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Everybody was born with some different thing at the core of their existence. And mine now happens to be you, as a core that runs inside of my soul. I can see the divine in you, truly the gift where I know I am to be. In this short life, sometimes I can feel that it might end in an hour, everything is so unpredictable. No matter how uncertain things could be, no matter how many times I am losing hope. You are the guidance, my compass of light. You. Your existence alone, reminds me I have the capability lies within my power. It's easier because of your warmth, it's bearable because I am yours. You are worth finding more than my life.

My heart aches when your does the same. I have no idea how hard it is going, and truly, I hate it when suffering comes to you. They can have me instead.

You're beautiful like a new day, you're beautiful as the shores and water lilies, like Monet drawings. You're my center of gravity, my balance on everything. You can mark my bed when you're sick, tangled all the sheets while you turn all around in your sleep. You can annoy me, make me your punching bag, as long as my pair of arms is the one that you turn into for a good sleep.

I love you in a way that is so strong, even these words couldn't hold enough force of fondness I have for you.

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50 things that I adore about Cimit

1. His smile

2. He is very thoughtful

3. "No self-diagnosis." I adore this, I don't know why.

4. Smart one, but keeps bringing himself down (I am mad).

5. Hard worker

6. His presence alone brings me comfort

7. A cat (secretly)

8. Tsundere (I find that adorable as hell)

9. The fact that he loved to be called babydoll and kitten

10. Kadang tengil

11. His love for food

12. He has a lot of plushies

13. Good listener

14. Very bright and talkative (I love hearing his blabbers)

15. Wibu.. Hehe

16. His music taste

17. His loves for Niki too

18. He gets along with children (lucu banget guru sekolah minggu sama anak anak TK)

19. Kalau salting suka ngatain aku jelek

20. Very kind and open

21. Very active in events and similar things

22. The way he has to make little scheme for studying

23. Has a nature to take care of others

24. Very talented in writing

25. Golden retriever-coded men enjoyer

26. Si paling WOA

27. Very fun to be around

28. The fact that he is my private snuggler

29. His cuddles

30. ..........His lips too

31. Soft-hearted

32. Kalo salting juga langsung nyebut nama lengkap

33. Cimit overall, I adore

34. He invented the word ayayu and the cimit language

35. Tetep laporan chatku bakal dibales entar even though I knew he had a tiring or exhausting day

36. The fact that he always finds a way to make me proud

37. The fact that he is alive and existing also brings me so much happiness

38. He gives very good advice

39. He knows how to make me feel all listened and heard <3

40. His personality.. He is just precious overall

41. The fact that his comfort food is telor ceplok, with butter

42. Katanya matcha kayak rumput

43. Hates being spoiled (boong dia aslinya suka, cuman malu)

44. His exercises! (Basic stretching, still counts)

45. Udah mulai rajin minum vitamin, yay

46. He's an HSR player

47. Suka samyang carbonara

48. The fact that he uses AO3 as one of his coping mechanisms

49. Kadang galak (he's full of love and affection)

50. I adore him through his ups and downs

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Hi! Welcome to a less than 10 minutes read blog.

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You're simply my comfort place.

I'm tired, can't think of a thing, and my sole wish is to lay my head in your lap, feel your hand on my head, and stay that way through all eternity—

Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena

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Silvery cascade, sparks in the corner of your eyes.

For the quiet part, I've taken myself for.

In the quiet, unsealed corner,

I found myself drawn to you.

I am not really religious,

but, I've been praying for the gods

so that my days will always start with you,

and end with you.

I yearn, and it's indescribable,

if it's too fast, let times unfold

themselves.

My devotions have grown steadily.

One couldn't bother the silent adoration anymore,

there is a sanctuary part of me.

The reason has been the first time

I figured and learned, it's an endless wave.

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I'll let you alone interpret this blog. Considered it as whatever you wanted, but solely my purpose is just to make appreciation letters and posts for you. And yes, this is why I asked if you used Tumblr, earlier.

Bla, bla, bla, Lexi is so cliche.

The first encounter was a mere 'meeting'. And so on, but I couldn't help to bathe myself in your presence. Times flew me, and has this been a month? I lost track honestly. Somehow days have been going slower. Not anyone's fault, I enjoy taking my sweet time and just going slow.

But truly, and every time we talked and so on. There is always something about you that manages to fascinate me. Whether, is your nature that makes me feel like I am listened to, or the homely atmosphere whenever you talk and blabber, or something else, I find you, exceptional.

Whenever, wherever, you are washed-out, alone, and other unkind dreads. I will be there for you. It would be amazing if I could be the one you turn into, for the longest possible. You convince me every time, making me more sure each time; to simply devotee myself in taking care of you.

Life, I know how it can get so unforeseen. The road is still long and none of us can see what's coming. I know how hard it is to trust someone, I know how difficult it is to trust yourself-perhaps in this field.

Time bomb, stormy sea, and name them. In the darkest time, I'll manage to stick still. I hope one day you can feel how sincere and deeply I care for you. Fragile, tender, and so on, I'll hold you gently like a trophy. Perhaps, there is nothing permanent for a troubled mind, but I'll find it to become more bearable. Perhaps, being with me, won't make it frankly better or brighter. But I won't let you fight your fights alone.

Any kind of struggle arises, I'll be there to simply carry your weight, the shoulders you can turn to, a pair of ears to hear you. You will be heard and adored daily. I truly adore and appreciate every little part of you, and I am sure that there will be much more to be revealed.

Try not to hide. Let yourself be flown around freely. You are allowed to be you, to take your time for yourself. I am not going anywhere. I'll figure out you sooner or later, and you will meet the true me hand in hand. I will find a way to make you more loveable than now, than yesterday. No matter how ugly it can get in the future, there is beauty in your presence, always. I adore you.

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<3

— Franz Kafka, from Letters to Felice (via lunamonchtuna)