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Our Japanese class found it funny that in common terminology "food" isn't very distinguished from specifically "rice" until it was pointed out to us that in English "meal" is "loose roughly ground grain"

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why should we respond to violence with non-violence. they will attack and kill us no matter how we fight so we may as well go all out.

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Happy pride month to the tiny cowboy and tiny Trojan man from Night at the Museum

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UPDATE!

Chapter 13

Prologue

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the first sound of the future

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projecting my trauma onto fictional characters /j

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heard shuffling noises at 1 AM. turned on my camera. saw this. still not convinced this is a dog

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Not what he's called

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Update coming soon!

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Traumaholder culture is this image:

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Dhmis girls?,,, anyone???,,,, sigh 😞😞😞😞

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Psychotic People are Harassed and Bullied for Their Disability.

Most normal people aren’t even aware that this is a thing. There was a bad instance of it at one of my jobs. I had a delusion that my coworkers thought was comical. So much so that they felt the need to coerce me into talking about it in front of other coworkers (I didn’t have any reason to bring it up without being led in that direction). A select few decided to make a game out of how many times they could coerce me into bringing it up in a day. It reached a point where it was literally all I talked about. It wound me up in the hospital.

You may have heard of this game called “wake up”. It’s when assholes work as a team to spontaneously say “wake up!” to you throughout the day in an attempt to make you believe you’re in some sort of coma. A good friend of mine with schizophrenia was driven into an episode over “wake up”. If any schizos reading this ever hears people say “wake up” to you, ignore it and never talk to who said it to you.

Similarly, there’s this thing people do online and irl where they pretend to be a person trying to reach you while you are in a coma kind of like the movie Total Recall. This too has hospitalized schizophrenic people.

Everyone knows “I’m in your walls” by now or should. It gets people banned from mental health forums, but society won’t look down on people for doing it that way they would if another marginalized group was targeted.

Shit happens at the very facilities psychotic people go to be treated. One tech lady, upon being asked not to touch me, would reach out and touch me each time she said, " I'm not going to touch you". She wasn't checking vitals or anything. Just a sadistic head game she wanted to play.

All of this is so frequent that I could write about it every day and never run out of material. Any other psychotic person could as well. I know because when I share a story with my crazy friends, they always have a similar one. Awareness should be raised about how commonplace and damaging all of this bull shit is.

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"omg this (benign thing that has nothing to do with mental health or neurodivergence) is making me feel soooo schizo!!!!"

we can hear you, you know.

can we stop with this new wave of ableism thanks to tiktok speech. we can literally fucking hear you. and whatever you're talking about is nothing even remotely close to the schizophrenic experience. this is just the "omg i'm sooooo OCD!!!!!" shit all over again. stop it. you can't just keep replacing one name of a legitimate mental health condition with another and act like this is okay. this is abelist as fuck and it's not cute or funny.

i know people don't know this because they think all schizophrenic people are completely disconnected from reality 24/7, but we're not. psychosis comes in episodes- yes, even for schizophrenics. we are generally not psychotic 100% of the time, and even if we are, we can still hear you talking to us. many of us are medicated. even when we're not, we're actually lucid much of the time, and MANY of us are capable of double bookkeeping, which is when you are aware you're experiencing a delusion or hallucination but you also can't stop it. i can be in the real world and psychotic at the same time. and yes, i can fucking hear you. and no, i don't think you're fucking funny, cute, or clever. you're being an asshole. stop it.

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I can't believe this is even a debate but even if someone's disability is genuinely fully caused by their own actions they still deserve accommodation and community

Yes this applies to substance use yes this applies to reckless behaviour yes it applies to purposefully injuring yourself.

If someone disables or injures themselves on purpose to such a large degree then they need aid regardless of how you feel about their actions