsions because what's counting going to do for mold exposure 🥴 no offense, but gotta be the dumbest disorder, respectfully, as someone who is def diagnosed with *full retard disease*

🫣 anyway, I def be ruminating!!!!! Also, I noticed lately, I have two thought tracks, the one I am presently using and the one that plays like a radio in the back ground. Because how can I be an active participant in my life while also constantly thinking about the past? It's annoying.

The one question is like time occupied by obsessive thoughts, on a 0-4 scale (I appreciate 0 being none, good scale IMHO) I put 2, which says 1-3 hrs a day, because do you mean the radio frequency or focused thinking? I'm going to assume they mean how many hours of it occupying both trains of thought.

Anyway, I hope for everyone involved I don't get triggered or I'm going to be blogging like a sappy maniac

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I was typing out the Gospel just now in a comment section and I reread my synapses, and one single tear fell from my left eye because God is so good.

Amazing, I, am commanded to share it, am even considered worthy of delivering it and God trusts me to spread it where needed.

I'm an ex drug addict, cheating, lying, thief, and I'm still worthy.

It's beautiful, God is beautiful.

I need God and that is beautiful.

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When I watched the hills all those years ago, I didn't think I would see the day Spencer Pratt was the single champion left over the la fires but proud of him

Also he's interacted with my content so I also appreciate that considering the hills was one of my favs

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Well hinged woman blogging these days

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Bagged the interview, bagged it, in the bag

Too bad I really don't want to work anyway 🫨

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Oatmeal

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Straight up someone I use to work with works there. Lmao, I messaged and was like hey, I applied and saw you on the website. Trying to like feel out if they would put in a good word for me without asking 🤣 they probably won't

I was a literal demon to work with when her and I last worked together. It was also 11 years or so ago, like 😮‍💨 this job seems like it would really suit my needs

But if it's God's will, I don't get a phone call then I already know he's right

I applied for this job and I hope they call. Unless it's owned and operated by anyone I use to work with, and then I whole heartedly pray for protection.

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foxluucreations on ig

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i hate explaining shit. telepaths only

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I didn't follow the guidelines whatsoever for this dreamsnap but fuck it we ball

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look at my face, just look at it 🫨

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Why can't you get high protein yogurt with sugar instead of fake sugar? I want a yogurt to eat as a snack with enough sugar it satiates the sugar demon inside of me while also getting a lot of protein.

High protein always comes with fake sugar and I don't really vibe with that

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Denied for a sweet treat, poisoning his food tomorrow 🤭